Lost Voices and Silent Cries
Author Note: Alright, I told myself I was not updating this story until I reread the whole thing. Thing is, I didn't think it would have taken me two weeks…maybe more I can't remember. I finally got finished and I just feel like this story is such a drag. Seriously, it seemed like every three chapters I fell asleep on, really bummed me out. Anyway, even though this is Romance I'm just going to tell you there's more Angst in here than anything.
Nothing is going to be peaches and gun drops, which was the whole point of this story was for me to test the waters on a darker/sadder side. I lost sight of that in the last…seven chapters? So enough of that here's chapter 25
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Chapter 25 – Oath
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She tightened the fabric around her neck, absently watching the puff of breath escape through her lips. This was it, right? This is what she had been waiting to see since she first met him. It was happening before her very eyes.
October usually meant cooler weather but for some reason the temperature dropped like crazy. She was standing next to Ino who causally hand on her slightly swelling stomach. Hinata let a smile rest on her cold lips. On her right was Kiba, who was trying not to appear to be freezing from his thin clothing.
Her eyes went back to the podium where Naruto stood. On his left were Tsunade and the elders. On his right were a stoic Sasuke and Sakura. It seemed like they were discussing something.
"Hina, are you cold?"
And who was asking such a dumb question? She turned seeing Kiba taking off his coat. "N-no… you'll get sick."
He shook his head. "No, I'm fine." He said trembling.
"Don't be foolish." She breathed sinking her chin in warm scarf. She directed her attention back to the three teenagers on stage. Town's people were getting antsy and noisy.
"I can't believe he is going to the one to rule over Konoha!"
"I remember when he couldn't tie a shoe!"
"He is such a power, young man. I believe in him."
"Once a demon, always a demon."
"His dream finally came true!"
Hinata was trying to block out their voices. Sasuke had his arms crossed seemingly unaffected by the cold. He glanced over at a jittery Sakura. "You're distracting me." He muttered to the pink haired kunoichi. She looked over with a smile.
"This is his dream, Sasuke."
He smirked lightly. "I know I was there…most of the time." She smiled rubbing her hands together looking at the nervous blond. "You'll be first lady now."
Her emerald eyes locked on his. "W-What?"
"You heard me. It would be dishonorable for the Hokage to have a causal girlfriend, Sakura." He told her calmly. What was a day without some good teasing? Sasuke didn't want to find out. Sasuke hated cold weather with a passion but he would never give anybody the happiest of seeing him do something as simple as shivering.
Maybe his pride was swelling.
"You're right." She mumbled.
"Ah." He absently replied searching through the crowd of people that gathered. He scanned over once, twice and finally decided to activate his bloodline. Some people that were watching him like a hawk froze. He didn't care. His eyes instantly locked in with her opal one. She smiled giving him a thumbs up.
He really had to fight to keep the other side of his smirk from turning up. She noticed and smiled harder. He deactivated his eyes keeping onyx ones on her. He watched Ino turn to talk to her. He inwardly sighed before turning back to the elders, Naruto and Tsunade.
What was really awkward was the Hiashi was standing along with the council yet was watching Hinata closely. Sasuke narrowed his eyes.
"Alright," Tsunade stepped up. "You all know we have gathered here today." She patted Naruto on the back. He was clutching onto a piece of paper which is where he probably wrote his speech on. Naruto always been good at giving speeches, granted at the wrong time: during a battle.
He was fucking made for the job.
The blonde woman leaned into the microphone again. "We will be welcoming him as the new Hokage of Konoha."
Sasuke eyes drifted to the other leaders of the nations that had a seat in the front. Sasuke was just trying to figure out why he and Sakura were up here. Naruto said they had to be beside him when he took his title.
Sakura started crying. Sasuke smirked, folding his arms. Inwardly, he may have been happy for the dobe.
"Are there any reasons why this young man shouldn't take this title?" Sasuke eyes went over the whole crowd to check for any objections. He noted that even the people that still didn't like Naruto remained quiet. Seriously who was going to deny the boy his dream that he clearly deserves. Of course, unless they were brave enough to face the Uchiha on the streets.
Naruto wasn't going to become Hokage at one point. He was really thinking about ending his training, his reading, everything. He was going to give it all up. What kind of man can protect a village but can't protect the ones closest to him.
