Buffy and Cordelia
"Season 5"
AN: I don't own it. I just got back from vacation so sorry for the lack of updates last week.
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Chapter 21: The weight of the world
Buffy's house
Dawn had disappeared with Faith to see if they could take on Glory by themselves. It was the last straw for Buffy because she was now talking to no one…not even Cordelia. It was like Buffy just needed a break from life, her friends, her girlfriend, and the world. All the drama in her life finally getting to her…she couldn't take it anymore.
Cordelia walked into their bedroom with two cups of coffee. Granted Buffy had drank or eaten anything in like four hours but when she did come out of it the coffee would be ready, cold, but read none the less. She walked over and sat at the end of the bed and looked at Buffy who sat in the chair by the window.
She hadn't moved since they put her there. She just started out the window at nothing, it was almost like that if she looked away she would miss Dawn coming up the sidewalk, or she would miss hearing her call for help. Cordelia had no idea what to do and she had to leave for L.A. tomorrow at noon. She really didn't want to leave with Buffy like this.
"Buffy?" Cordelia called out but still she got no answer, like always.
"Cor?" Someone called from the doorway. She looked up and saw Xander standing there with a sympatric look on his face. Cordelia didn't even hear him come in. "Willow needs to talk to you, she has an idea on how to get Buffy back so she can save the world like she always does." He said as he turned and left the doorway.
Cordelia turned and looked back at Buffy. "I have to go baby, but I will be right downstairs." Cordelia said as she got up and left. With one last look at Buffy she walked out of the bedroom. She didn't know why she was so nervous, it wasn't like Buffy was dieing or anything, she was just not talking to anyone. Cordelia knew she had something to do with the stress on Buffy shoulders, with the job in L.A. and everything.
Cordelia walked down the stairs and walked into the dinning room where everyone was seated at the table. Everyone that is except Xander, Riley and Giles, they left the last chair for her, which made her fell someone what important. She walked over to the seat and she was a where of everyone's eyes following her, but she really could have cared less.
"Hey Cordelia," everyone said at once when she sat down…it kind of creped her out. "We have some information that could help us in getting Buffy back," Willow said when everyone remained silent. "We know that Buffy has locked herself away in her mind because that is the only place where she feels that she has control of what happens," Willow said.
"And you're sure of this?" Cordelia asked looking at the witch.
"Positive," Tara said interjecting them. "You see everything that has happened recently is something that Buffy thought she had under control." She paused looking at Xander for help.
"You see Buffy thought Joyce was going to be around forever so when she died Buffy didn't know what to do, so she just pushed it away," he said looking at Giles.
"And then when Dawn disappeared, she was lost because she always figured that Dawn would listen to her because she was older and had more experience." Giles stated looking at Willow again.
"And when all the Faith stuff happened it was just like back in high school…Faith was the only person that Buffy didn't have control over." Willow said.
"And then there is me," Cordelia said looking at everyone around the table. Anya, Tara, and Willow where all sitting there. Riley, Xander and Giles where standing around the table. They all returned her look as if she was crazy. I guess Buffy never got around to telling them about L.A. and the job offer. Cordelia thought as she hung her head again. "A couple nights ago I got a job offer…" Cordelia started but was interrupted.
"That's great Cor," Xander said and Giles hit him. "What?" then he looked at everyone and finally realized that Cordelia wasn't finished. "Sorry…continue."
"Thanks," Cordelia said as she rolled her eyes. "Anyway as I was saying I got this job offer, but it was for in L.A. and I told them I would have to think about it, which I did, but then I called them back and told them that I would take it. So when I told Buffy…well lets just say she didn't take it so well." Cordelia said and then she turned to Willow and Tara. "If you have something witchy you could do than do it because I am leaving tomorrow at 2 p.m." Cordelia said as she looked at the witches.
"There is something we could do…but it will have to be me since I know Buffy better than Tara does." She paused and looked at her girlfriend.
"What?" Cordelia asked.
"It is kind of dangerous…not for Buffy but for me because to the things that go on in her head." Everyone looked at her weird. "That did not come out like it was supposed to…I meant the slayer dreams and all." She finished.
"Then do it," Cordelia said and Tara was about to protest but Cordelia cut her off. "Listen Blondie my girlfriend, the women I love, is in some mind trance she put on herself. If there is a way to break then we are going to try it…do we understand each other?" Cordelia asked and Tara nodded. "Say I understand."
"I understand," Tara said in a quiet voice and she avoided Cordelia's gaze.
"Good…no lets get to work shall we…Willow what do you need?" Cordelia asked the witch.
