Hi everyone! As promised I am posting a new chapter every month! I realize that this is a little while to wait but it works for my life much better and now this story is not so much as a stresser anymore and is now returning to my stress reliever as it originally was
Also some reviews brought to my attention that Kagome and Sesshomaru's relationship doesn't feel like that of a brother and sister like bond. I realized this is mainly because the POV is specifically from Kagome. We are only seeing her feelings in it and what she is taking away. Sesshomaru's feelings on this subject matter are never really expressed unless said through his dialogue. Also you have to remember that he is very knew to all of these emotions he has never experienced before. So drawing the line between brotherly love and actual love is something he is rying to find the difference in. He dose state that they have a brother sister bond but he is still unsure of how to show it exactly
So showing the progression of this relationship will be a little more difficult for him as a character to understand than Kagome whom already feels very at ease with Sesshomaru because of her natural personality and her pack instincts.
I hope this helps to explain things a little bit better and thank you again for all the reviews.
Please enjoy the chapter and I don't own Inuyasha!
Inuyasha POV
I could only sleep for a little while before my body forced me to wake up, about an hour before the sunrise. I decided I would check the outskirts of the camp jus to be safe. I jumped down seeing Sango and Miroku curled up together and a transformed Kiara snuggled around them. I smiled seeing how soundly they were sleeping before making my way around the camp. After my first round I noticed that I didn't smell the wolf. In fact I hadn't seen or smelt him since we had our last fight early last night.
"Keh whatever glad that runt is gone and he can stay gone." I pushed myself past a few crisscrossing trees coming into the second round of my patrol. I sensed a few weakling demons nearby, but they didn't dare come near me even if I was only a half demon they knew I could kill them without even trying. After my third round I was sure there was no real threat to my pack so I headed back towards them. Walking through the little patch of woods it wasn't long before my thoughts slipped back to Kagome.
I felt my entire body begin to lag and I imagined her here with us still. Her now deep blue eyes and long raven like hair that always felt smooth as silk itself. Her stunning smile fangs or no fangs, it held me there speechless… her soft skin and smaller frame that looked so good in that knew kimono she had gotten back from the village of Edo. But the thing I could remember the most now more than ever was softness of her lips against mine. Even though it might have only been in my imagination, it had felt so real.
'Mate…' I heard Takumi whine in the back of my head and instantly I huffed out in anger at him.
'Takumi I have told you she is not our mate!'
'You still deny!?' He screamed in my head.
'I never said that you baka, I said she isn't our mate because we are not mated…I didn't say that I didn't want that.' I said within my own mind but I could feel my body heat up from the idea of having Kagome as my own. To be able to hold her when I wanted, stare at her without feeling embarrassed, to kiss her when I wanted. I could feel Takumi growl with delight in the back of my mind again and something very odd happened. As this was transgressing I just so happen to be walking by a small stream no wider than my shoulders and no deeper than my shins. But that had only been what I noticed after the fact, for one moment when I had first looked into the stream I jumped back in horror. I saw my reflection but it had changed from my normal face to the one Kagome had describe to me. My eyes glowed red on the outside where white should be and violet marks had appeared on my face with just one jagged swoop on each side. But something was different about it as well…When I raced down to my knees to look again I barely caught it before my face returned to normal. My irises had not been blue they were still gold and the marks although they were there Kagome had told me they were more jagged. Those marks had been one smooth mark on both sides with a one parallel jag on each side.
"What the HELL?!" I screamed to myself. By now the morning light was well in the sky and already I had had my first shit show of the day. I clawed at my image now in the stream before angrily striding my way back to camp once again keeping my mind off Kagome. When I finally broke the tree line just a little ways off I could see that the rest of my pack had woken up now busying themselves the best they could. But then I noticed the distress smell coming from Sango and I started running back to camp. As I got closer I could hear the grunts and disapproving noises that emitted from her in some way.
