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Chapter 24: Pieces of The Past
29th of December
Jack cleared his throat again. "There is an alliance of Mob families called 'La Fratellanza'. That roughly translates to 'The Brotherhood'. The brotherhood is based out of Italy. They consist of ten different families, from around the world. They work as a collective group, all decisions are discussed mutually. All income is combined; no one can make, a merger, a call, or start a new business without holding a vote. Voting is by family order, starting with the first family. Each family has one vote, per male adult over the age of eighteen. Money is distributed out a little differently, not just a simple spilt equally. The top family, known as the alpha family, gets twenty percent cut off the top. The second family known as the beta family, then gets fifteen percent cut off the top. The third place family, known as the delegate family gets ten percent cut off the top. The remaining fifty-five percent is then split equally among all of the families. The Volturi family is the fourth family in the allegiance."
Wow, I mean wow. This is pretty fucking scary; does this mean that Bella is still in danger? Fuck, shit this is big! How the fuck are we going to take on the brotherhood, made up of ten mob families?
"The Volturi brothers decided to come to America to try and obtain more power. They wanted to become the beta of the alliance. They arrived here sixteen years ago, and began their campaign. Of course the other families in the alliance knew of their intent and kept an eye on them. The current beta family was most concerned. Not wanting to lose the place as one of the top families, they were very watchful."
Fuck, I am not surprised about that. Well…maybe I am though. I would think Aro would want to be the alpha.
"They started off with human trafficking, and slowly built up a ring here. At first they split off and went to different parts of North America. Marcus went to Los Angeles; Caius based himself out of Canada, and Aro chose Washington. About thirteen years ago they got word that the beta family had some family within America already. This prompted Aro to get the three of them to move closer to each other. They all came together and moved to Chicago."
Okay, I didn't see this change in direction coming.
"You see Caius was teaching in a high school in Chicago, he worked at the same school as your mom."
What! No! Why did I not know this?
"Aro was the vice principal in one of the nearby schools, and Marcus worked with in the FBI headquarters. The brothers were not as careful as they should have been."
Jack sighs and rubs his hand through his hair, taking a deep breath he starts talking again.
"We still have to confirm this information, I am not sure we will ever be able to fully confirm it. The story goes; your Mother called in and reported them. We aren't sure how she found out, but she claimed they were dealing drugs to minors and trafficking of humans. Unfortunately the person who took her call was Marcus."
No, no, no, no. Oh god! No my chest feels so tight, why are the walls closing in on me? Shit, I can see black spots everywhere.
"She had a lot of information on Caius. We don't know when her first phone call came in, but we do have her last call. It was a random selected call that was recorded. The call was stored away; we found it in the past week. It should have been checked when it was first made. I can't tell why it was over looked, but someone fucked up."
She knew? Please don't let this be going where I think it is. I close my eyes, and try to breathe slowly. But I can't slow down my chest, it feels so tight and I have black spots affecting my vision.
"The call was the morning before she died. She and Marcus were in a heated argument, she was getting upset about how it was taking so long for them to do anything. He lied to her telling her that he had to wait on the go ahead. We have reason to believe that they were waiting on the okay for the kill."
It almost as if someone flipped a switch, I close my eyes and I was back in my child hood home.
"Edward, I need you to go to the special room, you need to stay there. Don't come out no matter what. I will come and get you," she gives me a hug and pushes me through the small door.
"Mommy please, I am scared," I plead with her to come with me. They knock at the door and she turns toward it.
"Please Edward, remember that I am so proud of you and I love you. Just wait from me okay? I will be there soon," she says closing the door and moving the toy box back in front of it. I crawl through a narrow passage, jumping down when I arrive at our special room. I sit on my chair and wait for her. It feel like a long time has passed and she still not here, I can hear people talking. The voices get clearer as they move toward the room that I am in. I get scared and move back away from the door and I hear the voices.
"This is what happens to whores who stick their noses where they don't belong!" There is a loud bang. Then as if someone is clapping their hands together, I hear more loud noises. It happened a few more times, and then I hear what sounds like someone dropping a lot of plates.
