Bella's POV

Everything hurts, it just aches. Even during my worse migraine it has never been quite this bad. Everything is swirling and I feel like I am drowning. I can feel my stomach start to rebel and I start to gag. I feel Jasper's hand on my neck has he lifts me up and I know he stays with me while I throw up. He knows my body better than I do and I know he had a bucket for me. "Rest Bella." He whispers into my ear and moves the hair off my face. I drift off again and just try to sort everything swimming in my head.

Names without faces, faces without names, languages I vaguely understand, places I must have been, memories that were once mine swarm my head and take over my body. So much is hitting me at once that I can't even begin to sort through it. I feel Jasper with me I try to anchor myself to that. His hand on mine, his fingers running through my hair, his breath on my forehead has he kisses me softly.

Through the fog I hear clips and phrases from the conversation around me but not enough to understand what is going. "Did you take my daughter?" "You should leave." "She is my wife." "She is not your wife." "What is going on." "You're being too loud you need to leave."

I'm not sure how much time has passed by the time my head has decided to stop throbbing and has been able to filter just a bit of what has flooded it. I gradually start to open my eyes and to my delight Jasper is sitting next to the bed holding my hand. "Jasper." I manage to whisper out. He jumps slightly and moves to the bed and sits down next to me. He traces his finger over my face and smiles at me. "You made it back. How are you feeling?"

"Not wonderful but I feel better. It hurts so badly." I manage to tell him without bursting into tears. He leans down and kisses my forehead. "We are still down with them, you were too sick to move and honestly I think they would have fought me to keep you here."

It slowly starts to come back... Madre... "What is going on?" I ask unable to connect everything together to answer the question myself. Jasper frowns slightly. "I am not sure, I was hoping you would be able to tell me. Can you talk to them now?"

I struggle to stand up and Jasper helps me get to my shaky feet. "I can try." I pathetically tell him unsure if I can walk to the courtyard let alone explain what is going on in my head. Jasper keeps his arm around my waist as he helps me to the courtyard. Once we go through the door four men and one woman jumps up and to face me.

The woman's face makes my mind scream MADRE! "I don't understand, you're my mother right?" I ask her unsure. The woman steps forward to reach for me but Jasper pulls me back just slightly. I look at the men. I take in the tallest man, he scares me a bit. "I know you, not your name but I know that I know you. " I turn to man next to him. "Your name is Jacob. I have a memory of you, I was just a young girl and I had a bit of a crush on you. I don't know what changed but something did." The other two men and waiting to see if I know them. "I know you both... um your names I am sorry it's hard but I know you."

I look back to the woman. "Are you my mother?" I ask with tears in my eyes. The woman ignores Jasper protective arm around me and runs to hold me. "Yes I am Isabella. I don't know how this is possible but you are my little girl." She cries into my hair.

"I have a father. I can see him. He's tan with soft chocolate eyes and dark hair. Ummm his name is Carlos is that right?" My mother shakes her head happily. That spurs me to keep thinking. "I have siblings but I can only think of one. He is so tall and built like a ox. His name is Em... umm Emmett yes that's right. My best friend is a blonde girl with crystal blue eyes and her name is Rosa. I am from Spain. Oh my I am Spanish, not even English. Why do you speak English? I know I am Spanish."

Jasper pulls me into him for a moment. "Bella I want you to think this through. It's alright." He assures me. I let the information hit me. I close my eyes and I can see my home. I had a suite of rooms that over looked the gardens. Until arriving on the island I had spent my entire life in Spain, I am Spanish. My mother never quite fit in. She's not Spanish. She's Scottish. Oh god this can't be right. My eyes open and I look to Jasper for help. "Yo estoy la princesa. Me llama Isabella."

My head starts to hurt again as the information sinks in. My legs start to give out but Jasper keeps me from falling. "Ayudame por favor Jasper!" I cry out unsure what is happening. "I am here love I am here." Jasper whispers into my ear has he holds me through my break down.

"Como this possible? I don't understand. Como estoy una princess?" My brain can't even keep the languages straight I am just throwing words together. My mom steps forward and rests her hand on my shoulder. "I don't know Isabella but you are my little girl. You are the Princess Isabella of Spain. And somehow I found you after all this time."

