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Before I knew it Sirius had stopped walking and I was being set down. He reached up released my arms from him, and turned around, his back to me.

I shivered and looked around. It was dark, and I was sitting on something soft. Reaching down I touched the fabric, and with the other I pushed hair out of my eyes.

Then the room suddenly got brighter by light of fireplace. I had to blink a few times from the sudden brightness.

We were in a nicely designed room with a fireplace, a dresser, and a bed. That I was currently sitting on. It was soft underneath me, the blacker smooth and cool under my fingertips.

There was two doors and slowly I felt the warmth of the now blazing fire, but I still shivered from being in the cold for so many hours.

After I glanced around my gaze fell back to Sirius, who was now looking at me. His eyes full of concern as he did.

"Are you cold?" He asked quietly.

I nodded, not wanting to speak. Sirius kicked off his shoes then got on his knees and started to undo the laces of my boots.

My heart quickened, at the sight of him.

Black hair shining in the light, and fire shadows dance against his tan skin. The careful emotion in his gray eyes, and the set of his lips.

Goosebumps ran through me as his fingers touched my skin.

When he got both of my shoes and socks off, his hands rested on my bare thighs, rubbing up and down and thumbs making small circles as he did.

The movement was meant to warm me, but a certain flame flickered within me. I forgot I was even wearing shorts.

Sirius looked up at me, and the words I having been mutter over and over poured out of my mouth again.

"I'm sorry." The words came out as a dry whisper. My throat was scratchy and my cheeks were still wet from tears.

He continued to move up and down my legs, as he spoke. "It's not all of you're fault, love. I played a part in it too."

No it's not. It was all me. I was the one who walked away and let the fear take advantage of me.

"I let you walk away in Hogsmeade. I tried to pressure you into telling me something, and we both overreacted." He took one hand and put it over mine. His eyes moved from them and back to my purple ones with a determined gleam.

"And I will never, never again let you walk away that easy ever again." My heart fell for him all over again as he spoke those words.

"That was your opinion of easy?"

Sirius chuckled at my retort and brought my hand to his lips. He kissed them softly, causing flutters and sparks through me. The stubble scratched my skin, and I forgot about everything.

"There's that sarcasm, I've been waiting to hear." His smile melted me, and I was sunk back into him.

"Shut up." I sniffed and rubbed my own arm for warmth.

He frowned, "Still cold?"

I shrugged, and he rose an eyebrow.

"Move over." He commanded standing up, and his touch was gone. Confused I scooted over on the bed.

He sat down with his back against the head board and his long legs stretched next to me.

"Come here." Sirius told me and patted the place on the bed next to him.

I gave him a look, but crawled over to him. The urge to be close to him was like a drug that I need to have.

He pulled me to him without a word.

His arm wrapped around me along with his other. My hand intertwined with his and the other resting on his chest. His almost bare chest beating softly under my cheek as I laid my head against him.

We stayed like that for a while. Lost in the comfort of being in each other's arms and our own thoughts.

Well I was sure he was most likely thinking, but I was slowly dozing off to the relaxing sound of his heart beat, the rise and fall of his chest and the light crackle of the fire.

Sirius's POV.

"So it is true." I said more as a statement than a question.

"Mmm?" She mumbled. My voice bringing her back from falling asleep.

We were in the Room of Requirement, after what happened in the Astronomy Tower.

Vanessa was finally back in my arms after almost thirteen days of being apart, and I never wanted to go a day without being with her ever again.

Those thirteen days were practically Hell for me.

She wouldn't even talk to me, and avoided me like I was the devil myself. She didn't look at me during classes or in the halls. When she did see me she ran away.

I sent her notes, waited for her to come around the corner, anything to get a glance of her.

She was my drug, my oxygen.

I needed her to survive.

At first I was hurt, upset and angry. Which typically that mix of emotions led to me drinking and finding a girl to suit my needs.

If that's the way that you want to put.

It's not like I had to try very hard anyways. I went to a Muggle bar then all I had to do was give the girl my grin and a wink, and she fell for my charm. The whole time I flirted with her, I couldn't help think of Vanessa. It angered me, that I drank more and more till I wasn't seeing clearly.

