Chapter 24- This Isn't You

Brooke P.O.V:

My whole life I've been portrayed as perfect. Can't blame them for thinking that. I used to think I was. Ok, maybe I still do, but that's not the point. My friend's saw past that. I don't have to be fake around them. And they were always there for me, when I did or even didn't even need or want them. They saw me as vulnerable. At times it can be a nuisance, but I've grown to embrace it. So when they help me, I always try and return the favor. Now this time, I haven't done anything, but they have. My two best friends, are being held prisoners, in different ways. And the other two are being stubborn as hell. Yes, Lucas was wrong for not stopping Nathan's arrest. But, Haley knew he couldn't, he was still in shock. And my , is away with some crazy psycho stalker.

This past week has been hard. Chase and I've been dividing our time with Izzie. So the other could be with Haley or Lucas, to help them keep sane. But, right now the two have officially pissed me off. My two best friend's are suffering because of dumb and dumber. Yes, I know they're sad, or what ever. But I'll be damned if this goes on any longer. So instead of my friends seeing me as vulnerable. They're going to see me as, well perfect.

Nathan P.O.V:

Win. To be in victory; victorious. I've had a lot of wins in my life. Just remember it's me Nathan Scott! I've won countless awards. Multiple MVP awards, hundreds of games. And three championships. But those aren't my greatest wins. Haley, and my kids, Jamie and Chloe, are. They give me life, and love. With them by my side I can't and won't lose. When you win to me it's the greatest feeling. Especially when you can go back to the ones you love, and those who inspired you, to. But with all my wins I've suffered some losses. When Haley was hit by the car. Jamie's kidnapping. My car accident. THE accident. Failing to make it to the NBA. Daunte and Bear. To you that may seem like a punishment, but to me they were all lessons. Yes I was broken and well....lost, though. But after all of that something good came out of it. Hearing Jamie's heartbeat for the first time. Haley and I fixing our marriage. Haley realizing I'm more important than music. I realized I don't need basketball to be somebody. That the NBA wasn't and isn't everything. And well Daunte and Bear, when they hit Haley...I knew I couldn't be without her.

So I know how Lucas feels. But to have my own brother think I had something to do with the disappearance of his wife, my best friend? It hurts, really hurts. And now sitting here in my jail cell, with all the things I've accomplishment embedded in my memory. This one, this one. Has officially proven.......I've loss.

Haley P.O.V:

Love. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend. I've always been told I have one of the biggest hearts. That I fall in love easily, but I also love hard. And I didn't really feel that until I met Nathan. When we dated, I found love with him. And knew once I fell for him, I wasn't going back. Even when I went on tour with Chris Keller, I loved Nathan. It may not have seemed like it, but I did. But he's not the only one in my heart, Jamie and Chloe, are too. Their my kids, and I would do anything for them. My friends Peyton and Brooke, well they're are two of my best girl friends. But, Lucas Eugene Scott, well he's my best friend. Since the first day we met, we've been close. Us against the world. We've been through a lot, and we've helped each other. And that's why I love him. He's kind hearted, stands up for what is right, protects, and loves just as hard as I do.

I'm also told, I forgive easily. And I normally forgive people of their wrong doing. But, I don't think I can this time. Nathan's in jail, and it's Lucas' fault. I believe Nathan, I do. Peyton's his best friend. And to have Lucas think, he had something to do with her disappearance is a shame. I know, he's hurting, but so am I. Have you heard the expression, ' Hate is easier, than love.' Well I couldn't agree more. Because right now, all I feel is hate.

" Haley, Open This Door!" Brooke yelled. She continually banged on the front door. When Haley didn't answer she dug through her purse for 'Naley's' house key. Normally they left their door unlocked, but this past week, they've changed their habits. Brooke unlocked the door, and stepped inside. She placed her purse on the table and marched to the stairs. She stalked up the stairs, and looked in the kids room. Both were asleep, in their respective room, so she went to Haley's room.

" Haley James- Scott! What the Hell-" She said but stopped when she saw the white stick in her hands. She looked over the tiny brunette, she had been crying, her face was splotchy and red. Brooke sat down on the bed by her, " Hales, are you pregnant?!"

Haley laughed a little, " No." She looked back down at the test, then back at Brooke. " I'm not, but Peyton is."

Brooke sat back a dropped her jaw, " Wh What!? When did this happen? Oh my gosh, she's pregnant."

Haley sighed, " Yeah, she is. I'm guessing she took it before Ian came, to get her. Nathan found it when him and Lucas went to find her. I had to take it from his pocket before they pulled off."

" Whoa! No wonder Lucas is like he is."

" Lucas doesn't know." She whispered

" Holy Crap! He doesn't know. She's missing and pregnant. Not a good combo. Why didn't you tell him?" Haley gave her a look, " Oh, right. Sorry."

" Nathan told me not to tell him, what ever it might have read."

" Have you been to see him?" Brooke asked

" Which one Nate, or Lucas?"

" Either one. Look Haley I know you're hurting. We all are. But they need you. By not visiting Nathan, you make it seem like you don't love him, or you think he had something to do with Peyton. And not visiting Luke, you make it seem like you don't care for him or Peyton. What happened to the loving, forgivable Haley James?"

" She left. When Nathan got arrested, and Peyton went missing."

Brooke groaned, " Damn it, Haley! You are going to get you ass up, and go visit Nathan. Talk to him, tell him you love him. Something. Then I'll call or text you whether or not to see Lucas. Got it?"

Haley sighed, " Ok, whatever. What about the kids?"

" Don't worry. Deb will be here soon. So come on get the going."

