I DO NOT OWN SON
Music Playlist:
Let Me Breathe – The Hours
I'm the Only One – Melissa Etheridge
Family Portrait – Pink
Wanted – Hunter Hayes
Castle Of Glass – Linkin Park
Chapter 25 – I Need A Hero
Spencer POV
I was locked in the editing room all day trying to finish this new video for an up and coming band that ask us to do there première video. It took us a week to shoot, and so far it's taken me two weeks to edit. I looked at the time and it was almost time to meet Ashley in my office for lunch.
Last couple of days have been great, since our date we have taken things slow. She did spend the night of our date, but she slept in the spare room. Dylan was truly happy to see her in the morning, we our keeping are eye out for her pictures in the tabloids.
My parents are coming over for dinner, and there bringing Joel. Her parents are gone to France for Chelsea's showcase; Joel didn't want to miss basketball so she is staying with my parents. Ashley and I wanted them to come over and have a family meal, since we were back together.
Knock knock
"Come in" I didn't turn around, but I could tell who it was by the scent of there perfume. It was Madison.
"Your wife has arrived, she said she would meet you in your office" I waved her off, I wasn't trying to be rude but I had to finish this last scene.
"Call if you need me, I'm going for lunch" She laughed when I waved her off again, and then shut the door.
After a few minutes I was done with the final scene, so I made my way towards my office. Where Ashley was sitting in my chair with her feet on my desk, I shook my head and pushed her feet off.
"You know I don't like when you do that" she smiled and I sat on her lap, I leaned in and gave her a kiss.
"Hey to you too Spence, too much editing?" she knew I get cranky when editing doesn't go my way.
"Yes just a little bit"
I looked at her and smiled, I moved some hair behind her ear. I gave her a kiss on her cheek, and I kissed all the way down her neck to her collarbone. I felt her hands come up underneath my shirt. I pulled away and leaned forward and kissed her lips, it didn't take long for are tongue to fight for dominance, I let her win.
"God you feel good Spence" I pulled back and smiled, I intertwine are fingers and leaned against her.
"You have no idea baby, I missed you"
"I'm sorry I had meet a band early and I didn't want to wake you"
"Its okay, did you bring me lunch, I'm starved" she laughed.
"Yes I brought you a salad, here" she reached over and grabbed me a salad from her bag that sat beside her.
"Mmm thanks baby" I kissed her and started eating my lunch, it felt good to be like this again with Ashley.
Through lunch we ate in a comfortable silence, then we talked about tonight and she shared about the new band she was working with. As I listen to her talk about them I noticed how happy she got when she got to help people make there dreams come true.
Knock knock
"Come in" We looked up and our daughter comes through my doorway of my office, I look at the time and again she should be in class.
"Hey, umm do you two have a minute?" I got off Ashley and walked over to towards the couch and nodded Dylan to take a seat.
"Sure we always have time for you Dylan" she came and sat down beside me, and I noticed she was nervous. I looked up at Ashley, she noticed too.
"Baby Dyl what's going on?" Ashley leaned forward on my desk, and I rubbed Dylan's back.
"Well you know the bar 'Stomp', well the manager ask me to play a showcase tonight…"
"Hold on…that's an adult bar" I could tell Ashley was getting worried.
"I know that's why I have asked Aunt Kyla to come, that way you both know I'm safe." I looked at her and I could tell this is something she really wants to do.
"As long as your Aunt Kyla is there, then I'm good." Dylan smiled and gave me a hug, then turned and waited for Ashley's response.
"Mom, please. I know your still freaking out about the picture…" Ashley shooked her head and went and sat on the other side of Dylan.
"It's not that Dylan, its just I would feel better if I myself was there. Of course I understand that you need to do this on your own. So if your Aunt Kyla will take you tonight then yes you can, but be careful!" Dylan hugged Ashley so tight.
I knew Ashley was worried even know she wasn't showing it.
