A/N: Thank you again to all the readers following my story.
To the guest reviewer asking me about the R8: You should do what makes you happy and if you wanted to write about the R8 previously, I think you should go ahead and still do it.
To the various frequent reviewers, thank you very much, it is greatly appreciated.
Important: I do not own Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters. They belong to the very talented E.L. James.
Ana POV:
The sun is shining through the window when I wake up and a glance and the clock tells me that I forgot to set the alarm and we will be running late if we don't get up soon. I jump out of bed and after a quick shower, I tried to get dressed quickly, but my clothes seems to be shrinking by the end of every week these days and finding something that looks great and feel comfortable, is proving to be an impossible task so I will have to go shopping for clothes…again.
I tip toe out of the room and close the door softly behind me, leaving Christian to sleep while I prepare his breakfast. As I walk into the kitchen I almost have a heart attack when I find a tired, anxious and nervous Sawyer sitting at the breakfast bar.
"Luke, you scared me half to death. What are you doing here this early on your day off?" He turns slowly to look at me and oh shit…did he and Mia have a fight? I can hear Christian already shouting 'I told you so'.
"I've been waiting for you." O-kaaayyy…
"Something wrong?" I go to the fridge and start to take out the items I need, placing then on the breakfast bar to talk to Sawyer while preparing breakfast.
"Ana, when do you know it's time?" It's way too early for talking in riddles, but I try to muster as much patience as I can before I look him in his eyes.
"Time for what Luke? Did you and Mia have a fight?"
"Oh God no, it's nothing like that. It's just…Ana, Mia is it for me you know? I have been in love with her for years, which is why I've never really dated. She is funny and loving and beautiful and…I love her Ana. Really, really love her." Now I know where this is going.
"Luke, you want to ask her to marry you?"
"Yes! More than anything and I know she loves me. We are just so good together. I'm scared though. What if people think this is too soon? We have only been dating for almost two months and…Ana…Christian…how the hell do I tell Christian Grey that I want to marry his sister?"
"Luke, Christian will be…"
"Pissed!" Luke almost falls of his chair and my head snaps up to see Christian standing at the kitchen door…oh shit!
"Christian, Luke was just telling me…"
"I heard, thank you Ana." He walks over to stand next to the breakfast bar glaring at poor Luke and I really feel sorry for him having to deal with a pissed Fifty this early in the morning on an empty stomach.
"Mr. Grey…" Luke starts to stand up and Christian puts up his hand.
"Sit down Luke." I go to the coffee machine and pour each of them a cup of coffee to try and get Christian to calm down a bit. As I hand Christian his coffee, he turns to wink at me and I try not to smile while handing Luke his coffee.
"So, you want to marry my sister?" Luke looks at me before looking back at Christian.
"Yes Sir."
"You love her?"
"More than anything." Nice answer Luke.
"And you thought that I will be…what?" Christian takes a sip of his coffee and I see him smile into his cup to hide it from Luke.
"Upset?" Luke is so nervous right now that it comes out as a question and not an answer adding to my devious husband's amusement.
"Why?"
"Why would you be upset? Because I'm a bodyguard and might not be good enough for her." Shame, I can imagine that having Christian and Elliot Grey as brothers in law can be very intimidating at least.
"Luke, you are a private security officer, not a bodyguard, and a very well paid one. Why on earth would you think that I would think you are not good enough for my sister? Until a couple of weeks ago she was still unemployed, at twenty one. You are very good at your job, earn a good living, know how to work with money, you're loyal, trustworthy and you love her more than anything. All I want is for her to be happy and you make her happy. Shit Luke, you know me better than some of my family and you know that when I met Ana I was definitely not good enough for her, but I didn't let that stand in my way." Christian takes his last sip to let his words sink in before putting his cup on the counter to look at Luke. "What I actually meant Luke is why do you care what I think? Or what anyone else would think for that matter? I asked Ana to marry me barely after we have been dating for a month, damn, I all but begged her to marry me." He looks to me and I smile at how much he has grown up in the last year. A year ago my Fifty would not sit here discussing this over a cup of coffee.
"So you're saying..."
"When are you asking my sister to marry you?" Luke's face lights up like a Christmas tree.
