"What's for dinner?" I ask, touching Kelly's cheek lightly as I walk past. Kelly shrugs nonchalantly.

"Whatever you can find."

"Oh, c'mon…"

"C'mon what?"

"Don't be like that…"

"Be like what?"

"Kellyyyyyyyy…" I mumble, yanking lightly on his hair. He sighs, following me as I pull. I laugh at his discomfort.

"Dude. Release."

"Be fun!" I say, tapping his face with the back of my hand. He grabs my hand quickly, smirking before pushing against me and slamming me into a wall. I laugh, flexing my fingers in his hand. He loosens his grip but still holds firm. He takes my other hand and places it on his neck, putting his own hand on my waist. He pulls me away from the wall, dancing with me.

"I'm more into romance rather than fun," he says, touching his forehead to mine. I chuckle lightly.

"How sweet."

"Isn't it, though?"

"You make me very happy, Kelly."

"Do I?" he asks honestly, stopping our dancing. I look him in the eyes, being his exact height, and kiss him gently.

"Yes, you do, and don't you dare think otherwise. I'm so glad I met you…" Kelly looks down, his face reddening.

"Whatever…"

"I'm serious, baby!"

"I know, I know… Hard to believe we met because I squealed at a poster of an Abercrombie guy…" I laugh.

"You're such a loser."

"Yeah, but I'm your loser."

"Unfortunately…"

"Hey!" he shouts. I laugh again, holding him close.

"Hey there," I whisper, kissing him again. He groans into the kiss, giving in completely. I smirk into the kiss, pulling him along until we reach my bedroom. He quickly pulls my shirt over my head while I unthinkingly unbutton his. He kisses along my neck gently, sucking and biting along the way. I close my eyes and smile, breathing slowly and quietly.

"Casey…" he whispers against my heated skin. I just moan lightly. He whispers again. "Casey…"

"Hm?"

"Can we?"

'M hm…" I mumble, again, unthinkingly. Kelly pushes against my chest, pushing me backwards until I fall against the bed. He climbs on top of me, still kissing along my neck. He rotates and moves his pelvis in different directions, hardening against me. I moan a bit louder, trying to keep my breathing low.

"You have something?" he asks. I keep my eyes closed, an image filling every space in my mind. I see Dominic's eyes, smoldering into my heart, his frigid body lying on top of mine. I feel his frozen lips crushed against mine, his hands trailing aimlessly. I whisper aloud without thinking.

"Nicky…"

"Nicky?" Kelly questions, stilling. My eyes snap open, seeing Kelly on top of me, his expression confused and hurt.

"Uh… Sorry… I mean—"

"Save it," Kelly says sternly, climbing off of me. He grabs his shirt and leaves my room, entering his own and slamming the door shut behind him. I sigh, wiping my eyes with my fists and staring at the ceiling.

"Ughhhhhh," I groan. I eventually fall asleep, not waking up until 11:30 that night. After a couple minutes of staring at the ceiling blankly, I finally come out of my room and go to the kitchen, scrounging in the fridge for anything. Something bright red catches my eye.

I look over, seeing a fresh red rose laid perfectly in the middle shelf of the fridge. I pick it up, pushing it onto my nose and smiling slightly. I take a deep breath, stroking the flower gingerly as I close the fridge and walk to Kelly's room quietly. I turn the doorknob slowly and walk into the room warily.

"Kelly…?" I ask quietly.

"Hm?" he questions flatly. I sigh soundlessly.

"What is this?"

"What is what?"

"The rose."

"Oh…"

"What's it about?"

"It was for our anniversary tomorrow…" he mumbles. I look to his clock, seeing that it's now 12:03.

"Well, it's today, now…" I whisper, walking over to his bed and sitting on the edge. He smiles slightly, touching the rose carefully.

"Three months…" he mumbles. I smile, setting the rose on his bedside table and touching underneath his chin. He raises a brow, ready to resist any kind of seduction I throw his way.

"I'm sorry for what I did earlier, baby…" I whisper in the sexiest voice I can manage, with what I think a seductive expression is. "But… Happy anniversary…" I lean downward, pressing my lips against his gently. He whimpers but gives in, touching my chest.

"Casey…" he whispers. I moan lightly against his chest, kissing downward past his abdomen and around his pelvis. I unbutton his pants, thinking that I'll finally break our boundaries. Kelly sighs, watching the ceiling.

