Alicia In Wonderland

Disclaimer: I don't own Alice in Wonderland

Author's Note: Here's Chess's Letter to Alicia; I hope you enjoy!

My Dearest Leesh,

Life is funny. I had grown up believing that we each have a purpose on Earth, and we're here to be a part of a bigger picture. But I guess that the excess people end up here, in Underland. For what is my purpose? What of me? Why am I so special?

I used to believe that my long life meant that I'd be worth something extra one day. That I'd be more special than anyone. That I would end up doing a lot of things in my never-ending existence. When you trotted through the woods that day, I thought nothing of you...until I looked into your eyes. Something inside of me stirred. After blinking once, and opening my eyes once again, it was like I was a blind man seeing for the first time. I noticed everything; your voice, your face, your striking eyes, your every motion - be they sarcastic or serious. And I suppose that was the moment I knew I was in love.

That - I believed - was when I'd finally figured out my purpose. To love you; to protect Underland's hero. To hold you and comfort you and love you...to become one with you. But like I said, I suppose the unneeded people end up here, for now you are gone, and I am alone.

When Hatter lost Alice, he said to me "Time has a funny way of working. For while it has been nearly a century in her world, it has been a year in mine, though it has felt quite the opposite. While she is gone, now she is whole, and I am the broken one. Soulmates are the people we are connected to; their pain is our pain, their loss is our loss, their joy is our joy. But she was from a different world than I, and I have to learn to accept that. She is not coming back. Every time I think the words, I fear insanity. But then it doesn't seem so bad, because I'm already mad as a Hatter."

I never understood what he meant until now. It has been six months in Underland since you left. That means that it's been over fifty years in your world. Either you are...gone, or you are happily married. I don't want to think about it either way. For while you are happy, I am the broken one. You're not coming back...but sometimes, it feels like you're still here, in my heart, though you probably gave up on my long ago...

I am so confused! I miss you, Alicia! I need you back here with me! You would soothe me! You would hold me and love me as though I were an infant, crying hurtful tears! Why did you go away, Alicia? Why couldn't you stay when you knew how much I needed you? You know something? I loved you! I loved you so much, and I told you that as you were leaving Marmoreal! I saw the way Hatter was when Alice left, and I knew that I did not want to become a hollow shell of myself, but it was inevitable! The pain is unbearable Alicia! I can't take it! I can't! I'm drowning in it!

I loved you once...I love you still...always have...and always will.

Goodbye my love. I'll be seeing you.

-Chess

It probably seems a little out of character for Chess, but hey, he's upset; we're all a little different when we're sad. Anyway, I hope this gave you a little insight into my version of Chess, and I'll be seeing you for book 2!

~PeachyKeen13