Beforeword
Feel free to throw rocks at me. This is long overdue. I'm sorry it's so short, but the upcoming chapters will be much longer/better, I promise.
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Chapter 25: Dear Journal
December 31st, 2002
It's New Year's Eve.
It's been a really long time since I've written anything in here...to be honest, between everything that's been going on, I kinda forgot I had this thing. It's kinda weird, because these past couple of months, I really needed somebody that I could tell absolutely everything to, and this journal is the only one I can trust with that.
I went to court the other day, for Isabella's case. It was really uncomfortable...I never realized what a damaged, disturbed person Robbie is. It's actually really, really sad, and I feel terrible-for everyone involved. He was tried as an adult and even pleaded guilty, to my surprise. But to all of our relief, he's been put away. Finally.
Isabella's devastated. She didn't talk to me or Helga after the trial, but she did hug Lila...I think that was all she wanted all along, for Lila to have gotten justice, but the way she did it...I don't think she realized at the time what it would do to her. I wish I knew everything she was feeling. Embarrassment, shame. Guilt. It really is my fault that this happened...if I didn't tell Helga to spy on them, if I didn't tell her to call the cops, maybe none of this would've happened...but it's too late to be thinking about that now. Lila told me that Izzy's going to move in with her Aunt Liz in the south and go to therapy after New Year's. I wonder if Izzy will tell me about that herself, but I'm not counting on it.
Lila's doing okay, on the other hand. Better, now that Robbie's gone. I feel really bad though, because the couple that was going to adopt her baby bailed out. William and Richard got into this fight about one of their new job offers and split up right before Christmas. Richard was still gonna take the baby, but Lila doesn't want to leave it to a single parent, so they canceled the deal. It's really, really sad-because given her situation, it'll be hard to find a couple that'll adopt. I keep praying for her though...fifteen is too young to be raising a child-and the pregnancy wasn't her fault at all. I just hope someone will want the baby. It's gonna be a boy-Lila told me on the way home from court. If she doesn't find a couple to take him, I wonder if she'll keep him? I didn't ask...she had to answer enough uncomfortable questions that day.
Nothing's been going on since the court date. I've barely left the boarding house the past couple of days. I've been so exhausted by everything that's happened; I actually slept for twenty hours yesterday. Good thing, since I'll be awake all night tonight...Rhonda's having a New Year's party, and I need a pick-me-up, so I'm gonna go with Helga. She actually convinced me to go-she's really glad this whole Robbie ordeal's over, so she jumped at the first chance to celebrate.
I should really be more excited. I need a good night with friends...