FRANK
So I'm sitting there on the bed next to 'Elena facing Kittys who's leaning against the wall, her mouth hanging slightly open. I literally didn't speak. 'Elena whispered the story to Kitty, the FULL story. My eyes were stuck on the door. No way was I letting Gee walk in as well.
"...So Frankie and I have been sort of going out almost since straight after I woke up..." 'Elena finished up. Kitty stared between us.
"No...NO! That's...that's...holy mother FU-." I put my index finger on my lips signalling her to quiet down. She stared between us.
"So...you're going to say good for you?" 'Elena asked, half laughed. A smile spread on Kittys face.
"Yeah, guys...I'm just fucking happy you too are...well happy." 'Elena jumped up and gave Kitty a hug, a tight one. I didn't want Kitty to be pissed with me, she meant a lot to 'Elena and I can see she's a pretty good kid. She pulled back from 'Elena and stared at me.
"But if you do anything to hurt her, anything at all...I'm going to kill you, okay?" Her voice low, serious and harsh. I just nodded.
"But besides from that we're good..." Her face changed into a big cheesy grin. 'Elena turned around so she was facing me, she was smiling sheepishly. She came closer to me, so I put my hands on her hips, smiling and staring into her eyes.
"I better not do anything to hurt you then..." I smiled...Her grin became bigger.
"I don't know...I'm sure there are some things that might hurt...that we could make a couple of exceptions for, if you get what I mean?" She asked...not really asked, it was more of a cheeky question. I moved my hands around her waster and around her back, pulling her tighter into me.
"Hmmm...I think we could make do with th-." I heard Kitty interrupt me,
"Umm...Hate to spoil the moment...but I am still here." She giggled. 'Elena rolled her eyes as I leaned in and planted a small kiss on her lips.
"I better leave you girls to revise or something..." I smiled before leaving. I hoped to god Kitty wasn't going to tell any one...fuck I hoped she wouldn't. Later on that night I got a call from 'Elena; she sounded like she had been crying. She told me she was coming around; I hung up and about 10 minutes later I answered the door to see 'Elena. I asked her what was wrong, but she claimed she was fine. She fell asleep in my bed that night, after sitting and watching lame tv. She sat under arms, she kept squirming about, but it was just nice having her body under my arm, her heat radiating of her and warming me up. It's nice having 'Elena. It's really nice having 'Elena, it's not even nice...it's amazing...because I love her and...and...I just love her. Thinking about it the next couple of weeks I had seen 'Elena cry and sound upset a lot; a couple of days later Gee asked me if I could come and walk Peppers with him whilst he was talking Bandit out for a bit to give Lyn some peace. I came, with Peppers. Bandit absolutely loved Peppers, she was completely entranced by him. After a while Gee asked me if I wanted to come back to his for a drink or something. I did, when I got there I went upstairs to check on 'Elena, I found her in her room crying. I sat with her and hugged her, but when I asked her what was wrong, she just sniffled a very solemn reply of:
"The past."
'ELENA
I closed my locker at school, after pulling out my chemistry notes and binder. I turned around to see Josh Summers standing behind me, if you knew Josh, you would know this was a complete shocker. I mean Josh wasn't one of those, Jocky- sex maniacs, but he was one of, if not THE coolest guys in school...Kinda indie, very suburban cool and almost all the girls were crushing (eww I hate that expression) on him.
"Hey, 'Elena..." Since when did he know my name? Oh yeah...since I was flashed all over the tabloids...
"Hey...Josh." I said confused. He ran his hand through his jelled, spiky hair, which were not even Jimmy Urine spikes. Cringe.
"Look, I heard you didn't have a date for the Go Green, mask parade ball and I was wondering if you would like to go with me...So would you?" He asked. Okay, this was very sudden.
"Urrgh. Yeah, I guess." I smiled
"Great! Do you want me to pick you up or something?" He asked. I would have said yeah, but I definitely did not want Josh knowing where I lived.