Jasper tries to help move me to a chair in the courtyard and when he finally get me in I pull him to me and insist that he stays glued to my side. I can tell that Jacob and the other men aren't too thrilled by this. "Did you kidnap her?" The taller man asks Jasper.

"No, I swear it! My men and I attacked James' ship and were going to sink it. Right before we did one of the men let us know that there was still another life on board. I found her on the ship and she was too ill to speak for herself. I brought her back here and nursed her back to health. When she woke up she told me her name was Bella. Later I found out she had no memories of her life before she woke up on that boat. I swear to you that she and I had no idea who she was. If I had known she was the princess I would have course taken her back to her family." Jasper tries to explain to them.

I lean into Jasper and rest my hand over his heart. It is beating wildly and I tell myself it's because he is holding me and not because these men might kill him. "I am glad you didn't." I whisper just for him to hear. He turns his head and kisses my forehead.

"I had no idea, how could he? Until a few moments ago I had no idea. Until I fainted that earliest memory I had is waking up on the boat with Laurent leaning over me. I had no idea who I was or why I was there. He called me Bella and I just went with it. The pirate James must have lied to me, well I guess he did lie to me about who I was. Early on he even had a girl who looked a bit like me get dragged through the ship and told me she was the Princess and I had hurt her along with him and his men. He told me I was a whore from Liverpool, that I was more specifically his whore."

My mother gasps. Huh, my mother, I never thought I would know who my mother was. I can't help but chuckle slightly. "He told me that my mother was a well known whore in Liverpool before me I guess that was a lie." She looks at me shocked and I can't help but laugh at the ridiculousness of that lie. My mother is a queen. "He told me that I came with him to give him a child. I had no memory to tell me otherwise. Before Jasper rescued me I had angered him and he locked me in the dungeons of the ship. If Jasper had not found me I would have sunk to the bottom of the ocean when he burnt the ship. He not only saved my life then, but managed to save it almost every day since. I should have died on that boat, I should have died on his, but he kept fighting for me to live. It took months but I finally physically healed. He then offered me a safe place on the island with a job and people around me who cared for me."

"Oh my, you're his woman. You have children with this man don't you?" My mother seems scandalized. I guess she is a bit. I doubt this was part of her plan for my life. I shake my head yes. "Yes mother. I am his woman, his wife. We have three beautiful children. Our oldest is a our son Iain, he is five and half. Then our twin girls Esme and Renee they are a little over two years old." Then it dawns on me. "You're name is Renee! That must be why I named her Renee."

Mom's face softens a bit at that. "My best friend and your god mother's name is Esme as well Isabella." I look to Jasper and smile. "The woman I saw, the brunette who would sing to me, she is real."

Another thought comes to mind. "Why isn't father with you?" Mom's face falls and she leans back in her chair. She takes in deep breath and then reaches out for my hand. "Honey your father passed away a few years ago. You're brother is now King."

"Emmett he was married right? He was married to a nice young girl I think her name was Anna no that's not right Angela right? She was pregnant." Mom looks to Jacob and seems unable to continue.

Jacob moves to stand next to my mom. "You're brother was married to her. She passed away in childbirth five years ago. He has since remarried your friend Rosalie." I can remember Angela, she was a soft spoken sweet girl. It is hard to imagine that she is dead. It is hard to comprehend that my father is dead. He will never know that I am fine, and happy. I look up to my mom. "He married Rosa? They were in love before right?"

She just shakes her head yes. "They were and are still in love. I am happy for them but it has been rough. You're father chose Angela because she came from a powerful house with a great name. Rosalie may be the love of his life but did not bring any political stability to us. England has been..." Before she can finish I jump up and face Jasper.

"Everything with Edward, with the seas, it's been because of me. Oh god it really is me. All of those lives because of me." Jasper pulls me to his chest and rubs circles in my back. "No love that was all James' doing. There was nothing you could have done." For a moment I can forget that my mother is even here with Jasper's arms around me and his scent giving me comfort. I want to forget them all for a moment. This is too much.

