Haha most of your reviews made me laugh, the ones telling me to kill Ryan and that he and Brianna should be sent to hell lol.
I felt like I owed you a new chapter right away because that was evil of me.
Also to the reviewer (I won't mention your name) who said I don't update enough, please keep in mind I go to college full-time, play sport twice a week and work twice a week on top of that. Considering I have five assignments to finish by the end of next week I'd day i'm doing well. Plus I normally update three times a week anyway. I apologise if I sound as if I am complaining but I can't always update every day.
To my reviewer that suggested it, no hacking into my computer :P
Onto the new chapter...I won't say anything about it, i'll just let you read.
The Reason That I'm Singing: Chapter 25
Caitlyn found me not long later, tears were streaked down my face and I was sobbing uncontrollably.
She and Savannah managed to get me home, after I demanded them to take me. The drive back was all a blur to be honest.
My parents were thankfully already asleep so I didn't have to face them, I presumed I looked like a wreck.
The girls got me up to my room and ushered me on to my bed.
"What happened?" Caitlyn asked.
I had refused to talk in the dressing room, I was hysterical and when Savannah offered to get Shane I began sobbing harder and said no and to take me home.
I took a deep breath, wiping away my tears and explained what had happened between Ryan and me.
"I told him I love Shane." I finished.
"Then what's the problem?" Savannah asked, rubbing my back to comfort me.
"I think I've ruined my relationship with him." I explained what went down with Shane and me and how he stormed out of the dressing room.
"He did what?" Savannah asked shocked.
"No, it wasn't his fault. I began it, I doubted him. He doubted me. He isn't the only one at fault."
"Everything will be fine, Mitchie. I've known my brother most my life, he is a good guy and he really does love you. He will want to fix this if we go back."
"No," I sobbed again, "He doesn't want to see me for a month."
They both hugged me and we all managed to all squeeze onto my bed.
I cried myself to sleep in the comfort of two of my best friends.
...
I was a zombie for the first week, I walked around but was empty on the inside.
I broke down trying to do my calculus home work one night, realizing I couldn't do it on my own.
I hadn't spoken to Shane at all; he hadn't called me or messaged me either.
Caitlyn had told my parents what had happened, telling them that we were taking a break, which I guess was kind of true.
My dad liked this idea, even though he liked Shane, he said I needed some perspective to see if this was what I really wanted.
The press knew something was up, there were reports that we were on a break due to a source that was back stage on the night of the concert.
Jason drove down to see me but knew better than to mention Shane's name. His cluelessness managed to make me to break out into a sad smile.
He hung out in my room with me and when a Connect 3 song came on the radio I quickly turned it off, not wanting to hear Shane's voice.
After school one day I caught my reflection in the mirror, I studied myself closely. My eyes didn't seem the same and there were big bags underneath them. I looked so worn out and had to drag myself away to make me stop scrutinizing myself.
I was a mess.
I stared at my phone for countless hours, wanting his ringtone to ring.
I wanted to apologize; I wanted to say I was stupid and that Ryan had put stupid ideas in my head, because I really didn't care about anything as long as Shane and I were together again.
I finally snapped during the second week and dialled his number.
It rang and rang and rang, but there was no answer.
He would see my miss call and I knew he wouldn't ring me back. Sure enough, I was right.
I knew I had hurt him, but he had hurt me too.
I then called Sierra, knowing she'd answer no matter what.
"Mitchie, you love him don't you?" She asked after I told her the full story.
"Yes." I answered her.
"Then go make it right." She urged me.
"Sierra, he doubted me. He thought I'd leave him for Ryan."
"He is a guy, Mitchie. It's normal for them to be jealous like that. Assure him you love him because you two belong together.
I finally managed to crack a small smile, which was the closest I got to a real one since the concert. "Thanks Sierra, you can always lift my spirit."
Tess even called me saying she was there if she needed me and that she could be on the next flight out if needed. I thanked her but protested, telling her I was fine and that she had school to worry about anyway.
Nate came to visit Caitlyn a few days later and he picked me up, pleading with me to come outside of my house. I hadn't been anywhere other than school. I hadn't even been working.
"He's crazy, Mitchie. He is going insane without you." He told me.
Then why wouldn't he call me back?