"What about we meet before the ball, at the Hudson park? Umm...6-ish?" I asked him. He nodded, turned and briskly walked away. I looked around, people were staring at me in amazement. Did I really just say I would go to the stupid mask parade ball? Damn it! Soon as he had left, I started worrying, what if Frank got pissed or he tried something on. I mean, he probably only wanted to go with me because I was sort of famous now and he wanted a little slice of the action. The night when I got home, I saw all the guys, for some reason, in my living room and the girls. I dropped my bag and jumped onto the couch next to Frank. I regretted this almost immediately after our arms brushed together and I felt a strong sensation to forget about the others and kiss Frank. I blushed and moved slightly further away from him. The convocation they were holding broke and they all stared at me, every single fucking one.
"Okay, what happened?" Alicia asked, a smug look on her face. I was completely confused.
"Yeah. We know you Ellie Belly, you've got some news to tell us, that's why your cheeks are going red." I touched my red hot cheeks...I had thought that was from Frank. I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"Alright, I kind of do." I said. I didn't want to tell Frank that Josh had asked me to the ball and I had said yeah, but I mean, it's not like he could of went with me, so me and Josh were only going as friends...Shit did I tell josh that...FUCK- My chain of thought was interrupted by Christa.
"C'mon! We're waiting here!"
"I was asked to this really stupid go green, mask parade, black tie...shitty ass ball thing by Josh Summers..." I sighed. I could feel Franks eyes burning into me.
"Josh Summers?" My dad asked.
"Urrgh, one of those really cool, popular guys at school."
"Pl-eeeaaa-se say you said no." I heard Mikey say. I winced and looked at all the faces staring at me, except for Franks...I was trying to avoid his gaze.
"Well...I had no one else to go with, so I kind of said yes." I sighed. I heard a moan come from the guys, but for some reason squeaks of excitement came from the girls.
"So what are you wearing?" Kaitlin asked.
"Umm...I was thinking of rebelling and just wearing some jeans and a tee or something." I laughed. I could hear my dad chuckle as the girls tut tut.
"No way, okay. I'm organizing all the girl to come around here on the day and we are going to dress you up." Lyn squealed. All the girls looked so excited, I really didn't want to say no.
"Okay..."
"Yes! Oh and I'm getting the dress." Lyn smiled. I moaned.
"Look, I'm tired, I'm going to bed." I said, un sure of how much more I could stomach. I neglected my bag and jumped up before running up the stairs. A second after I got into my room Frank followed me in closing the door.
"Okay...when the hell were you going to tell me about this?" Frank asked.
"Umm...Right now?" I laughed. Frank stiffened his jaw as he walked over to me.
"What's the problem Frank? It's not like you could have came? I'm just going with him as a friend..." I told him.
"But boys only want on-" I interrupted him.
"Only friends." I said sternly. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer to him.
"Are you jealous or something?" I asked. He looked down. I pecked him on the cheek.
"I don't know...I just wish I could do all these things with you." He sighed.
"And you will soon, just be a little bit patient..." He didn't look up.
"For me?" I asked. He looked up and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"If you weren't so god damn adorable..." He mumbled as I chucked him out of my room before getting changed into my new BAT PJS and slipping into bed...at YES around 5 o'clock...but hell, I was tired!
Say, the lights are really low enough to play,
Would you cast yourself so solitary?
All alone you prove that I was,
Broken down to move and alright,
Battling the loss you live for,
Meant the world to you,
And would you stay right here?
When I tell you,
That someone out there loves you.
Would you stay right here?
Well I'd tell you,
That someone out there loves you after all.
Sometimes it's though it's easier to fall,
Would you catch this and then pick this off the floor,
and in a moment,
if you're walking out the door I'd stop you,
And i'll let you burn,
and if you'd turn to me I'd say this,
would you stay right here?
When I tell you,
That someone out there loves you.
If you stay right here,
Keep attacking you,
That someone out there loves you.
Is there no one, no one out there?
Is there no one who, no one who cares?
And if no one. no one out there?
Is there no one who, no one who cares?
And would you decimate the stars then,
When you go?
And if you stay right here,
When I tell you,
That someone out there loves you.
Stay right here,
Keep attacking you,
That someone out there loves you.
No one, no one out there,
Is there no one who, no one who cares?
And if no one, no one out there,
Is there no one who, no one who cares?