"You know what is sad?" The man's voice asks. "You got such a pretty face. It's a shame I am going to fuck it up. Don't worry I am sure they can have a closed casket for your funeral. Then again, I may just burn you alive then there will be no body to put in the ground." I can hear him laughing, he thinks what he said is funny.
"Edward calm down, its Peter and you're in my office in Port Angeles. Jack, Martin, and Cole are here too, I need you to take some deep breaths for me. There you go, that's it Edward, in and out nice deep breaths." I open my eyes slowly, trying to get my breathing back to normal.
"Keep going Jack, please," I say looking at him pleadingly.
"Edward maybe you've had enough for now now…"
"Jack please, I need to get through this. I want to know, I need to know. I am fine, I promise, please," I beg cutting him off. I sit and wait for him to tell me, regaining my breathing and trying my best to look normal.
Jack looks at Peter, and Peter turns to me. "Edward, I am going to let him continue, but I will stop this if I feel it gets to be too much for you. You need to try and stay calmed down for us," Peter says. He is using the voice that I know so well, it tells me it is his way only, no other decisions will count. I give him a nod and do my best to stay calm.
After a few minutes Jack starts telling the story again. "It was in this call that she told Marcus about the files she had. She had copies and was taking everything and going to the newspapers with it. Marcus destroyed everything she gave him the first time, making sure nothing could be traced back to him and his brothers. We believe that after getting off the phone he called Aro. Aro choose not to wait for approval, and set up the kill. He thought if he did it himself then it would be more kept under wraps. He was hoping that doing it alone would keep it away from the rest of the alliance."
Peter interrupted Jack, to ask if I was okay. I gave him the affirmative and he motioned for Jack to continue.
"Marcus and Aro came to your home around six pm. Your mother had met Marcus before, but since she asked you to hide we believe that she didn't completely trust him. Marcus introduced Aro as his partner. We know there were two others outside, but to our knowledge they never entered the home. We believe they tried to get your mom to tell them where she put the copies of the files, but she wouldn't tell them. Around seven o'clock Carlos arrived home, with your dad. At this point they all believed that you were gone at a friend's house.
We're unsure about what happened over the next five hours, we only know that they didn't find out where she hid the copied files."
How, why, how would they know that? "We found it; it was hiding in the room you were in. There in a safe," he answered my question that I was asking inside my head.
"Why did the other police not find it? How could they have missed it? If they had, they could've been put away for this a long time ago."
"Just like the room it was hidden in, your father paid a lot of money to have the room stay well hidden. He had it removed from every piece of paper, including blueprints of the home. The people who live there now didn't even know it was there. I went to the house myself, and it took me three hours to find it. I think I only did because you had talked to me about where you were. I had a feeling once I was in the room, I'd find it. It was very well hidden, and there is no reason I would have thought there was anything there at all. It took the best part of the day, but I got in the safe too. There was a letter for you in the safe as well as the folder. I have the letter with me."
I look right at him, when he stopped talking for a minute. He has a note for me, from my parents? I become closer and closer to losing my shit. Before I can think about this letter I just want this other shit over with first. I motion for him to carry on, I want it all now, get it done and over with.
"After your parents were murdered, Aro was summoned back to Italy. As he was the oldest and took it upon himself to act out, he was the one they punished. Aro was kept in Italy for the next six years. As for his family they had to take a twenty-five percent cut, during this time. Aro was not happy, but his punishment stood. It turns out the reason it was taking so long for the alliance to approve the hit, was because your dad had contacted the top family. He asked them for reprieve for him and his family, in exchange for the information. Due to the size of his business, he was granted the reprieve. That same afternoon Aro killed him and your mother, without approval. It is unclear if Aro was aware of this, or not, but he was told after he was summoned home. Aro blamed your mom and dad for his and his family being punished. He was allowed to return to America after six years.