I can feel the others growing uncomfortable with our display of affection but I don't care. I slowly pull back but we both keep a limb around the other. I look back over the men. "I remember now, it's Samuel, Jared, and Paul. Is that right?" They all shake their heads and Jared and Paul even smile at me. I take in the sun and see it is near evening. "I know we just found each other again but I need to get home. I have to get the children feed and ready for bed. We can talk again tomorrow. I need time to process this."

"Can I meet them?" My mother asks. I shake my head and reach for her hand. "Of course, just not tonight. I need time to talk to them first. Tomorrow I promise you can meet them." I can tell they don't want to let me go but I don't care, I need to get to my children they are going to be worried as it is. I wasn't supposed to be gone this long. After a long teary hug with my mom Jasper and I manage to get out of the house and head back home. There is a new set of guards at the front door but I am to overwhelmed to catch on to who it was.

Before we enter the house Jasper stops me. "Are you going to be alright?"I shake my head yes. "Let's get the kids fed and ready for bed then we will call Peter, Alice and Charlotte up and we can talk." I am not ready to talk about this with the kids yet. It's to fresh, to unsure.

Once I open the door I am I hear Renee's cries and follow the sound to my feet by the door. She is sitting on the floor next to the door holding her doll crying softly. "Mama! Mama!" She cries out when she sees me. I quickly run in and pick her up pulling her into my arms and cuddling her head into my chest. "Mama go." She continues to wail into my chest. I just hold her to me and try to soothe her. I don't know if I have been gone from her that long without her being asleep.

"I'm sorry honey, I am home now. Don't you cry sweet heart." I whisper to her attempting to pacify my little girl. Jasper comes behind me and rests his hand on Renee's back as well. "Everything is alright honey your mama is home." I hear the pitter patter of little feet running down the hall and see Esme and Iain coming at us fast. Jasper pulls away and catches them in his arms.

"You guys gone like all day." Iain scolds us. Esme just shakes her head in agreement. Jasper kisses them both on the forehead. "I know buddy we are sorry but we are back now."

I manage to move us all further into the house and I see Leah and Seth in the courtyard picking up the kids toys. "Hey you're finally back! Charlotte came up about an hour ago and invited us all down to dinner. We were just getting the kids ready. You guys ready to eat?" Leah calls out to me.

Renee is calming down slightly and is now hiccupping into my chest. Iain and Esme have already escaped their daddy's arms and are running around the courtyard. "Just give us a minute." I respond walking over to Leah to try and transfer Renee. My little girls starts to fuss and I kiss her forehead. "Sweetie I need you to be a good girl for mommy and snuggle with your aunt Leah for a while. You love aunt Leah right?" Renee pouts but shakes her head yes. I kiss her again and turn to grab Jasper to find him already gone.

I follow him into the bedroom assuming that is where he went. I find him sitting on the bed with his head in his hands resting on his knees. He looks up at me when I come in and I can see his eyes are fighting back tears. "Oh god Bella I am so sorry." I cross the room and knell down next to him and take his hands. "What do you have to be sorry for?"

"You're a princess Bella, or is it Isabella now? Or is it your highness? You were meant to be a queen. And what do I do? I bring you back to a secluded island and make you clean my house, mend my clothes, make my meals, clean my friends homes, help heal an island of pirates, make you raise our children that I don't even have the dignity to make them legitimate or even make you my actual wife." I can hear him breaking. I need more time to deal with this then having our children and closest friends waiting in the courtyard for dinner.

"I need a minute Jasper. Please just wait here a moment." I run out to the courtyard and grab Leah. My kids love her so much so I know they will go with her. Her softness with them, and even with me, It always amazes me when I have seen her kill a man without batting an eye yet holding my kids like they are precious stones. "Can you take the kids down to Peter's for dinner? I need to spend some time with Jasper. We will be down once we are done. I just need uninterrupted time with him."

Leah looks uneasy and looks back to the bedroom. "Is everything alright?" Renee starts to cry in Leah's arms upon the news I won't be with them longer and tries to grab for me, but I need to fix Jasper first.

"Everything will be fine. I just need to talk to him." I look at Renee and give her a weak smile. "If you can be a good girl for mommy and go have dinner I will let you sleep with me and daddy tonight." I try to bargain with her.