"Ugh where is it!?" She grumbled as she continued to rummage through her stuff. I was about to ask her what was wrong until I remembered and grumpy Sango is a violent Sango. I immediately went towards Miroku.
"Mind telling me what's got her upset?" using my thumb to point at her over my shoulder. He opened one eye and carefully peeked at Sango before closing his eyes again to speak.
"It seems Sango cannot find her masking scent powder. She has looked all over for it but it seems she has lost it."
"I HAVE NOT LOST IT MONK!" She yelled at both of us making Miroku jump behind the log he was sitting on and myself jumped into the tree above. "Huh I haven't lost it, but it has been missing since yesterday morning. I didn't think much of it until it turned up missing for a second day." She proclaimed a little more calmly. She turned back around and kept digging through the things on the ground. After my nerves settled I could finally ask what I wanted too.
"Why does it matter, maybe you used it all." She simply glared at me with malice at the moment.
"I didn't use all of it because there was half a bag left when I used it to mask the scent of Kikyo's arrow." She said through gritted teeth.
"Sango that is enough." Miroku said sternly hitting his staff to the ground with authority. But it didn't matter she had already opened the wound that was hardly fixed. I felt my chest concave in and my stomach wrench as the thought once more plagued my mind. Takumi growled at me wanting to correct her misbehavior.
"Miroku how can you…"
"How can I Sango, how can you so harshly accuse our friend of actions he has already repented for. Inuyasha has apologized to Kagome for what has happened and has tried very hard to make up for it. He has respected Kagome's wishes of letting her have her time and has decided to offer her whatever position she desires within the pack. I believe Inuyasha has been more than forthcoming in his actions rather than words. I would think you would have noticed this…I am highly disappointed Sango." The look on Sango's face was surprise and then guilt as she looked back up at me, but I didn't care. I jumped down from the tree and started walking away.
"Inuyasha I am sorry…" she said pain in her voice.
"Keh it doesn't matter you were right, and I was a jerk to Kagome and I deserve it…Kagome should come back late tonight most likely why don't we gather whatever supplies we can to make the trip to the village with the jewel shard." I said with my head down, my bangs hiding my face. Before running off to just be alone for a little while.
"Inuyasha!" I heard Miroku and Sango cry out but I didn't want to go back I just wanted to be alone for a bit longer. I needed Kagome to be here now I couldn't take this physical or emotional detachment anymore. It felt like my other half was missing and I was slowly becoming dysfunctional without her. For a few hours I ran around the camp nonstop I knew that I was wasting precocious energy that I might need later, but I didn't care. I needed something that was so repetitive that it was all I could think about. I let one foot race in front of the other as I let my mind and emotions fade out until it was just a dull ache in the pit of my stomach. The world around me became a blur of color and I could no longer tell the shape of anything anymore…The ache soon traveled to my chest and that was when I had to slow down.
I knew I was emotionally and mentally draining myself into exhaustion I needed to stop and face my crap like a man. I turned back towards the camp and started running once again by now the sun had risen to almost midday. I had been away for longer than I thought. As I got closer to the camp I felt a snarl rip through Takumi and a very powerful demonic aura heading towards the camp.
"Sesshomaru" I growled through my teeth I felt my adrenaline kick in and my blood began to boil. Just what I freaking needed right now. I pushed my tired body even further I pushed through the tree line I had come through only hours earlier running across the field to reach my friends in time. As soon as I was in sight they both tensed feeling the aura as well and readied themselves to fight. I could smell his now his stupid stench of oak trees and weird as hell honey coming over the hill across the other side of the field. I cracked my knuckles ready for a fight…and I waited.
What I didn't expect was to see Sesshomaru and Koga walk over the hill together. "What the hell?" If Koga had sided with Sesshomaru for Kami knows what reasons I was going to have a real fight on my hands. I pulled out my Tetsiguia transforming it as it came out. Its familiar grip calming me just a little. They walked closer Koga staying right next to Sesshomaru as if he was glued to him. 'What the hell is going on?' Then I realized something even stranger. Why could I not smell Koga and why did Sesshomaru look like he was holding something in front of him? When they were within a few yards from us Sesshomaru stopped.