It was the shy kunoichi that pushed him through without even a word.
The blond smile brightly at the memory of it all, this was all for him. The unity of the people, his friends standing the front row with faces of happiness. He finally did something great, something that was his goal not a mission of the Leaf.
Tsunade patted his back again, laughing saying that she wasn't dead yet and was going to be at his side until the day came where he would be taking over completely on his own. He gave a grin and looked over the people again. All the different chakra that made of Konoha filled his senses.
Especially one, he glanced over at Sasuke. He really had no limits. Sakura was smiling at him, which he quickly returned. He looked up at the Hokage monument that was facing at him. His face would be up there soon. He was sure his father and mother would have been proud, which alone flooded his cold body with a rush of warmth.
Even Kyuubi congratulated him this morning.
Naruto could have snorted at the beast but decided a simple 'Thank you' was enough.
"Welcoming Naruto Uzumaki your new sixth Hokage!" She clapped as the village quickly followed her example.
He stepped up, shaking his hair in the process. His azure eyes glanced down at the speech that took him a month to complete and he still wasn't happy with it. With a swift movement he crumpled it up. He looked at his people. With a smirk, he rested his hands on the podium.
"I told you to believe it."
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The rookie nine all down the empty streets of Konoha linked in some way or the other. Naruto was in the middle laughing and being… well Naruto.
"I am the Hokage!" He repeated for the four-hundredth and twenty-third time tonight. Sasuke was making a mental note. He did a fist pump. "Was my speech cool or what!?"
He asked for the… he lost count after two hundred.
"Shut the hell up!" Sasuke growled out.
Naruto looked at him. "I am your Hokage, teme! You must resp-" He was cut off by the Uchiha's fist.
"Don't let the title go to your head," He muttered. "You're still the same idiot." Although, it seemed harsh to hear Sasuke was telling the truth. The last thing he wanted was for Naruto to become mundane and… like one of the elders. Which is why Sasuke couldn't wrap his head around why the hyperactive blond wanted to be something that was so draining?
Bright side to that is no more of him coming at random times asking for idiotic things.
He would have the peace and quiet that he enjoyed so much. He looked down at the small hand interlaced with his. His rubbed his thumb over her freezing knuckles. "You're freezing." He mumbled. She pressed her head to his shoulder.
He paused making the rest of the group stop and turn back. "What's wrong with you?" Sakura asked.
He raised the hand that was holding Hinata's. "She's going to catch her death. We're leaving."
She looked up. "N-No I'm f-f-fine!" Her teeth chattered.
The girls giggled. "Girly, go home."
She pouted. "Fine." She didn't feel like fighting it. She would have if her toes weren't numb and nose wasn't so runny. "Congrats again Naruto-kun."
He chuckled. "Thank you, Hinata-chan!" He hugged her like he used to when they were twelve. She was almost sad when his warmth went away.
"Yeah, happy day, dobe." Sasuke held her shoulder. Naruto gave him a curt nod before the couple disappeared. "He really has to show me that!" Naruto yelled.
Sakura smiled grabbing his hand. Ino pouted. "No, I wanna go home too." Shikamaru yawned and started walking away. Chouji said something about going for a bite to eat and stalked off. Shino just kind of walked away. Kiba looked at Akamaru.
"Well this is lame now." The dog barked in agreement. "Later!" He said before running off.
Naruto grumbled. "Do you want to leave me too?"
She nodded. "Yeah, let's go to my place." His smile widen as they continued down the cold, October streets.
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Hinata pulled off her shoes before ridding herself of the layers of clothes she had on. She was down to her pants and long sleeve shirt. Sasuke walked in before falling on the floor. "Sasuke!"
He rolled over. "I'm tired. I can't make it to the bed."
She giggled. "Sasuke, get up!"
He shook his head. "I'll be fine right here."
She grabbed his arms and drug him into the backroom before slipping on the slippery hardwood floors and falling on her butt. "Ow!" She rolled over.
He sighed. "I told you to leave me."
She wrapped her arms around his chest and threw him on the bed with her actually strength. He rolled over. "You could have easily picked me up."
She smiled. "Where's the fun in that?"
He smirked before burying his face in his soft pillow. "I'm sleeping now."