Her little chin quivers and sets her jaw much like Jasper does when he makes a decision. "You prowmis." She asks. I lean in and give her a kiss. "Yes I promise."

I hug Iain and Emse and see them off then run back to the bedroom to deal with the man who has captured my heart and saved my life on countless occasions. "I understand that you will want to leave. I won't force you to stay." He tells me as I enter the room. His back is to the door and he is resting his weight on my dressing table and I can hear his heart breaking with every word.

There are times for words and there are time for actions. In this case I will need both but I need to start with actions. I cross the room and spin Jasper around, I hear him drop whatever he is holding but I don't care what it is. I frame his face with my hands and I pull him down to kiss him desperately. He sobs into my kiss and I can taste the salt from his tears as I kiss him. I pull back just enough so he can see my face and see just how serious I am.

"Jasper we need to talk. First of all I am Bella first and foremost forever with you. Isabella the Princess of Spain died years ago despite the fact she just remembered who she was. I never wanted to be a queen and now I remember the dread of being sent to that despicable man. There is nothing I want more in my life than to keep our home clean, keep your clothes mended and fresh, make sure you eat three hearty meals every day, make sure our friends homes are cleaned, heal the people of this island, and most importantly raise our amazing children with you. I will repeat what I told you years ago, I don't need a man in a dress to make me any more yours. I am yours Jasper and you are mine until the day we die. And at that point if there is a god we will be kept together even after then. I will not be going anywhere after this and if there ever was a time where I would I would expect you to fight for me not let me leave. I love you Jasper Whitlock just as much as I did this morning and every morning before that and will love you the same if not more every morning to come. Everything I am is yours and I would shrivel up and die without you beside me. I will forever be Bella, your wife, your woman, the mother of your children, the keeper of your home, the owner of your heart. Is that understood?" Jasper's eyes at first wouldn't meet mine but by the end he can't keep them off mine. He leans down to capture my lips and I let him kiss me deeply, the desperation seeping through. "I need to hear you say you understand Jasper."

His arms circle around me and pull me has close as I can get to him. "I understand. I am sorry I ever doubted... I was just so shocked and after my dreams these last few months, It felt like one of them. I felt helpless for a moment like it was going to all be taken away from me and there was nothing I could do. I figured it was God's way of trying to prep me for your leaving. I love you so much Bella and I will always fight for you."

Now is definitely time for action. I don't need words to express how I am feeling right now. I snake my hands around his neck and pull his lips back down to mine. It kills me that even for a little while he thought I could leave him, that he would deal with that alone. I could never leave him. "We need to head down to yours sister's but before than you better take me Jasper Whitlock." I manage to get out between kisses. He starts to move me to the bed but I just push him to the wall a few inches behind him. "The bed is too far." I breathlessly manage to get out.

Jasper picks me up and wraps my legs around his waist as he pushes me against the wall. I pull my dress out of the way and frantically try to undo his pants. There isn't a part of our bodies that we don't know by this point and we can make each other frantic in just moments and yet it never ceases to amaze me how quickly he can make me come undone.

There is no one I know better than Jasper and I can feel him getting ready to just let go. "I'm yours Jasper. Only yours forever."I moan out over and over again has he slides in and out of me pushing me harder into the wall. My hands are trying to hold on to him as we love each other wildly. To be honest I am not even sure if he realizes it but he starts to cry out "Mine!" Every time he pounds into me.

It doesn't take much time and we are both cumming. My legs go lax and start to slide down his hips. I can tell he uses the last of his energy to carry me to the bed and collapses next to me. While we bask in the aftermath he trails his fingers over my skin and peppers my face with kisses. He lazily unties the laces on the front of the dress I choose today and through my shift and moves it out of the way so he can trace unknown patterns out on my breasts. I don't want to move but with his help I manage to slip my dress off my shoulders and down my hips kicking it to the floor finally. Jasper quickly rolls over and cages me beneath him. He licks the shell of my ear and moans "mine" into my ear and I can't help but arch up into him.