The mask parade, cheesy ass school ball was on a Friday night, after hours at school. Sigh. By now everyone had heard who I was going with, including Sammy and Kitty. Sammy kept going on about how I was just the cherry on his suburban, cool perfect life. AKA the fucked up girl. I was just the girl he wanted to add onto a list, he also made a lot of remarks how Frank was going to get annoyed as hell; oh yeah, Kitty kind of told him about that. I wasn't sure if Sammy was right or wrong, but I was sure to keep that in my head.
When Friday came along and school finished, the last thing on earth I wanted to do, is go home and be made up by my friends. I had asked Kitty if she wanted to come over, but she just laughed and said that she wouldn't endure that sort of attention for anything. So, this was it. Die or Fly time. Be all End All.
I sat in the chair, laid back whilst Lyn was doing my makeup. I hadn't seen my makeup yet, nor my hair, nor my dress that I was supposed to be putting on. This was stupid, why the hell was I getting dressed up when I didn't even like the guy I was going with?
When Lyn was done, I still wasn't allowed to see my make up nor hair, but I was sat up, looking directly at the dress Lyn had picked me out and mask. They hung of my closet on hangers, I gasped...where the fuck did Lyn get this from? The dress was almost Victorian style, with a tight bodice and corset built into the dress. It was black, with a chain of roses on the corset. Black lace, long almost clear sleeves, a red bodice underneath, a red under skirt and a netted over skirt. I gasped, it was like something out of Sweeney Todd (which is a very good thing, by the way) The mask was black with red lace around the sides of it, very simple but it fucking matched perfectly and I had high heeled simple black patent leather, shoes. It took god knows how fucking long to get me into the dress, Christa, Kaitlin, Alicia and Lyn had their work cut out for them, I kind of felt bad Jamia couldn't come. When I was all done, mask and all I got to look in the mirror. My hair was curled very loosely, so ringlets fell over my face, Lyn had dyed streaks of my hair red too. My lips were a deep red and I was covered in white powder that actually didn't make much of a difference to my skin colour at all. The dress clung to my chest tightly, I almost felt like I was fucking popping out of it. My mask, somehow was my favourite thing because it really made me think that I wasn't...me. I felt like some vampire, prostotute... or something. The girl all clapped their hands merrily and announced their work was done.
I walked downstairs to see my dad and Frank (who has somewhat ironically insisted that he had to drive me to Hudson) sitting on the couch. I stifled a cough, they both looked up at me, my dad looked surprised...Frank looks gobsmacked.
"Is that you?" Frank said getting up and walking slowly towards me.
"Ahuh...I think so at least." I laughed.
"For a guy you don't like, you've dressed up pretty fucking well for him." My dad said raising an eyebrow.
"THAT'S WHAT I FUCKING SAID!" I exclaimed.
"Yeah, we better get going, huh?" Frank chocked. I gave the girls hugs and thanked them and said bye to my dad before running to the car. I didn't take my mask of when I got to the car. My chest rose and fell in anticipation for the night ahead.
"You look...beautiful." Frank said as he drove.
"Thanks...I feel like someone from Sweeny Todd, somehow." I laughed.
"No, No...you're to amazing to be from JUST Sweeny Todd." Frank laughed. I tilted my head to the side and looked at him funny.
"You think so?"
"I KNOW so." He told me, his voice rang with something.
"I wish you could come. It would make all this worth something." I said looking down at my outfit. He parked around the corner from Hudson lake/park for a second.
"A kiss before we get there?" He smiled. I leaned forward and kiss he lips, as gently as I could. So they barely brushed together. My finger ran along his chest. I could feel his arm entwine around my, pulled in, waist.
"Amazing." I said as I pulled away.
"Always is." He giggled before driving again to Hudson. When I got out of the car I gave Frank a little wave before cautiously approaching the shadowy figure near the edge. When I got to Josh, he was throwing pebbles into the lake, he wasn't skimming them, just throwing them. He was wearing a tux and for once with hair wasn't jelled up or something, it was just lying casually, it was ear length and sort of stuck out all over, like he had just got out of bed.