"Keh come here to die today Sesshomaru." I said
"Hey mutt I wouldn't mess with him, older brother or not." I rolled my eyes and let the Tetsiguia drop to my right hand only.
"Stay out of this Koga!" I yelled. Then I heard a very meaningful growl emit itself from Sesshomaru. His eyes slightly tinted red.
"Inuyasha you shall see to it that you speak with a lowered voice or be faced with severe consequences." His aura flared out just to show how serious he was and even Koga backed away. What was going on?
"Keh lets just get this over with I got more important things to worry about today." I said in normal voice so as to not cause a bigger mess then we already had. I started to charge getting only a few steps ready to swing my wind scar with my right hand. But not a second later time stood still...
Now being cradled in Sesshomaru's arm was a girl.
A girl with long raven like hair…I felt my heart stop in my chest and Miroku and Sango behind me gasping.
A girl with a kimono that seem to show every color and fade into a beautiful violet…My eyes widened and the air I had been breathing was pulled from my very lungs.
A girl that's smile brighten the very world around her with eyes that glowed with passion and power no matter what color…My emotions raced so many thoughts coming to my mind, but I was focused on one thought alone as my sword dropped from my hands.
Sesshomaru held the beautiful sleeping girl that I loved more than anything anymore…. I started at her shock on my face until it turned into that of a pleading one. I reached out my hand as if to see if she was really there…I couldn't smell her or sense her, but…that had to be her. It just had too…
I took another step further extending my arm even more…I felt my hope fading away quickly…please it has to be real.
"K-kagome?" I whispered. I took another step and then I heard Sesshomaru emit another warning growl my way. But to be honest I was surprised I even heard it. "S-sessho-maru i-is that Ka-Kagome?...Please j-just tell me." I practically begged to him. Had it been anyone but Kagome there was no way in hell I would have begged to that prick for anything no even my own life.
In that moment everything was again silent and a breeze pushed its way through and I could not help but notice how soundly she was sleeping in his arms. I wanted to hold her not him, why the hell was he holding her in the first place.
"This Sesshomaru has spent the last few days traveling with the miko. It is indeed Kagome." At his rough statement I felt my doubt wash away and a loud sigh leave me. I walked closer to get her but I received another warning growl and if I remembered right that was the third one already. That wasn't good for me and I sure as hell wanted to know why they had been traveling together the past few days.
"What are you doing Sesshomaru give her to me." I said with a harsh whisper.
"I shall not!" He snapped at me with a very low tone and now it was my turn to growl.
"She doesn't belong to you Sesshomaru she..."
"Kagome does not belong to anyone Inuyasha. She has done a lot for you in the past few days and has slept since midnight this morning. She requested the day before that we return here around midday, I will not wake her as will no one else. That in turn means until she wakes she will remain in my arms sleeping peacefully." He hissed through his teeth.
"How do I know you will not harm her?" that is when Koga joined the conversation…when did he get behind me?
"I have been following Kagome since she left practically, all that overgrown mutt has done is protect her." He said quietly with a swish of his tail and crossed arms. "Seems as though she didn't really need it though did she Sesshomaru?" I turned to look back at Sesshomaru and was terrified. There he was with most emotion I had ever seen on him. He was staring at Kagome with the utmost respect and care.
"No Kagome did not need my help she was more than capable of it alone…" he then looked up at me his emotionless demeanor returning expert for one thing…stubbornness. "Which is why she is now asleep and she shall stay that way until her body decides to wake." That was it there was no getting around it he was not going to let go of her. That left me no choice but to wait until she awoke. I was going to say my input until I smelled someone I hadn't noticed was missing. I looked up towards Sesshomaru's right and there I saw Ah Un walking closer. I saw his little human companion Rin and right behind her was Shippo.
"Shippo?" I saw his face light up when he saw me.
