The Feeling Of Controlled Beauty Chapter 25, a wrestling fanfic

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I couldn't believe what I've just heard. This had to be a mistake. It had to be a hallucination I was going under. Maybe it was the wine, wasn't it?

"What did you just say..." I asked him, quietly. I just wanted him to confirm it.

"I killed Nikki Bella's sister..." He repeated it once more.

"B-But that's insane!" I protested. "You're not that kind of man to do something like that! How could it be-"

"Luna...you need to listen." He looked at me, his eyes darkened with god knows what emotion he was feeling right now.

I closed my mouth, opening it then closing it as I held onto my glass, deciding to hear the whole story. I didn't care about those keys anymore, screw that. It was time for him to come clean and I did want answers as to what the hell was going on between him and Nikki.

And as stupid as this would seem, I did love him enough to hear the truth coming from him and him only. Roman and Dean I would deal with later.

"Go on.." I chewed my bottom lip, anxious to know the whole story, my heart threatening to fall out of my chest.

Seth stood up as he looked out the window; the rain was pouring harder than ever as he closed his eyes.

"Nikki and I...we were married for only 4 years. We had an open relationship and we were both doms. We were allowed to pick and choose who we wanted to sleep with. We had a happy marriage for quite awhile. It was your typical normal marriage but had its kinks. None that really satisfied me anymore." He chuckled quietly. "Not the way you do.."

I hoped he didn't see me blush for that second when he said that. I listened on as he continued with his story.

"However, things went a little differently when I had met her sister, Brie Bella. They were both identical twins and seemed to be very close with each other. Me and Nikki were going through a rough patch, wanting to end the open marriage and it just be me and her. I was all for it to be honest. I hung out with her sister for quite some time while she had went to work that night. I was happy, considering that every night, me and Nikki would always bicker and argue up until 6 in the morning; Whether it was starting a family or her family or just the fact that she accused me of cheating on her. Now, I can admit that when we agreed on the open relationship at the time, I did sleep with maybe two women, but I decided I didn't want to do it anymore and wanted to be with her only."

"But anyway, it was me and Brie Bella. Brie Bella needed a place to stay as she came into town on a business trip. She was staying with Nikki and I and everything was fine. I had made sure she was comfortable and everything, the hospitality crap you would offer to a guest. She had made dinner and we had talked, spent some time together for a moment. Then later that night, when I was in my office, it seemed that she noticed that I was a dom. I guessed she found something of mine in my bedroom but I wasn't sure what. You've seen most of my...items anyway." He shrugged sheepishly. "But she was curious; She wanted to know...what it was like."

"I avoided her until she came into my office...and then...we started the affair as we slept together. I showed her the role of being a submissive. Nikki Bella had no idea that I was having sex with her sister. Until she caught me and Brie kissing one night as I was leaving my office. Nikki confronted me for it and I admitted to the affair, knowing I was wrong. But I didn't stop being with Brie. I had feelings for her. Real deep feelings. I even started to file for divorce papers for Nikki, even though I was guilty for hurting her. I know its fucked up, but I wanted to be with her, even after Nikki kicked her sister out. I had made all these promises of being with Brie, even though I never followed through. I wanted to have my cake and eat it to, as the metaphor goes."

"Wow..." My mind was blown. But this was only the beginning of course. "What else happened.."

"Two weeks later, she needed to see me in private. I was able to meet with Brie, deciding to end it with her once and for all. She realized then and there that I had lied to her about leaving her sister. She confessed that she loved me but at the time, all I had wanted was just sex. I destroyed her and everything she had carried herself as a woman. She was torn as well, betraying her sister yet she still wanted to be with me. I was ready to divorce Nikki. I had the divorce papers ready to be filed. But a part of me wanted to make the relationship work. So I dismissed Brie and cut her out of my life. I ignored her, practically treated her as if she was a whore and ignored her pleas of saying that she loved me and wanted to be with me. I thought I was doing the right thing; Letting her go so she could forget about me.

"And then.." He closed his eyes. "There was a call from the hospital. I didn't know why they called me but they said that I was in Brie's contact list. I had no idea where Nikki was but I was pretty sure she was already sleeping with someone else. I left Nikki a voicemail, letting her know something happened with Brie. I made my way to the hospital and when I spoke to the doctor...they told me she was gone..."

"How?" I almost said as faintly to where I thought he couldn't hear me.

"...She killed herself. And as well as...she was pregnant with my child..." His eyes were filled with tears. "She overdosed herself on every kind of pill you could think of. They were too late to pump her stomach. I lost her and I lost my unborn baby..who I didn't even know existed until they showed me the autopsy."

My mind went blank. I couldn't help but feel the pain and horror of what had happened to Brie. No wonder Nikki was angry and no wonder Seth...oh my god. I didn't even know what to say. What was there to say?

"Her whole family hates me, not that I blame her. I decided to still go on with the divorce. I regret how I had treated Brie and used her. I regret cutting her out of my life just to make Nikki happy. I was a sorry excuse of a man, Luna. Because of me, Brie is dead. I wanted to just die myself. I didn't even know she was pregnant and going through depression and to something so severe that she killed herself."

I noticed then that he didn't even stop to suppress the tears that were streaming down his face. I couldn't even imagine what he was going through. He really did love Brie but was so conflicted as to making Nikki happy.