He got a job at Forks high school. When Aro meet you there, we believe he did not know who you were at first. We think he just thought of you as a punk kid, who was seeking attention. We have reason to believe that about six months later, Carlisle and he got talking in a bar. We figure Carlisle told him about your past, and that made him realize who you were. Then it dawned on him that you were in fact in the house the night of the murders, and that you very well could have heard it all. We think that is when he decided you should pay for the punishment, he and his family received over the killing of you parents. He started planting things on you, but that was not enough. He was worried that you would somehow figure it out, so he needed people to believe that you were a trouble maker. He made you look like a liar, and a troublemaker. He made it look like you would do anything to save your own ass, all others be damned. He even started meeting Carlisle once a month to have drinks together. Aro knew how much he had to push, to get him to through you out of his house. Aro tried to get you and Rose together, by threatening her dad. When that didn't work, and Rose could not get your attention, he did all he could to plant the seed of doubt in Carlisle's mind. Aro then spoke to Mr. King, and struck deal there. This is why Royce went after Rose, but kept it all on the down low. Planting the drugs on you was the last push that he needed to get you pushed out of the family. He was starting to set everything up to look like it was you that was the head of the drug ring."
What fuck! It's always been him, everything was him! Fuck. Shit I feel myself rocking back and forth. I can hear people saying my name, but I can't focus on what they are saying. It was me; it was always me they were after. All the people who got hurt, it was all because of me. I feel like the room is shaking.
"Edward, you need to calm down or you are going to pass out!" Peter is holding my arm, I can't focus on him because he is moving, and he looks really blurry. I gain a bit of myself, and hit his hand off my arm.
"CALM DOWN! WHAT THAT FUCK? HE JUST TOLD ME THE PEOPLE WHO INVADED MY CHILDHOOD HOME, AND BEAT MY MOM AND DAD TO DEATH, NOT TO MENTION SHOOTING THEM, HAVE BEEN IN MY LIFE FOR THE LAST SIX FUCKING YEARS!" I jump up and start walking around the room; I can't seem to lower my voice. "I FAILED THEM! THEY WERE THERE AND I DID NOT EVEN KNOW. HOW FUCKING SICK IS THAT? MY UNCEL SEEMS TO BE BEST FRIENDS WITH HIM. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THIS. FUCK, I DON'T CARE WHAT HE DID TO ME, BUT THAT FUCKER USED ROSE TO HURT ME. TO TRY AND TAKE AWAY MY FAMILY, FOR IT, SHE WAS ALMOST RAPED. HOW CAN I LOOK AT HER KNOWING THAT IT'S ALL MY FAULT? WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF THEM, WHAT ABOUT…Bella," as soon as I say her name all the anger is gone. My voice is now quiet, and starts to waiver. "Bella is my life, and I love her so fucking much. He hurt her; he made Jacob hurt her because of me. It was me Caius was after; he thought I was driving the car. He wanted me," I say as I drop to the floor. "It is all my fault," I sob out. "Oh, God…everything that has happened is because of me." I am not sure if they can understand me anymore with the sobs ripping out of my chest.
"No Edward, none of this is your fault. It was all them, not you. No matter what Edward, you are the true innocent in all of this. None of this was your fault, you have to believe that. I have never lied to you, and I will not start now. You are not to blame," Cole says sitting behind me holding on to me.
"Bella knew this is why didn't she tell me?" I choked out, asking through my sobs
"The day Bella woke up, she told me what she could. I couldn't make out all of what she said. I managed to get a few clear words from her that day. Those words were 'they killed Edward parents'. It took her four more days to tell me everything, Caius said to her. I am sorry I miss lead her, I told her that there was a chance that he was saying it to upset her. Unfortunately, it was clear that what he told her was the truth. We told her that we would get all information first, and make sure we had all the facts before we told you the truth. Once we knew it was the truth, we knew we had to tell you. Most of Bella's nightmares have been about the descriptive way Caius described the murdering of your parents. With Bella talking in her sleep, we knew we needed to tell you now, then let you hear a bit and piece here and there. Caius gave her quite a graphic description of what they did," Martin says as he sits next to me on the floor.
