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Today we have to go back to Hogwarts. I never actually thought I would be disappointed to go to the place I considered home for the last five year, but I was. The last two weeks held some of the most exhilarating moments in my life. Besides the fiasco that was the Christmas Eve party and a night I accidentally hexed Draco into unconsciousness, every other day was perfect. I loved spending all my time with Draco, and I even grown to truly respect his father.
I've gotten so good at occlumency, Lucius couldn't even get into my mind now. I thought it was funny. Snape tried to teach me for months and I got no where. Lucius made me a master in two weeks. He also taught me the basic fundamentals of legilimency. I was able to read Draco's thoughts once (who purposely thought of a fantasy he had planned, which we tested immediately following our lesson). Lucius allowed me to try on him, but it didn't happen. Considering Voldemort couldn't even read his mind, there would be no way I was going to get through, so I wasn't too disappointed.
He told us to make sure we practice while we at school. When we come back for Easter (which I eagerly agreed to), he is going to continue my legilimency lessons. Draco is still learning occlumency. I'm sure it's harder to learn from his father, considering his tendency to make Draco seem like a failure every time he makes a mistake, so I agreed to help him a lot during school. I can't say I didn't have any selfish reasons for me being his tutor, because all in all, it would really help me to improve my legilimency. Besides, I'm dying to see more of the fantasies he has in his head.
I did end up getting a letter back from Ron. He said he would love to still be friends, and for my benefit, he will tolerate Draco as best he could. Draco reluctantly agreed to the same terms as long as Ron didn't 'try anything funny'. Considering their history, I was proud of them. I figured it would be nice to close the gap between the two rival houses, and if me and Draco could help with that, it would be amazing. Most of the Slytherins were alright when you got to know them. I still thought Pansy was insufferable, but all the guys were alright. The other girls didn't seem to bad, but I didn't really talk to them at all.
I grown fond over a book that I found in Draco's room. It had all different types of spells, which weren't exactly allowed to be used at Hogwarts, so we figured we could try them out while we can. It wasn't dark magic per se, but it was a tad bit darker than what we were allowed to practice in school. Of course, that ended up giving Draco a slight coma. The spell was suppose to lift the person into mid air and freeze them in a position as if their were ropes pulling their limbs in every different direction. Instead, Draco was slammed into the wall, in invisible bindings, no longer conscience. I tried performing the counter course alone, but it only made blood leak from his ears. Needless to say, it scared me half to death. I ran upstairs and found Lucius who jumped up and immediately to performed the correct counter curse. Draco slept for the next fifteen hours, so I had a lot of time to speak with Lucius.
"I'm sorry sir, it wasn't suppose to do that, I really didn't mean for that to happen." I scrambled looking for the right words to say for just putting his son in a temporary coma.
"Relax Harry." He put his hand on my shoulder in the same way he would to Draco. "I know you didn't mean to. And there is no need to revert back to your formalities just because you made a mistake."
"Oh of course si- Lucius." He smiled and walked over to the sitting area, which I followed. "The spell it wasn't suppose to do that. I shouldn't of done it, it was reckless."
"How else do you expect to learn new spells without trying them out? Of course, one usually doesn't try out dark magic on those they care about." Lucius seemed to think he was making a joke, but I felt a little uneasy. I tried to convince myself that what me and Draco were doing wasn't dark magic when it was. I didn't see any harm in it, because I was trying it out on someone I cared about and wasn't trying to hurt him at all.
"I.." I was at a loss of words. I made a big mistake and Lucius wasn't even bothering to punish me with a slap on the wrists.
"Mistakes happen. Just be more careful next time." Out of no where, Lucius conjured a bottle of wine, and two glasses. He poured us each a glass. I was reluctant to take it considering what happened the last time I drank, but it would have been rude not to. We just sat there sipping our wine with nothing to say, until I got brave enough to ask the question I been dying to ask since I been there.
"Lucius." He turned and looked into my eyes. I wanted to back out right then, but I couldn't think of anything else to say. "What made you become a Death Eater?"
"I was wondering when we would get around to this." So he was expecting me to ask him this entire time. "I know it's hard for you to understand, but it's not all black and white, good and evil. There is much more to it than that. When I was young, I was desperately searching for something, like most youths. I wanted to impress my father very much. He didn't take to well to failure." I refrained myself from telling him that he does the exact same thing to Draco, because I didn't want to get off topic before he finished. "I would try to learn everything I could. I would study during all my free time and it made me an excellent student. I even became head boy in my seventh year, but none of that seemed to matter to my father. Nothing I did was ever good enough for him. Then when the Dark Lord was making his mark in the wizarding world, my father would talk so highly of him. He would tell me how powerful he was, and how any father would be proud to have raised such a man. I thought if I joined him, then maybe my father would be proud of me too."
"Was he proud of you?" He snorted and took a swig of his wine.
"Unfortunately, I never got the chance to find out." I was speechless. Lucius revealed something extremely personal to me, and I wasn't sure what to say that wouldn't make me sound like an idiot. We both sat in silence drinking our wine. My face felt a little flushed, and I figured it would be best if I stopped drinking before I got out of hand again.
"I'm going to check on Draco." Lucius didn't say anything. I wasn't even sure if he was listening to me, but I left anyway, allowing everything he told me to linger in my thoughts.
