Chapter twenty-five:

Scotty sat beside her bed watching her sleep, Dr Colburn had given her a sedative to calm her down and help her get some rest. Scotty ran a hand through his hair and sighed, this couldn't be happening to them again. He thought when they reached their third month that all would be well and that they'd be on their way right now to by baby furniture. Instead for the second time they had lost a baby. He stood up and leant down to press a kiss to her forehead and she stirred but didn't open her eyes.

Dr Colburn pushed the door open and walked over to the bed "She still sleeping?" she asked softly.

Scotty nodded "For the last three hours" he replied, he ran a hand through her hair, stroking her cheek tenderly.

"I know this has got to be difficult for the both of you" she began "Get Lilly to make an appointment with my office in a few days and we can discuss your options" Scotty nodded "Let her sleep a little longer, I am going to get the discharge orders ready and then I think you should take her home"

"Thanks Doc"

He watched her go then turned back to the bed to look down at her again. He took up his seat beside her again and took her hand in his, gently stroking the back of it with his thumb.

Lilly woke up when she heard him whispering her name, at first she thought it was all a dream, a nightmare and that she'd awaken in their bedroom. But as she took in her surroundings and her husband's haggard look she knew that it wasn't.

"Hey Cariño, come on I am gonna get you home"

Lilly nodded and sat up slowly, winching slightly as she swung her legs over the bed. A nurse pushed over a wheelchair and she sat down in it. Scotty started to push her down the hall, towards the exit. "How you feelin'?" he asked, knowing that it was a stupid question.

"Tired" she whispered "sore"

He helped her into the car and came around to his side of the car. "You want somethin' to eat before we go home?"

Lilly shook her head and sniffed, a tear sliding down her cheek. Scotty reached over and wiped it away, his hand lingering on her face. "I love you" he said

"I love you too" she replied.

They drove in silence back to their apartment, Lilly staring out the window. Scotty shot her the occasional worried look; he knew that she wasn't handling this well, neither was he. They were so close, and for it to end this way again was heartbreaking.

He parked the car and came around to her side to help her out. Lilly slide her arms around his neck and he lifted her into his arms, pressing a kiss to her forehead, he began to walk up the front steps to the door.

Lilly went to bed almost immediately and there she stayed for the next few days. She'd barely eat or drink as much as Scotty tried to get her too.

Scotty spoke to Stillman and he was given some time off, he called his parents and Mike and told them what happened, they had offered prayers and their sympathies. Lilly's father and stepmother had offered their condolences and told Scotty to call if they needed anything, Chris even offered to fly back to spend some time with her sister. Rationally, Lilly knew that it wasn't her fault that they lost another baby. But still she couldn't help but feel tremendous guilt that she still hadn't been able to give Scotty a baby. Scotty repeatedly told her that they could just try again, but Lilly couldn't face it. She couldn't lose another baby, couldn't go through getting pregnant, then having a miscarriage.

Lilly returned to work a few weeks later, although Scotty wasn't too thrilled about the whole thing. She just wanted for things to go back to normal, refusing to go on desk duty. Stillman told her that as long as she took it easy, she could return to normal duties, but told her that he didn't want to see her in the bullpen before eight am or after six pm.

So far Lilly was sticking to the rules, even if she had to take files home with them to finish off reports.

Scotty woke up one night at around midnight and rolled over to take his wife in his arms, but he found her side of the bed empty. He frowned and sat up "Lil" he called out. He got no response so he stood up and headed down stairs. He found Lilly hunched over the kitchen table, crime scene photos and interview notes scattered in front of her. "Lil, what are you doin' up?"

"Just checking on something" she replied without looking up.

"Why don't you leave that and come back to bed" he suggested.

She shook her head and started taking notes "I have to get this done Scotty, I need to get this case solved" Scotty sighed and walked over to the coffee machine, turning it on. "What are you doing?" She asked him as he took out two cups of coffee.

"Well if we are pullin' an all nighter I for one will need some coffee" she smiled at him as he handed her a coffee. "You don't have to do this Scotty"

"Yeah I do, when we got married I promised you that I would always be there for you so, here I am" She pressed a kiss to his cheek sat down, he sat beside her and started going over the autopsy report.

Hours ticked by as the two worked in silence and when Scotty looked over at her a little before six he found that she had fallen fast asleep, her head resting on the table. He pressed a kiss to her head and she stirred "What time is it?" she asked groggily.

"Quarter to six" he replied softly.

"How long have I been asleep?"

Scotty shrugged "A little while I think, come on why don't you go get some sleep in bed, I'll come and bring you some breakfast in bed" she shook her head and rubbed a hand over her face.

"I'll be okay, just need some more coffee"

"Come on Lil, its Saturday" Scotty began "please just go take a little nap at least, you've been workin' really hard over the last few weeks"

Lilly sighed, she knew her husband wouldn't back down on this; he had that determined look on his face.

"Fine" she said replacing the case file back on the table.

Scotty checked in on her a few hours later and found her sound asleep. He grinned and closed the door behind him, and slid into bed beside her. Lilly mumbled something and shifted closer to him, pillowing her head on his chest. "Hi" she said softly.

"Sorry, did I wake you?"

Lilly shook her head and hugged him closer. "I was already awake"

Scotty pressed a kiss to her forehead and wrapped his arms around her, and closed his eyes. "I love you" Lilly whispered "so much"

"I love you too" Scotty replied "More than you will ever know"

They went back to work on Monday, refreshed and raring to go. Lilly was feeling better, she still was fragile about the loss of another baby and still wasn't sure what was going to happen in the future, but she did know that whatever happened, she had Scotty and he had her.