"He wanted me; he thought that I was in the car? How can she stand to look at me knowing this? She was hurt because of me. All because of my past, she got hurt. She almost died, and it is all because of me." I look to the floor unable to look at any of them in the room.
"Edward, it looks that way from the information we have, that he was looking for you. But, Bella has only been scared that you will hate her for not telling you. She is having panic attacks about telling, or not telling you. That is why we said that we would tell you. She did know she couldn't tell you, until she was able to tell us. She finally told us everything he told her, it was so hard for her to get it all out. We assured her we would tell you and be here for you. She is worried you will hate her, because she didn't tell you right away. We promised her we would bring you back to her safe and sound," Martin says as he places a hand on my shoulder.
Jack take's a seat at the other side of me on the floor, and Cole is still sitting with me, still holding me. I am still shaking, but not as badly as before, and Peter is now in front of me. "She though that I would hate her? I could never hate her, I…I…I love her, I want to marry her. I could…would never hate her," I stammer out.
"We know, we told her you would not hate her. She is just scared she knows how deeply learning all of this would hurt you," Peter says. The professional tone he was using before is now gone, this is my friend Peter talking. I look around at the four guys with me, and I know for the first time I am not alone. I feel something missing, and know its Bella. Now I just want to get back to her. I need to show her that I, that we are okay.
"Okay how do I deal with this? Is Bella still in danger from the other family? Am I in danger? If Bella is with me, will it cause her more danger?" I ask, looking at Jack for the answers.
"No! The other family has washed their hands of them. They have even faxed us a lot of information on them. As far as they are concerned you are still under the reprieve with them. We are unsure what your father gave them, but because of it you're still under the same reprieve. The family has washed their hands and cut all ties with Aro and his family, because Aro knew of the reprieve and still went after you. He did more than one things wrong, not only did her go against the family yet again, but he went after a minor. None of the families in the alliance agrees with hurting a minor. The alliance had already been on the brothers about the human slavery trading. Aro was supposed to have disbanded that, and he never did. Aro was a greedy man, and he would use or harm anyone to further his income. The alliance means you no harm, so don't worry about them."
The next few hours pass, and I feel like an emotional train wreck. I have been alternating being angry, sad, crying, yelling, and laughing. My emotions are all over the place. I have seen pregnant and women with PMS, not be as all over the board as I am.
In the end I feel emotionally drained, and Martin and Cole take me home. When I get there, I find Bella curled up on the couch. She looks pale and almost scared, as I take a seat next to her. She looks right at me, and I can see she is trying hard not to burst out crying. "I am so, so, sorry please," she says. I grab her pulling her into my arms, and hug her.
"I love you so much. I am not going to say that I am okay, because I am far from it, but I will get through this with you by my side. We have our amazing family here to help us too; it's going to be okay. I understand why you didn't say anything, if the shoe was on the other foot I would have done the same thing. Baby, you did the best thing you could, you did the right thing." I hold her close to me, not wanting to let go. After a bit, I move and we are both now lying on the sofa together. While we are watching TV together, I keep her pulled tight to my side.
On the way home Martin had asked me if he could tell Grandpa and Rose everything, I said that it was fine as long as Bella and I didn't have to hear it. I really didn't want to go through it all again. Jack told me they were arranging a meeting with Esme and Carlisle tomorrow. He asked if I would like to go too, I just looked at him shaking my head. I know that it's not Carlisle's fault about what Aro did, but I feel so angry at him for his immediate distrust of me. Also I am scared or maybe a coward. Whatever you call it, I would rather stay away, just in case this still does change shit and they still hate me.
I am not sure how long we have been lying here when Cole and Rose come over to us. Rose bends down and hugs Bella; I can clearly see she has been crying. I look away not wanting to see how much hurt she is in because of me. Then I get a surprise, she leans over and hugs me too.
"If you going to blame yourself for their shit then I am going to have to kick your ass. Those jerk-faces, they did all this shit, not you. I am here if you need me, and look after her," Rose says pointing at Bella. "She has not eaten anything at all this afternoon."