"Thank you so much mom!" she got up and started to dance around my office, we both laughed when we could here her still singing from down the hallway after she left.
I looked over and I see Ashley biting her nails, while standing my window. I walked over and stood behind her wrapping my arms around her. I kissed her shoulder, and worked my way up towards her lips.
"Mmm I love your lips baby" I laughed, and kissed her nose.
"What you thinking about Ash?"
"I really wanted to be there to watch her first show; I always wanted my parents to be there for mine"
"Ash, I think if we didn't have this dinner tonight she would have asked us to go. She looks up to you baby, she isn't ashamed of you. Plus if Ashley Davies walks through that bar, Dylan won't matter."
Ashley and I both knew that sometimes Ashley had to be in the shadow to let Dylan have the spotlight. There were a couple of times where she had to be late for her basketball games so she didn't get ambushed my fans. She feels bad when it does happen, and Dylan just plays it off like its nothing.
"I know, maybe if we have time we can show up for the last bit of it?" she gave me her famous pout.
"Yes, we can do that" she smiled and gave me a kiss.
"Well I have to head back to the studio; I'll see you after okay baby?"
"Okay, love you Ashley"
"Love you too Spencer"
Dylan POV
Tonight will be the first night I sing in front of a crowd, the only time I sing in front of people is my own family. My mother has taught me everything I knew, except how to produce I taught my self.
When Mac asked me to do a showcase tonight I was beyond excited, then I got scared. I called Aunt Kyla and she told me if I didn't do it I would regret it later, I was shocked when my parents actually let me go. I thought after the picture they found, I was never going to be able to leave the house.
I didn't even realise my picture was taken that night, found out it was Jenna that took it. Of course ache would, she tries to make my life a living hell sometimes. Thankfully I have Todd or my parents would have had to come pick me up again.
~Flashback~
I was beyond angry, I just found out that bitch Jenna took that picture of me sitting on Todds lap. I was making my way through the court yard looking for the cheerleader, when I spotted her I practically bolted towards her. Once I got to her I grabbed her by the throat and slammed her down on the table.
"Where the fuck do get off by taking pictures of me you fucking bitch! And you sold them to a crack magazine. Your pathetic Jenna" I pulled my fist back and brought it up and punch her right in the mouth.
"That's for fucking with me, don't eve take another picture of me again!" I then picked her up and jabbed my knee into her rib cage.
"Fuck you Davies, you're going to pay for this!" I looked down at her and laughed.
As I was walking away I noticed Todd getting out of his truck, I walked towards him and then I heared Jenna speak.
"You're just like your slut of a mother, going from guy to guy. I bet you are fucking girls on the side aren't you" Todd looked at me and shooked his head, he knew I hated when people said shit about my family.
"Just let it go D, just walk away." He came over and was holding onto my shoulders, I hands went into a tight fist, I was breathing heavy.
"Oh come on Davies, what your going to be like you princess mommy and let people run over you" Just like that I turned and slammed her face into the ground.
"Don't ever talk about my fucking family you stupid skank! You don't know me or my family. I know yours Jenna. How is daddy, is he still sleeping around. At lease my mom comeback for me. Your mother doesn't even know your name you bitch." I started hitting her with everything I got and I couldn't stop, eventually I blacked out.
~Flashback Ended~
I was standing behind the stage getting ready to go on, I was jumping up and down get pumped up. Sometimes I wished my parents weren't famous so they could be here tonight but I don't want everyone to focus on my mother.
"Ladies and gentleman for tonight, and tonight only we have the young and talented Dylan Davies!" I walked on stage and went over towards the Mic, as I was getting my guitar strap on I spoke to the crowd.
"Thank you, tonight I will be singing songs that I have written. This first song is called 'Let me Breathe'
I started to strum as I looked around I found my Aunt Kyla in the crowd, then I did a double take right beside her were my parents. I looked around and no one knew they were here. I smiled and started to sing
Do you think I am made of stone?
