Hey all. So today I was given the most amazing present by my ever-loving husband, a signed picture of Rob Pattinson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well it's actually a picture of Edward when James holds him up against the wall by his throat but it's signed by Rob…SIGH… Which leads me to wonder when we read fics who do we see? Do we see Edward as played by Rob or do you see Edward? Hmm just a bit of a ramble. Anyway this one is a little short and rushed so forgive any mistakes but I wanted to get it out there so I could move on with the rest of the story. Let me know what you think. Love Tink. XX
BPOV
Endless tedium, those were the only words I could think to describe the day. There was so much I wanted to say to Edward, so much I needed him to say to me, so when I found him waiting outside my gym class for me at the end of the day I felt more than a little nervous. I offered him a tentative smile, regretting my earlier awkwardness. He beamed back at me and I shyly held out my hand, trying not to be aware of the stares of the kids around us. My heart fluttered in my chest as he linked his fingers with mine and looked at me from under his lashes, a coy yet sexy smile lingering around his very kissable lips.
"Hey" he finally spoke.
"Hi" I said breathily as he began to walk, leading me back to the parking lot, his strides lazy and unhurried. I stumbled along next to him conscious of the very odd looks we received as people began to take in the very palpable change in our relationship. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks and I ducked my head, nervous wondering what everyone else was thinking.
"You okay?" he asked from beside me as we strolled hand in hand through the mass of kids all making their way home to begin their weekends. I shrugged a little, I didn't honestly know if I was okay but through some unspoken conversation we had decided to go public, our twined fingers a testament to our new status as a couple. It felt a little bizarre to be like this with him here in school, almost surreal.
"Everybody's staring at us" I whispered mortified and I saw a grin widen his mouth.
"There probably thinking it's about fucking time" I heard Emmett's gruff voice come from behind me and I half turned to offer him a sheepish grin.
I looked back at Edward gauging his reaction but he simply grinned and in an unexpected yet none unwanted move, he pulled me close and kissed me on the lips, his tongue invading my mouth as I gasped in surprise and a little desire. Then suddenly I was lost in the world of sensation that only Edward could evoke, my heart raced, my blood pounded through my veins and my breath came in rasping gasps, as I struggled to confine my response to that appropriate for a school parking lot. I felt him smile against my mouth the second before he pulled away from me and I blinked up at him more than a little dazed by the suddenness of his kiss and the feelings it left me with. I was dimly aware of a shrill whistle sounding across the lot as other students clapped and cheered our impromptu show, and once more I felt the tell tale flush of color across my cheeks.
I stared into of Edward's eyes, thinking how much I wanted to get lost in their golden depths.
"For the record I want you…I'll always want you… please Bella, don't mistake consideration for rejection" he told me lightly, resting his forehead against mine as we continued to stare into each other's eyes.
"I want you too," I breathed out in a rush of air, closing my eyes against the sudden blaze of heat in his and also slightly embarrassed to be saying this aloud.
Emmett cleared his throat loudly behind us and shuffled from one foot to the others "Guys, you're even embarrassing me"
I giggled happily and made as though to step back from Edward, he allowed me space to move but then tucked me neatly at his side and snaked his arm around my waist in a way that made me feel supported rather than constrained.
"Rocket science, remember," he said cryptically with a mocking smile. Emmett if anything beamed harder rather than take offence. Edward turned to me with a smile.
"How about we escape for a while," he suggested and although the words were light, I could almost hear the slight pleading tone to his voice. It hit me, he wanted to be alone with me. My heart rate increased and my tummy tingled, was this is it? Was I going to get what I wanted. I sure hoped so.
"Sure" I smiled, matching his light but inside I felt as tense as he suddenly seemed. He looked relieved and squeezed me too him for a brief second before letting me go. Whatever had happened between us this morning was clearly forgotten and we had the rest of the weekend ahead of us.
EPOV
As I drove, I had never been more aware of Bella as I was right now. It seemed now I had made the decision to move our relationship on, to give Bella what she wanted to some extent, everything she did seemed so seductive, so carnal. From the corner of my eye I watched her shift in her seat and toss her hair over her shoulder, the movement causing her breasts to press against the shirt she wore and my palms itched with the urge to stroke them. I flexed my fingers with a grimace trying to rid myself of the need to touch her and cleared my throat.
"You okay?" she asked with a sweet smile, concern shining from her eyes.
I nodded and smiled. I was so tense with need that I could barely think straight, I hadn't brought Bella with me to relieve my baser instincts but it was all I could think about now. I wanted to talk to her to make her understand how I felt, to assure her that I wanted her and wanted to be with her.
"Are you going to tell me where we are going?"
"The meadow" I told her simply, watching her face light up. The meadow was a place we hadn't visited in a long time, it had always been our place when we were kids, the place we had escaped to whenever something was wrong. When Bella's grandmother died, when I was dumped for the first time, when we fought…. the meadow was always there, quiet and perfect, just for us. For Eddie and Bellie. It was our little piece of heaven and it had been way too long since we'd visited. Lost in my thoughts I looked down as I felt Bella's little hand curl around mine, her fingers locking with mine and squeezing. I glanced at her and she smiled at me so sweetly that I felt it my heart thump in response and my pants grow noticeably tighter.
