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A/N: Second chapter of the day. One more to go!
Chapter 25, Raindrops or Tears?
We pulled up to the DX and I calmly got out of the car. I looked like a statue, stony, expressionless, and that automatically put Dally into brother mode for some strange reason.
"Criss? What's wrong? What happened?" He asked, stomping out a weed and walking over to me.
I snorted. "Like you really give a flying fuck."
"I do. Who's ass am I kicking?"
"Mine. For being a stupid. blind, lovesick little girl." I said angrily.
"Crystal! This is not your fault! He doesn't even REALIZE that the best thing that ever happened to him just walked out the fucking door! If anyone's ass deserves to be kicked, it's his. Not yours." Alex cut in. She was livid, ready to tear someone (Soda) apart.
"Wait, what?" Dallas asked, his brow furrowing. "You and Soda get into it or something?"
"No, the stupid fuck cheated on her… with Sandy." Evie growled. "She walked in on them making out on the co…"
"Oh my gosh, shut up! Do you honestly think she wants to relive the incident? No!" Emily said and then placed her skinny little arm over my shoulder in a comforting gesture. "Don't worry, Crissy. You'll see, this will pass. You can do so much better than him!" Emily nodded.
I sighed in annoyance, not really in the mood to hear the stupid pep talks. I carefully removed Emily's arm from around my shoulders and starting walking down the street. Footsteps sounded behind me and I turned around. Alex and Dallas were following me.
"Where you going?" Alex asked.
"For a walk."
"We'll come with you." Dallas answered.
"Alone."
"No." They both said and I growled in anger.
"Would you all just back the fuck off? I need to be alone to think! Christ oh mighty!" I yelled and stomped off. This time, no one followed.
(Sodapop's POV)
"Sandy… what are you doing here? I thought you were in Florida." I said and gently pushed the girl off of me.
"I was! But I came back, Soda, I came back! I came back to be with you, Sodapop." She smiled and reached up on her toes to kiss me.
I took a step back and shook my head. "No, Sandy, you're pregnant." I said, trying to make sense of everything.
"No, Soda, Baby, I got an abortion. I didn't want a baby, I wanted you." She smiled and came at me again.
"Stop it!" I said and backed up again. Sandy stopped and cocked her head in confusion. "Just… just stay over there." I said as calmly as I could. "Why are you here?" I asked.
"Well, I heard you were getting married to Steve's little brother, oops, I mean sister. Married! Ha! She doesn't even act like girl! Like you would go for her." Sandy laughed. "And I came back because I love you, Soda. Don't you love me, baby?" She asked.
"I…"
"Sodapop…" Sandy said and started coming towards me again. I backed up until I fell back onto the sofa. She immediately climbed on top of me and started running her hands over my chest. "I love you so much." She whispered.
"Sandy… stop it. Get off. I AM getting married to Crystal. I love her." I said and tried to push her off, but she wouldn't move.
She just laughed. "I'll make you forget all about her."
"No, I love her." I repeated.
Sandy looked angry suddenly. "No you don't! You love me! I know you do! I can see it in your eyes!" She exclaimed. In one quick motion, she bent down and pressed her lips to mine. "Feel me, Soda. I'm who you belong with. I want you so bad." She murmured against my lips.
I tried to turn my head away, to fight the urge to kiss her back and run my hands all over her, but she wouldn't let me escape. She was everywhere. I groaned as she grinded against me.
Crissy, Crissy, Crystal, Criss, Crissy, Criss, Crystal, Cri… Sandy, Sandy, Sandy. I thought and turned my head back to her, pressing my lips to her forcefully. She grinned against my lips as I started to lay us back.
She was so familiar. I ran my hands over her back and moved my lips to her neck, sucking softly at the sensitive there.
I heard the door open, but was too lost in Sandy to care. "PONY…" A familiar voice began to call, but slowly dimmed to silence.
I shoved Sandy of and looked up in shock to see Alex, Angela, Evie, Emily, and worst of all, Crystal starring at me. All with cold, shocked expressions.