"Soon, I already have the ring." He takes out the Tiffany's box and opens it to reveal a beautiful engagement ring. It is a platinum ring with a brilliant white diamond of about two carats framed by three pink diamonds on either side set in rose gold. It must have cost him a fortune and Mia will love it.
Christian takes the ring and after looking at it closely he looks back to Luke.
"Luke, all I can say is…welcome to the family." Christian gets up and shakes Luke's hand while I get the perfect idea.
"Christian, while I'm making breakfast, please can you get dressed? You should dress in something comfortable and we will be leaving at ten." He turns to me with a frown.
"And where are we going? I did not know we had plans for this morning?"
"It's a surprise and don't even try, I won't tell you." With a quick kiss on the cheek, he waves buy to Luke and head to the bedroom. "Luke, you should get dressed as well, but before you go, I think I have a plan." We discuss my plan for a couple of minutes and just as breakfast is ready, Christian comes back looking like a runway model…not fair.
"Baby, I'm really proud of you. You handled the thing with Luke exceptionally well." I kiss him on the head while putting his food in front of him and he turns to pull me between his legs.
"I did so well and my reward is a chaste kiss on the head? You're reward system is very flawed Mrs. Grey, not really a good incentive for continued exceptional behaviour."
"My apologies Mr. Grey, let me fix that." I put my hand behind his neck and pull him closer to kiss him breathless for once and smile to myself as I pull away, "Better?"
"Much better." We discuss Luke's living situation over breakfast and we both agree that the cottage is not suitable for a married couple so Christian's plan is to have Reynolds move in there, as he will be assigned to the baby, and build a new house for Luke and Mia as soon as possible in order to be ready by the time they tie the knot.
We leave the house a bit earlier than planned and I give Taylor the directions again. He will be driving in front with Gail and we will follow in Christian's R8. Luke left earlier to pick up Mia and Grace and Carrick will also drive with them. Kate and Elliot will meet us there.
Christian stops the car next between Taylor and Sawyer, who was already there when we arrived and turns to look at me.
"You're kidding right?"
We are in front of the Family Fun Centre in Tukwila and everyone is already standing at the entrance waiting for us to get out of the car.
"Christian, this will be fun. Please, do this for me?" He smiles and kisses my hand before getting out of the car and walking around to open my door. I kiss him below the ear and whisper softly in his ear, "You will love it and I expect a thank you later."
We walk hand to hand to the family and as we reach them, Kate and Elliot stop and from the look we have through the windscreen, this is another bad day and Christian rolls his eyes. "I saw that Mr. Grey."
"Ana, at moments like this, I realise how lucky I am to have you as a pregnant wife." He pulls me under his arm with his arm over my shoulder, "I love you."
"And I love you, but be nice, she is going through a rough time." Total overreaction on her part, but still…she is my friend and needs our support.
Once inside, the park management all but run towards us the minute we approach the reception desk.
"Mrs. Grey and guests, welcome to The Family Fun Centre."
"Mr. Devaroux, this is my husband, Christian Grey." Christian shakes hand with the nervous park manager, "Has everything been arranged?"
"Yes, Mrs. Grey. The park has been closed off until three o'clock, when it will be opened to the public again and the restaurant will be closed from three for the rest of the day."
"Thank you. We will start with the first event then."
We get to the putt putt area and now it is Kate and Mia that don't look too happy as I explain how this will work.
"Okay, we will team up with our partners and the best score between husband and wife, or boyfriend and girlfriend, will be written down as the score for the team. At the end, the best couple wins a weekend to Aspen all expenses paid." Christian and Elliot as always have to start with the competition before the first person even approach the first hole and Kate looks at me like I'm crazy.
"You want me, who has never played before, to play with Elliot…Mr. Competitive?"
"Yes Kate, I want you to play with Elliot…your husband." Seriously, this is putt putt, how difficult can it be?
We get to the first hole and as the guest of honour, Christian gets to go first and he sinks the ball in one stroke, just like Carrick, Luke and Jason. Elliot on the other hand hits the ball too softly and the ball stops just before the hole. With a curse he walks to the ball and tips it in. I had to hit the ball three times before getting it in the hole, the same as Grace and then it is Mia's turn. Luke coaches her for a couple of seconds before she puts the ball in the hole with four strokes. She takes the ball out of the hole and walks to Luke with an adorable pout.