With each touch and drink I was seeing Vanessa and nothing else. She wouldn't leave my thoughts for a second during that night of sex, cigarettes and whiskey.

The morning after I regretted the whole thing, and left immediately then sat outside the girl's dorm waiting for her to come down the steps and through the door.

That first day was when I realized I was a goner.

I teased James about being a love sick puppy, and always thinking about Lily, but now I was in that boat.

She was in every choice I made through the day. What I think about when I go to bed, and the first thing I want to see in the morning. I wanted to be with her every minute, every second during the day. When I wasn't I wonder what she was doing or if she was thinking of me also.

I craved this woman's touch, and laugh.

The reality of how I can never be the way I was, and that I was hers is inevitable. There was nothing I can do about it. Not that I wanted to anyway.

I smiled softly at her. She was so cute when she was sleepy like that.

"What you said in the Tower." I replied.

I messed with our joined fingers, and waited for her answer.

"What about it?" Vanessa muttered as she snuggled into me.

"How you said that every time you think of me, you fall harder?"

"Did I say that?" She yawned. Her hot breath tickled my chest, where my shirt was unbuttoned. I wanted to groan at the feeling of it, but resisted.

I have been to distracted, and nonfunctional since she walked away. I might have been wearing this same shirt two days in a row for all I know. I've tried to sleep in it I do know that, though.

"Yes. Also that I make you feel like your on fire whenever I touch you."

Merlin, I wanted to test that theory!

To touch her, and explore the places I have yet to feel or see of her. Have her gasping under me, and scream my name in pleasure. To be that close to her with no barriers between us. For her to belong entirely to me.

But I would never touch her that way unless she asked me too.

I know what happened to her in the past and every time I think of that bastered I want to rip his head off. He took her innocence and her choice to give it to who ever she wanted.

It infuriated me.

"Do you want me to answer honestly or sarcastically?" Her voice brought me to the present. Vanessa was looking at me with worry in her beautiful, sleepy purple eyes.

"Well I would prefer you to be honest, love." I replied, and frowned when she peeled herself off of me. She was now sitting up on the bed, back facing me and knees brought to her chest.

"Um..it's easier for me to speak my feelings when I didn't know you were there. I have a hard time...expressing what I feel, because I have always kept to myself and I never...really felt anything that you make me feel like."

I sat up as she spoke, and reached up pushing her wavy hair over her shoulder. Vanessa tensed for a second then relaxed a little.

"Take all the time you need, love."

She nodded, and for a few minutes the only sound in the Room was the crack of the fire that was slowly dimming.

"In the ally when you asked me if I felt that spark, and I shook my head...I lied. I...I do feel it. Every time you get near enough to touch, and when you do...I feel like...my whole body has caught on fire and I want more."

She paused, and I waited for her to continue, though I wanted to kiss the breath out of her just from those few sentences.

"Desires I never knew I had come over me...and it scares me a little, but at the same time I feel safe. That nothing the in the world can harm me as long I'm in your arms. I'm worried that you don't feel the same, and that you'll use me then get rid of me or grow bored-" I turned her to me then, and her misty eyes met mine.

"Never think for a second, that I don't feel the same, okay?" I said, and held her hand once again bringing it up to my lips placing a small kiss to her knuckles.

She nodded, "Okay."

"So if I do this for instance," my other hand pressed against her cheek, "I make you feel?"

Vanessa took in a breath as she seemed to search for a word.

"Warm." She turned a little pink as I continued to stare at her.

The words she said repeated in my skull, and she was looking absolutely beautiful with the dim fire light dancing across her hair, eyes and skin. Her tempting lips, being bitten nervously, and I wanted to make them swollen with mine.

As I leaned towards her she froze. When I was an inch away from her, I stopped, "How about now?"

Vanessa's POV.

My heart quickened as he came closer. I bit my lip harder, and I was sure that soon I would cause it to bleed.

"How about now?" The words whispered into my own mouth, as I took in a breath.