"Whoops. Sorry!" Sandy said with a grin. "We thought you'd be out longer." She added and touched her hand to my chest. I slapped her hand away and scrambled off the couch to stand in front of Crissy.
"Crissy… it isn't what it…" I began, already hearing how lame that sounded.
"It isn't what it looks like? Really, Soda? Really?" She said and crossed her arms over her chest, I was a little shocked. So emotion would be nice. But no, she calm, totally calm.
"Babe… just hear me out." I pleaded and turned on the puppy dog eyes. She had to listen. I couldn't just lose her.
"Don't call me babe. You lost that right." She stated calmly. Her brown eyes were frozen solid. Like Dally's eyes. Just cold.
"Crissy. Please." I begged brokenly. She had to forgive me. She had to!
"No. No. I'm done. We're done." She said with a blank look. "Have fun with your slut." She added and turned to walk out the door.
Sandy stood from where she was watching everything and walked towards Crissy.
"Who are you calling a slut, bitch?" She asked angrily as Crissy turned around and met her eyes dead on.
"You." She said simply. I watched as Sandy pulled her arm back to punch Crissy. It snapped forward and Crissy caught it in the palm of her hand, twisted it behind Sandy's back and walked her outside.
"Fucking bitch! Let me go! Whore!" Sandy screamed until Crissy shoved her into the dirt and continued walking to the car. The girls followed behind me as I followed her.
She wasn't going to leave. I had to stop her. It was a mistake, she'd understand. She HAD to. I couldn't live without her. "Crissy! Please!" I called. "Listen to me! I love you!" I yelled brokenly.
Before I could understand what happen, I felt the stinging pain.
She'd slapped me. Really slapped me. Not like when we were little and would play around, she'd meant to hurt me.
She was angry, and she had a right to. Her eyes weren't cold anymore. They were heated. I was scared.
"Love? LOVE?" She screamed. "You LOVE me? Yeah, right!" She scoffed and gave me a shove backwards. "Allow me to tell you what love is. Love is when you care so much about someone, you'd rather YOU be hurt then that person." She hollered. "Love is when you would die for that person. Love is when you would be heartbroken if that person hurt you, but you would be right next to them if they needed you the day. Love is NOT saying "I love you" one minute and then sucking face with your ex the next. That, Sodapop Patrick Curtis, is called betrayal. And I don't know about you, but I only give one chance. If you blow it…. then fuck you." She shrugged. "Goodbye and have fun with the boys when they find out how much of a belly to the ground, cockroach you are." She screamed and started to walk off.
That hurt. It felt like a knife had been shoved through my chest. It was unbearable.
It was true. She was absolutely right. She deserved better.
I stared at her retreating form until she stopped suddenly and turned around, walking back to me. For a moment, I thought she was going to hug me and say she was sorry. Then I could say she had nothing to be sorry for. That I was sorry.
But instead, she finished me off. She pulled the engagement ring off of her finger and threw it in my face. It bounced off my cheek and fell into the dust.
She turned without a word and jumped into the car, driving away as I stared at the ring in the dirt. My eyes watered and a tear dropped next the ring on the ground.
No. No, no, no, no, NO!
My head screamed as I bet down and carefully picked up the ring, kneeling in the dirt where it had fallen, I stared at the tiny ring in the palm of my hand.
The screen door banged open and I heard Ponyboy's voice. "Get outta here, Sandy! Ain't you done enough to him? Scram! Get! Don't you ever come back!" He hollered. A car door opened and Sandy's car drove off down the road.
He kneeled next to me and put his arm around my shoulder. "Soda." He whispered.
"She… no." I moaned and slumped forward, holding myself up by my forearms as the tears started coming. They fell hard and fast and in the back round, a strange, strangled noise sounded.
"Calm down, Soda. We'll fix this. Shh." Pony soothed.
Oh. The noise was me.
So this is what it felt like to have your heart ripped out.
(Crystal's POV)
A drop of water hit my arm and I looked up at the dark clouds. "Fucking great." I hissed and started walking faster down the road.