"That was good babe, don't worry." She stands next to him with his arm around her waist and we wait for Kate to finish this hole.
She takes the putter and goes to stand in the spot looking very awkward. Elliot walks to her and tries to tell her how to putt and she is not having him instructing her.
"Elliot, just let me do this myself please."
After four tries as well, she puts the ball in the hole and after Gail, who finish in three tries, we move to the next hole. At the sixth hole, Christian and I are in the lead, mostly thanks to Christian, and Elliot and Kate is behind us with one point, also thanks to Elliot. Luke and Mia are in third place and he is so patient and loving towards her that I feel sorry for Elliot with grumpy Kate. In fourth place is Taylor and Gail with Carrick and Grace in the last place. It is a close competition and every team is just one shot behind.
This hole is very difficult and both Elliot and Christian take four shots to get the ball in the hole while Luke and Garrick both use three shots and Taylor is in the lead at this hole with sinking the ball with only two shots. I gave up after six shots, laughing hysterically at my inability to get the ball in. Mia and Grace get it in after five shots and Gail actually finish on her sixth try. Kate stands at the front of the hole again and Elliot tries to tell her which way to hit the ball to get it in easily.
"Seriously Elliot, stop telling me how to play." She hits the ball like a golfer on a golf course and looking at the trajectory I close my eyes and sure enough, less than a second later I hear Elliot scream.
"Ouchhhh! Fuuuuuuck! Kaaaaate!" I open my eyes to look at a horrified Kate staring at her husband on his knees with his hands on his crowned jewels.
"Fuck Kate, if you didn't want more children you could've just fucking said so." He falls to his side while moaning, "Shit, this hurts like hell. I think I'm dying, no scratch that, I wish I was dying. This is too much pain for one soldier and two canons to handle." Elliot is rocking from side to side with knees bend and hands on his one man army.
"Baby, I'm so sorry. I really didn't mean to hit you with the ball." Kate falls to her knees next to her husband and stokes his hair, "Are you okay?"
"Kate, you hit me with a fucking golf ball in the nuts…so…NO!...I'm not okay. I'm in pain."
The men all look like they are feeling his pain by their pained faces while staring at Elliot on the ground and Grace walks over to Elliot with her hand over her mouth.
"Honey, maybe you should not be grabbing…you know…it…and adding to the pressure." Elliot glares at her but doesn't move his hands.
"Mom, you have no idea of the kind of pain I'm in so believe me when I tell you that this is helping. She tried to kill my little man." Christian tries not to laugh and walks closer to Elliot with his hand stretched out to help him up.
"Come on Elliot, I'm sure your little man will be just fine." That did not put a smile on Elliot's face, but as soon as he is up, he pulls a now crying Kate to him.
"Don't worry baby, I'm fine." Kate crying is not something anyone gets to see that often so I'm shocked that something like this can turn on the waterworks.
"Elliot, I'm so sorry…I really didn't mean it. Can I get you anything?"
"Not at this moment, but you should mentally prepare yourself as you will be apologizing to him tonight…several times…deep throat…with tongue and teeth." Too much information, way too much information and luckily Grace is far enough to have missed that last comment.
The rest of the game went without any other incidents and everyone was laughing and having a great time. Taylor and Gail came back with vengeance and won the game with one point with Christian and I in second place, Elliot and Kate in third, Luke and Mia in fourth and Carrick and Grace in fifth place. I'm glad Taylor and Gail won, they deserve a vacation and I think I should talk to Christian and make it a week and not just a weekend.
After putt putt, we spent half an hour on the bumper cars before the men all decided to go on the Screamin' Swing. It is a swing that is 70' tall with a negative 4G's of force and you soar through the air at 65 miles an hour. Definitely not for pregnant women and Grace decides to keep us company while Gail and Mia stands in the queue behind the men to go as well.
Christian comes back looking like a kid in a candy store.
"Fuck baby, that was awesome! Thank you." He picks me up and spins me around while kissing me softly.
"It's my pleasure."
Mia and Gail comes back holding onto each other, not nearly looking anything like the men did when they came back. Mia is white as a ghost and Gail looks like she is about to through up.
"Mia, Gail, how was it?" I can see how it was but I'm still curious.
"Horrible. Just horrible." Says Mia and Gail nod her head in agreement. Luke goes to Mia and takes her in his arms while rubbing her back.
