The motel bed was harder then the plush queen size in the inn. Lilly shifted on her side trying to find a comfortable position. Lilly opened her eyes giving up after a little while. The kinks in her back ground against the muscles. Lilly stretched then got up to move towards the shower. The small cramped dimly lit room was a coffin compared to the lavish facilities the day before. The thin vinyl shower curtain smelled odd under the hot water. The water staining was barely visible. Lilly closed her eyes and imagined the water running off a high cliff down towards a secluded cave. The light around her was the diffusion of the sunlight that beamed down overhead. Lilly basked in the moment. The small sample size shampoo smelled like a mixture of unnamed flowers turning her long red hair into thick mounds of silk. Letting go, Lilly felt the strands of hair cascade down her back. The water streamed down her face eventually running clean. Lilly accepted the moment as bliss. The door opened and closed and Lilly tried but could not work the sound into her daydream.
"Lilly?" Dean's voice called out to her.
"She is not here right now." Lilly called putting a glob of conditioner through her hair.
"When she gets back let her know there is a burger getting cold." Dean peeked around the curtain.
"I will let her know." Lilly palmed his with her clean hand.
"Don't make me come in there. I still owe you a spanking for being stupid." Dean threatened.
The seriousness of his tone startled her. Lilly opened one of her eyes to check his expression. The sober face she was confronted with also startled her. Lilly scrunched her nose and scowled at him. Lilly stood there in all of her naked glory daring him to come in. Cocking her head to the side Lilly issued the challenge. Dean's left eyebrow shot up. The man seemed to contemplate his choices. Stepping in Dean stood up to his full height not bothering to slouch. The few extra inches made the difference. Lilly looked up into his face. Dean touched her elbow and in a few small motions Lilly found herself facing away from Dean. A sharp but light pop on her ass let her know he was playing. Lilly turned and began to pull off his t-shirt.
"We don't have time for that." Dean said stepping back.
"Your saying no to shower sex?" Lilly looked crestfallen.
"Oh god, I am." Dean said looking around confused.
"Do we really not have time?" Lilly shifted her posture to bring her body closer to his.
"We don't and Sammy is in the room." Dean considered the option anyway.
"Oh in that case." Lilly turned the water of and began to towel off.
"But…" Dean seemed defeated.
"The moment has passed." Lilly declared putting on panties then pants.
Dean stood in the shower staring at her with the most satisfying glare. Lilly turned her back to Dean and looked back over her shoulder. Lifting her bra into place, Lilly waited for Dean to help her. Dean just looked at her with an eat shit and die scowl and walked out of the bathroom. Lilly giggled and clasped her bra. Pulling on a shirt, Lilly walked out into the main room towel drying her hair. The confusion on Sam's face was just as satisfying. Sam looked down at Dean's slightly soaked clothing then back at Lilly. She smiled sweetly then bounced over to the take out food. Lilly smiled down at the two large cheeseburgers with bacon.
"Don't ask." Dean said flatly.
"Wasn't going to." Sam said opening up a bag of chips.
"So now what do you boys want to do?" Lilly turned the shoved the burger in her mouth.
"There is some weird demonic activity in Idaho." Sam offered up.
"I am good with that." Lilly bounced in her chair humming as she bit into the burger again.
Dean stood up disgruntled and headed towards his bag. Pulling out a dry shirt and pants, Dean changed on the spot. Lilly watched amused as he grumbled under his breath. Sam smiled at Lilly as she smirked at the man's back. Lilly turned and smiled widely at Sam. The three of them sat in silence smirking or glowering in their own right. Lilly just bounced and ate her burger. The ring glinted on her finger. Lilly stared down at it then wondered how a hunter marries. The strange question of which rituals to follow and where came to mind. Lilly accepted the concept of a white dress. Lilly did like the idea of a small chapel and someone she loved walking down the isle towards Dean. The idea of smashing a piece of cake into his open mouth amused her to the point of giggling. The two brothers looked at her as if she was loosing her mind. Dean noticed the way her eyes trailed back to the ring. Lilly's eyes snapped up then back down as she blushed.
"How long do you want to wait?" Dean asked her in between fries.
"With the ways things tend to shoot at us maybe we shouldn't wait too long." Lilly said shrugging.
"You have a point there. We shouldn't wait." Dean nodded.
"Dean are you sure you want this? It will change everything." Lilly looked at him then the room.
"Sammy, I need a best man." Dean stated more then asked.
"Dean that was before the angel flipped whatever switch they did. I think you two need to wait and think about this more." Sam said calmly.