"But..you two are still legally married...if she doesn't want to be with you-"

"She's only staying with me because she wants to make my life a living hell; Which I deserve. I took away her sister and I slept around with her.

"But she did the same thing too!" I went up to him, trying to get him to look at me. I have never seen him so broken before.

"It doesn't matter!" He barked as I swallowed hard, a bit frightened by his anger. He calmed down as he wiped his eyes.

"I've fucked up, big time. I dragged you into it and I shouldn't have. I wanted to tell you the truth and I should have but I was so happy with you. For once I felt as though my life had some kind of fucking meaning to it. You were part of that meaning. I can't express how much I love you Luna. I love you more than Roman and Dean. I have already filed for divorce but Nikki still doesn't want to let go. She doesn't even want to sign them."

"I made a mess of everything..." He cried once more, as he remembered the doctor telling him that she was pregnant and that they didn't make it in time to save her from the pills she had taken.

I went over to him and I held him. I just held him and cried with him. I wish I could have taken this pain from him. And knowing that he was accepting responsibility for his part, I had to admit it said a lot about him instead of trying to make excuses like any other man would.

It was then I felt like a hypocrite. Who was I to judge when I was keeping a secret myself? I was being such a coward. I knew I had to tell them the truth, sooner or later or I would live to regret it for the rest of my life.

I closed my eyes as I just felt him wrap his arms around me. I felt so lost within. But I loved it. I couldn't help that. In some way we were both damaged, but yet we could repair each other.

I feel the blood rushin' throughout ya body

You see the scars painted over my skin

I'm always numb to the topic of loving

I fell in love with the subject of sin.

I don't have to remind you, oh ohhh

It's my need to confine you, oh ohhh

I see your face every time I'm with somebody else

Can't you see that I want you?

Put your feelings behind you

I don't have to remind you (don't have to remind you)

Where you belong

It was as if we couldn't help ourselves as Seth suddenly pulled me into a passionate kiss, with my blood turning into a different temperature. I fell right in. Yes, you heard me, I fell right into his kiss as I let him take me. We fell back onto his sofa, both of us just taking over each other. I let Seth guide me as I just let his touch control every aspect of my body, those tiny little electric sparks I was feeling and my head was swooning.

I'm in control, when you give me your body, yeah

I feel our souls burnin' up when I'm, inside of you and I

I'ma leave a mark, just to remind you, where you belong, baby

Give me your all, scream as loud as you want

I don't have to remind you, oh ohhh

It's my need to confine you, oh ohhh

I see your face every time I'm with somebody else

Can't you see that I want you?

Put your feelings behind you

I don't have to remind you (don't have to remind you)

Where you belong

The Weeknd-Where You Belong

But this wasn't the right way to do this. As much as I could feel Seth's pain and I understood everything of his explanation, I had to stop this before I went in without thinking, like I normally do when I am turned on and needing his touch, to which I have missed.

"Seth, no.." I stood up, breathless as I put my shirt back on. Before he could even speak I had cut him off.

"Luna...I'll do anything you want. Just don't do this..."

"Seth...you made me feel like the other woman. How do I know if I can really trust you? As well as Roman and Dean? Because all three of you are just as responsible and lied to me."

He took my hand in his as I looked at him. Damn those eyes. They were like the devil sometimes.

"All I ask is that you give me this chance..." He kissed my palm.

I sighed, my heart was heavy and my head was swimming.

I took a deep breath, knowing that I didn't want to jump into this head first.

"I need some time...to figure all of this out. And I need my space. You can't rush me at every turn and expect me to have the answer by tomorrow. You have to earn my trust back."

He nodded as he stood up, going to the drawer as he went to get my real set of keys.

"Then I will do just that. But I won't give up, sweetheart. Not by a long shot."

I grabbed my purse and my jacket as he helped me to the door.

"But while you think about that, I want you to think about this.."

He stole yet another kiss from me, damn near making me fall as I had to grab onto his shoulder with his tongue plowing into my oral cavern.

He let me go reluctantly as I had to scramble to get out of there, my breathing slowly coming back to normal.

I had to get my head straight and get it together. I knew the first thing I had to do was talk to Nikki Bella about this whole situation.

Gemini decided to help Luna get to work and back, since her car was in the shop. He was here to pick his sister up from work when he received a phone call. He rolled his eyes, seeing who it was. This was the fourth call he had gotten from her and he was sick of it

"Look..stop fucking calling me alright? What's done is done."

"Just so we are clear, you don't get to tell me what the fuck to do. You got your wish so you need to do exactly what I say."

"I said, leave me the fuck alone, bitch." He growled. "Look, yes I gave you what you needed so we could break up Luna and Seth but thats it. I don't have anymore rap for you. Now leave me alone, Nikki."

And with that, he hung up the phone, an impending headache on his brain. He knew making a deal with the she devil was going to have hims crewed over but he was doing what was best for his sister.

What he looked up from his cell, he saw it was Luna; She heard everything. He knew he had fucked up. He should have answered the call when he got home but didn't even pay attention when Luna came out the building.

"Luna-"

"Gemini.." She asked him, her blood running cold, the anger seeping in her voice. "What the hell did you do?"

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