"What?" I ask. He shrugs. "Tell me!"

"You know you won't do it," he says sternly, looking at me with a blank expression. I close my eyes and sigh, knowing he's absolutely right.

"I'm so sorry, Kelly…"

"I know that you're still hung up on this Dominic dude, but can you please, at least, try to get over him?"

"Kelly, it isn't that simple."

"Obviously."

"I'm serious."

"I know."

"Please just drop it."

"Okay."

I sigh before reaching back upward to kiss his forehead. He grabs onto my face and pulls me in for a long kiss that doesn't end until we can barely breathe. I smile gently, taking my rose and walking out of the room silently. I walk back to my room and lay on the bed again, watching the ceiling.

'Why can't I fucking forget him?!' I think. I smack myself in the face. 'He's out of my life, and even then, he's still ruining it… Maybe I'm just using him as a cover… Maybe I actually love Kelly… Maybe I'm too blinded to notice that I'm in love with this incredible boy that is mine…

'Do I love him?'

I hear a knock on my bedroom door as Kelly steps in warily.

"Hey baby," he whispers, closing the door behind him. I begin to prop myself up, but he pushes me gently back down onto the bed.

"What's up?" I ask, touching his hand. He smiles, pushing on my side. I scoot over as he begins to fit himself into my bed in front of me. I wrap my arm around his waist, pulling him close. I kiss his neck, taking in his wonderful scent. He backs into me, pushing against my pelvis. It creates a wonderful pressure in my pants. I whimper unthinkingly, making Kelly laugh.

"Excited?" he asks, laughing quietly.

"A little…" I whisper, swallowing the lump I feel rising in my throat. I close my eyes and try to imagine Dominic in my arms, his frigid body sizzling against mine, but I can't, because Kelly has a regular temperature. Nothing is like a touch from Dominic… Nothing courses through my veins quite like the electricity of his kiss… Nothing is comparable to waking up and seeing his flawless face smiling and kissing me. Nothing…

I squeeze Kelly tighter, still trying to imagine him as Dominic, but the attempt falters when he says 'ow'. Dominic wouldn't have even come close to being hurt by such a squeeze. I could be as rough as I wanted to be with Dominic, and it would still have felt like a feather-light touch to him. With Kelly, I have to be three times as careful… It sucked.

I trail my fingers along Kelly's skin, making him shiver. He backs up against me again, making me lust to be touched in a way that I've needed for three months. I mentally kick myself for doing what I start to do, but I need it, and badly… I sigh lightly.

I make no hesitation in sliding my hand down Kelly's stomach, into his pants, and around his member. He gasps, not prepared for such a movement. I keep my breathing steady as I work on him, making him back against me harder. I squeeze my eyes shut, thinking of Dominic, and a tear falling down my cheek.

I twist Kelly onto his back kissing him heavily. He smiles into my ravaging kiss, touching along my body. I roll off of him and onto my back, letting him climb on top of me. He rips our clothing off, readying me slowly. I kiss him harshly, roughly, not bearing to wait and be gentle. I NEED this.

"Kelly, don't be slow!" I whisper loudly. He speeds up as much as he can, still not fast enough. I kiss him hard, making him whimper in pain. I hate having to be gentle with him.

"Case… Calm down…"

"Don't tell me to fucking calm down," I say lowly, tears streaking my face. I kiss Kelly harder than ever as he begins intrusion into my body. He breaks off the kiss, pushing into me how he thinks is hard but to me is a perfect pace. I moan lightly, still not satisfied. I am forced to be on bottom, because I know that if I'm on top, I'll probably break one of Kelly's vital body parts.

As Kelly attempts to pleasure me, I keep my eyes closed, all the while thinking of Dominic. I try to imagine Dominic's beautiful body meshing with mine, instead, but I can't, because I've already forgotten what he feels like. Trying to act satisfied is petty and difficult, but I guess I manage to do it.

It doesn't take long before Kelly is already panting hard, trying to hold back his own screams. I feel no emotion whatsoever, barely feeling him, barely feeling anything. I feel nothing at all. Completely barren. Kelly releases himself inside of me, and I moan loudly, fakely. He kisses me gently before pulling away and lying limply beside me.

"Can we wait until we wake up again to clean up?" he asks. I nod slowly, finally opening my eyes. Kelly snuggles up to me, finally satisfied. "Happy anniversary…" he mumbles before falling asleep. I don't say anything at all…