Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or any of its characters.
It had been one of the saddest days of his life. The only day he could think that was sadder than this day was the day he had to bury his mother. Just the thought of it tore his heart to shreds, but yet he managed to keep it together. It was all because of Kagome, she was the person who stood by him the time. Through everything, the tears, the speech, and cremating, Kagome stood by his side.
Inuyasha collapsed onto the bed exhausted. He was emotionally drained and wanted to just crawl into a cave and sleep until next week.
Kagome, Kenshin, and Izayoi soon entered the room also about to collapse from exhaustion.
Kenshin and Izayoi had moved into their parent's room upon their father's wishes because Inuyasha felt bad about taking up another one of Sango and Miroku's rooms that was meant for their daughter, even though Sango and Miroku told him it was fine.
"Inuyasha what did you think of the funeral?" Kagome asked as she lay down next to her mate after tucking Kenshin and Izayoi in for the night.
"I don't know?" Inuyasha mumbled. The truth was he did know, but he wanted to avoid the subject.
"I see." Kagome responded understanding what Inuyasha meant.
This caused Inuyasha to smile.
"What?" Kagome asked.
"Nothing." Inuyasha answered shaking his head.
"It is something, or you would not have smiled." Kagome teased now wanting to pry.
"It is just…just that you get me, and understand me. You know when to pry and when to leave it alone." Inuyasha explained.
"Yeah….but it took a long time to perfect." Kagome said with a smile as she snuggled closer to Inuyasha.
"Kagome I am going to build us a new home." Inuyasha blurted out randomly.
"I know.."
"But it is going to be away from the village… I mean if it wasn't for me building that house on Kaede's land then maybe she would.." Inuyasha cut off as Kagome slapped him.
"What was that for!" Inuyasha growled.
"For blaming yourself again for everything." Kagome fired back. "Every time that something bad happens and you get hurt emotionally or whatever, you always blame yourself for it. I understand that you want to protect everyone you care about, but you just can't. I know that it hurts and my words won't stop you from trying either, but some things are just out of your control."
"Then why does it always feel that in every situation I could have prevented everything?" Inuyasha said as his eyes became wide and glazed with tears as he looked at Kagome.
She could see the hurt in his eyes and how they begged for answer, however Kagome did not have an answer. It was true though, everything bad that ever happened to Inuyasha always seemed to be preventable in some way or another.
"Well Inuyasha just think about it, if all the bad things did not happen then things would have worked out differently." Kagome said after carefully thinking about her answer not wanting to upset Inuyasha anymore than he already was.
"What do you mean?" he asked
"What I mean is that everything happens for a reason, and though events might seem bad, they will work themselves out." Kagome explained to Inuyasha.
At hearing thins Inuyasha became confused, but he was tired and decided to let it drop. He simply pulled Kagome closer and buried his face in her hair and let her scent drag him into a deep slumber.
-
In the next few weeks Inuyasha had not thought about Kaede or his fight against that demon. That was thanks to the fact the he was busy building a home for his family. However this time it was a little different than the last one, this was because Kagome had decided to help him design it. Their home that burned down was a typical feudal era home, which Kagome enjoyed, but she was still from the future.
So she worked with Inuyasha to make a futuristic house that still looked like it belonged in their era. Once again though there was a catch, Inuyasha refused to tell Kagome the location of their new home.
"Inuyasha why won't you show me where our new home is?" Kagome whined
"Because it is a surprise." Inuyasha groaned tired of Kagome constantly bickering.
"What is a surprise, I mean I practically designed." Kagome continued to beg.
"Yeah and mom you will love it." Kenshin chimed in.
"What!? They have seen it!" Kagome screamed causing Inuyasha to fall over backwards.
"Oh brother." Miroku mumbled under his breath to Sango.
"Kagome let me explain.."
"WHY HAVE YOU LET THEM SEE IT BUT NOT ME?" Kagome continued to scream. "I…."
"FINE GOD DAMNIT I WILL SHOW YOU TOMORROW IF YOU CARE THAT MUCH!" Inuyasha yelled before storming out of the house leaving everyone else but Ikumi who was wailing from her room, silent.
"Umm Kagome I think you need to go apologize to him.." Sango stated.
"For what!" Kagome snapped at her best friend.
"Kagome look I know you are excited about it, but give Inuyasha a break. He just wants to see you surprised when he is all finished." Sango said cautiously.
"So what! It is not like I did anything wrong." Kagome huffed.
"What she is trying to say is that Inuyasha has never had a whole lot to be excited for and when you put on one of your smiles when you see it for the first time will light up his world, and that is what he lives for. He lives to make you happy, see you smile, and he tries so hard to impress you." Miroku explained.
Kagome let out a long sigh as she let Miroku's words sink in and she knew he was right. Inuyasha did just want to make her happy and excited and she just got impatient.
"Sheesh Miroku when did you become such an expert on these issues?" Kagome asked as she walked towards the door.
"Ever since I first met my beloved Sango." He responded as everyone rolled their eyes.
-
When Kagome exited her friend's home she immediately saw Inuyasha. He was lying on his back with is hands behind his head looking up into the clear night sky in silence.
"Inuyasha." Kagome whispered knowing that she had hurt him. It w as not done purposely but she knew that it was her fault that he was mad.
"I'm sorry Kagome I should have shown the house sooner, but I just wanted to surprise is all." Inuyasha said not moving at all. There was no anger in his voice, or any other emotion.