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Upstairs, Draco was sleeping peacefully. I noticed there was a bit of dried blood sticking to the side of his face. I went into the wash room and soaked a cloth and washed it off. I pulled up a chair and sat next to his bed, resting my head in my arms.
I woke up to fingers running through my hair. I looked up and found a very happy looking Draco.
"Well this doesn't seem good. You, sitting on the side of my bed and not in it with me. Besides, I'm fairly certain the last thing I remember is dueling you."
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I messed up the spell." I felt terrible but Draco seemed to find it funny.
"It's okay. It was bound to happen with all the stuff we were messing with. At least you figured out how to fix it." I just shook my head.
"No, I'm rubbish. I tried and just made it worse, I had to get you're father to help me." I looked down at my feet feeling ashamed.
"You are not rubbish. You're amazing. You can't expect to know as much as my father yet, he's had years of practice on you. You did what you had to do to save me." He reached over and lifted my chin up. "You look like hell. Get in this bed now and give me a kiss." I complied without complaint.
A kiss shortly turned into a grope which turned into us getting completely nude with me lying on top of him, chests pressed together.
"I don't want to hurt you. You had a rough ordeal." I had to use all of my willpower to get those words out.
"I feel fine, so shove you're concern, and fuck me already." It was only a second before I positioned myself at his entrance.
"I love you Draco."
"I love you too Harry." Then I pushed myself in him. I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his. I guess it was because I was full of adrenaline from worrying about Draco, but that was the most intense sex we ever had. I couldn't keep my lips off him. My one never left his hardness, and the other was constantly touching some other part of his body. I can still remember the heat that flowed through my body as we came together that night.
Now, I'm preparing to head to King's Cross station. Once we were back at school, it would be a lot harder for us to have nights like that. We can't exactly force everyone to leave every time we want to have sex. It might actually be possible, but it wouldn't be too fair to them, and I don't mind those Slytherin boys anymore.
"Come on Harry. Father got a car to take us to the station." I grabbed my things and gave Hedwig a treat to hold her over for the ride. "What's wrong? I thought you would be happy to get back to school."
"I usually am, but now is different."
"Well your friends are talking to you now, right?"
"Yeah, but were hardly ever going to get alone time anymore." He broke out into a smile.
"Ah, I see." He gave me a sweet kiss. "We'll find places to go, don't worry. Now, come on."
We got into the car that drove itself, and went straight to the station. Once we walked into the wall between platforms 9 and 10, we were in full view of the Hogwarts Express. The platform was packed, but it didn't take long to spot out the bright red hair belonging to the four Weasley's hugging and saying goodbye to one another. I grabbed Draco's hand and pulled him in that direction. I got closer and saw that Hermione and Neville were also standing with them. Mrs. Weasley was the first to see me.
"Harry dear!" She rushed towards me and pulled me into another one of her rib crushing hugs. She kissed me on my cheek before pulling me away. "I'm so glad you're alright. We really missed you this year. Did you eat at all, you're skin and bones. Ron, sweetheart, make sure he eats a big dinner tonight." Both Ron and Draco rolled their eyes, but Ron shot a death glare at Draco as if he wasn't thinking the same thing.
Ginny was next to hug me, followed by Hermione. Ron punched me lightly in the shoulder. Ginny and Hermione said hello to Draco, and Ron did his best not to say anything to him, so it all went rather well. Neville didn't say anything to me, so I figured he was still angry with me.
Everything went pretty well until Nott and Zabini walked by us and started laughing.
"Hey look, it's Harry Potter and his bitch!" They both started cracking up. I didn't expect what I did at the party to carry on into school.
"Shut up." Draco said trying to sound like his usual intimidating self, but they definitely didn't feel threatened. They only laughed harder. They were only making things worse for me, and I was getting pissed.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I yelled as loud as I could. All of my friends seemed shocked, and Mrs. Weasley actually gasped. Nott and Zabini did however, shut up.
"Sorry Harry, we were just having a laugh, no harm."
"Yeah, we're sorry." Then they walked off. Every one just stood there watching them get onto the train.
"You kids better get on the train." Mr. Weasley said, and we all listened. I let Draco lead, and Ginny followed quickly behind me.
"I never thought I would see the day." Ginny whispered into my ear.
"What do you mean?"
"The Slytherins are afraid of you and mocking Malfoy. Don't you see? You and Malfoy switched places among the Slytherins." How did I not notice that? No wonder Draco was so mad at me. I discredited him. But how come they're scared of me? "It's a little weird, don't you think?"
"Yeah, weird."
The train ride was for lack of a better word, interesting. I sat with Draco, Ginny, and Neville, who obviously wasn't happy with the seating arrangements. I mostly just let Ginny tell me everything that I missed being away from the Burrow. I didn't want to say too much about what we did at the mansion with Neville around, so I was happy with just listening. Draco was laying on my lap pretending to take a nap. I know he was upset with what happened on the platform, so I let him lay there, and I stroked his golden locks, hopefully soothing him.
Ron and Hermione joined us after they were finished their prefect duties. Draco was forced to sit up then, and I pulled him close to me and locked our fingers together. Neville finally joined the conversation, even if he only directly talked to the other three Gryffindors.
It felt nice to be sitting with my friends for once and not being judged for being with Draco. Things were very different though, there was no denying that. I knew this relationship would change things, but I would have never guessed it would turn out this way. And I wasn't sure if I would be ready for the changes that were sure to come, but I knew that I wanted Draco in my life, and I would do what I had to in order to keep him in it.
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