I just nodded, not wanting to really talk.
"He has been acting up a bit again. He isn't the bad boy like he was before Camp Rock but he is getting there. He almost walked offstage at a show the other night, we had to stop him. We were singing 'BB Good' and he just kind of lost it."
He couldn't risk going back to his own ways, not after everything the guys had worked for with their new album.
We went back to Caitlyn's and hung out in her room. I went to get a drink of water leaving Caitlyn and Nate alone for a bit. They needed time together so I spoke with Caitlyn's grandmother for a bit before deciding to come back.
"I feel guilty." I heard Caitlyn confess before I went back in her bedroom. The door was only slightly open and I stopped, unsure of whether or not to walk in just yet.
"Why?" Nate asked.
"Because we are happy and look at Shane and Mitchie. They are miserable without each other. I saw Shane remember? He's my friend too but even if Mitchie is my best friend I can't choose sides. "
She hadn't told me she had seen Shane, this made me a little bit mad but I was glad she wasn't going to stop talking to him as a result of me.
"Just like I can't choose sides, you know I love Mitchie. I don't like seeing her like this either but you shouldn't feel bad that they are on a break when we are so happy." He said and I saw him put his hand on her cheek.
"Nate, I love you." She said softly, I could only just make it out.
"Caity, you have no idea how long I've been waiting for you to say that." Nate murmured, "I love you too."
He leant down and kissed her softly.
I would have thought Nate would have said 'I love you' already, I could tell he was in love with Caitlyn just by the way he looked at her. I guess he was just scared of how she would react in case she didn't say it back.
Even if I wasn't happy right now, I knew I was happy for them. They deserved happiness.
...
"Thanks for breaking me and Ryan up, Mitchie. He finally told me why he dumped me." Brianna said to me at lunch during the third week.
"I didn't break you up; I told him I didn't want him." I replied dully.
"Just because you and Shane are over doesn't mean you have to ruin other people's relationships."
I began crying, Brianna hadn't made me cry in a long time.
"They are not over." Caitlyn said coming to my rescue, "It's none of your business anyway so just leave us alone." She demanded.
"Make me. It's not my fault she can't accept that the Shane Gray dumped her. " Brianna said smirking.
It all happened so fast, Caitlyn slapped Brianna, like full on bitch-slapped her across the face.
I was shocked; I couldn't believe that she would do that.
"Ms Gellar, principal's office." Our Biology teacher had witnessed it all.
She managed to get off fairly easy, just a week's worth of after-school detentions and a warning saying she would be at risk of suspension if it happened again.
Ryan cornered me in the hallway at the end of the day, there was no Caitlyn to rescue me this time though as it was the first day of her detentions.
"So have you thought about it?" He asked. We hadn't spoken since the concert.
"There's nothing to think about." I snapped.
"You have been miserable lately though."
"That's because I haven't spoken to Shane." I countered.
"Mitchie, you deserve the best." He said putting his hand on my shoulder.
"I know." I said quietly.
Ryan took it the wrong way and leaned down to kiss me.
I quickly pushed him away before he could, "I have the best. Shane's the best thing that has ever happened to me. You and I will never be together again, you had me once and you ruined it. I love Shane so don't try to get me back again."
With that I ran off, leaving him there calling out after me.
...
A few days later on Hot Tunes, pictures appeared of Shane hanging out with some blonde bimbo.
"Shane Gray has replaced his girlfriend? He has been seen a couple times this week hanging out with aspiring actress Katie Hart. Katie claims the two are just friends and that they have hung out the past couple days while she was shooting in New York."
I could feel the tears sting my eyes.
I went upstairs and grabbed the guitar Shane had gotten me to write a new song, not wanting to hear the rest of the report.
I first worked on the music and then began singing lyrics.
"Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it"
The rest of the song came along quite easily and I wrote it down in my songbook, along with the music.
I flung myself on my bed, as I was quite tired.
"Don't forget." I whispered before letting sleep consume me.
...
"Mitchie, wake up."
"Shane?" I asked groggily.
"No, it's Andrew." I opened my eyes to see Andrew by my bed the following morning.
"What are you doing here?"
"Shane is shooting a music video here, so I came with."
"I mean, why in my bedroom." I reiterated.