She got in the bed with him. "Okay."
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He woke up sometime afterwards before looking over at the empty bed. He touched the pillow, it was pretty cool now. He went to sit up finding his sword lying on the bed covered in blood. He grabbed his katana holding it up. "Clearly this must be a dream." He grumbled.
He couldn't remember the last time he had a dream.
He got out the bed feeling something wet underneath his feet. Something told him not to look down and he knew better not to listen to that voice. He continued to walk surprisingly calm until he almost tripped over something.
Something told him not to look down.
He went to open the window and crows were sitting outside. Thousands of them in the sky, on the gates, eating at Hinata's garden.
Death.
He closed the curtain, quite pissed off at this point. He walked through the sticky substance on the ground that was rising. He pushed open the door looking at his reflection. He was in stage three of the Curse Seal. His hands were bloodied.
Guilt.
He sighed walking out through the house. The hallway was lit to his displeasure to see that it was exactly was he expected about two inches of blood on the floor. The pictures that Hinata took the time to hang up were currently floating in the bloody river. The glass was from the frames were broken.
Disappointment.
He walked into the living room there was a pile of dead bodies, some he didn't know others he did. Example, Kiba, Shino, Ino… was the Shikamaru? Hard to tell.
He walked into the kitchen seeing Sakura laying in half. He stepped over her body and opened the back door letting the blood out. The crow weren't back here but a burning Konoha was. Black flames that he knew very well.
He sighed leaning against doorframe. "Un"
He turned back seeing Naruto limp into kitchen. "You did this, Sasuke!" He watched the bloodied blond trying to hold his intestines inside. "You killed everyone!"
He closed his eyes. This was just a dream. Just a dream. A dream. Dream. Dreaming. He was dreaming. It wasn't real. Naruto fell to his knees. "You should have stayed away!" He screamed. "You ruined everything."
He watched his best friends eyes dull.
He heard a piercing scream. He knew that scream from anywhere. He walked over the dead bodies and went into his old room.
She was in the corner, nothing but bones and skin. Her usual pink tinted cheeks were hollowed. She was cuffed at her infected wrists. Her eyes were ghostly white and her body was bare, pale, and shaking. "Stay away!" She cried.
He watched her. "What happened?"
He cursed himself for speaking to the dream. It only made it worst. "Y-you did!" She screamed. He walked up to her crouching. Her hair was rough and see-through. He blinked seeing her scar bloodied again. She shook uncontrollably. He stepped back. Something was opening her scar!
He turned to vomit. "W-what is this…"
A tip of a sword started to come out of her navel and travelled upward. The skin peeled away and ebony hair poked out. Dark chuckling filled the room as the head pushed out of her body and tore her apart as he pulled his shoulders through.
Sasuke stepped back looking into familiar eyes.
His.
He laughed and licked the blood from his hand. "You haven't changed."
Sasuke heart was beating out of his chest. "I have."
"You think this… this worthless bitch could change us?!" He picked up his katana. "I am you, Sasuke."
"You're not."
He stepped out of her body. "You should have taken her when you had the chance."
"Shut up."
"Such a beauty, huh? You're trying to preserve that beauty. The Sasuke, you are would have ripped her apart without a second thought." His Sharingan glistened in the dark. "We would have enjoyed her scream of pain."
"Stop it!" He growled.
He grinned. "Are you going to kill yourself? It'll be the easy way out."
Sasuke took another step back and suddenly tripped over Hinata's dead body. His heart was beating in his ear. "I am not you, not anymore."
"Look in the fucking mirror!" He was towering over him showing him a reflection of himself. "You are evil. We both know it. It's a matter of time before you try suppressing me will not work anymore."
"Shut up."
He laughed. "Suppress me all you want, Sasuke because I will just keep getting stronger. We will kill everyone. We will do it with a smile on our face."
Sasuke was snatched up by himself. "I am not like that."
"You are a manic bent on control. We are one… stop fighting me off!" He yelled. "Stop it right now! You will kill everyone. We should have stayed dead, you know? Fighting your urges will get harder to control and you know it."
He closed his eyes. "This is a dream."
"Oh but dreams can come true. Did you think we were going to marry that weak whore? Admit it, you have to fight me every morning not to kill her in her sleep." He grinned. "You have to fight me not to rape her again." He threw him down. "Stop fighting me before I become angry."