"Babe, I told you that you should probably not go on. Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, but I will never go on that thing again if my life depended on it. How can you guys get a thrill out of that?" She points to the swing, trying to make sense out of their reaction.
"It's a man's thing."
I turn around and Christian, Elliot and Jason are no longer behind us and I look to Grace for answers.
"Men..." She points toward the swing and sure enough the boys are lining up again to go on.
We avoid the bumper boats as this group will certainly get soaking wet and we don't have extra clothes with us. Instead we spent the rest of the afternoon playing Laser X-treme and everyone had a blast with this as well. The music, fog and strobe lights made it really interesting.
After a very successful and fun day, we make our way to the restaurant and at the door we are showed to the dressing rooms where our outfits for the evening were laid out already. The men's are to the right of the restaurant and the ladies to the left. The theme is baseball and every guest gets a baseball outfit, complete with socks, shoes and a cap and on the back it says Happy 29th Christian in black letters. Everyone looks great and even pregnant, Kate and myself don't look bad either. As I walk out of the dressing room the manager comes over to tell me that the rest of the guests have arrived and they are all in the restaurant already with their outfits on as well.
We walk back to the entrance of the restaurant where Christian is waiting for me with his legs crossed his one shoulder against the door frame looking smoking hot.
"Mrs. Grey, have I told you recently that you are the most amazing wife ever and I love you so much?"
"Every day baby and I love you too." He pulls me closer and we walk into the restaurant where everyone gets up and starts to sing happy birthday. Mia brings out the birthday cake with twenty nine candles and stops the trolley in front of Christian who is speechless. Miracles never seize to happen. Who would have ever thought that Christian Grey will ever be speechless?
Christian blows out the candles then kiss me without reservation in front of all our friends, colleagues and family. "Thank you baby, this is very special."
"Happy early birthday Christian." We walked around the room greeting the guests who included Ros, Andrea, Ray, my mother, Reynolds, Hanna, Roach, the entire senior management team and everyone's partners. We get to the last guest and Christian smiles, clearly happy to see that he was included.
"John, it's so nice to see you." Christian gives him a man hug and pats him on the back before greeting his wife with a kiss on the cheek.
"Christian, Ana, nice to see you as well. I hope you have been doing well and congratulations on the baby."
"Thank you John and thank you to you both for coming." I shake their hands and move to stand next to Christian again.
The night was spent dancing, laughing and having a great time with our friends and family and just before the first guests starts to leave, Luke gets on the stage with a mic in his hands and I get tears in my eyes already.
"Mia Grey, I've been in love you with and terrified of your brother in equal proportions since the first time I saw you with your radiant smile, soft eyes and caring and vibrant personality. You are it for me babe and I love you with all my heart." Mia walks closer to Luke and Elliot comes to stand next to me and Christian with Kate in his arms.
"Please tell me this is not happening. That Sawyer is not about to propose to our baby sister who is way too young to get married." Christian surprises all of us when he hits Elliot on the arm.
"Shut up Elliot, you're ruining the moment." Elliot looks at Christian…astounded.
"You knew? You knew about this?"
"And saw the ring so please will you keep quiet."
"Mia, please do me the extraordinary honour and become my wife." He takes out the box and opens it to show Mia the beautiful ring and her hand goes to her heart with tears streaming down her face. "Will you marry me Mia?"
"Yes! Yes, of course I will marry you." Mia runs into Luke's arms and Christian turns to Elliot.
"It's a beautiful two carat brilliant white diamond ring in platinum with pink diamonds on either side set in rose gold. Really stunning, you should take a look when you congratulate them." He looks to Elliot while putting his arm around my shoulder.
"Fuck you Christian, this is serious."
"Yes, I would hope they take it seriously. Marriage is a lifetime commitment you know?" Elliot looks to Kate and then back to Christian with barely contained anger and Christian doesn't even flinch at the look he gets from Elliot. "Elliot, she is months younger than our wives like dad said and he loves her. Be happy for her and just accept that she is all grown up and will start a family of her own real soon." Christian pat Elliot on the back and we make our way to the happy couple.
We are driving home with Taylor in front and Sawyer following us since Mia will be staying at the cottage tonight. Christian looks so relaxed and it makes me happy that he enjoyed the day. Tomorrow will be the anniversary of his kidnapping and just thinking about it puts a damper on my mood and Christian picks up on the change immediately.
