Chapter 25 I want to believe

As soon as Iziah and John were inside, Randy took Raven's hand and made those silver orbs look at him. "Whats got you so confused?"

"Nothin" She said timidly taking her hand back, she couldn't do this, not when she had everything going for her. Randy took her hand again, not wanting to let this go. For the first time in years, Randy was willing to do whatever it took to make her happy, of course Raven and Iziah always bought that out in him, they were the only girls to gain his attention and care.

"Rae, you can tell me, you know that" Randy said gently not liking how quiet and shaky she suddenly got. Whatever she had seen on the net had really gotten to her.

"I just read some stuff about you, and I can't help but think I'm the next woman on your hit list and I know you wouldn't do that to me but the paranoia tells me that you would and I know I'm being stupid but I can't help it"

Randy took her chin and kissed her lips softly, "Yes you are being paranoid, you know that deep down I would never hurt you"

She knew that deep down, Randy would never do anything to hurt her intentionally, he was the one that wouldn't break her heart. No matter how many ex's said different. Raven pulled away and just stared into those icy blue orbs, for a moment in time they were soft and filled with love, love reserved just for her, love that even her sister didn't have.

"Hey do you wanna come into the woods with me?"

Randy raised an eyebrow at her, the woods surrounding the backyard hadn't been used in ages, at least not by him or John. It was where the girls did all their target practice. "I'm a little scared to go in there with you now, I'm weary that your gonna shoot me in the back"

Raven giggled, her thumb touching his cheek, "I would shoot you in the face Orton, you know that"

Randy couldn't help but laugh, taking her hand he pulled her to her feet. "I have a better idea, one where no one will get shot"

Raven giggled as they trailed across the lawn and into one of her black cars. Raven laid down on the back seat leather, Randy's lips soon attached to hers, how they both fit in the back seat Raven had no idea but they both laid there kissing and touching skin. Randy moved and slammed the door shut making Raven giggle again. His lips going back to her's with urgent need, the effects of her kiss was still evident in his jeans. Raven let out a deep groan as he pushed his hips into her. Raven got the tingles, starting from the core and shaking up her entire body until it spilled from her vocal chords. Fingers grazed skin as Raven dragged his shirt up, the heat was getting worse, he managed to pull it up not caring where it landed. His lips pushed her's back down until her head was resting against the cold leather. Shuffling and a lot of skill allowed another groan to slip from Randy's thin lips, freedom from his jeans had never felt so good. With only a tiny bit of shuffling and annoying barriers, Randy finally got what he was craving for, that tight wetness, closing and releasing around his throbbing cock. His lips captured her's again as they moved together, the space was tiny and the movement couldn't be anything but hard and fast, but it didn't matter, his hips snapping and pushing inside her made it feel like they were in a comfortable bed with soft candles. That deep groan from her lips fuelled him to snap and grind faster, skin being grazed and lips kissing any body part available. Randy kept pushing until he felt her body tense up, he put a hand over her mouth to stop the loud scream, her tongue swiped over his palm, even that made him hornier and his hips snapped harder and that caused another hot flow of juices from her. Randy gave a few final thrusts until neither of them could move again. For a while they just lay on top of each other, eyes looking into eyes and even though her paranoia was far from over, right now she knew that she was right, Randy had spent so long getting to her, he wasn't going to mess it up now. Raven let out a giggle as his soft sweaty fingers sloped down her cheek.

"Whats so funny?"

"I was wondering why I had a sore head, now I know why"

Randy looked at them properly and realised that for every time he snapped his hips, Raven donged her head on the car door.

Randy kissed her lips softly, "Sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you"

Raven just gave him that smile, her worries would come back but for right now she would believe in the fantasy, believe it with all her heart. "Its ok although next time its your head I'm banging"

Randy lent down and took her lips softly, trying to tell her through his lips that he wouldn't be like the other guys, he wasn't going to do what they did and despite how he treated other girls, there was no way in hell he would put her through that, he would spend forever proving that he loved her, her friendship alone was worth the effort, her love well it was something he wanted no matter what even if that meant dealing with paranoid issues. Randy shuffled around again so they were decent and she was lying on top of him, her weight on his made no difference.

"So are you still confused Rae?"

"No, but"

"But?" Randy prompted ready to clear her mind of any and all doubt.

"I want to believe but people, mainly men, have this sick desire to put me through pain, they think its funny to watch me burn, which is really mean but I guess I deserve it"

"You do not deserve it and I will not do that to you, you know me Raven. I would never hurt you. Apart from the occasional bump on the head but thats all for a pleasurable experience"

Raven couldn't help but laugh "Alright but next time I get to be on top and you'll be the one knockin his head against the door"

Randy kissed her smooth skin, "I guess thats fair"

Raven lay down, her ear pressing against his heart beat, for right now she could close her eyes and thoroughly believe that this was the real thing, Randy loved her and for right now that would do. She didn't want to think it or say it outloud but she hoped that if Randy was that guy to cheat on her repeatedly like her ex-husband, she could hope that it wouldn't be a whore or at least he would be better at hiding it. Randy watched her close her eyes and soon enough his eyes shut too, a smile on his lips. Cramped in a car with a heavying weight drapped across his chest was exactly where he wanted to be. Nothing could change that.