"None of that is true…" He muttered.
He activated his Mangekyo. "Sasuke, it is and you know it. You want to kill Naruto so bad it hurts, you hate Sakura and you just want to lock Hinata up to be a slave. You want to rip her apart."
"I don't." He yelled. "I DON'T!"
"Sasuke… Sasuke…" He covered his ears. "Sasuke…"
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"Sasuke!"
He jolted up trying to control his heart rate. He looked over into lilac eyes filled with concern and tear brimming her eyes. "D-Did you leave me?" His voice was raspy. He looked down at his fist that refused to let go of the sheets.
She looked down at the coffee. "I went to make coffee."
He covered his face trying to calm down. "Un"
She put the cup down sitting next to him. "S-Sasuke…"
He rubbed her knee comfortingly. "It's… don't cry." He whispered.
"You were screaming!" She sobbed. "I… is that… does that always happen?" He nodded numbly. She hugged him. "I'm s-so sorry."
He shook his head. "Stop it." He muttered. "Just a bad dream…"
She looked up at him. "Tell me about it."
He closed his eyes. "Absolutely not."
She clenched her fist. "How can I help you when you aren't w-willing to receive it?"
"Hin-"
She shook her head. "You were screaming at the top of your lungs! You were screaming!" She pushed him weakly. "I was calling your name and shaking you b-but… you kept screaming."
"I killed everyone, okay?" He growled. "I killed everything."
She covered her mouth. "Sas-"
He raised his hand. "I was keeping you locked away in my room. I was killing you slowly…" He held his head. "I… the old me… came out of you." He shook his head. "He k-killed you… I killed you." He started hitting his head.
She touched his shoulder. "It was nightmare, you aren't that way."
"Anymore." He whispered.
She hugged him tight. "I… I don't care!" She sobbed in his chest. "P-please… I…" She clutched onto him. "I'm s-sorry!"
"Hinata, I am not a good guy."
She pulled back. "You're changing."
He closed his eyes lying down. "Aa."
"I won't leave you," She rested her head on his chest. "But… you can't leave me."
He needed help. That much he knew. He needed a lot of help. His demonic voice echoed inside his head. He had changed. He did. One doesn't just be around Hinata Hyuuga without changing. He was different. He hadn't fought anyone in a while and for once didn't itch too.
Not as bad as before.
He wasn't that way.
"You want to kill Naruto so bad it hurts, you hate Sakura and you just want to lock Hinata up to be a slave. You want to rip her apart."
No.
Admit it. You want her to suffer, it makes you so hot… it makes us hot, Sasuke.
No.
We are a sadistic bastard, Sasuke. We haven't killed in a while. Look at her, just take her pretty little chin and pop it to the side. It'll be easy. We can start our rampage from there.
Stop it.
Or we can just fuck her, over and over until she bleeds. We would love that. Imagine how'd she would feel. How she would scream our name. Oh, her blood would stain the sheets… doesn't that make you feel good.
Shut up!
He laughed. Is that why you're waiting? You think you'll be able to control yourself. Face it Sasuke, I come out to play when that happens. I come out and I will give it to her. Kami, don't wait just fuc-
That voice was cut off by a pair of soft lips. He replied slowly, softly… carefully. She caressed his face. "Sasuke…" She whispered.
He looked at her. She kept the pain away. She kept those nightmares away. She kept that voice away. Her goofy smile, her way of mispronouncing her words, the way she laughed and her eyes. They gave him a light at the end of the tunnel. His darkness wouldn't taint her but she would taint him.
He would let it. Kami, he would let it.
He would let her glow cover his body and block out his demons. She would make him stronger. Her light would be like an unspoken promise. He would allow her to infect him with whatever she had.
It was his oath to himself and all the demons that challenged him. She would protect him and there was nothing they could do to stop her.
"I love you."
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Author Note: I think it's back on the road that I want it to be. I was missing the insane Sasuke that I love writing. He will be back… like a rash. Ha, okay… please tell me how I did! Come on review, my sweet cupcakes.
School is starting soon and that is such a bummer! So I'll try updating whenever I get the time! Alright, I'm out! Peace!