"Inuyasha!" he yelled and Sesshomaru gave him a look and instantly he became quiet and his smile disappeared.
"Sorry Lord Sesshomaru…" he apologized scampering off Ah Un. Sesshomaru just nodded in his direction and Shippo bowed before running towards me. "Inuyasha." He called out again launching himself at me. I caught him in my chest and he dug himself into my haori. I felt my chest give a little to his little body before I wrapped my wrapped my left hand around him and pulled him just a little tighter to me. I felt the grumbling purr coming from him and my anxiety lessened a bit.
"Shippo is it true… Have you and Kagome been traveling with Sesshomaru?" I asked quietly.
"Yes Da…Inuyasha." I froze just for a second he almost called daddy again … in front of everyone.
"Huh why Shippo did he force you, was Kagome just helping him?" I asked.
"Not exactly I just know that I was playing with Rin one moment and then we were traveling with Lord Sesshomaru the next." He said as it seemed he himself was confused about how it happened himself. I looked back up to Sesshomaru to get some answers.
"Mind explaining yourself to me?" To my surprised he simply nodded and started walking towards me until her walked passed me. Keeping Kagome as still as possible as he reached our small camp. Ah Un, Rin, and I followed after him as he sat down pulling Kagome even closer to his chest as she wiggle herself into him even more. As I walked up to him to sit across form him Shippo sat on my shoulder and I noticed that since Kagome wiggled she had changed into her demon state.
"What happened her to her?" Sango asked as everyone was beginning to settle down. Rin sat next to Sesshomaru, Koga leaned against the tree, and Sango and Miroku sat next to each other on the log from earlier. I sat on the ground across the fire pit from Sesshomaru with Shippo in my lap. Kiara snuggled up underneath Sango's hand as all was silent waiting for Sesshomaru to speak.
"She has been changing off and on all morning, I assume her body is trying to replenish itself and to do that her demon state is needed for an hour or so at a time." Her ears twitched at the sound of his voice and she wiggle again now facing towards all of us.
"Lord Sesshomaru could you please enlighten us as to why you were traveling with Kagome." Miroku asked patiently since my own was running thin. He sighed, very unlike him and seemed to think back like it was so long ago.
"At first it was only to find what aura that could overpower my own. Kagome had told me that demons had been attacking more than usual lately, it wasn't because of the jewel shards she carried. Her power has now grown to more powerful than my own and much greater than that of Naraku's. When I realized it was this little miko I thought that maybe I had been misled that is until she told me her story from the past week or so." I could feel my heart breaking…she ran to Sesshomaru of all people, she talked to him about all of this. "When I explained to her why I had been lead here I told her my thoughts on all of it and she soon had a panic attack. Her powers lashed out to protect her as they formed a barrier, but it seemed she had just enough control the cut her powers off. However it left her very weak and so I decided to watch over her for the remainder of her time away."
"Why would you do something like that, I thought you hated humans Lord Sesshomaru." Miroku butted in again. Sesshomaru looked down to Rin and Kagome.
"I do not hate humans I simply don't understand them…Rin and Kagome have taught me much about the beauty the human race can hold."
"So what happened next?" I asked still a little ticked that he refused to let go of her and those looks and the way he talked about her was giving me the wrong feeling.
"After she returned to a healthier state I questioned her nonstop about anything I thought could be useful information and after a while it wasn't just her power that interested me any longer. It was herself that I took an interest in. We talked as if we had become friends and at the time my emotions were very conflicted about all of it. It wasn't until she was attacked by the mistress Centipede that I confirmed at least one thing. I wanted to protect her, she was a rare gem in a disgusting race. She defeated the centipede on her own and I helped her burn the body…" Then of all things she tried to tell me that I Sesshomaru was kind hearted demon…"
"Keh that's a funny joke Sesshomaru." I snorted out, he didn't even look at me he still stared at her.
"That is exactly what I thought, that she misunderstood me. Even though I had decided to protect her that did not make me a kind demon and she stated that I just simply did not see what she did."