Kagome was caught completely off guard, she could not make heads or tails of the situation. Her head was spinning. 'Did he really just apologize to me.' She thought.
Kagome sunk to the ground. 'Don't cry girl, whatever you do don't cry.' She thought, but her body paid no attention and she broke down.
Instinctively Inuyasha was pulling Kagome into is lap trying to comfort her.
"Why are you crying, all I did was apologize?" Inuyasha said as he ran his arm up and down her arm.
"B..be..because you did nothing wrong… and it was.. all my fault." Kagome managed to choke as she continued to sob into his chest.
"What? You're upset that I apologized!" Inuyasha blurted out unable to control it.
Kagome nodded her head into his chest trying to rid her eyes of tears.
Inuyasha pulled Kagome away from his chest and looked her straight in the eyes and gave her a smile that lit up the world in her eyes. Kagome stopped crying almost immediately.
"Yeah I guess it is stupid huh?" Kagome said recovering from everything.
"You're telling me. Kagome I love you and all, but I mean you cry a lot over little things like that." Inuyasha said not losing his smile.
"Well sorry if you catch me off guard with those strange things that you have never done before and they have an effect on me." Kagome said crossing her arms and looking away from her mate.
Still not losing his smile Inuyasha pulled Kagome into his arms and buried his nose in her hair and inhaled her scent before speaking. "Kagome I will show you the house tomorrow."
"Don't, I couldn't care less about seeing it before it is done, and I want you to be the one to show me around. " Kagome said.
"Are you sure?" Inuyasha asked.
"Yeah, I think I can wait a couple of more days….It is days right?" Kagome responded.
"Yeah and I am sure that you're going to love it." Inuyasha said kissing Kagome's forehead. "Lets go back inside." He waited for a nod before picking her up bridal style and walking back towards the house.
-
"Kagome c'mon I thought you wanted to see the house." Inuyasha called.
"Dad maybe.." Izayoi started.
"Well you know what Inuyasha if you had not come home so late last night then maybe I wouldn't be so tired." Kagome groaned as she stumbled sleepily out of the hut. "And besides why do we have to leave so early anyways? Also shouldn't we wait for Sango and Miroku to wake up?"
"Because I said so." Inuyasha barked
At this Kenshin and his sister rolled their eyes as if they knew what was about to come.
"Well why is it always about you?" Kagome fired back. "And as a matter of fact we will leave when I want to so I am going back to bed." And with that Kagome turned and stormed back inside.
"Fuck!" Inuyasha cursed under his breath and slowly followed her inside.
"I tell you sis dad loves mom but he sure has a strange of showing it." Kenshin said.
"Maybe..or maybe that is just how their relationship is, dad pisses off mom, mom gets mad and storms off, dad comforts mom.. like a never ending cycle." Izayoi responded.
"I don't know I mean they're our parents but they are just way to complex for me to understand." Kenshin shrugged.
"I guess we will never understand them, they just love each other, no reason they just do." Izayoi pointed out.
The siblings unsure of what do to next they just decided to wait for their parents.
-
Kagome was on her side facing the wall with her eyes open waiting for Inuyasha to come in and apologize to her. It was really no big deal, but Kagome just wanted to feel a little respected.
'Demons and their egos…I guess that is why I am his mate, to whip him into shape.' She thought.
As if right on cue Inuyasha walked into the room and a quick smile flashed on her lips and then quickly got back into character.
"Kagome look I am sorry about getting you up early to leave but I want to get to our new home and get settled in." Inuyasha explained.
"Inuyasha, why is everything always on your schedule. Why can't you let other people in and consider them?" Kagome asked.
"Be…be..because the last time …." Inuyasha paused. "Nevermind.. if you want to wait we can wait to leave I guess if it will make you…"
"Look Inuyasha I want us to compromise. I can make you agree to do whatever I want because you love me and hate to see me sad." Kagome admitted.
"Then what am I supposed to do, because it seems that I can't make us both happy now does it?" Inuyasha pointed out.
"Haven't you ever heard of compromising?" Kagome asked.
"Fuck this shit!" Inuyasha spat out "We are going now and I will tell you later where compromising gets you okay."
Kagome opened her mouth to argue, but something inside her told her to do as he wanted. One it was because she felt bad about always tricking him into doing as she wished, and there was something in his eyes that told her not to argue.
"Okay, just let me leave Sango and Miroku a note then." Kagome said.
Inuyasha waited outside while Kagome wrote the note and set it on the bench before the family set off.
-
Kagome paid no attention to how long the trip was or even what direction they were traveling. She was too lost in thought as to what happened to Inuyasha. She kept thinking that it had something do with him and Kikyou, but once again from what Kaede had told her about Inuyasha and Kikyou's tragedy told her it was something different.
'Why does he always have to keep everything bottled up!' She thought frustrated. No matter how much she tried to ignore she just could not stop obsessing over it.
However once Inuyasha stopped and she looked at the house all thoughts of Inuyasha's tragic past took a back seat for the time being.
"Inuyasha it is beautiful." Kagome gasped as she saw it.
"Yeah dad did do an awesome job huh." Izayoi added
"Well I am glad it has your approval." Inuyasha said sarcastically. "So Kagome are you ready to see the inside?"
Still in awe of the house she nodded and Inuyasha lead the way.
Sorry for the long delay in updating, but you can blame my high school for that, and I am afraid to say that the next update will not be for about 3 more weeks because once again school (shocker), but hopefully after that I can update multiple times during that two to week span (aka winter break) so I will see everyone again then.