"You need to make it right between you two. Come with me, see him on set."
"But, he doesn't want to talk to me." I said softly.
"Trust me, he does. Now get dressed, I have his car. He doesn't know so I have to be quick in case he notices." He urged me.
"Fine, just let me get dressed."
I was left alone in my room and quickly got changed. I hoped everything would be right again.
I grabbed my song book and ripped out a page, the song on it was 'Until You're Mine'. I hadn't touched it since the first time I sung it to Shane and I had finished it a few days ago.
I grabbed a pen and quickly wrote a message on the top of the page.
I folded the note up and put it in my pocket, grabbing my phone and I bolted out the door, running into Andrew.
"How did I not know they were shooting a music video?" Caitlyn or Savannah hadn't mentioned it to me. We were almost at the warehouse they were currently shooting in.
"It was kept under wraps to keep fans from rocking up on set." Andrew explained.
"How did you know where I lived?"
"Savannah gave me directions." He answered me.
Once we arrived, I nervously got out the car trying to calm myself down.
"Come on." Andrew said, nodding towards the entrance.
He waved at the security guard, who obviously knew him, and we were let straight in.
There were cameras everywhere and lights and cables. I was too scared to move in case I tripped over a cable and brought everything down.
I looked around seeing the extras for the music video, I could see Nate chatting with (who I presumed was) the director and Jason was eating food from the buffet.
I couldn't see Shane though.
"I don't want to distract him. I want him to get it over with first so he doesn't do something stupid like walk off the set like he has before." I told him.
"Okay, we'll stay back here. He won't notice us."
"Thank you. You really are a good brother." I said.
"I'm still sorry that I wasn't exactly pleasant towards you in the beginning."
"And I've told you that you didn't need to apologize to me." I reminded him.
Soon enough, the boys began filming again and I saw Shane. He looked completely fine but his eyes weren't familiar to me. They seemed dull and lifeless; I could tell he wasn't happy.
An hour later the director finally yelled cut for the final time.
I felt my nervousness coming back as the extras began to leave.
I took a deep breath and Andrew quickly ushered me behind a back drop to gain some privacy.
He left me there and I began to pace up and down for a few minutes.
It was getting quieter as most people had left.
Finally I heard his voice, "I just want to go home." He groaned, "What do you want to show me?"
Andrew and Shane appeared a few meters away from me and Andrew smiled at me before leaving.
"Mitchie?" He asked smiling.
"Who else?" I replied shrugging.
He came closer to me but didn't make any physical contact with me. I wanted to lean forward and kiss him but I couldn't bring myself to, until I could hear what he had to say.
"I've missed you." He said softly.
"I've missed you too." I admitted.
"Can we forget everything that happened? It's been hell without you, Mitch."
I looked down at my feet, "I can't forget it." I said simply, I wouldn't ever forget this feeling.
"Mitchie, I need you."
"I need you too Shane but it kind of hurts when you won't return my phone call." I don't know why I brought it up; I wanted to get back with him.
He stood there silent and I could see his eyes begin to get watery.
"I'm sorry, I should have called you back. Remember though, before we decide to ever have a break like this again, remember how it feels."
"Shane, you know I love you."
"I'm also sorry if you saw those pictures of me with that actress, I should have explained to you when they first came out. It must have hurt you to see them. Katie was in New York for a couple days shooting for a film and just wanted me to show her some places so we hung out a bit."
"I trust you, Shane." I said honestly, "I believe you."
"Then believe me when I say, I love you. Just look me in the eyes and tell me you want me, not Ryan."
"Why bring him up?" I asked, slightly confused.
"Forget it." He mumbled.
"No, why bring him up? I just told you I love you. You know what...forget it. I'm leaving."
I threw my hands up in frustration and turned around to leave but was stopped as he grabbed my arm and whipped me around to face him.
There were tears running down his face now, I had never seen him full on cry.
He studied my face briefly before grabbing my face in his hands, kissing me passionately.
I gave in briefly before pulling away.
I reached into my pocket and unfolded the piece of paper I had ripped out of my song book.
I quickly read what I had written at the top before shoving it into Shane's hands and running off towards the exit. I was now in tears as well but kept running, ignoring Shane yelling desperately for me to come back.
'I will love you always, no matter what.'
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