The Doctor was awoken the next morning by the smell of breakfast cooking. He almost didn't want to get out of bed. Emily was sound asleep on his chest and Sophie was nestled as close as she could get to his right side. It had taken him awhile to get them to sleep again after they had been awoken by his yelling. His leg was throbbing though and he needed pain killers. Grabbing his sonic off the table where he left it, he unlocked the door. A few minutes later there was a soft knock followed by the door opening a crack. His hearts sped up for a moment as he worried it was Jack.
"Morning, I have pain killers and tea." Martha commented opening the door wider. He smiled as he let out a sigh of relief.
"Just what I needed." He stated as she came in. Carefully he moved Emily off his chest and she groaned at him. He pushed himself to sit up further and took the tea and pills from Martha. He swallowed them gratefully.
"Give them a few minutes to kick in while you wait for breakfast. Jack is making a full English breakfast so I hope you are hungry." Martha informed him.
"Starving," He muttered.
"Are you sure you are all right with having him here?" Martha asked. The Doctor didn't answer her right away as he reached down and brushed Sophie's hair out of her face.
"No," He replied finally. "I am not all right with him here, but I am not going to tell him to leave again either."
"Would you like me too?" Martha asked and the Doctor shook his head no. He didn't quite understand it but it was just like before when he was laying in the bed in the medi-bay and just wanted Jack. As much as it hurt to be around Jack he felt safer with Martha and Ianto there to help him. He ran his hand through the back of his hair and then rubbed his neck. Martha left without another word and so he turned his attention to his girls.
"Wake up sleepy head." He cooed at Emily as he stroked her hair. She groaned again and tried to bury her head. Chuckling he pulled the blankets down. "Papa is making breakfast so you need to get up."
"I don't want to go to school," she grumbled into the pillow.
"There is no school today, we are at the cabin, but you still need to get up." He informed her as he gently stroked her hair still. He reached out and gently stroked Sophie's hair as well.
"Good morning Sophie." He smiled as as she opened her eyes.
"Can we go swimming?" Sophie asked as she stretched beside him. Sophie tended to wake easier and more coherently then Emily in the mornings, it was why he usually started with waking Emily.
"I can't go swimming with a broken leg, but maybe Auntie can take you swimming." He suggested. "Now go get ready for breakfast." Sophie scrambled out of the bed while Emily pulled the blankets back up over her head. He pulled them down and tickled her nose slightly.
"Wake up." He told her a little more stern. She opened her eyes and then glared at him.
"I'm sleepy Daddy," She complained.
"I know, but it is time to get up. Now go get ready for breakfast." He pointed at the door and she sighed as she made her way out of it. Grabbing his crutches he made made his way down the hall. Jack was just finishing plating the eggs for the breakfast as he made his way to the table. He paused. "Jack can I talk to you alone for a minute." He said instead and turned towards the front door. He saw out of the corner of his eye Jack hesitate but then follow him out the front door. He made his way slowly over to the SUV and leaned against it for support.
"Why the drugs?" He asked finally as he looked Jack in the eyes.
"I swear to you I didn't know it was 9d at first." Jack said and the Doctor nodded, not believing him but allowing him to go on. "I took just one and it was an early human prototype of the drug. It just escalated from there."
"That doesn't explain why you took the drugs in the first place," The Doctor snipped and then took a deep breath. "Why did you start taking drugs?"
"Honestly Doctor I felt trapped and the alcohol wasn't working anymore. I love you and our girls but I miss the days where it was just the two of us traveling among the stars. We only had to stop so that I could check in with Torchwood periodically, other then that we were free to come and go as we pleased. Now it is school, swimming lessons and piano lessons. When we do travel it is to places safe for the girls and there is no running anymore." Jack admitted. "You and I barely have time for each other and when we do go out, it is to somewhere I will enjoy, while you sit there and wait to go home."
"So you regret taking Emily and Sophie in?" The Doctor asked. He agreed that being domestic was hard sometimes when all he wanted to do was run. It was especially hard when they were both infants and sick and he had to take care of them alone while Jack was working late. His daughters meant everything to him though and he wouldn't trade them for anything.
"No, I love the girls with all my heart. I just miss the freedom." Jack responded with a sigh. "I miss us."
"You ruined us though, by taking the drugs Jack."
"Can't we at least try to work on this. You said last night if I wanted to come home and back into your bed I had to change and I am willing to change. Are you still willing to give me that chance?" Jack found himself asking. The Doctor looked out at the trees past Jack. For a moment he caught movement in the trees and determined it was an animal and not any kind of threat. He remembered saying the words but did he really mean them. "I will even submit to your drug test. Not that I am going to need them because I have learned my lesson Doc."
"Prove it." The Doctor replied as he leaned away from the SUV and started back towards the cabin. His stomach felt as though it was gnawing angrily at him. He wasn't sure if he was hungry still or if he was going to be sick. He made his way over to the table, where an odd assortment of extra chairs had been found and placed around it. Everyone was sitting waiting for the two of them so they could start breakfast. He took the open seat at the top of the table next to the girls. Martha was sitting next to Sophie on the right with Samuel on her lap and Ianto was sitting across from Martha. Jack came in a moment later and took the seat directly facing him. The food smelled wonderful but he decided he was going to be sick. He stood again, hurrying down the hallway and barely made it to the loo. His stomach flipped and he lost the tea from earlier and the remainder of the pills. He groaned as he sat back against the wall. What was he doing letting Jack into their lives again so soon?