Cold and unfeeling
Where all the pieces of my heart
You have been stealing
I have to tell you just how I feel
Without some sugar coating
Are you so blind that you cannot see?
that I am suffocating
Oh yeah
So Let me breathe
ooh Oh
I have to live
Although it hurts me to confess
I can't stop myself from thinking
Its better to jump overboard
before this ship starts sinking
Would you please give me some air?
And Let me breathe
ooh Oh
I have to live
I need to save some time for myself
and leave behind
I want to shine over time like
like just exist
Won't you please give me some air?
And Let me breathe
ooh Oh
I have to live
I need to save some time for myself
and leave behind
I want to shine over time
like just exist
I let my guitar hang off my shoulders and rested my arms over my guitar, I looked up and everyone was cheering. I smiled and spoke again.
"Thanks, I wrote this next song about a friend of mine. She is here tonight so this song is for you" I looked out towards the crowd and saw her there smiling.
~Flashback~
We were walking towards her house after getting ice cream, are hands were slowly touching but neither one f us minded. Finally I became brave and took her hand in mine. She looked over and smiled. As we got closer to her house she stopped and turned towards me.
"I would invite you in…"
"Its okay Cassie I understand." She smiled and swung our hand together; I pulled her closer and slowly brought my hand up to her face.
"Dylan…"
"You're so beautiful" she kissed the inside of my palm, and started walking towards her front door.
Cassie and I met in public school and we were friends ever since. I always thought she was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen; of course I was scared that she wouldn't like me the same way. I was wrong the day I wanted to ask her out she told me she was dating Nicole.
"When are you going to realize I'm better for you then Nicole?" she laughed and walked back down to me.
"When you Dylan stop hating everything around you"
"I don't hate you Cassie, you're the only thing that's good in my life" I felt a tears come down my cheek.
"Dylan, you know I'll always be here for you. I just think you need to understand what a relationship is before you and I even consider dating" I nodded my head and she kissed my cheek.
"Goodnight Cassie"
"Goodnight D"
~Flashback ended~
I saw Cassie sitting by Todd, I'm guess Nicole didn't know she was here tonight. I smiled and nodded towards my band that I was ready. I took a breathe and started to sing again.
Please baby can't you see
My mind's a burnin' hell
I got razors a rippin' and tearin' and strippin'
My heart apart as well
Tonight you told me
That you ache for something new
And some other woman is lookin' like something
That might be good for you
Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone
Go on believe her when she tells you
nothing's wrong
But I'm the only one
Who'll walk across the fire for you
I'm the only one
Who'll drown in my desire for you
It's only fear that makes you run
The demons that you're hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I'm the only one
Please baby can't you see
I'm trying to explain
I've been here before and I'm locking the door
And I'm not going back again
Her eyes and arms and skin won't make
it go away
You'll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrow
That holds you down today
Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone
Go on believe her when she tells you
nothing's wrong
But I'm the only one
Who'll walk across the fire for you
I'm the only one
Who'll drown in my desire for you
It's only fear that makes you run
The demons that you're hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I'm the only one
All I heared was screaming and yelling of my name, I think some of it came from my parents. I shook my head and took a sip from my water. I lifted my guitar off and set it down on the stool.
I walked over to the piano; I didn't think my parents would be here so this is going to be hard for them to hear. Its kind makes me nervous. I looked up and I know Aunt Kyla is telling me to go for it. She is the only one I have shared all my songs with.
"As you know my family have been through a lot through the years, while my parents were going through a hard time I decided to put my self into my song writing, this next song is about how hard it is on a child when you see the two people in your life you look up to fighting"
~Flashback~
I walked into the house; I just got back from Aunt Kyla's. I went out towards the back door and saw my parents down at the beach. I could tell they were fighting. That's all they do these days, even when they don't think I hear but I do.
