Disclaimer: Not. Mine.
Song: Happy Go Lucky by Steps
Character(s)/POV(s): Kel
Pairing: Past K/D
Reason: Umm…again, I don't know…I just kinda liked the song…
A/N: Okay, this is short...but I kinda wrote it in about fifteen minutes(At 10:30 at night, mind you), and I can't think of anything to add...so, yeah. Anyways, I have...three more songfics done, I think...two of those have to be checked, though..and that may take a while since I'm basically obsessed with a new story I've started (You guys ought to like it when I post it, but I'm not going to spoil the secret about what it's about, so just wait and see). Anyways, say about seven or more reviews? I love to hear what my readers have to say!

Geminia; Lady Wolf; Mornir-Brightflame - I think I probably will end up doing a couple of companion pieces for Behind These Hazel Eyes, either as songfics or oneshots (I don't know yet, but then, I also don't know what in the world he did to hurt her like that, and I'm the writer!), we'll just have to see what starts going through my head, and whether or not I can get Beka and Rosto to leave me alone long enough to actually write more...and I'm starting to doubt that they will for the time being, since I haven't been able to think about much else all day...

Lady Knight Keladry - Added to my (very long) list - I'll see what I can do with those.

Love, all my love was yours,
Of this I was so sure,
I guess I never saw it coming baby,
But now I'm over the surprise,
I'm wearing this disguise,
So everyone can think I'm having fun baby,
The world only sees me smiling,
My pillow knows the truth at night,
'cause that's where I hide my sorrow,

Everyone thought she was okay. Everyone thought she was over him. She wasn't, and only she knew it. The only place where she would hide her sorrow was her room at night, before Tobe came in after dinner. Kel wasn't okay, and there wasn't anything she could do about it.

And they call me happy go lucky,
They don't know my heart is dying inside,
A smile's a frown turned upside down,
I do my happy go lucky so well,
I'm even fooling myself

When she heard people talking about her, they always said that she was good at holding together after a tragedy. Inside, her heart was dying every moment she spent without him, without Dom.


But now I've put it to the test,
I know it's for the best,
In fact it's good you walked out on me baby,
I, I've learned how to survive,
Without you in my life,
So why am I still talking 'bout you baby,
The world only sees me smiling,
My pillow knows the truth every night,
'Cause that's where I hide my sorrow,

In a way, she thought, she could say that he walked out on her. In a way was a very general idea. He'd died. He couldn't come back. Living without him was so hard. Why did it have to be that way? It seemed like she couldn't deal with this pain. All the world saw was her brave smile, but all she ever saw was the brokenness inside.


And they call me happy go lucky,
They don't know my heart is dying inside,
A smile's a frown turned upside down,
I do my happy go lucky so well,
I'm even fooling myself

In a way, she did her act so well, she was starting to believe it herself. But only just. There was always that pain, hidden deep inside, where her heart died a little bit with every passing second.


All my love yours,
I guess I was so sure,
When I see the morning light,
I put on this facade,
It's all I have to protect my pride,
It's all I've got, this smile is all I've got,

Her act was all she had now. There was nothing else keeping her there. She put on her smile every day, just as she put on the rest of her veneer when she left her rooms. It was all she had left now, only the surface that showed that she was still whole, only the surface was left.


And they call me happy go lucky,
They don't know my heart is dying inside,
A smile's a frown turned upside down,
I do my happy go lucky so well,
I'm even fooling myself

It all hurt so much. Why had Dom had to die? Why couldn't he have been one of the survivors this time, and not one of the ones who had died? Kel's mind went through these questions on a daily, if not hourly basis. She was starting to do her happy go lucky act so well that she was fooling herself. Maybe it was better that way.

A/N: Review, please!!

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