Why. Why did I come here? WHY! I screamed in my head as I passed the Curtis house. Looking at it gave me more horrible memories, but I pushed on passed it.
The rain suddenly cascaded from the sky and pelted the pavement.
Thump-a, thump-a, thump-a!
I turned around and saw a sweaty Sodapop running towards me, getting soaked in the rain like me. Seeing him sent tears to my eyes. I swallowed and put on a hard, cold mask.
"Criss…" He breathed.
"Shut up. I don't want to talk to you. I have nothing to say." I stated and turned to walk away.
His familiar, strong arms spun me around and held me still. "But I do! You have to know the truth!" He yelled.
"Let me fucking go!" I cried out and felt the tears run over my cheeks. Or maybe it was raindrops. I wasn't sure.
"Not until you listen to me!" She yelled back. His clothes were drenched and stuck to his body like mine and drops of rain rolled off his hair. My hair clung to my neck and shoulders.
"I saw you, Soda! I don't need to listen to anything!" I screamed out and wriggled in his grasp. "Did you think I wouldn't find out? Why, Soda? Why would you do that to me?" I hollered.
"Crissy…"
I cut him off and banged my fists against his chest. "Why? Why, Sodapop? What have I ever done to make you do something so horrible to me? Something you knew would break me?" I cried. I couldn't take it anymore. I let out a sob and slipped out of his grasp.
My knees hit the floor and I sobbed.
"Just tell me, Soda. What did I ever do but love you with all my heart?" I sobbed brokenly and buried my face in my hands.
He kneeled in front of me and pushed the strands of wet hair from my face gently. "I kissed her, Crissy. I won't lie. But I tried not to, I did everything to stop her but I couldn't. I lost my mind. And you walked in and everything came back and I wanted to stab myself for hurting you. Hurting you killed me Crissy. It won't ever happen again." He said and lifted my face up to met his eyes.
"They all say the same thing." I sobbed miserably.
"You know me better than anyone, Criss. Look into my eyes and tell me if I'm lying." He begged as I dropped my head back down. I shook my head at him. "Please, Crystal. I love you. I've never loved anyone so much in my whole life. You're everything to me. I need you to believe me. I'll die without you." He begged.
I looked up and saw sincere tears brimming his miserable brown eyes. He looked broken, it was worse than when his parents had died or when Sandy had left him. He looked utterly hopeless.
And it was my fault. I was killing him.
"Please." He whimpered. My heart screamed at me to grab him and kiss him with my all. To believe him.
But my head told me to run away. To not let myself get hurt again.
Always follow your heart, Baby Girl. It'll lead you right where you need to go. My mother's voice drifted through my head.
I didn't think twice. I pushed myself at him, sitting taller than him on my knees, and pushed my hands through his hair and kissed him with everything I had in me.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him, locking me in a death grip I never wanted to leave,
I broke away from him for air and leaned my forehead against his. "I love you so much." I whispered. "But if you ever touch, no, if you ever LOOK at another girl again and I find out about it, I will cut off your penis and feed it to Raven." I threatened seriously.
He shook his head quickly. "Never again. I love you too much for me to survive this again." He whispered with his eyes still closed. One of his hands left my waist and he pulled from his pocket the ring I had thrown at him. My engagement ring. His eyes opened and he held the ring out to me, "It's yours if you still want it." He said, doubt shining in his eyes. Like he thought I was going to refuse it.
I grabbed it and slid it back into place on my finger. Smiling, I pressed my lips to his softly again. He placed his palm against my cheek and wiped away water from my eyes. "Are these raindrops or tears?" He asked.
I shrugged. "Who knows?"
He smiled at me and stood, pulling me with him.
"Let's go home, you're gonna get sick." He whispered and tucked me under his arm.
"So will you. You're not Superman, Soda." I responded.
"Says who?"
"Me." An angry voice hissed from behind me.
I would never break Soda and Crissy up for good! Ha! But who's behind them? Her dad? Steve? Two-Bit? Dally?
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