Lucas P.O.V:

Life. A four letter word that means to live. And I've always lived my life, to the fullest. When I found out I had HCM, I promised myself I would. Never be afraid to take chances, or risks, to fall in love, succeed or fail. I was going to live my life. I've always had a ok life, beside Dan. But, after I got over him, I had an incredible life. Especially when I fell in love with Peyton Sawyer. Every time I see her, I know that my life is worth living. Then when we had Keith and Ellie, they just add to it. With Peyton and the kids, I know I'm worth it. When my Uncle Keith died, my life felt like it was over. To lose the man you call your father hurts. Though life goes on, I'll always remember him. I'll never get over his death, but I'm trying.

I can't get over this, though. My wife is missing. Gone. Away with some psycho stalker. This whole week has been hell. People have tried to help me, but it hurts. I need her. With out her or my kids I'm nothing. They're the most important people to me. So when Peyton disappeared I was devastated. I tried to focus on the kids, and finding her. But, my mom didn't think I could. I haven't seen my wife in a week, and my kids in 4 days. My mom said, ' I know this is a hard time for you. And you need to be focusing on getting Peyton back. So, Andy and I will take the kids. It's just you'll be to busy for them, and it'll be too much for you.' I understand her, and at the same time I'm pissed at her. She took my kids, it's already bad enough my wife is gone. But my kids too. It is just to much.

I said, I'll always live my life to the max. To take risk, chances, fall in love, succeed, and fail. But without the three most precious things in my life, I can't do it. I think I've lived enough of my life. So without them I'm choosing death.

" Lucas Eugene Scott!? Where are you?" Brooke yelled throughout the whole house. Since the twins weren't at the house, she could yell as loud as she wanted. She walked into the kitchen, then the TV room, and then up the stairs. She went straight to his room, only to find him not there. Brooke then checked the Keith's room, and then Ellie's, and found him in her room.

She stared at him. He was sitting in the rocking chair looking at a picture, and well brooding. She noticed he was crying, and wasn't trying to hide it. She sighed, and walked the rest of the way over to him. She crouched down in front of him, " Hey, buddy."

" We took this picture a week before it all happened. Everything was good. We were happy. The twins, had just started to make funny noises, that sounded like they were talking. And Peyton, she was Peyton." He looked up at Brooke. " I want them back, Brooke. I need them. I need her." He cried. Brooke stood up and grabbed Lucas and pulled him awkwardly into her arms, and held him.

" We all want her back. Kay? She's gonna be fine. And you still have the twins. Your mom did the right thing. You need to focus on getting Peyton back. So this is what you're going to do. You're going to go down to the station and talk to the Deputy or whatever, and demanded for some answers. Then you're going to call me, got it?"

" I can't. My life is nothing with out them. She should be home by now. They should have found her. I can't do it anymore."

" Am I going to have to yell at you too. Please Lucas, please. You can't be thinking about just yourself, anymore. You have to think about, the twins, Peyton, Haley and Nathan. And me. Ok, we all love Peyt. You're always saving her, why not save her now?"

Lucas merely nodded, and got up from the rocking chair. He gave Brooke a hug, and left the room running. She walked out behind him, and saw him get in his car. She smiled, and walked over to her own car.

Peyton P.O.V:

Pain. An unbearable feeling. My name might as well be Pain-ton Scott. I've tried to get past it, but I never can. Just to get away from it all.....that's all I need. All I want. Sometimes I've been saved. By Lucas and Brooke. But mostly Lucas. Every time I was in trouble, he was there. Any time I was in pain, he took it away. But two dead moms, an absentee father, being drugged, broken friendships, stupid High School love triangle, cocaine, Jake and Jenny leaving, being shot, betrayal and betraying, estrange brother, which wind up being a psycho stalker who attacked me twice, my brother going to war, saying someday and taken as a no to a proposal, being ignored by the love of my life, watching him almost get married, being told 'I hate you', my real father choosing Jack Daniel's over me. Almost finished, being in a car accident and almost losing the twins, Ian escaping, and now sitting here in the hands of Ian.

The expression ' No pain No gain ' well it's true. But sometimes, to much pain can break you. I've been broken, scratch that I am broken. I'm 24 years old. I think I've had enough pain for three life times. I want to be painless. I need to be numb.

Ian stalked over to Peyton. He touched her and saw her tremble. He chuckled, " I'm thinking this is getting a little old. You?" She shook her head. He slapped her, " Wrong answer. Listen here, I'm gonna leave." Then he grabbed her face, " And you better not try anything. You got lucky last time, doesn't mean you will this time." With one more slap to her face, he walked off. And out of the door.

Peyton sat up and held her tears in. She had cried enough for the past week. She started to look around, and got up. Slowly she walked around and found a knife. She managed to grab it with her tied up hands, and started to cut the rope. The past week she had been beaten, bruised, touched, and scared. But no more, as she finished cutting up the rope she held her wrist. You could see the black and blue marks on them. Slowly she got up and looked around again. She made it to the back and found a phone. Immediately she grabbed it and dialed a number.

Driving through town, Lucas was determined to get to the police station. Brooke was right. This whole week he had been paying attention to how much he was hurt, and no one else. Everyone was hurting, and Haley was the main one. She lost her one of her good friends and her husband, at the same time. Brooke, Chase, Jamie, Larry, and the twins were hurting. And it was his fault besides, Ian's.

He stopped at a red light, and laid his head down on the steering wheel. How could I've let this happen, he thought. His pocket vibrated, he reached and grabbed his phone. He read the caller id. It was an unfamiliar number. Going against what he was taught he answered it.

" Hello."

"Lucas?"

A/N I am so sorry for how long it took me to update. SO Sorry. But this chapter is way longer than I wanted it to be. Cool news though, after this story I already have an idea for a new one. I think I'm going to call it : When It Matters and it will be set during the High School days. Well, I hope you liked it. Please review!