A/N: The television show mentioned in this chapter is a favorite of mine, a classic from the 1960s. And it's another hint as to what Nathan really is. But Nessie is still too ignorant to see it.

Don't worry; she'll figure it out soon…and so will Jacob.

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Dear Diary,

I did laundry for the first time today. Complete and utter disaster! Who knew that you had to separate colors from whites? I didn't; no one told me! So now my white dress is pink. Can you believe it?! I am so embarrassed. Aunt Alice was happy because it's an excuse for her to shop, but I'm not. If she wasn't so strong I probably would have ripped her throat out. And Uncle Jasper said to keep me away from the dishwasher! Mom and dad found it rather funny when I pulled my favorite dress out to reveal its new color. Dammit!

Nathan and I hung out yesterday. It was great; we haven't had much time together for the past week. I am still wondering about whether he wants to have sex with me or not; he's never said anything. In fact, our make out sessions are getting rather mundane. He keeps his hands at my hips. I know, it's great he's a gentleman and not taking advantage of me, but let's get real. I'm half-vampire. That is not going to happen. And I want a little action. What's wrong with that?

He did throw me a birthday party. All the girls were there: Lisa, Carmen, Adora, Lizzie, and Sally. I thought it might be odd for him being the only guy there, but he fit right in. He pulled out board games and cards and we had great fun. Lizzie found a collection of Dark Shadows DVDs and we became engaged in that. It is so hilarious how the vampire is portrayed in that show. He can't go out in the sun and doesn't have a reflection. Silly! And the teeth! Give me a break! Yes, my teeth are sharp but they aren't pointed like that. That's a myth. But, I guess all of those stories are. And don't even get me started on Anne Rice!

Honestly, I love that show. It was filmed live so sometimes you can see on-air mistakes. My favorite is when the fly landed on Jonathan Frid and didn't leave. It was hysterical watching him act with a fly crawling on his face. Also, when they look towards the camera they are actually reading the cue cards. The actors make it pretty obvious that they forgot their lines; but it's worth the laugh! And the actress who played Victoria was so pretty. I never understood why Barnabas went after Maggie Evans first. She's pretty yes, but has nothing on Victoria! The girls, however, disagreed with me.

I have always wanted Josette's music box. To me, it was the ultimate symbol of love. Barnabas gives it to Josette as a token of his undying affection to her and carries it with him for almost 200 years. He gives it to his new "Josette" in the current time (1960s) because he never forgets his one true love. The tune is so beautiful and sad. I may check eBay to see if they have it available.

Nathan seemed pretty engrossed in it as well. He held my hand and kissed me a few times during it. I was surprised when he started talking about its inaccuracies. Sally knows, of course, but only because she knows about my freakishness. He doesn't know, so I wondered how he got everything right.

Sally wondered it too. She kept looking at us while we were watching it. She said she never noticed that we are alike in our looks; that is in how pale we both are. I never really paid attention either since I'm constantly surrounded by it. But I have more color than my family members, obviously. Funny what a beating heart does!

So anyways, the party was fun. Lisa gave me an iTunes gift card, Lizzie a burgundy sweater to match my Ugg boots, Adora gave me chocolate (yum!), Sally was a book on the Kama Sutra (embarrassing!), Carmen a gold necklace with a sapphire on it, and Nathan wrote a poem. The poem was about me. He wrote a poem about me! It was so sweet! He talked about how beautiful I was and that he's never met anyone like me. I was floored when I opened it; he had framed it too! And it looked like it was written in calligraphy. I didn't know he could write like that! Smart, gorgeous, funny, protective, romantic, sweet, talented…I could go on. Could this get any better?

Of course, the girls were jealous. For once, they were jealous of me. I was the center of attention and I loved it. I mainly hang out in the background. True, I choose that most of the time, but sometimes not. Sometimes I want to be shown off and adored. I want to feel beautiful, is that such a bad thing?

Mom asked me "what if Jacob sees the poem?" I told her I don't care; I don't belong to him. Yes, I enjoy hanging out with him and he's a fantastic kisser, but I am free to do what I want. Like Nathan, he has never pressured me to do something I don't want to do. I appreciate that. But I don't feel the urge to have sex with him like I do Nathan. A part of me thinks "if you get pregnant, you'll have puppies." I know that's not true, but I couldn't help it! I have dreamt about what it would be like and I see it as being awkward, strange. Jake just doesn't seem like the type of guy to have sex with. I don't know; maybe he's gay.

Aunt Rosalie has shown up to give me a lesson in laundry-washing. It's bad enough that the whole family knows about it, but now they want to "help." I would rather never do it again, but that idea is futile. If I go off to college it will be necessary, right? Well, maybe not. Maybe I could pay someone to do it….

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