"Ana, what are you thinking about?" I search my head for a different answer than the absolute truth and he really does know me to well, "without editing the truth." Okay, here it goes.
"I was thinking that you look so relaxed and how happy I am that you enjoyed the day."
"And then you thought of…" He glances at me and I will really never be able to lie to him convincingly.
"That tomorrow will be the anniversary of the crash and kidnapping." I whisper softly while I turn my face away from him in an attempt to stop the tears and he takes my hand in his.
"Ana…" So much emotion is packed in those three letters that I can't hold back anymore and hot tears starts to stream down my cheeks.
We drive in silence for the rest of the way home while Christian trace circles on the back of my hand with his thumb. I'm torn between my uncontrollable sadness, which may be partly due to pregnancy hormones, and the wetness starting to form between my legs but at least the tears have stopped.
Christian leaves the car in front of the front door and gestures for Taylor to park the car before he lifts me out of the car and carries me straight to our bedroom. He places me on the bed before he takes the chair from my dresser and places it in front of the full length mirror in the corner. I watch him with curiosity as I have no idea what he is doing and then he starts to undress right in front of me and really, my husband without clothes will get rid of any emotion but lust and desire. He takes my hand and once I'm on my feet he starts to undress me slowly, making sure to touch every part of my skin with the back of his hand or his fingers while doing it.
Once we are both naked, he leads me to the chair and sit down before placing me on his lap with my back to his chest and my only view is our reflection in the mirror. I sit down and he puts one of my legs over each of his knees before opening his legs and spreading me open. Now a year ago, I would try to cover myself, but at this very moment, this is turning me on big time.
"Look at us baby. Nothing is going to go wrong tomorrow and no one is going to keep us apart again." He puts one hand on my thigh while the other one is rubbing my growing bump. "We are going to be a happy family, raising our child in a loving home with two parents who could not possibly love each other, or their precious baby, more than they already do."
The hand on my thigh goes higher and higher until he is stroking my swollen, wet folds while moving the other hand to squeeze my nipple. I move my head to the side and he trails my neck with his tongue before planting sucking kisses everywhere he can reach. As I start to squirm, he suddenly invades my pleasure zone with two fingers and after pumping slowly into me a couple of times, he adds another one and I stare at the image in the mirror.
The erotic image doesn't look like us at this moment. It looks like a woman who let her lust take over, sitting with spread legs on top of a man while he pumps his fingers, glistening with her arousal, into her while fondling with her breasts and I can see his rock hard erection under her ass. She takes her plump bottom lip between her teeth and the man's eyes darken instantly and the speed of the pumping increases and she starts rubbing her body up and down against him, fucking his hand.
Kate's words just before she left me at the end of the isle come back to me, "To keep a man happy Ana, be a lady in public and a slut in the bedroom." Looking at our image, I think I have that nailed to perfection.
The man removes his fingers and takes it to the woman's' mouth and she opens her mouth to suck his fingers clean of her juices while his eyes are pinned on her mouth. She lifts slightly and he holds his erection up and as she sits down on it, they both moan in ecstasy.
Fuck, this is too much, the feeling of him inside me with the erotic image we are creating lets my modesty drop and I put my hands on his knees and move up and down in long, hard movements. Christians hand grabs my hair and pulls just enough to not be painful and I move faster. Up and down…up and down…I have a full view for the first time of Christian's dick entering me over and over again, covered by my juices and it sends me over the edge. I move one hand to cup his balls and squeeze it gently and I shout his name without reservation when I climax and then feel his seed shooting into me as he shouts out my name and my muscles keeps milking him until there is nothing left. I fall back against his chest, completely sated and all depressing thoughts erased from my mind.
Without saying a word, Christian picks me up and carries me to the shower where we wash each other lovingly and of course being who we are, the washing quickly turns to fucking and the quick shower turns into an hour. Two mind blowing orgasms in the shower later, we fall into bed and I cuddle closer to him with my head on his chest.
"Anastasia, that was the most erotic image I have ever seen. Nothing, and I mean nothing, that I've ever seen before that even comes close." That just makes me happy, glad that it was not only me.
"I love you Christian Grey."
"I love you too baby."