"Fireworks...butterflies...and um...hot..very hot." I breathed.

My skin was throbbing, and thumping. I wanted to feel his lips on mine again. It felt like a hundred years without their touch, though it's only been less than two weeks.

"Anything else?" He was smirking at me.

He just couldn't leave it alone and kiss me already? I should of know that if I admitted to my true feelings he would use them against me in some way. And in this instance, he's using it to make me lose control.

It's working too.

Shaking my head, I answered, "Nope. You're turn."

Sirius grinned and raised an eyebrow.

"Hmm.." His hand left my cheek to comb through my hair, "I've got quite a few words."

"Well?" I mumbled a little breathlessness from the dark, intensive gray that his eyes were looking at me with.

He brought our hands between as he leaned back from me slightly. "Fondness, admiration, eagerness, longing, infatuation, and need. Is that enough words?"

My heart raced as he kissed my fingers, and from the truthful expression in his face and eyes.

Resist the urge to make the first move. Keep control, and just breath. Don't over react like a silly love sick school girl.

"More than enough." I couldn't help but whisper the words. My knees fell from my chest to being folded underneath me. Our body's turned at the waist, and he leaned back to me.

"Good." Sirius kissed me softly at the corner of my mouth, and then pressed his lips to mine.

That touch spread through me like a wild fire. The first kiss we've had since the temporarily break-up. But it felt like the very first kiss shared between us.

Ironically also in the Room of Requirement.

It was as if we had a thirst for each other that had to be drank quickly before we disappeared.

The soft touch he had been using was gone when I pulled him towards me and laced my arms around his neck. His stubble was prickly, but I didn't care.

Sirius wrapped his against my waist with the same urgency. My mouth moved together with his, and my heart was pounding in my blood.

We stayed like that for a while till we pulled away for breath, and his mouth found my neck. Soft lips pressed, and sucked on my skin while I gasped for breath.

"I missed you." He breathed in my ear, and nibbled on my earlobe. I shuddered, and tightened my hold on his hair.

I was about to open my mouth to say something, but Sirius took the opportunity to start kissing again, our tongues fighting for control, but in the end he won.

Sirius laid us down, and I felt the comfort of the bed with it's pillows beneath me. He kept most of his weight off of me, not to crush me, but we were still pressed together. My fingers curled in his hair, and my arms around his neck.

Some how during, or in between kisses his shirt had been tossed aside.

His teeth pulled on my lower lip and tickling fingertips ran over the exposed skin from my shirt.

My body wanted him to touch more of me, in places I never dreamed of letting anyone see, but Sirius didn't go any father than that.

The heat that passed between us died down as we, again, broke apart for breath. He relaxed next to me putting an arm around me, pulling me against him once more.

I turned to look at him, puzzled, "Why did you stop?"

He chuckled and put a strand of my hair behind my ear.

"I stopped because if we kept going further like that, I won't be able to stop."

"Oh."

Sirius was being a gentleman, well in this sense, about going farther with our relationship. I was too flustered by the heat and sparks sent between our bodies being together. Our lips, and all the touches were making my brain fuzzy, and not being able to think straight.

I didn't even know if I was ready to take it to the next level. The worry wasn't with Sirius hurting me, it was that we'd start then I'd chicken out or freak out.

"Oh?" The was a certain tense in the word and I snuggled into him making he relax once more.

My face was pressed to his neck letting my breath regain itself. Pulling the sleeves of my coat to my fingers, balling them into a fist, I placed my arm on his chest.

"Thanks." I whispered, and put a kiss on his throat.

Sirius groaned, "Don't do that unless you want me to attack you again."

I giggled, and closed my eyes. The sleepiness from earlier finally came over me, and I felt myself give into it.

My brain was screaming at me to tell him about Carrie, and the scars, but I didn't want to ruin the moment.

The sweetness of his touch running up my stomach, and the soft hum the carried from his lips. The calmness of being in his arms won over me.

Yawning, I mentally told myself to shut up, and I'll tell him tomorrow.

Then I fell asleep to his humming and the rise and fall of his chest.

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