"Come on Dyl, let's go downstairs" I smiled and followed her downstairs, I went over to the piano and started to play.
"I wrote a new song do you want to hear it?" she nodded her head.
~Flashback ended~
I slowly ran my fingers over the keys, as I started to play I could already feel the tears starting to build up in my eyes. The last time I played this song it was the night Aunt Kyla heared it for the first time.
Uh, uh, some deep shit, uh, uh
Momma please stop crying, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told mom you didn't mean those nasty things you
said
You fight about money, bout me
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, mom please don't
leave
mom please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound
Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too
I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have
no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my
family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, mom please don't
leave
In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step-brother anyways
And I don't want my mom to have to change her
last name
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I'll be better, mom please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, mom please don't
leave)
mom don't leave
mom don't leave
mom don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
mom don't leave
mom don't leave
mom don't leave
Don't leave us here alone
Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better,
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night
When I was done i wiped off all the tears I shed, I looked down and my hands were shaking. I didn't even want to look up at my parents they probably were hurting, it wasn't there fault I just needed to get that off my chest.
"Love can come into your life unexcpectly, it did for me. I never thought I could love anyone or let my self love anyone. This song is about a girl, and tonight I sing it for her.
~Flashback~
"Tell me you love me" I couldn't do this with her anymore; I was going to break her heart.
"Don't make me say it Sara"
"Then tell me why you're doing this, you and I both know you love me. Is this about what's going on at home?"
"No! Look Sara I don't want to hurt you, but I'm not me anymore. I'm not the same person you fell in love with." I wiped her tears away, and kissed her cheek.
"Then come back to me Dylan, don't go down this stupid road you're going down. Even Todd can tell your acting different. Just stop this and be the girl I fell in love with" I wiped my open tears away.
"I can't, I won't be like them"| With that I walked away from the only girl who has ever loved me, Cassie was great and all but it was Sara that would always have my heart.
~Flashback ended ~
I walked over to the stool, and pulled my guitar around me. I sat there for a moment and thought about that night, I missed her so much. I wish things were different, I wished I never let her go.
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too
'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty, yeah
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the make-up
And I wanna show you what I see tonight...
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips.
I I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
'Cause, baby, I, I wanna make you feel wanted
As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Baby, I wanna make you feel wanted
You'll always be wanted
After a few more songs I finally came to the end of my show, not once have I looked at my parents faces, I don't think I can. I stood up and waved to the crowd. They were all cheering for me, it felt good.
"Before I end this show I wrote a song a couple of nights ago, I know my parents and family are worried about me. All I can say is that you don't have to worry moms, I'll be okay"
Take me down to the river bend,
Take me down to the fighting end,
Wash the poison from off my skin
Show me how to be whole again
Fly me up on a silver wing
Past the black where the sirens sing
Warm me up in a nova's glow
And drop me down to the dream below
Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see.
For you to see
Bring me home in a blinding dream
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again
Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see.
For you to see
Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything else I need to be
Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see.
For you to see
For you to see
As I was leaving the stage and heading towards my dressing room I heared someone call my name
"Rockstar" I turned and saw her, Sara.
"What are you doing here" I ran and gave her a hug, I pulled back and she started to laugh.
"I'm here to see you silly; your aunt told me that you were singing tonight. I noticed your parents showed. You must be thrilled" I nodded, Sara was there for me when my mother went to rehab.
"I am, my mom is trying to fix things and I couldn't be happier" she grabbed my hand and we walked towards my dressing room.
"Let me change and then we can talk" As I took off my shirt, I winced.
"Dylan, what happen"
Sara walked over and was now slowly running her fingers over my bruised body; I couldn't even look her in the eyes. She lifted up my chin, and made me look her in the eyes. Finally I grabbed on to her and started to cry, I needed someone to hold me.
"Its okay baby, I got You Rock star"
A/N: Well Hope You Enjoyed : )