I hug her back. "I am so sorry, Rose."
Rose stands up and looks right at me. "Don't make me break one of my nails hitting you. Get it through your thick skull Edward; it was not your fault. Aro is to blame; he and his dipshits are to blame for all of this. You saved me; you both did, in more ways than one. I blame my father; he is the one that sold me out, not you. I am going to go and sit in your car Cole; I need to fix my face for the ride home." Cole hands her his keys, and she leaves the house.
"You got my number if you need me. Call me, I will be right here. I love the both of you; keep an eye on each other." Cole says as he kiss's Bella head and my forehead too, he winks as I wipe away his slobber.
The night goes by quickly, and Bella pushes her food around more, than eats it. Normally I would call her out on doing that, but since none of us seem to eat much I keep my mouth shut. There is a part of me that wants to know what he said to her, but there is a bigger part that doesn't want to put her through telling me. I also really don't want to know what they did, the things I already know is bad enough.
I lay awake unable to sleep. After tossing and turning I decide to head downstairs to sit at the kitchen door and have a smoke. I have been here smoking for about ten minutes, when I hear a high pitched scream. I throw the cigarette on the ground, and run in the house.
"No, no, Edward! Where are you? Please, Edward! Please, stop help." I hear Bella screaming. I move as fast as I can. I take the stairs two at a time, and burst into our bedroom. I see Bella thrashing on the bed crying, but still asleep. "Please help, please Edward. Where are you, please help."
Unable to stand it, I jump on the bed and I pick her up. Pulling her completely on to me, I hold her and rock her back and forth. "Bella I am here, it is okay. I've got you." She stops shouting out, but is still whimpering. "Your safe, okay baby? Come one my love, you're safe. Wake up for me, come on baby girl, wake up for me you're safe. I have got you now, I love you, baby."
After a few minutes Bella stops moving and I hear her heart rate slowing down. Her breathing is returning to normal, and about four minutes later she wakes up. She hugs me as close as I am holding her. "I am sorry, so sorry. I didn't mean…"
I kiss her on the head cutting her off, by placing my finger over her lips. "Sh…baby its okay, I am here, I love you."
She moves a little, so I can see her face. "But, I meant to be here for you, I…."
I pull her head towards mine. "Bella we are here for each other, like we have been from the beginning of this school year. As far as I am concerned, we always will be. Now hush baby, let's just hold each other as we go back to sleep," I say.
She nods her head and slides down on the bed and lay half on top of me. I hear our door close realizing that Grandpa must have come in after Bella stared screaming. "I love you," she says as I kiss her head.
"I love you too, Bella, we will make it through this, I promise you that we will."
30th of December
I feel so wired today. I can't seem to sit down for more than a minute at time. I head over to look out the window for the thousandth time today. I am looking for any sign that Jack, and Martin are back. I wish I could just shut my brain off for a little bit. I sigh as I see no sign of them and turn just in time to have a pillow hit me. "What the fuck!" I throw the pillow back on the couch.
I look at Bella who is now biting her bottom lip. "Shit, I am sorry. I didn't think you would turn around, I've been calling your name."
I look at her and sigh, and go sit beside her. "I am sorry baby. I just…argh. I just want to know how it's going. I am so worried about how they're going to take it." I pull at my hair, and go to get up again, but Bella pulls me back.
"Can you help me upstairs, please?" I smile at her give her a kiss before picking her up and carrying her up stairs. I place her on the bed, and stand up as she grabs my hand.
"Lay with me please?" She asks, giving me a pleading look. I nod my head and move to stretch out beside her. Almost right away I start to fidget as my mind goes in to overdrive.