Now that the frenzy is over we can slowly work our way back up. I slip my hands under his shirt and drag my nails down his back and trail them down to cup his perfect ass. "Yours forever Jasper." I cry out as he takes my nipple into this mouth. It takes me a few moments but I manage to get his shirt off and we both manage to kick his pants off as well. He slowly enters me again and once he is fully seated I stop him for just a moment. I take his hand and rest it over my heart and rest mine over his. "Feel my heart Jasper. Just like yours it only beats like this for you." He leans down and captures me mouth in a passionate kiss. I could never leave this.

Ever so slowly we move together. My body is slowly catching on fire but it's the best fire I could ever imagine being consumed by. Time stops for us and it's just us together. Everything else fades as I focus on the man above me. Nothing matters but his body moving in and out of mine, his lips grazing my skin, his hand linking with mine. "Jasper." I whisper out unable to control my body arching up into his and moving with him. "My Bella." He responds kissing my lips again. I can't hold out any longer and feel my body going over the edge and Jasper isn't far behind.

He rolls to the side and pulls me to him as we breath heavily, both of us practically panting and clinging to each other. We continue to kiss and touch each other as we slowly drift off.

We aren't asleep long, but we needed to just doze for a moment. "We should get down there. The kids are probably little terrors by now." I chuckle out thinking of what Iain and Esme must be getting into. Renee won't cause any mischief but she was at her two year old limits before she left. We manage to get out of bed and help each other dress all the while stealing kisses and touches.

The walk down is difficult for us since all we want to do is be with each other. The entire way down our lips keep searching the others out and we hide ourselves against other people's homes as our hands travel over our bodies. I wish we had the time to just stay in bed for a few hours but our children do need us. We get to the house finally, and only look slightly disheveled. Their front door is locked as well so we knock and wait for someone to answer.

Peter answers the door fairly quickly and I note the sword on his hip. Jasper and Peter never wear their swords in the house and Jasper has been wearing his too. They are worried. "Jasper! Bella! How are you doing? Leah said you guys were gone almost all afternoon."

I lean into Jasper and he puts his arms around my shoulders and pulls me into him. "Bella had a terrible migraine attack at the house and I couldn't move her. We'll talk about it later tonight. I am starving."

That seems be enough to pacify Peter for now and lets us in locking the door behind us. Esme, Iain, and Maisie are sitting on the floor rolling a ball between them. Fiona and Ciara and sitting with Alice and Charlotte and they are all laughing at a secret only mothers and daughters share. Seth is with Alec and Bree still at the table eating slowly and Leah is holding Renee to her chest. Renee sees me and breaks into a toothy grin and wiggles her hands out for me. "Mama!" She giggles out. I get her in my arms and she wraps her arms around my neck and gives me a sloppy kiss.

"Bella foods in the kitchen you guys can help yourself!" Charlotte calls out from her spot with her lover and children. Esme notices us and jumps off the floor missing the ball Iain rolled to her and crashes into my legs "Mama me play!" She excitingly shouts out to me. I lean down and ruffle her hair.

"Did you have fun with your cousins?" I ask her knowing she had a great time. All the kids get along great even with their age differences. Renee allows me to pass her to Jasper so I can pick up Esme too. Jasper gives Renee a loud kiss and she giggles while burying her head in her father's chest. I can't help but flash him a huge smile. He smiles back at me over Renee's head.

We head into the kitchen and fill our plates and head back to the table. We eat quickly, Iain having now joined us and they all want our attention. After dinner we play with the kids in the courtyard but they start to yawn. I look up at Alice. " Would it be alright if we put the kids to bed for a bit down here. We need to talk to you and I want to get them to bed."

"Sure, Ciara honey why don't you get Fiona and Maisie and head to bed as well. Do you think you can watch your cousins till Aunt Bella and Uncle Jasper are ready to go?" Alice gets up and heads over to her daughters giving each of them a kiss. "Sure mom I will get everyone ready. Just come get the little ones when they are ready to leave." The girls say good night to the rest of their parents and I get our little ones put down with Ciara and Fiona.