Willow went over what she needed and Xander and Riley went to get it from both her dorm room and the Magic Box. When they returned Willow was all set up in Buffy and Cordelia's bedroom. Buffy was still in the same position she hand been since they first brought her home and Willow couldn't help but wonder how she wasn't cramping up. Not what you should be thinking right now Will. She told herself as she looked at her best friend.
"You sure you can do this Will?" Xander asked as he put the stuff she needed by the bed. "I mean if something happens…"
"Nothing is going to happen." She said turning to look at Buffy. "This has to work."
"Can I have a minute before you start?" Cordelia asked from the doorway not really sure why she was so nervous.
"Um…sure," Willow said as she grabbed Xander's hand and pulled him out of the bedroom giving the two girls their private time.
Cordelia walked over to Buffy, slowly, as if she was going to startle her. Which she knew she wasn't going to because Buffy had locked herself away in her mind, or so everyone thought. She knelt down in front of her girlfriend and put her hands on Buffy's hands, which were on her lap. "Buffy I know you can hear me so I am just gonna say this because you need to hear." She paused before continuing. "In case I am not here when Willow pulls you out of your little trace type thing then I want you to know that I am in L.A. and that I love you, very much. When you come out of it have Willow, or you, call me on my cell phone…the phone number is in the book. Lets just hope you snap out of it before I leave." Cordelia stood up and kissed Buffy on the forehead. "I love you." Was the last thing she said before she walked out of the bedroom. It would be a long time before she was aloud to go back in.
Willow was standing at the top of the stairs when Cordelia walked over to her. "Hey," she said, as Cordelia was about to go down the stairs.
"Hurry up," Cordelia said without turning around, instead she continued back down the stairs.
Willow was alone in the room with Buffy, something that hadn't happened since they where still in High School. Xander was usually always with them and when he wasn't someone else was. Willow took this moment to look around the room and the memories came flooding back to her. All the times they just sat on her bed and talked about boys, school, and shopping. She also remembered when Joyce would come in and ask them to be quiet because she was trying to sleep. She remembered when Buffy would just sit there and cry about all the bad things that where happening in her life.
And surprisingly enough it was never slaying she cried about. It was always boys or her mom…but never slaying. It seemed that later on in life Buffy used slaying as a way to escape the pain and troubles in her life. Willow never really understood that and she didn't think she ever would. That was just one more mystery that was Buffy…and Willow would change that for the world.
"Okay I guess it is time I got started," Willow said as she walked over to her best friend. "You were always there to save me Buffy and now I think it is about time I saved you," Willow said as she kneeled down in front of her best friend.
Faith's apartmentDawn was sitting on Faith bed as Faith walked around her apartment room. She couldn't believe what she was thinking about doing. Taking on a hell God all by herself…sure she has Dawn, but what is Dawn going to do when the hell God gets pissed off…whine at her.
Faith knew she never should have gone behind Buffy's back like that…but she couldn't let Buffy go through this. She has been through too much and this is something, that if Faith wants to make amends, that she has to do. Not to mention that if she does this and succeeds she might be able to actually have a shot and Buffy, because even she knows that Cordelia is off to L.A. today.
"What are you doing?" Dawn asked a little annoyed because they were just sitting around.
Faith turned and looked hard at Dawn. "Wondering how many times Buffy is going to kill me," Faith said. "I never should have done this." She stated.
"Yeah well it's too late now isn't it?" Dawn said as she looked out the window.
"Listen you little brat…" Faith said getting up into Dawn's face. "This is are your fault that I am in this mess. I was minding my own business until you came along with this idea. And as mush as I hate doing this I know that Buffy would kill me for not looking out for you." Faith said.
"You're really crushing on her…" Dawn stated.
"Am not."
"Whatever you say. I am in middle school…I know a crush when I see one." Dawn said as she got up and walked over to the window. She knew Buffy would be mad because she was doing this but Buffy always had to save the world…she needed a break. "Are you still going to do this?" Dawn asked.
"Regrettably…yes." Faith said as she sat down on her bed.
"Good we leave first thing tomorrow morning." Dawn said.
Faith looked at her with a strange look. "Taking note from sister are we?" Dawn just looked away. "Yeah I thought so." Faith went back to staring of into space wondering how the hell she was going to get herself out of this one.
Buffy's houseCordelia was sitting in the living room surrounded by Xander, Anya, Tara, and Giles. They where all still researching on Glory even though Cordelia really didn't understand why. If Glory is a God than she can't possibly be killed…right? She just wanted them all to stop researching this dumb ass Glory and start researching a way to help Buffy.
She looked up at the clock and saw that she had to leave in a couple of hours. She had already called ahead and got an apartment that her company was paying for which made her get the best apartment available. She knew Buffy was going to love it when she got time off from saving the world to come see it.