BPOV
Edward was quiet and still as we drove but he didn't look unhappy, just thoughtful. I felt incredibly nervous yet incredibly excited to be spending some alone time with him, I knew he wanted to talk with me but I hoped if I had my way then it wasn't just our mouths that would be talking, I hoped our bodies would be too. When we reached the dirt track to the meadow he shut off the engine and we alighted the car. Edward came to my side and took my hand in his as we set off along the path. He was still silent and looked almost brooding but I didn't get the feeling he was angry or upset. We walked for a little while and then suddenly the path opened up and we were here. Lazily we strolled a little further into the copse and settled down on the grass, amongst the flowers. Edward was still silent and I was becoming more nervous as time went on.
"Edward" I said when I could no longer stand the silence "Why did you bring me here?"
He sighed, "To talk"
I couldn't ignore the slight feeling of rejection but I tried to hold onto Edward's affirmation that consideration wasn't rejection.
"Don't you want me?" I asked quietly, staring at the delicate blue flowers beneath my legs.
He turned to me and the expression on his face was tortured, as though he were in pain.
"Bella, let's just see what happens hmm?" he said and he reached out to stroke my face
"No its okay, I'm sorry to have asked" I mumbled, suddenly mortified.
"Fuck it Bells, I'm trying to do the right thing here," he sounded pained as he groaned out the words.
"Its Edward, if you don't want me then its okay" I made to turn away a little angrily but Edward cupped my chin in his hands and made me look at him.
"I didn't say I didn't want you" he gritted out and hauled me close to his body. Surprise lit through me and I had to admit I liked this side of Edward. But that was the last rational thought in my brain as he kissed me, more passionately than he ever had before.
My breath caught in my throat as his mouth closed over mine and I felt the pressure of his lips grinding against me. His tongue touched my lips, teasing them with little licks and tastes and I sighed in the back of my throat as I fought to get closer to him.
"Bella" he gritted out against my lips and I couldn't help the sounds that escaped from my mouth. His tongue touched mine and I felt a jolt run through both our bodies as he kissed me deeply. My hands shook a little as I placed them against the heat of his chest and I couldn't believe the speed with which his heart was racing beneath my palm.
I sucked in little panting breaths as Edward wrapped his arms around me and I found myself lying across him, my breasts crushed against him and our legs tangled. There was an insistent throbbing between my thighs and I moved, trying to get closer to the hardness that would ease my ache. Edward gave a strangled moan and I felt a surge of power that I could make him feel this way, I flexed my hips experimentally and he groaned again against my mouth.
EPOV
I couldn't help it, one second I was trying to talk to her and the next she was sprawled across me, moving her hips against mine, driving me crazy. I tangled my hands in the softness of her hair and held her to me, moving my mouth from hers to the rapidly fluttering pulse at the base of her neck. She hissed as I bit down gently and then my tongue snaked out to soothe the little love bite. Almost unconsciously I slid my hands down her spine and cupped her ass, helping her move against me, as we panted and gasped together, lost in the need overtaking us.
Surprising me she moved a fraction of an inch and pressed her lips against mine, our mouths met, open and hot, and I gave up any hopes of slowing down. The taste of her the feeling of her crushed against me was exquisite agony as my erection throbbed with each frantic movement of her hips in a parody of what we both wanted desperately. I could feel myself loosing grip on my control, and knew I had to pull back. I wanted more than this for Bella, more than a literal roll in the hay, I wanted our first time to be more special than a quick fumble. Attempting to pull my mouth away, I forced my eyes open to look up at Bella. Her cheeks were flushed with passion, her eyes shut as she continued to move against me.
"Bella" I choked out, my fragile control close to shattering. "Bella, we have to stop"
She struggled to open her eyes and went still above me, her breaths coming in quick and fast, doing amazing things to her breasts.
"Why?" she whined and I wanted to laugh despite the furious need raging through me.
"Because you deserve more Bells, we both do…I want you Bella and I'm not saying no, just not right now" I said around the deep breaths I had to take to calm my body. With Bella pressed so intimately against me, I knew it wasn't going to happen anytime soon, so gently and slowly, I rolled us to our sides. For long seconds we stared into each other's eyes, Bella's were still dazed with passion, almost sleepy looking.
"You're no fun," she pouted but she smiled. I was elated. I think she was beginning to understand. I pressed a gentle kiss to her pouting lips, because I was unable to stop myself.
"But I can be, I promise"
I felt her lips curve in a wicked smile and she giggled, snuggling close to me. I had never felt so content, at peace despite the raging hormones coursing though my system.
"So you do want me?" she asked and I glimpsed the trace of uncertainty behind her eyes, she was still unsure of my feelings after all this time.
"More than you can possibly imagine…I was trying to give you space Bells, show you I'm not like Black"
Tears filled her eyes "I never thought you were Edward but I couldn't understand why you seemed so reluctant to be close to me" she said and flushed.
"Since the first time I kissed you, I never wanted anything more…it was all I could think about and believe me I put a lot of thought into it" I grinned, remembering some of the dreams I'd had and how I had woken, tense and aching.
"Edward!" she said pretending to sound shocked but I could read the delight on her face.
BPOV
"Don't tell me you never thought about me in that way" he teased and I felt my heart stutter. Did I tell him it had always him? Should I confess my deepest feelings? I wanted to but I was afraid, there were still parts of me that couldn't believe that he felt the same about me.
"In your dreams Cullen" I said to cover my nervousness.
"Every night" he responded with a wink and kissed me again. Inside I was thrilled at this new teasing side to Edward, he wanted me, he really did. Suddenly I didn't feel in such a hurry to take that extra step, I could wait. I would wait. When the time was right I knew it would happen. For now I was happy being here with him like this, Jacob was out of my life and Edward was in it. He wanted me and I wanted him and as I gave myself over to his kiss there was nothing else I needed right now.