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Journal Excerpt
Dearest child,
Please know that I haven't disrespected your memory by prying at your private writings. I simply used the void left where you should be to relieve my soul of its burdens. It is silly to hope that those words will reach you where you are now – nevertheless, I do.
I knew before you were born that, your father being a member of a different species, I was most probably fated to outlive you. Yet, I decided to embrace it. A choice I pray you would have chosen for yourself. No amount of grief can justify abnegating even the shortest existence of you. How I have loved you, my precious, unique, perfect child.
I hope my choice of betrothed has not burdened you more than you could bear. You may not understand my reasons for accepting your father as you knew him, however you never met the man I truly married. I smile when I think of our first meeting, of the kind, innocent boy he was. I see – saw so much of him in you. I was wrong in thinking that I could bring him back from the terrible ordeals he lived through. It was arrogant of me to think that I could succeed where others had failed. In the end, nothing could save him. Your father was unwell, my dear, but his past deeds entitled him to the greatest respect no matter how hard that could be. How I would have loved for you to just hear his laughter or feel the strength of his embrace. It shatters my heart that you never did. I want you to know that, had this capacity not been stolen away from him, he would have loved you with all of his heart.
So now, after losing him for a second time, I lose you.
But I have faith, we will all meet again, in the Spirit world.
Until then, I will let your memories rest here, where you were born.
Your loving mother
Author's note: Writing that honestly brought tears to my eyes... I'm really mean, am I not? :/ Kind of frustrated not to be able to do a right alignment for the signature...
mrobbins3 and cafalla, thanks a lot for the reviews! I'm glad you were so enraptured by these last chapters :)