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Chapter 25: Is this Truth?
I didn't say anything in response. My eyes were wide, and it was very quiet all around us. Did he just say, what I think he just said? He saw my parents die? I had a small memory splash into my vision. It was dark, cold, painful. And I can remember, something colossal existing above my person. It was a terrifying feeling that I felt.
"This is shocking!" My hands were in tight fists as I shouted at him. I felt like I was out of breath for some unknown reason.
"Misato..." Urahara patted me on the head with his right hand. "I'm sorry."
"Why are you apologizing? You saw a hollow. What could you do about that?" I asked him while thinking about the one time I saw Ichigo slay a hollow with his shinigami sword.
Zanpakuto! I heard Crazy Drunk Scorpion's voice my mind say.
Urahara-san shook his head at me. He looked really saddened. It felt like the kitchen was growing darker all around us, and I left his side to turn on the lights. So Urahara-san witnessed the death of my parents, that must have been traumatizing. But drowning to death is also traumatizing. And he's a former shinigami captain. I wonder why he isn't a captain anymore.
"I could have done something about that hollow. I could have killed it the minute in stepped into Karakura town." Urahara confessed to me.
"...!" I couldn't say anything in response. There's no good way to respond to information like this!
"...you could have...?" I stared at him.
"I thought about it, I was observing it's movement and activities the whole time. It was a very unstable creature. With a low awareness. It's reiatsu was greatly unstable, it caused things to shatter and break if it was in a 2 meter radius. I knew when I saw it, that it was his creation." Urahara spoke in a dark and scary tone.
"You mean, someone made that thing?!" I raised my voice as I questioned him. "That thing was a monster!"
"That thing, was an arrancar." Urahara's presence felt nervous. Uneasy. What does he mean by, errand car?
"What is that? Who made it? Why would someone make one?" I asked him with a broken voice. I really wanted to cry. It's not right for someone to make a monster that attacks and eats people's souls.
"To stand against the world, I guess." He said. That's a terrible answer!
"Against the world? That sounds retarded." I huffed at him. That does sound retarded.
"Yes, it is. But at the same time, to imagine an army of powerful arrancar descending upon the world in a declaration of war." Urahara was completely serious as he spoke. This is really frightening stuff he's saying!
"And, an arrancar killed my parents? That was responsible?" I asked him as I clenched my fists.
"That's true, your parents were probably the first victims of an arrancar." He said in what sounded like a cold tone.
"But you couldn't do anything about that." I said to him.
"That's not true. There were a lot of things I could have done. In truth, I wanted to see how dangerous it was. And I chose not to interfere when I saw it attacking the car that you and your parents were in."
"Why?!" I shouted. I didn't mean to shout at him.
"It's not that I didn't want to. I wasn't interested in saving people at the cost of revealing my position."
"Well, I'm the girl who's parents you could have saved but didn't. So why are you having a relationship with me?"
"I like you." He smiled politely.
"I'm going to hit you. You don't date the girl who's parents were killed by monster you could have defeated but chose not to."
"After the incident, I observed you to see how the unstable arrancar reiatsu effected you. I discovered it was slightly poisonous."
"I am not hearing good things at all." I said while covering my ears.
"I did feel remorse for what happened. How you started living life alone in your house without your parents. I really thought that you would live with your grandfather."
"..."
"And you were so cheerful at school. When I saw you being sad and depressed, I regretted my decision to not save your parents."
"..."
"I watched you, when you were in middle school, then in high school. I wanted to look after you in my own way. That's why I left you things that you needed. Like medicine when you were sick. Or school supplies that you needed for projects. I left those sorts of things in your house for you. I even made sure perverted men didn't follow you home from your after school job. And over the years somehow, I realized that I was falling in love with you while I was monitoring you."
"You fell in love with me during my school days while watching me? Urahara-san, is a pedophile." I announced with a darkened expression.
"Am not! You were mostly an adult during your time at high school."
"This is criminal on many levels."
"But I thought that I would forget about you and give up. Since I was the rotten kind of guy that let your parents die, I never deserved to have someone like you. I thought I would forget about you when you moved away to Osaka. I worried about you a lot. Even though I knew you would be fine."
"Did you, have something to do with me getting a job as a sensei at Karakura high school?"
"No, that was all by chance. I was surprised when you moved back here. But, I was also very happy. And when I came to see you, your face looked so beautiful. I realized that I never really forgot about you."
"You just tripped into the corny territory." I shook my head at him.
"I spent a lot of time, wanting to apologize to you. There are a lot of horrible things that have happened in my life. I regret a lot of things. And I think back, if only I could have killed Aizen when I had the chance, those horrible things could have been prevented."
