Christina-
I watched my brothers drive off with my kids. They promised me they would have fun and be safe. They were going to be surrounded by their cousins and aunts and uncles. Jon and Sarah went to her place, giving Joe and I space. Cora and Colby went with my brothers. Joe was in our room, shirtless. The lights were dimmed and his jeans were unbuttoned.
"Oh um, what are you doing?", I asked.
"Shit", he said.
He looked around and grabbed his shirt, putting it back on.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you think that we", he stopped me.
"No, it's okay, it was me I shouldn't have thought that", he said.
He walked passed me and I stood there feeling so aweful. I wasn't afraid to be with him, I've actually thought about it, over and over again. When I lay my head on his chest, I want to just crawl on top of him. I'm nervous, the last time I remember being with him, we were teenagers. We are different, our bodies are different. What if he didn't like what he saw and never touched me again? Now I felt stupid, we're married and he's seen me naked plenty of times, times I don't remember. I groaned. I walked downstairs and Joe was sitting on the couch. He didn't look angry, he looked frustrated. I went and sat beside him.
"Joe", I said softly.
He looked at me. How do I tell him I want him to make love to me? That I want him just as much as he wants me? I'm nervous Joe, help me get over my nerves. He looked away and stood.
"I'm gonna go to the gym for a bit", he said.
"Oh", I said.
"Chris, it's okay, we're okay", he said.
I nodded. He went over to the closet and pulled out his gym bag.
"I won't be long, I just need to, get my mind off things", he said.
"I understand", I said, looking down at my hands.
He came over to me and placed a finger under my chin, he lifted my head so our eyes could meet.
"I'm not going to force you. I want you to be ready and I can wait as long as you need. I love you, I won't be long okay. Want me to pick up a pizza for us?", he said smiling.
"Pizza sounds good", I said.
He smiled and leaned down, he paused.
"You don't always have to ask, just kiss me Joe", I whispered.
He nodded and pressed his lips to mine.
"I'll be back in a few baby girl", he said.
I watched him walk out. I sighed. I locked the front door and laid on the couch. Falling asleep.
I had found the hidden bills we needed to pay. Joe had kept them from me and now we weren't talking. He was sitting in the living room pouting, growling, and grumbling. I was in the kitchen trying to read this book. I've been on the same page for the past hour. I could hear Joe muttering things and it annoyed me. Jon walked into the kitchen, hands on his hips.
"Would you two just get over it and talk. Do all that lovey dovey stuff that grosses me out", he said.
"Stay out of it", Joe and I both yelled.
"Hey, see that, you both agreed on something", Jon said.
I rolled my eyes.
"You know what, I'm taking Ella and the twins to your mom's house and I'm going to stay with Colby tonight", Jon said to Joe.
I said bye to the kids and they drove off. I slammed the front door knowing it would bug Joe. He growled, but didn't look at me. I smirked. I walked back into the kitchen and took out pots and slamming them down on the counter, then I would slam the cabinet doors.
"Christina, you better stop it", he growled.
I opened a cabinet and then slammed it. I heard heavy foot steps coming towards the kitchen and I crossed my arms over my chest. He was pissed, but I didn't care.
"I told you to stop", he yelled.
"Does it look like I care", I yelled back.
"Chris, I swear", he pointed his finger at me.
"What, what are you going to do?", I asked.
He pointed at me and he was going to say something, but he growled instead and turned away from me.
"I have a right to be mad, you don't. I didn't hide past due bills from you", I said.
"I was going to take care of them, I had things under control", he said loud.
"Joe, I am your wife. I should know about things like this, it's our responsibility to get our family out of situations like this, together Joe", I said angry.
"I am the man of the house, I am the provider and it's up to me to get us out of these problems", he yelled.
"Don't give me the whole I'm a lion this is my pride crap", I said.
"Christina", he growled.
"Do you not see me as your equal? Am I not your wife?", I asked.
"Of course you're my equal. I've never seen you as anything less", he said.
"Then don't hide things from me. Treat me like your equal and talk to me, let me help. We can do this together, it won't kill you", I said.
He sighed.
"How do you see me?", he asked.
"Right now, a jackass", I said.
"Why?", he asked.
"Because you're acting like my job doesn't count. I work to help our family, there is a reason we have a second paycheck coming in, to pay bills like that. It doesn't make you less of a man if I pay those bills", I said.
"So if I let you pay those bills?", he asked.