Christian POV:
I sit up in bed and wipe the tears away trying to pull myself together after the most horrifying nightmare I have ever had. After I get back from splashing cold water on my face I get in bed and the sleep just wouldn't come. I toss and turn and even stare at my sleeping wife and nothing seems to calm me down. I have to talk to someone but at three in the morning my options is kind of limited and honestly, I want to discuss this with my wife, not even Flynn will do. I turn to face her again and run my hand up and down her arm. After a couple of times she sleepily opens her eyes and blinks the sleep away before putting a hand on my cheek.
"Christian, are you okay? You look very tense." My entire body is tense to the point where my muscles are starting to ache.
"I'm sorry for waking you baby, but I really need to talk to you. Do you mind?"
"Never baby. What do you want to talk about?" Maybe I should start with the dream and then end with the raising of our baby. I turn on my back and stare at the ceiling, pulling her over until her head is resting on my chest.
"I had this dream…it was horrible…we were working all the time and our little boy was screaming his lungs out every time we walked out of the front door, but we never turned around, we just walked out and left him here…he looked so… abandoned and it broke my heart. I never, ever want my child to feel abandoned. I know what it's like and Ana, there is nothing worse than that feeling of abandonment, of feeling alone in the world. My birth mother didn't love me enough to protect me and my father didn't want me. My entire life I never really thought about it, he just didn't want me and that was it. But now, with the baby on the way, I don't understand it, I just don't understand how he could possibly walk away. I can't even imagine walking away from you and our baby." She is running her hand up and down my stomach to comfort me and I love this feeling. "Thinking about it now, I guess that was the reason why I wanted you to stay home so much. I wanted my baby to have what I didn't have with my birth mother…to feel loved and protected…to be comforted when feeling ill…to feel safe when playing in the house…I know you are nothing like her, but I'm scared that you will get so wrapped up in running Grey Publishing that he will feel some of what I felt." And there it is, the sole reason for me wanting her to stay at home and I sigh in relieve with getting it off my chest.
"Christian, I will never let that happen and I'm sure that if you see things going that way, you will knock some sense into me. That being said, I'm so sorry baby that you had to go through that and honestly, I just thought you wanted me to quit my job so that you can keep me at home where you think I'll be safe. I'm sorry for not considering your feelings of abandonment and neglect. You know that I will never do that to you or our baby. Christian, when you were taken, I was a twenty one year old Lit Major with an internship at a publishing house and when I woke up four weeks later, I was alone with a billion dollar company to run and owned the publishing house I worked for. It was a huge adjustment for me. I didn't know what to do and I was scared out of my mind that I would do something wrong and then you will be unhappy with me when you came back. I had your dad, Ros and Roach to help, but I didn't have you. I had to study various books just to be able to understand an income statement and had to learn how to do things either on my own or from people that you trusted and after working so hard to prove myself I got where I am now and I don't want to lose that. I like what I do, even if circumstances forced me into it. I love you and if I could spend every waking moment with you and this baby, I would." Okay, maybe now is the time.
"Good, because I have this plan…I wanted it to be a surprise for you…but it will be great to get your input." Her hand stops and I know she is thinking something like me moving Grey Publishing to our house next, "Nothing drastic…I just…well, I asked Taylor the day after…the incident…to clear out the storage on the first floor of Grey House and move it to the parking area and Elliot will turn it into a day care centre for the staff at GEH and of course, our baby too." I wait a second and what I did not expect is my wife…jumping up and down on her knees on the bed and not even the bouncing of her perfect boobs can distract me from the excitement on her face.
"That will be the best gift ever. We can see him whenever we want, play with him when we have time and even go down to have lunch with him as a family." She stops bouncing and bends down to plant kisses all over my face, "You…are…the…best…husband…and…father…ever…Christian…Grey…" she whispers between every kiss and I'm so glad that she is on board with this.
"Anything for you baby, anything."
"Thank you Christian."
"It's my pleasure Ana."
"No, I mean thank you for telling me all that. I know it is not easy for you to discuss things like that with me and it means a lot that you told me that now." I really should learn to discuss things with my wife before it turns me into an obsessive lunatic.
"I'll try to do it more baby."
I fell into a peaceful sleep with Ana wrapped in my arms after thinking of how to distract her from the horrible memory when her world came crashing down a year ago.
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