Couldn't help but want to update something and I recently got a review for this and though, oh hell. why not? ^^ so here you go. I hope L and Kitsu are in character, but review if you think otherwise and I'll do what i can to fix it in the next chapter. if not, well then, please review anyway! they encourage me to write more~

Soft violin music was playing in the inky blackness that surrounded me. Tartini's Violin Concerto in E-minor. In front of me, was Watari holding hands with a young L walking and smiling.

"It's nice, isn't it?" A voice said from my right, but I couldn't turn and see who it was.

"Yeah."

"That's too bad then. After all, I have to get rid of them. Can't have them getting in my way."

My eyes widened as Watari clutched his chest and collapsed to the ground, a little L shaking him before turning to glare in my direction. He stood up and shouted at me.

"This is your fault!"

I shook my head. "N-No! I didn't do it!"

"You might as well have." He was older now and standing behind him, I saw Light grinning manically.

"I didn't do it! Kira did! Light did! I-I wanted to save him!"

"Then why didn't you?"

My voice caught in my throat and Light stepped up next to him, talking softly into L's ear.

"That's right, L. She killed him. She could have saved him, but she didn't. Selfish, isn't she? Only willing to save you and herself, and nobody else."

"No! Don't listen to him! He's wrong! He's Kira!" I shouted, having found my voice again.

L frowned and turned away, walking off with Light's arm over his shoulder. Turning his head to the side, he paused for a moment.

"I don't know who to trust anymore…but it's definitely not you."

I fell to my knees as Light grinned at me and walked away with L, only for L to clutch his chest and fall to the ground as Light laughed.

"No…"

Light walked over to me then, lifting my chin as I glared at him.

"Now, Kitsu. You're the only one left. You're the last person in my way. I've already gotten rid of the others. See?"

He turned my head over to the side where a pile of dead bodies were stacked up. Matsuda, Chief, Aizawa, Mogi, Ukita, Misa, Near, Mello, Matt, Aiber, and Wedy. Forcing me to face him again, I felt my throat clench as I held back tears at seeing them.

"What a pitiful face, Kitsu. I thought you were stronger than that, but it looks like you got too close to them. You're not allowed to do that, remember? Ah, but I guess it doesn't matter. You're going to join them soon enough, but I have something more fun planned for you. You've gotten in my way just one too many times, so I'm a bit upset."

He let go of me and faked being upset, as I felt chains slither around my body and yank me up against a wall with my arms spread wide. He looked over at my predicament and smirked, coming over to caress my cheek.

"What a shame. But at least we both get what we want. You get to be with L…and I get to see pain etched onto your face."

Pain suddenly flooded my senses and I woke up with a start.

Sitting up in my seat, I gasped for air as I tried to remember where I was. The dark lit seats of the airplane calmed me down, but only slightly. I turned to see if I had disturbed L, except he wasn't there next to me. My heart skipped a beat and I suddenly stood up to search the cabin, not completely over what had happened in my nightmare as my breathing grew short and my vision tunneled. L…I need to find L. Just as I got up though, I saw a hunched figure walking back over to me and my tense muscles relaxed a bit as he came over.

"Where did you go?"

"Bathroom."

He sat down and I shakily did as well, trying to control my breathing and holding my head in my hands.

"Is everything alright, sir?"

I glanced up at the stewardess who stared down at me in concern, a small flashlight in her hands. Excusing her mistaking me for a man, I shook my head.

"Yeah. I'll be fine. Just…a headache."

"I can bring you something for it, if you want."

I waved a hand at her. "No. I'm fine."

She nodded and left, leaving me to sit there and feel L's gaze on my back. I can't drag him into my own problems. It's just a nightmare anyway. Sitting up straight once more, I let out a deep breath and leaned my head back against the seat, eyes closed. I felt something touch my hand and I flinched, opening my eyes only to see L's hand on my own. He was watching me, searching for what might've frightened me, but I just closed my eyes once more so he couldn't see the fear.

"Sorry, Ryuzaki." I said, remembering to use his alias. "Just a bit jumpy is all."

He didn't seem convinced, however, he did turn back to the window and pulled his hand back. My own hand felt a bit cold without his covering it, but I just crossed my arms and stared up at the ceiling. I had to stay awake somehow.

"Ryuzaki?"

He turned to me, raising a brow in question.

"I…I'm sorry."

"What for?"

I glanced down at him with sorrow and fear. I didn't want to tell him. I couldn't tell him. I know Watari is going to die. Just say it. I couldn't. His eyes, I knew they wouldn't be nearly as bright as they were now. He would hate me if I told him. I'm so selfish. I'm not telling him for my own selfish reasons. He doesn't deserve to be next to someone like me.

"For being selfish." I muttered, returning my gaze to the ceiling.

Rodger sat at his desk with his hands propped up under his chin. Before him, Mello stood, waiting to find out what was going on as did Near, although he was a bit more calm about the situation and was sitting on the ground with a puzzle.

"What's wrong, Rodger?" Mello asked, knowing that he wasn't in trouble for anything unlike the last time he was in the man's office.

"L is dead."

Mello's mouth dropped open and he hurried up to Rodger's desk. "Dead?! B-But how?!"

Rodger didn't answer, hoping that this plan Watari, L, and this Kitsu person had come up with would work.

"D-Do you mean he was killed by Kira? Is that it?"

"Most likely, yes."

Mello grew even angrier, grabbing Rodger by the lapel. "He was going to get Kira the death sentence and now…He's dead? Is that what you're telling me?!"