"Then I'll see you as my equal. I won't see you as anything less but my equal, my better half, and my soul mate", I said.
He looked down at the counter.
"I never meant to make you feel like anything less. You are my equal babe", he said.
"It's okay, besides you getting all angry and hot really turned me on", I said, biting my lip.
He smirked and licked his lips.
"To be honest, the only place I will allow you to dominate me is in the bedroom. That is where you have the most power baby", I said.
He cupped himself.
"Shirt off", he demanded.
I smiled and took my shirt off. I lowered my shorts, he growled.
"Here in the kitchen?", I asked.
He nodded, his eyes full of lust. He came over to me and lifted me up and sat me on the counter. His kiss was rough and full of force and dominance. His hands gripped my thighs hard. I lifted his shirt off of him and he quickly connected our lips again.
"Joe", I moaned.
He lowered his shorts and briefs. I grabbed his length and started stroking him, he panted in my ear.
"That's my girl", he said.
His hands ripped off my panties and he took off my bra.
"You can scream as loud as you want, empty house", he said, kissing my shoulder.
He lifted me and laid me on our pile of clothes on the floor. He pressed his body into mine, my hands sliding up his sides. He smiled.
"What?", I asked.
"You're just so beautiful. No matter how many times I look at you, you still take my breath away", he said.
"That's so sweet baby", I smiled.
He leaned down and kissed me.
"I love you, even if your muscles start getting all flabby", I laughed.
He laughed.
"I love you too", he said.
He lowered himself, his face between my legs. He placed his hands on my knees and pulled my legs apart. He kissed from my knee to my thigh and then switched legs, I bit my lip. His hands slid down to my hips and he held me in place. I felt his warm breath and I bit my lip harder, I could taste a bit of blood.
"Joe", I screamed feeling his tongue, taking my train of thought away from my bleeding lip.
He growled, the vibration making me moan. I tugged gently at his hair. He put his hands on my thighs and held my legs open and from me squishing his head.
"Anoa'i that feels so fu", I couldn't even finish my sentence, it felt too good.
He sat back on his knees and smiled. He licked his lips.
"Why'd you stop", I panted.
"I think you're wet enough baby girl. You're more then ready for me", he said, stroking himself.
"Let me guess, you want me to return the favor?", I asked.
He shook his head no.
"Not unless you want too, either way I'm ready to go", he said.
"Mind standing for me?", I asked.
"You don't have too", he said.
"Yes I do, you're my man. You take care of us and it's only right that I take care of you", I said.
He licked his lips and then raised a thumb to my lip.
"You're bleeding", he said.
"Thanks to you", I said.
He smirked and kissed me, he let his tongue swipe my bottom lip.
"Stand", I whispered.
He stood and leaned back against the counter. I stroked him a few times before slowly bringing him into my mouth, he watched me and groaned. His hand buried in my hair.
"Nice and slow baby", he whispered.
I stood up fast, trying to catch my breath. I brushed my hair back.
"You okay?", I jumped at the sound of Jon's voice.
I turned and he was leaning against the back of the couch watching me.
"Were you watching me sleep?", I asked.
He shrugged.
"Not at first, but then you were making all kinds of weird sounds and I thought maybe something was wrong so I started watching you. Getting ready to wake you", he said, putting a chip in his mouth.
I stood and I didn't know what to do with myself.
"Were you dreaming?", he asked.
I shrugged.
"What was it about?", he asked.
"Nothing", I said quickly.
He chuckled and started towards the kitchen.
"If you asked me I would say you were having a", he stopped and turned to look at me, smirk on his face.
"Don't say it", I warned.
"You were having a sex dream, spill, was it good?", he asked.
"I didn't know you were half woman", I said.
"Hey, it's a sex dream. I know sex, I have sex, spill", he said.
"It was about Joe", I said.
"I'm out", he said.
"I though you wanted to know?", I asked.
"Yeah, but I thought maybe it was like some girl on girl action", he said.
I slapped the back of his head and he laughed.
"So it was about Joe huh?", he asked.
"Yeah, but it didn't feel like a dream it felt, real. We were arguing about bills and we were in the kitchen", I said.
He stood up straight and smiled.
"What?", I asked.
"It wasn't a dream Chris", he said.
Before I could ask what he was talking about, the front door opened and then closed. I could smell pizza.
"Can I tell him, let me tell him", Jon said.