Fuck where are the they, they said that they should be here for about four o'clock. What time is it now? Fuck it's just about three now, shit time is going so slow! Maybe I should have manned it up and went…
My inner though is cut off by Bella kissing my jaw line. She has arranged her body so that she is straddling me. I look up at her seeing she is taking not only her top off, but her bra. God, her breasts are perfect, I don't even take time to think about it as I kiss her right breast and palm her left. I listen as she moans my name, as I pinch one nipple and suck the other one. Her hands are on my chest and she rubs them up and down pulling my tee up. I let go of her breasts as I sit up pulling enough to pull it over my head. I turn her so that she is now lying back on the bed. I know her leg will be less sore this way. I go to speak, but Bella pulls my face toward her and starts kissing me again. My hands goes straight back to her breasts. I suck on her nipples alternating between the two. The moaning she is doing is sending my libido into overdrive. I kiss her body not wanting to leave any part out, as my hand moves down her body. I slowly move my hand down the outside leg and even slower back up the inside.
"Fuck! Bella, I fucking love you." I look at her, and I see the love she has for me. I feel her love in everything she does for me and to me.
"I love you too," she says. As I go to kiss her again, I hear the front door close and Martin and Jack's voices drift up the stairs. I look at the clock on the side bed it saying its twenty-five after four. Bella and I have been making up for an hour; it only felt like ten minutes. I smile to myself realizing that Bella had been distracting me. I must say that was the best fucking distraction ever. I love this girl she knew exactly what I needed. "Thank you so much," I say.
She smiles at me sitting up. "Any and I do mean anytime. That was getting pretty hot, I feel asking them to leave and come back in a few hours," Bella says. Suddenly her eyes go wide, and she blushes realizing that she did in deed say that all out loud.
"Don't worry baby, I plan on picking up where we left off tonight. Shall we go find out what happened?" I ask, pulling on my shirt and running my hand through my hair. I watched while Bella fixes her clothes and hair, before we head down stairs.
They did not take the news well. Not that I expected them to. Jack said it was only Esme and Carlisle that were there. Carlisle kept insisting that they were wrong, that Aro is his friend and had nothing to do with it. Until we showed him the picture of Caius from when he worked in Chicago, and played the FBI tape for him that it finally sunk in. It has been a few hours now, and they have not called or even came over. Not that I thought they would welcome me back with open arms, or that I have tried to call them. Well, what I mean is I tried, but I just can't push that last number. I just don't want them to reject me again, not now it would be too much to take. Bella has been great. She has held me, talked to me, been angry with me, but also gave me space. It is so strange that we both always seem to know what the other needs without asking for it. God, this has to be a long fucking day. I give Bella a kiss as I head upstairs for my third shower of the day. Three showers are not uncommon for me, I have about four a day normally, but that is mostly to take care of other issues. These showers today are more for my own escape, or my attempt at escaping my own mind for a bit.
I have been here for five minutes when it hits me. I can't make them come to me. No one can, it is up to them. It has always has been up to them. If they don't want to see me that is fine really, because I have Bella and she is all I need. The thing about Bella is she needs me, as much as I need her. She has always been there for me, and I will always and forever be there for her. I start to feel calm for the first time today. I get dressed and head down stairs, as I get to the bottom I hear Bella's voice and I stop I listen to her.