Dean stared down at the burger in his hand then up at Sam. Lilly pulled back into her chair and sat still for the first time since she got out of the shower. It was her version of a disappearing act. Lilly wanted so badly to not be there. The room seemed a little smaller as the two brothers tried to out stubborn the other over opinions. The world began to blur lightly and Dean's head snapped up looking at her in the eyes. Lilly concentrated on those hazel eyes and the world took on hard lines again. Lilly smiled at him her lips barely curling up at the edges. The promise she made seemed to bind her to the chair.
"Done. You'll do it?" Dean popped another fry in his mouth.
"What if she is right?" Sam asked him.
"Then she is right." Dean said flatly. "But, I don't think it is like that. It doesn't make sense. If she was supposed to kill me then she could have by now. She hasn't."
"So what is she?" Sam asked flatly.
"She is someone I am not living without." Dean said frustrated at the conversation. "Sammy I want you there."
"You know I will. I just want you to make sure this isn't going to get you two hurt." Sam gave in.
"Do woman have best men?" Dean asked off handedly. Lilly watched one conversation overlap the other. The two brothers just continued on with dinner as they looked at her.
"No. The bride's person is called a bride's maid. Normally a girl, but I seem like I have a distinct lack of those. Do you think Ellen is available?" Lilly looked around.
"She has gone underground. The demons kept chasing her thinking she knew where you would. She has been leading them on a wild goose chase." Sam gave the answer before Dean.
"I wonder if Cas would wear a dress?" Dean smirked.
"Maybe." Lilly considered asking the only family she had left.
Lilly watched the two men as they looked back at her. It was a fifty-fifty shot that Cas would accept or outright refuse. Even that was a lie. Cas wanted her to walk away from Dean. Cas felt it was the only way to protect him and she knew it. Lilly's heart sank thinking about a church where she couldn't even get one person to gather on her side. Lilly's face must have shown the sorrow, because before she could sink further into the image Dean shoved a fry at her face. Lilly looked up then blinked away the false reality.
"Bobby is ordained." Sam said off handedly.
"Do I want to know?" Dean asked.
"It was a job. There was a demon hunting at a church. He went in to the classes to find it. The classes finished before the job did." Sam nodded his head as he recalled the story.
"That solves that problem. There is a little church near there that is consecrated ground." Dean added.
"Who's Bobby?" Lilly asked finally wanting in the conversation.
"He is the closest thing we have to a father." Dean said then moved around the room gathering up the last few items.
"I want you two to drive. I am going to talk with Cas then you can call me when you get there and I will show." Lilly finished off her burger.
"I don't know." Dean didn't seem to like the idea.
"Dean I need to talk to him. I need him to be okay with this. He is the only family I have left." Lilly crossed the room.
"Alright, but you promised." Dean reminded her, not that she really needed it.
"You're silly. Now you two get a head start. If I get done before you call, I'll call you." Lilly kissed him on the cheek. "Plus I have to pick up a dress."
Sam grabbed his bag and headed towards the door. Dean stood there looking at her. Lilly could feel anxiety that he didn't show bubble up in him then get locked away. Lilly crossed the room and kissed his full lips. Dean allowed the action to relax him, and Lilly eased back out of the kiss. Closing her eyes Lilly imagined the living room of her home. The soft cream colored walls and the one red wall that set the room. The smells of her home with the slight hint of stale air from the lack of open windows. Lilly opened her eyes to watch the world blur then the dark walls of the motel shifted. Dean's face faded into the details of the art on her walls. The crisp lines of her living room came into focus. Lilly saw the dried red sigil on her cream walls with a smeared hand print in the center. Lilly walked into the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of yellow all purpose cleaner then a sponge. The mark faded but a faint outline remained. Lilly took what she could get.
"Cas!" Lilly screamed at the empty room and waited. "I know you hear me!"
"Lilly." Castiel's voice came from behind her.
"Cool. I actually didn't know if that would work. I kind of assumed you could hear your own name from anywhere." Lilly smiled at him.
"Lilly, why did you call?" Cas asked after a moment.
"I want to ask you something as family." Lilly tried to find a way to have this conversation. "I know you don't agree with me staying around Dean, but I want you there when we get married."
Castiel watched her from across the room. The two of them just stood there. Lilly could see the range of emotions on his face. A soft slight smile won out. Castiel crossed the room standing close to her. Awkwardly he stretched out his arms and encircled her. Lilly squeezed the man back. The action was too rigid and lasted a little longer then most people would be comfortable with. But, Lilly accepted the hug in the way it was meant. Stepping back Castiel looked as if he finally understood a mystery that had always eluded him.
"Did I do that correctly?" Castiel asked her seriousness in his tone.
"Did you do it out of love?" Lilly asked the simple question.
"I did." Castiel considered her question.
"Then yes, you did." Lilly smiled at him.