"Mello…"

"What about Kitsu?! Is she dead too?!"

"I-I do not know."

Suddenly, Near dumped his puzzle pieces on the ground, having flipped his puzzle over and lifted it over his head.

"If we don't win the game-if we don't solve the puzzle-we're nothing more than failures."

Mello gave him a look and turned back to Rodger. "So, L, between Near and me, who did he…"

"I'm afraid he hadn't yet chosen, Mello and now he is dead, you see. Mello, Near…How about you both work together."

"Yes. Agreed." Near said.

"Impossible, Rodger! You know how Near and I don't get along. We've always been rivals. Listen, Rodger…Near will be the one to succeed L. Unlike me, he'll do the job calmly, without emotion, like he was solving a puzzle. I'm leaving! From the institute, too!"

"Mello!" Rodger called out, getting up from his seat. You didn't mention this, L!

"Rodger, do whatever you want. I'll be 15 in no time, after all. I'll live out my own way." Mello said, closing the door to Rodger's office behind him. Mello then packed his stuff and left the orphanage. There's no way Kitsu's dead. If Rodger doesn't know, then that must mean she's alive and if she is, I'll prove to her and to everyone that I can be just as good as Near. I'm not going to stay second best anymore.

Once the plane had touched down, I was exhausted. I hadn't gotten an ounce of sleep and my nerves were constantly on edge just because of that one nightmare I had. Luckily, we were to be picked up at the airport by someone from Whammy's. Yup. That's right. Whammy's. With L having to stay hidden from Kira, he couldn't be roaming out and about, so I suggested staying there. Not only that, but I needed to be keeping track of Mello and Near. That was phase two.

Mello and Near were supposed to start working on catching the real Kira. If Rodger had followed the email Watari had sent him, then he should've lied and announced that L was dead to the two geniuses. All we had to do now, was head over to Whammy's and confirm that everything was on track. Then, we'd stay there for as long as needed to take care of Kira and L would go back to what he was known for. There was only a number of problems though, most of which were discovered upon arrival to Whammy's.

"What?" I asked, Rodger's words having just flowed in one ear and out the other. "Mello left?"

Rodger nodded. "Yes. I informed him of L's death and he simply asked about you, for some reason. I told him I didn't know because I didn't want to effect whatever plan you two had in motion and he left the orphanage."

"Hm." I hummed, rubbing the back of my neck. "Well, I guess that's okay. I should've expected it, to be honest. I'm guessing Matt left too?"

He nodded. "Not long after Mello did. Although, I am curious to know…Who are you? And what is you connection to all of this?"

"Oh. I used to be a Kira suspect."

Rodger went pale and I laughed, waving my hand. "Haha, calm down, old man. I said used to. L cleared me of that a while ago. As for how I'm involved with Mello and them…mmm…We bumped into each other when they came to Japan in search of L. Helped me catch onto Kira before he caught onto us."

Rodger cleared his throat. "And they let you into this plan?"

I shook my head. "Hell no. I'm the one who made the plan."

His eyes widened. "You can't be serious."

I nodded. "Sure am. Why else would L trust me enough to bring me here? Not to mention with him." I gazed towards the door, L having not came with me to talk to Rodger. "Surprising since he's so beat up about Watari's death. Has hardly said a word since getting on the plane."

Rodger nodded, solemnly. "That's to be expected. He was the first, after all. Watari personally took him in and left the rest of the children to me."

I sighed. "Yeah, well, I'm not good with this comforting stuff…I don't really have much of a choice though."

"Y-You comfort him?"

I scoffed, giving the man a look. "Uh, yeah? He's human too, you know."

With that, I walked out and headed up to where I had followed L to his room. Mine was situated across from his since no one else was even allowed up there. Once I got to the door though, I hesitated, having to swallow thickly and gather my courage before I could open the door. L was just sitting in his usual crouch on a chair, staring out the window at where the kids were playing around outside.

"Uh, L?"

I saw him glance at me out of the corner of his eye and assumed I had his attention.

"Rodger said that Mello left the orphanage with Matt following. I can still do the plan though. It just requires a bit more work."

Nothing but a slight nod and I sighed again, rubbing the back of my neck. "Look. I just wanted to tell you so you knew what was going on, okay? And…if you want, we can go visit his grave later."

He nodded again and I went ahead and laid back on his bed with my hands behind my head.

"You know, L? I understand what you're going through. You don't have to be all quiet about it." I said, hoping to get through to him, if only a little. "I mean, look! My mom died and my dad was a pain about the whole thing, but Watari's death isn't your fault, you know?"

I winced as I remembered the nightmare I had on the plane. I want to tell him, but I-I don't know how he'll take it. I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath, enjoying the little bit of relaxation I was getting aside from all the mental stress that was beginning to pile up.

"L…I hope you come out of this slump soon. I can't do this plan by myself…" I opened my eyes and looked over at the slumped figure. "You want some cake? Maybe some strawberry milk too? I can get you some. You know. To cheer you up."

He didn't move and I was beginning to grow frustrated, but I stifled the feeling down, knowing that my feelings towards the situation didn't matter as much as his. He was hurting more than me, after all, and this was all new to him. I can deal with it. I can be strong for him and I'll do what it takes to keep him happy. I left the room and just as I closed the door, I leaned my back against it for a moment.

"I meant what I said back then, L. I do love you."

So please. Go back to being that confident, crazy detective I used to know.