"Hm sounds like the Kagome I know." Sango said smiling down at her. We all knew that Kagome only saw the good in people and demons alike. I looked at her more intensely I was begging for her to wake up I just wanted to hear her voice and see her smile.
"I have been honored to come to know her as such as well. After our encounter with the Mistress Centipede I had offered later that night that we go to the village in which you all sought to collect the jewel early so that you may have today to simply talk."
"What!?" I whispered so harshly I thought I was going to explode. "You took her to the village to dispose of the demon by herself. How the hell did you even get in the village? We have issues getting me in the villages, let alone you sorry ass." That's when I guess I over stepped the line that had been placed. Sesshomaru looked up at me with pure anger in his eyes, his aura lashing out violently. It looked as if he was about to snap, but just in time Kagome's aura slowly seeped from her body and encompassed us all. The peaceful state in which she rested right now flowed through us and I felt a little sleepy myself. But it seemed that Sesshomaru was the one Kagome was targeting as he looked back down at her all vicious thoughts privy disappeared.
"Ses..sho…maru…" She whispered in her sleep before snuggling down further into his lap and the jealously I felt at that moment was far more than I had ever felt before in my life.
"You are lucky little brother, that this young woman has affected me so much in the past few days." He spoke with venom as he temper faded and he wrapped himself closer to Kagome. "I shall cut this tale shorter seeing as we might not be making things better at the moment. Yes we went to the village and after being assaulted by the headmaster we finally made way for an inn. Then going back to headmaster's home we deduced what the creature was that had been attacking the village. It was Janjanbi and last night Kagome dealt with it like no one else could. She let the soul be free from this world and be with its love almost at the cost of her own life. Things were under control until this wolf cub decided to try and 'save' Kagome." He eyed the wolf.
"I thought my woman was in trouble and I was going to save her. I didn't realize she didn't need my help." He half yelped.
"She is not your woman!" Sesshomaru and I said at the same time. That was way too weird, but either way the conversation went on.
"Whatever, but don't play off the situation like you came out unscathed pretty boy. You and I both know that Kagome brought you to your knees Sesshomaru…even you felt that pain." I looked at Koga completely dumbfounded. How could Kagome bring Sesshomaru to his knees I knew she was strong with her own powers, but from the earlier statements in the story it seemed Kagome and Sesshomaru were getting along? I looked back over to Sesshomaru to question him, but I saw something entirely different. Sesshomaru had pulled Kagome higher so as to pull his knees in. He dipped his head on top of Kagome's and I felt sorrow wash over him as he dug his claws into Kagome's kimono. He breathed in his scent and that sent me over the edge. I set Shippo down to the side stood up not caring what was going to happen, Kagome belong to no one. I could feel Takumi this entire time screaming in my head, but I choose to ignore it.
"But no more…" I whispered angrily as I felt Takumi push a little more forward to the surface. My blood boiling and my instincts running wild telling me to take my mate back was all so welcoming. I could feel everyone's eyes on me as the gasped in fear…all except Sesshomaru. I approached him unafraid of the consequences.
"Did I miss something Sesshomaru? Last time I checked you held no feelings for humans and now you hold a Kagomeas if she belongs to you…that you could actually care about her. I know Kagome's heart is great…"
I must have said something because in a split second Sesshomaru's poison whip slashed across my face. I felt his aura flare and his furious growl rip through the air at a very alarming speed. I felt the poison sink into my skin burning the muscle and stunning me more than anything. I looked back to him ready to fight but I saw something again that I never thought was possible. A single flash of regret and pain across his face as the hint of my blood touch his own sensitive nose. Then it quickly left replaced with his normal emotional less demeanor. Everyone in the close vicinity had taken a few cautious steps back. He took a calming breath and made sure Kagome was comfortable again. He looked back at me with a stern look as if what he was about to saw was law.
"I apologize for my actions Inuyasha, but I believe you have no idea how much love this fragile woman carries…nor the pain." He stated.