Renee is worried that I will renege on my promise so I promise Renee that when we leave she can sleep with us in our bed. Esme and Iain hear us taking and demand that they get to sleep with us too so I promise all the kids that they can all sleep with us. Once all the kids are mostly asleep I head out and see Jasper already has everyone seated and ready for me. I cross the room and sit down next to Jasper nuzzling myself into his side.

"Alright, time to spill it. You guys have had me worried all day." Leah speaks up once I sit down. I look out at my family and friends and give them a weak smile. "Well I had a memory today. A really big one." I say slightly cryptically and look up at Jasper unsure how to continue.

Jasper kisses my forehead and looks back out at them too. "I don't think we want this to get around the island but I think I speak for Bella when I say we can't keep something like this from you all." I shake my head in agreement. "Bella came down with me this morning to drop off breakfast for the queen and her guards. While we were down there Bella meet the queen and... well... she had a memory... " Jasper is just as confused as I am on where to start.

"The queen is my mom." I blurt out unsure how to get there. Everyone's eyes grow wide and I blush unsure what to say. "I saw her and I knew she was my mom and then my head started to spin and I fainted. It took hours but Jasper watched over me and I woke up. We talked and she is my mom. I remember some things, not everything mind you, but a lot. I remembered by brother and my father, and I guess partially who I was."

Alice and Charlotte are both pale and leaning into Peter. Bree is staring at us with wide eyes and rests her hand over her baby as Alec grabs her other hand. Seth just sits there with his jaw dropped. Leah starts to speak then stops a few times then finally gets it out. "So you are the princess Isabella of Spain?" She stutters out.

I shake my head yes. "It appears that is who I was. I want to make it clear that I am not her any longer. I am still all of your all's Bella but that is who I was and its slowly all coming back."

"That's how you knew French all those years ago?" Alice mentions almost not realizing she's speaking out loud. Jasper chuckles and I look at him surprised. " I never wanted to mention it and upset you but sometimes when we are intimate you speak Spanish, German, and French. I should have thought it through."

Now it's my turn to be shocked. "I speak all of those languages to you?" Jasper just chuckles. "Well more moan them out but yeah." That seems to break the silence and everyone laughs at that. Jasper kisses the top of my head as I laugh as well. I can't believe I never noticed and that he never told me.

"So what does this mean then?" Peter inquires, I can tell he means and I am leaving with them. I shrug my shoulders. "To be honest I don't know. I am not going anywhere my place is here now but I do want to see my brother again if possible and spend some time with my mom but this is my home. I could never leave you all let alone try and walk away from Jasper."

Charlotte lets out a sigh of relief and Leah jumps up and hugs me. I am a bit shocked by Jasper just pats my back. "Good I was worried you were going to tell us you were leaving for a moment." Leah whispers. I can tell she has tears in her voice. "I didn't want to have to deal with a depressed Jasper without you." She heads back to her seat and Seth reaches out to grab her hand to lend his support to his big sister.

"I already discussed this with Jasper. This is where my life is All of that is my past and this is my present and future. Now it's getting late. We can talk further about this tomorrow but I have three little ones that need to get to bed and I'm exhausted." We all say good night to each other despite the fact everyone seems in shock of what we have learned. Leah and Seth say they still plan on staying with us just in case so they help us get the kids up. I gently pick up Renee who stays sound asleep and curls into my chest. Jasper picks up Iain who does wake up but just holds on to his dad, and Leah gets Esme.

Once back at the house we drop the kids off in bed and wish Leah and Seth a good night. Jasper and I grab out sleeping clothes and head back into the nursery to change. We slowly strip each other down lavishing each other in kisses and regrettably redress. We climb into beds with the kids between us. I reach across them and caress Jasper's face. "This is all I need in life Jasper. Look around, we have three wonderful children, hopefully a fourth on the way, and each other. I love you."

Jasper grabs my hand and kisses my palm. "I love you to now get some sleep." I lay down and Jasper and I can't stop staring at each other. I know if the kids weren't in bed with us this would be one of those nights where we make love till dawn but I am glad they are. I want to have my entire family with me like this when my entire world just got shook to it's very core. I start to drift off and the last thing I see is Jaspers blue eyes starting to close a well.

a/n I hope you liked it! Still so much to come! Let me know what you thought.