"I like your hair..." I said behind him. He turned around, I could see his breath in the night air. I glanced back to where Franks car was...he wasn't there any more...I caught my breath before glancing back at Josh who was staring at me.
"Is that you?" He asked. I took of my mask.
"100% me, not some hooker form Moulin Rouge." I laughed. He laughed too as I played with my mask.
"You look, really, really amazing." He said. I pursed my lips.
"I god hope so, this fucking dress took so long to get into." I laughed, be bared his teeth. He put his arm out in an old fashion.
"Shall we make hast to the car?" he asked I took his arm.
"I do not hast, I hasten." I giggled. I got into his car in the passenger seat and put my mask back on. His pulled a mask out of his tray in his car and put it on, it was black with a gold framing.
"I still don't get why guys have to wear these..." He said annoyed.
"I still don't get why girls have to wear these." I sighed too. Was it just me, or was Josh not being a complete jerk like most of his friends where? He was actually being genuinely nice...I narrowed my eyes in confusion as I looked forward. We eventually got to the school; you could hear the music pound from blocks away. It was all popular music, like Lady Gaga, Black Eyes Pees, Miley Cyrus, Katy Perry...and all the other shit like that. I'm not saying they were the actual artist playing; I just have no idea about that sort of music, so I'm throwing down all the names I can think of. The party was in full swing by the time we got there.
We sat on a table with Kitty, Sammy, one of Joshs friend and his date called Lucy. Kitty looked amazing, I swear to god amazing. She had on this tight black mini dress the hugged her god damn near perfect curves amazing. It had a swooping neck line and a VERY low back. Around the neck and back line it was framed with blue sequins and diamonds. Her was blue with black sequins and diamonds on to contrast he dress and it had to black feathers coming out of it.
"OH MY FUCKING...WOW!" I said hugging Kitty tightly when I first saw her.
"What do you think?" She said stepping back.
"I think you're going to be breaking some hearts tonight, girl!" I giggled hysterically.
"Well what about you? The girls did an awesome job. I mean where the fuck did Lindsey get that fucking sweet dress?" She asked.
"I have no idea. I just know Lyn has her means, connections and methods." I laughed. Yeah this was supposed to be a school organised event, meaning no liquor, but you could bet that every punch, every soda, every water and everything over liquid people could find had been spiked. Even if that wasn't enough, students were walking around shoving flasks into other people faces. I was getting a lot of funny stares, but I just ignored them. Getting drunk was my mission.
Poppy songs played relentlessly and a load of crazy looking drunks crowded the dance floor. I sat at my table talking to Kity and trying to make convocation with the rapidly becoming drunk Josh. After a while, I kind of wanted to escape from the streamers, beams, lights music and crowd and disappear into Franks arms.
I went up to the DJ, if you could call him that and asked him to put on: Trying To Escape The Inevitable- Pencey Prep, you might have guessed by now, that was our (mine and Franks) song. I sat at the table, my hands buried in my head listening to the song, I had the feeling that I may have been, just a little, bit drunk.
"Hey, c'mon. This is like the last song, we've got to dance!" Josh said pulling me up. I moaned as he pulled me into he middle of the dance floor. I didn't feel like dancing, never mind to me and my amazing boyfriends song with an almost stranger. He took my right hand with his and put his other hand firmly on my waist and started to move slowly around. I put my free hand onto his shoulder and followed him. I was a crap dancer and having an offbeat song didn't help.
"I want to get to know you. I mean, it's almost like you have a mask on most of the time." Josh told me. I stopped and pulled of my mask.
"Does that help?" I asked, resuming my original position.
"No...not really." He giggled to, his cheeks burning red.
"Okay, what will help?" I asked.
"I'll ask you questions...you answerer as quick as possible."
"'Kay and cool." I giggle losing my mind.
"Right. Favourite colour?" He asked as we danced very slowly.
"Red and black." I said straight away.
"Favourite bands?" He asked.
"MCR of course, Leather Mouths, MSI, GreenDay, Misfits, Iron Maiden and the Bouncing Souls."
"Meat or rabbit food?" He asked.
"I'm a vegetarian..." Memoried started to play behind the glaze of my eyes, hazes becoming pictures and faces:
------------------------------------------------------- "Favourite colour?" Ray asked.