"What do you think is going on up there?" Xander asked from where he was seated on the stairs.
"Well I think Willow is trying to get into Buffy's mind," Cordelia stated. "Which I have to say it a scary thing to do…God only knows what the hell Buffy thinks about." She said as she went back to looking at the book she has had for the last hour. It was esy to see that her mind was on other things.
"Thank you Captain Obvious." Xander said as he rolled his eyes.
"Listen Mr. I-Scream-Like-A-Girl," Cordelia said but was interrupted.
"How do you know how he screams?" Anya asked. "I am the only one that can cause him to scream." He stated.
"Okay that was way, way too much information," Cordelia said as she walked out of the living room and into the kitchen where she could hopefully be by herself. She walked over to the refrigerator and grabbed an apple. After she closed the door she walked back over to the island that was in the middle of the kitchen and hopped up onto it.
Am I doing the right thing in taking the job in L.A.? Cordelia asked herself as she took a bit out of her apple. Should I stay and fight the hell God? I mean that's what I do now…I am no longer a actress, a computer analyzer, an attorney…I am Cordelia Chase…Ms. Save the world. Can I go back to be the same old Cordelia every day without this day in and day out excitement? Cordelia was so caught up in her thoughts that she didn't even hear someone one come into the kitchen…that is until that someone talked.
"Willow knows what she's doing," the person said.
"Jesus Tara…next time make a little more noise." Cordelia said as she jumped off the island. "Now what did you say?" Cordelia asked as she had her hand over her heart like she had just experienced some chest pain.
"I said Willow knows what she's doing…you have nothing to worry about." She stated before walking back out into the living room with the other.
"Man Willow…you sure know how to pick 'em." She said as she too walked back into the living room.
Buffy's mindWillow was transferred from Buffy's room into Buffy's old house in L.A. The house was fantastic and she was surprised why Buffy never talked about it. She had Cordelia beat by a long shot and yet she never, not once, talked about her old life…unless it was useful information.
As Willow walked through the house she saw picture of Joyce holding little baby Buffy and pictures of Joyce, Hank and Buffy. They all looked so happy together that she knew it must have hurt Buffy a lot when her parents split up.
"What are you doing here?" a little girl asked from where she was seated on the floor next to a tea set.
"Actually…I am looking for you. Your Buffy right?" Willow asked as she walked closer to the girl.
"Their home," little Buffy said as she went running toward the door. "You want to meet her?" she asked as she looked back at Willow.
"Meet who?" Willow asked but she soon had the answer to her question. Because in walked Joyce and Hank and Joyce was holding a little baby that Willow could only assume was Dawn. Willow watched the family talk as they all welcomed the new baby into the family. And she could help but be surprised about how unthreatened Buffy was.
"Can I hold her?" Buffy asked.
"Sure you can." Joyce said as she handed Buffy little baby Dawn.
Just as Dawn was placed into Buffy's awaiting hands a light flashed before Willow's eyes and now she was standing in Buffy's room watching over Buffy and Cordelia. "Okay this is way too creepy." Willow said but before she knew she was transferred into the Magic Box where she saw Buffy putting a book on the shelf. "What are you doing?" she asked Buffy but received no answer. And as soon as Buffy looked at her another white flash went off and Willow was now standing in the hallway watching Buffy put a pillow over Dawn's face. "Hey!" she said but as she walked toward Buffy the door slammed in her face and she was once again in the L.A. house. "Okay my friend has some serious problems."
"What are you doing here?" little Buffy asked.
"We did this already," Willow, said annoyed.
Instead of talking to the little Buffy again Willow just waited for the scene to flash now that she was prepared for it. "They're here." Little Buffy said as she ran to the door and once again Joyce and Hank walked in with little Dawn in their arms. "Can I hold her?" little Buffy asked. And once again as the baby hit Buffy's arms the surroundings changed.
This time it was Buffy and Cordelia. Buffy was crying and Cordelia was trying to explain something but she couldn't hear them. "She just told me that she is moving to L.A. and that everything is going to be okay." Willow turned around to see Buffy standing right behind her. "I was so devastated. I gave her a ring and she knew how much I loved her…but yet she still wanted to leave." Buffy said.
"You know you have a seriously messed up brain?" Willow said.
"Yeah. I know." Buffy said.
And then the scene changed to where they were in the Magic Box watching Buffy put the same book on the same shelf. But before Willow could ask any questions the scene flashed again as she was watching Buffy suffocate Dawn.
"What are you doing?" Willow asked Buffy.