"How is that you lord Sesshomaru, who has only known Kagome for three days, possibly know her capacity for pain, love, and understanding for others?" Miroku as warily but still sarcastically. But it was not Sesshomaru that answered but Koga.
"Because in order to save the Janjanbi Kagome let it know that she understood its pain. She broke down a barrier of sorts and anyone close to her could feel her emotions…and her p-pain. We both felt it. All of us know pain, but Kagome…"He looked at her as tears started to form and roll down his cheek. "If I would have known that is what she went through every day of her existence…I WOULD HAVE NEVER HAVE LEFT HER WITH YOU MUTT!" he screamed as he got right in my face pointing his finger at my chest. His face was flushed with anger as his movements became erratic, his breathing very heavy. "I HAVE NEVER felt that amount of pain in my life Inuyasha. That pain crippled me to the point of howling like a pup again. I begged her to stop in my mind, but I could not coherently make a sentence form out of my mouth. It-it felt as if someone had literally taken my chest and dug a dagger through it for fun. A burning sensation so horrible my entire body felt as if it was on fire. Like someone was squeezing the very air I breathed out of me and my body was a knife's plaything. Electricity and poison coursed through my me…That doesn't even begin to describe it Inuyasha." Now he was flat out vicious as I was too stunned to speak he pushed me to the ground barely containing himself. He pulled his hand back as to punch me and it made contact. I smacked my head on my ground and whipped it back up dazed.
"Koga that is enough!" Sesshomaru shouted. Koga looked back at him with tear stained faced and body filled with anger. "You shall cease this behavior at once or you will suffer. Harm Inuyasha and you will face me should you wake Kagome I will cripple you cub." He said. I couldn't take this anymore what the hell was going on. Sesshomaru was acting fucking weird as hell. Koga was just acting crazy like usual…
'Kagome…' I cradled my head in my hands trying to keep myself form breaking down. She was right there and the only thing keeping her away was Sesshomaru. I heard Koga some sort of feeble retort towards Sesshomaru and walked off towards the tree again. But instead of leaning on it he jumped up in it to hide from the world. I could feel everyone's eyes on me again as I tried to keep it all in, but in my mind we were all screaming her name.
'Kagome…Kagome…KAGOME!'
I dug my claws into my hair and then ran my fingers through it out of extreme frustration. I got that same feeling like I was feeling earlier this morning when I looked into the pond. I burned with a want I had never felt before. I wanted…no I needed her to wake up…to smile…to hear her voice. I looked back up to her pleading with my very soul.
"Kagome…" I whispered and it felt like something in my shifted. I looked up to Sesshomaru and his eyes widen and gasped as I had never seen before. I ignored it and took a step towards him. "Kagome.." I said a little louder and now Miroku and Sango looked at me stunned. I took one more step putting everything that was in me into her name once more begging her to wake up. I let everything spill into her sweet name. "Kagome…"
"Inu…ya…sha" she mumbled in her sleep and slowly her ears twitched. The cutest yawn escaped her lips as her tongue slip out just like mine did. Her eyes and her nose wrinkled and ever so slowly her beautiful eyes opened to see me. The glowing orbs of violet and gold fighting against each other as her long eyelashes swept across them again and again as her mind became more awake. I let out a very much sigh of relief as I felt the urges from before slip away as I crumpled to the ground. My body couldn't take it any longer, I had run myself ragged and now it was taking it's toll. Sleep was taking over quickly as my vision slowly began to darken the last thing I saw and heard was her.
"Inuyasha!" She whispered with worry reaching her hand out to me.
Asha: hey everyone I hope this chapter make sense please read and review and ask any question that you would like!
Shippo: Asha why are Inuyasha and Momma having so much drama in their lives
Kagome and Inuyasha:…
Asha: Cause I want to make it interesting for the readers and to fulfill my own personal fan girl fantasies mwhaaaahahahaha! Please read and review!