"Umm...Black and Red." I smiled.
"Favourite bands?" Frank asked smiling sheepishly.
"MCR of course, Leather Mouths, MSI, GreenDay, Misfits, Iron Maiden and the Bouncing Souls." I laughed
"Hell YEAH!" Bob boomed from the passenger seat. Ray lay across the whole of the seconds row.
"Okay, seriously ...favourite movies?" Mikey asked.
"X-men, Goonies, Watchmen and Jaws." I told them thinking hard about that answerer.
"Video Games?"
"Dudgeons and Dragons, Halo, War Hammer and PAC-MAN."
"Anything else we need to know about?" Oh there were so many things...
"I'm a vegetarian."
"YEESS!" Frank exclaimed.
"Damn...not another Frankie!" My Dad laughed.---------------------------------------
I felt a mixture of emotions, but only one thought. I needed to get the hell out of here.
"Hey...you think we can go now? I feel kind of ill." I lied to Josh. He smiled and said he was going to get his jacket. I said goodbye to the VERY much drunk Kitty and Sammy before making my way to Joshs car. He didn't speak much, he was concentrating on trying to drive. I directed him to the spot where Dylan and I used to meet. Dylan, a sharp dagger was stabbed into my heart and twisted around when I thought about him. I could see Josh glancing at me shakily.
"Josh?"
"Huh?" He asked, he eyes suddenly snapping on me. I just smiled. He leaned forward and brushed the ringlet that had fallen over my eye behind my ear before leaning in to kiss me. I can't even say I kissed back because I didn't I really didn't. I tried to push him away but his grasp was tight on me.
"Josh, get off!" I screamed through his kisses. He jumped back.
"Shit. I'm sorry." He muttered.
"No, it's okay." I sighed, brushing back my hair.
"Josh, I don't want to be like...that... with you." I told him.
"Wha- Oh god, this was a fucking pity date wasn't it, dude!?" He sounded really pissed now.
"No, of course it fucking wasn't. I mean, You're Josh Summers, every other girl in our school LOVES you. How could it ever, possibly be a pity date?" I persuaded him.
"Right..." He sighed.
"I'm sorry, I should have made my intentions clear. I just want us to be friends..." I leaned forward and kissed his cheek.
"What was that for?" He asked, blushing.
"For a really great night...until about 3 minutes ago." I laughed before getting out of the car. He waved goodbye and I walked down my street. When I got in my dad was sitting on the couch on his laptop.
"Hey, how was the thingy?" He asked.
"Okay..." I muttered, pulling my mask and shoes.
"Ahuh, ahuh..." I heard Lyn laugh. I looked at her in confusion. My dad turned around showing me his computer screen. It was a picture of Josh and I dancing.
"I got tweeted this." My dad said, almost as if it was funny.
"WHAT?" I asked with sudden attitude.
"So, you and Josh-still just friends?" He giggled.
"Yeah, Josh knows that. Now..." I said storming upstairs and getting changed into my PJS with great difficulty. Lyn came in just as I was dozing off.
"Sorry about your dad. He can be a bit OTT." She smiled sitting on my bed.
"Ahuh? Yeah...I know." I lauhed, wiping my eyes.
"So...what did you mean and ...Yeah Josh knows that...NOW..." She said clearly defining the NOW.
"Josh tried to kiss me in his car. I turned him down." I sighed. Lyn looked at me confused.
"Umm...why? He looks kind of cute in that picture." She asked.
"Eww...Because not all things are about how cute someone is, Lynniiee- Wynniie." I laughed.
"Seriously?"
"Because I like someone else." I said lying down. I wasn't lying, I did like Frank. I loved Frank.
"Oh...Right. Y'know, I'll tell your dad to lay of the whole teasing thing okay? Get your sleep. Goodnight." She said leaning over and kissing my cheek before she left. That was the nice thing about Lyn, she never tried to replace my mom. She just tried to be my friend, an awesome one at that and it's really hard doing that. I think that's why I accepted Lyn so easily, she was more of a best friend than anything else. I felt my eyes close as my head touched the pillow, I pulled the blankets up and faded into a haze of memories.