"Where did this come from?!" I exclaimed! He just introduced a new character! "Who's Aizen?"
"Oh, I should have said something about him earlier. He is the one, who is creating the arrancar." He said with his usual casualness.
"He's the one who created the thing that killed my parents?" I shouted. I felt so outraged! My face was hot with anger and disgust.
Urahara only nodded.
"Where does he live?! I'll kick his ass!" I said! I'll freaking kick his ass!
"A pregnant woman shouldn't be kicking anyone." Urahara took a moment to scold me.
"But a have a zanpakuto." I said in my defense.
Urahara walked towards me and placed his long arms around me. He patted me on the head with his right hand, and stroked slowly. I pressed my hot face into his chest. His green shirt was always opened at the chest. I felt my hot breath blowing back at me against his skin. Urahara-san, didn't really smell like a guy. Because most guys get stinky after a certain amount of hours pass. Urahara-san, must probably use a scented body wash.
"Do you hate me?" He asked in a soft tone after a few minutes of silence passed.
"No, not really." I answered him honestly.
"But you know the truth about your parents. I never stepped in to save them." He said sadly.
"It is selfish, not helping when you had the power to. But I've got no right to ask you to put everything on the line for me." I said with my face still at his chest. I can hear Urahara's heart beating wildly.
"Urahara-san, you've come a long way from a drowning victim. Even if you have doubts, you shouldn't worry too much. I'm already not worried!" I smiled warmly at him.
"Miss Misato, I appreciate your carefree view about life, but the fate of the world is at stake. To be accurate, four out of six dimensions are in danger." Urahara spoke with a serious voice.
"Four out of six? What are the other two that won't be in danger?" I asked him. He knows a lot of stuff!
"The region of Hell, and the River." Urahara said with an unsure tone.
"Oh, well that sounds normal." I said while nodding. I really don't know what I'm nodding to, though. Urahara's words, are a lot. There's so much above my human mind and existence, that I really can't comprehend everything Urahara-san says.
"Perhaps, I've said to much." Urahara commented to himself.
"No no. I mean, I've never been too aware of the location of my brain, but I know where it is now." I winced at him a little.
"Forgive me." He stroked my back a little with his hand.
"It's alright, although this is probably very serious and I should be mad. But I really don't feel like I could be mad." I spoke with a calm voice.
"Why is that?" He asked.
"Because even if my parents were still alive, I'd still be the same rotten and selfish person I've always been. And some things would still happen the same way. I'd still be weird, with few friends, and no real romances to speak of." I started to speak about my life.
"I remember, there were guys that liked you." Urahara quickly said. "There was that Kintaro guy."
"Kintaro? Geh! Ugh." I made a disgusted face. That was soooo gross! I can't believe Urahara-san brought up Kintaro of all people.
"Asaga?" Urahara threw out another name of a guy who had a thing for me.
"Eww! No way with Asaga!" I shook my hear furiously at him. "I can't believe you spent time learning the names of the guys that liked me!"
"I couldn't help it, I was a little jealous of them. But I was truly jealous of that Kazuya." Urahara huffed.
"Kazuya? Oh, I kind of forgot about him." I said while giving Urahara a blank face.
"You forgot about the guy you tried so hard to get to notice you. You even went as far as jogging 10km with him on several occasions." Urahara sounded obviously jealous as he spoke.
"Oh? Oh yeah! I had nothing better to do, really!" I chuckled out loud.
"You also had a couple of Sunday dates with him." Urahara continued with his jealous tone.
"I never asked him out. It was surprising that he asked me out during my time as a 2nd year student. But they really were friendship dates. He never thought about me romantically. I really think he just wanted to see how I lived my life by myself." I said with some sadness.
"I thought he was kind of interested in you." Urahara looked kind of sad as he spoke.
"If he was, we would have been boyfriend girlfriend."
"Good thing that did not happen!" Happiness returned to Urahara's voice.
"Urahara-san will be the one. The man I marry." I said with a smile.
He was completely taken by surprise! And his face was covered in a thick streak of blush.
"Urahara-san, this shouldn't be surprising at all. I mean, if we have a wedding, of course we're going to get married." I sort of scolded him.
"But wait, I knew about a wedding, but getting married? That thought hasn't quite crossed my mind." Urahara was in deep thought.
"What do you mean? Weddings and getting married go hand in hand. They're the same thing actually." I told him.
Urahara only shook his head at me.
"You don't want to marry me? But you made me an Okaa-san." I gave him my ultra sad eyes, as a joke. (A/N: Okaa-san means, Mom.)
"Misato, if only you knew how uncertain the future is. But, I do want to marry you, no matter what."