"I know what I have to do to save the world. Dawn is the Key that opens the portal to a hell dimension…therefore she must die." Buffy said as together they watched Buffy suffocate Dawn. "Death is my gift." Buffy said.
Just as Willow was about to say something the scene flashed again as now they where standing in the Magic Box. "Okay I so can not wait to be out of your mind." Willow said as she looked around. "What are you doing?" she asked the question that she had been asking the whole time.
"It's so simple." Buffy said. "You just place the book there and that's it. No life-altering thing. Yet when you try to start a life someone is taken from you and something tries to end the world." She paused. "How come life can't be as simple as putting a book of the shelf?" she asked.
Willow just looked at her without saying a word knowing that she wasn't finished.
"It was at this moment and this place that I realized what it is I have to do." Buffy said. "I have to kill my sister." She stated so simple that it was the scariest thing that Willow had ever heard Buffy say. Just then Willow turned and started walking away. "Where are you going?" she asked.
"I'm leaving Buffy…to a place where you're needed." Willow said with bitterness in her voice. "Where people love you…speaking of which the love of your life if about to leave for L.A." Willow said. "Are you coming?"
Buffy looked back and forth between herself and Willow. "Is it simpler?" she asked Willow.
"Nothing is ever simple." Willow stated. "But that is what makes life worth living." She said.
And as quick as she started it was over. The white flash didn't bring her back to the house in L.A. it brought her back to Buffy and Cordelia's room. She looked straight ahead at Buffy and before she knew it Buffy broke down crying. Willow got up off the bed she had been sitting on and kneeled in front of her friend bring her into her arms.
"It's going to be okay." Willow said.
"What time is it?" Buffy asked.
"Okay strange much?" Willow said as she sat back on the bed and looked at a teary eyed blonde. "Why?"
"What time is it!" Buffy demanded.
"One thirty…why?" Willow asked confused.
"Cordelia leaves a 2p.m." Buffy said as she got up and ran.
Bus stationCordelia stood at the ticket window waiting for someone to help her. This was why she hated not having a car. Sure she had one in High School but that was before everything got taken away from her because of her father. Sometimes she really hated her life.
Willow hadn't gotten to Buffy in time and that made Cordelia really upset. She didn't want to leave on bad terms with Buffy. But right know it was looking as if she didn't have any other choice.
"May I help you?" the women asked.
"Finally," Cordelia said under her breath. "Yes I would like a one way ticket to L.A." Cordelia said as she handed the women her money. The company she was going to work for was paying for the whole trip so she didn't care about buying the ticket.
"Here you go Miss…have a nice ride." The women said with a forced smile.
Than as Cordelia was picking up her bags she saw that the women was checking her out. And it disgusted her. "Sorry I'm taken." Cordelia said showing the women her ring.
"So." The women said.
"Yeah and the person I am with would…"
"Kick your ass if you ever looked at her like that again." A voice said from behind Cordelia. The voice brought a smile to Cordelia's lips as she turned around and saw Buffy standing there. "Need a hand with those bags Miss?" Buffy asked as she walked closer to Cordelia and placed her hands on each side of Cordelia's face. "I love you." She said simply.
"I love you too," Cordelia said right before their lips where together.
"Now get on that bus and go make some money so I can come visit." Buffy said when she pulled away and picked up Cordelia's bags handing them to one of the men loading the luggage.
Cordelia smiled at Buffy as she climbed on the bus. "Tell Willow thanks for me," Cordelia said as the bus started to move.
Buffy watched the bus down the street until she could see it anymore. And as she was walking toward town again she went over to the ticket window and looked at the woman that was checking Cordelia out. It took all Buffy strength not to punch through the glass, but instead she shook her head and walked away. There was no competition there.
Magic BoxBuffy walked into the Magic Box and saw that everyone was sitting around the table. They all had worried expressions on their faces and she really doubted it was because of her. After all she was only out of her mind a little.
As she walked further into the room she saw that there was someone else sitting at the table. Someone that was the cause of all this drama in her life at this very moment…Faith.
"What are you doing here?" Buffy asked with bitterness.
"I have something you need to know B," Faith said as she stood up.
"And what would this be?" Buffy asked.
"Dawn is gone…she got out of my apartment while I was asleep." Faith said. "And you know how I sleep." She added.
Everyone looked at Buffy. "Not because of that you sick, sick people." Buffy said as she looked up at Faith. "We need a plan and we need one fast." She said and soon they where all at work.
AN: In case your wonder about next season I am think about merging Angel season 1 with Buffy season 6. That way Cordelia will have stuff to do in L.A. besides thinking aboutBuffy. Let me know what you guys think about that idea.
I hope you liked the chapter and sry it took so long to update.