"Look, I just want to say why I called you. See there is this boy I am seeing," she stops and sniffs then laughs a bit. "I say boy, but he is in every scene of the word a man. I love him more than my own life, and I know he feels that way about me too." I feel my eyebrows come together as I try to work out who she is speaking to. "You see we got really close to…" there is a break in her talking. "No you had your say Dr. Cullen, now you shut up and listen to me!" Fuck, what the hell is she doing? I turn the corner and I hear more. "That is all you ever do is talk, you never listen to anyone. At least if they talk positive about Edward that is. You have the nerve to interrupt me yet again to ask me what the fuck? This is what the fuck this is about, now shut up and listen and you'll find out. I swear to fuck for a doctor at times you are one seriously ignorant man." I stop in my tracks, as I hear her swear. Bella is not a swearing person, I have only heard her a hand full of times and it is mostly a repeat of something someone else said to her. "He is only nineteen. Nineteen, and he didn't do jack shit to you, any of you. You cut him off, you treat him like dirt, hell I think the dirt under your feet would be treated with more respect than you ever treat him. You have all been given proof that he did nothing, and you still don't care. Because of your fucking pride, he hurting so God damn much and he need his fa… You know what I was going to say that he needs his family, but I am his family. I love him and he is very much a part of my family in every way. I know that he needs you all in his life too, and that the only…" He must have cut her off again, because I can hear she has stopped talking and seems to be breathing like she is madder yet. "I really don't give two fucks, about what you believe or don't believe. Well I would really like to speak to Mrs. Cullen…" I hear silence again, I wonder if my Mo…Mrs. Cullen is coming to the phone. "Why not? So you're forbidding her to talk to me, or speak to Edward?" More silence, and then I hear her blow up and scream at him again. "Well if that is right than I hope your wife finds her fucking back bone. I hope she wakes up soon, and sees through all of your bigoted pride you stupid asshole!" Bella slams the phone down and I can see her shaking and crying. I don't know what he said to her, but I am fucking pissed off now. As I move to her, she slides down the wall. I just get to her as she hits the floor.
"Oh hey there, I am okay, just needed to sit down. How was your shower, do you feel better now?" She asks, trying to cover the tears and calm herself down.
"My shower was refreshing, but I really missed you," I say picking her up. I walk across the room and sit us in a chair together.
"I am sorry," she whispers.
I look at her; nuzzle her neck with my nose. "What for, baby?"
"I called the Cullen's. I am pissed that they have not came to see you. I can feel how much that hurt you, so it hurts me too." I pull her hand to her chest. I know what she means I feel her pain too. "I just wanted…I don't know what I wanted. I am so sorry, he just was so cold over your pain and I lost it."
I hold her close to me, calming her down. I rub her back and kiss her head, neck and cheek. I move my mouth back to her ear and use my nose to tuck the loose strands behind her ear. "I was thinking in the shower," I whisper.
"That is always dangerous," Bella sobs out, still trying to calm down.
"Yeah I know," I laugh a little give her another kiss. "I am upset that they're still cutting me off, but there is nothing that I can do to change that. All I can do is keep the door open for them, if they ever do want back in my life." I feel her nod against my chest. "But, Bella, I do have a family. I have got you, you mean so much more to me than anything I have ever had. You're my best friend, my girlfriend, my confidant, the person I give my kisses too, the person I hold lovingly in my arms every night, the person I crave, and someday you will be even more than just those things. Someday you will be my lover, and my wife. I am really looking forward to the lover part," I smile against her skin. Then whispering lower than I was already I reaffirm with her my intent. "You will be my wife, and the mother of our children." Truth be told they are those are the two things I really look forward to. "You're everything I want, and need. If I only had you in my life, my life will be complete. You can take away all my other friends, family, adopted family, my businesses, my car, my music, everything, but you, I can never lose you. I need you as much as my lungs need air, as much as my body needs food and water, as much heart needs blood, you are more important than everything. That is why I can't live my life without you. However, you come with some great people. There is Grandpa, who has become my family in every way. Martin and Cole who are your uncle and his friend, but like brothers to you, they have taken me on as a brother too. I feel that way about all of them, Jack, Will, Harry, and so many more they are my family now too. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for the phone call and defending me again. Thank you for being you. I promise you one thing, we will make it through this; I know we will. It will not always be easy. We got some tough times ahead of us. More tears, more anger, but we will make it through, because we have each other. I can make it anywhere with you next to me. I could battle my way through hell with you, or for you. I can take on the world and anything it throws at me at us. We have something that some people just dream about; we have a really fucking awesome support group standing behind us." I kiss her on the head, as she nods her head agreeing with me.
"That was an epic speech…it was inspiring and sweet. I feel the same way about you, and the things you said are hands down the reason why I love you so much. You're my everything too! I love you," Bella says as she kisses me.
"Come on, baby, let me take you to bed." I wiggle my eyebrows at her, before picking her up. She smiles and nods at me, as I head to bed for some more hot making out.
~YOH~
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