It's been three weeks since Paul left, life going back to the way it was for gunner and myself, school work and home, Paul call's and talks to gunner every night, I just hand gunner the phone. There was a knock on the door, I groaned not feeling like company tonight I yelled for gunner to get the door, while I finished putting the dishes away.
"MOM ITS DAD AND GRANDPA" Gunner yelled shutting the door "AND TWO GIRLS" he yelled again, I shook my head turning around, and my heart stopped, on Paul's leg and in his arm's was his two little girls, and you could defiantly tell they were his. I walked into the living giving my dad a hug "Gesh Gunner you don't have to scream im right in the next room" I told him smiling.
"Umm I hope you don't mind but I had to bring my girls with me," Paul said, I just nodded.
"Well you guys are more then welcome here, its not a problem" I told him, as he nodded his head
"Daddy im hungry" the little girl said from his leg, I smiled at her, she looked about gunner's age, so she had to be the one Stephanie announced her pregnancy in front of me.
"I was about to make lunch if you guys are hungry" I told them smiling as the little girl's eagerly nodded their head's yes, I laughed walking into the kitchen. I sighed starting the stove, gunner and I had deiced on grilled cheese and tomato soup, I pulled out enough for everyone to have seconds if they wanted, I heard a voice clear behind me, I turned my head to see Paul, I nodded focusing back on the food.
"You don't have to offer us to stay, im sorry I brought them, if I didn't I wouldn't of been able to see gunner for at least another month or so" he said clearing his throat, I wanted to Huck this tomato soup at him and tell him his being an idiot.
"Paul its not a problem, gunner loves it when you stay here, and those are his sisters and he has every right to get to know them, its no problem" I said fixing the plates and bowls, setting them on the table, Paul walked over helping me our fingers glazing over each other, I sighed, calling Gunner while Paul got his girls.
"So I'm back to being Paul?" he said, I closed my eyes for a second taking a deep breath
"Yes you are Paul Gunner's dad, because I cant, I cant let you in again like I was and just to end up heartbroken again, I have to much to lose this time around" I told him walking out to the living room.
"hey dad I need to run to the store wanna come?" I asked, he nodded as I hugged gunner and made sure Paul was okay with it. "So something happened with you and Paul?" Shawn asked, I sighed looking at him with a how'da know look he laughed "you couldn't cut the tension in that room with a extra sharp knife if you tried" he said, I sighed shaking my head.
"Last time he was here, after everyone left, we went through some pictures, I told him to leave her and be with me, that he owned my heart, he told me I owned his, kissed me and told me he didn't want to drag me into his nightmare" I told my farther walking down aisle's. "Well it's true sweetheart, Stephanie would make all three of your guy's live's hell, I know its rough but he just wants you and gunner to be happy and safe" he told me, I sighed nodding my head, throwing in some extra juice and what not into the cart.
"I'm sure he does, but for me not to keep feeling this false hope I have to just see him as Gunner's dad, I cant be friends with him, I don't know how" I said as we stopped by the liquor section, I sighed "Hey dad wanna have a BBQ tonight?" I asked
"Well I was supposed to meet some of the guys, but if I can have them come over sure" he said I laughed saying yes, I grabbed some beer and what not, as we finished shopping and paid. As we loaded my truck with the grocreys my dad told me his buddies were down for a BBQ I nodded as we got in the truck "So who's all coming so I have a clue" I said
"Well hmm obviously Mark,Glen, Uh John, Randy oh and Dave" he said quickly, I looked at him nodding my head, it might be nice to see Dave again, I do miss our friendship, Sometimes I think I mgiht've made a mistake not trying with him, hell maybe he can break this curse Paul has on me, I silently laughed to myself, I don't think any one could do that.
Later that after noon, my dad with becca and the kids showed up along with mark who also brought his girlfriend, so far I like her, I smiled opening up a beer. The kids were having a blast playing in the front yard, gunner loving his sisters, his already protective over Murphy, but that's just the way I raised him, I looked around and the only spot to sit was right next to Paul, I sighed sitting down, watching the kids, taking a drink of my beer, Cheyenne came running up to me, I smiled at her she reminded so much of myself at her age she's twelve and so badly wants to be a teenager, and shes beautiful, dad and becca are going to have a hard time with her.
a truck pulled up, I felt nervous though knowing how Dave once felt about me, wondering if those feelings were still there for him or not, knowing Paul was here, knowing Dave knew how badly I wanted Paul, I shook my head, too many thoughts for one persons. My stomach did a tiny flip watching Dave get out of the truck, he had a plain white t-shirt and blue jeans, I saw Randy, John cena, and some other guys I didn't know, then I jumped up seeing chauntel get out holding Randy's hand, I sighed taking a deep drink of my beer again.
I stood up hugging Dave and saying hello, I stopped at chauntel as our eyes stared each other "how the hell are ya?" she asked smiling, I smiled shaking my head hugging her.
We all sat down the guys starting the grill, as me and chauntel talked "that's your boy?" she asked, I nodded "Yup that's my gunner man" I said as my eyes quickly wondered over pauls body, I sighed opening another beer.
"so you and Paul?" she asked catching my moment of weakness, I shook my head. "Is ancient history, his still married to Stephanie, he wont ever leave her and I wont live like that again" I told her, she nodded "So you and randy all these years?" I asked her, she shrugged her shoulders.
"Off and On he has a problem keeping his pecker in his pants, what about Dave, he got a huge ass smile on his face talking about you?" she asked, at this moment I am buzzed and I do have to admit Dave is a hottie, but he wants something I don't think I could ever give to him or any other man again, and that's my heart.
I shook my head "Dave was a big help when I was pregnant we got real close and he told me he loved me and at that point in my life, I couldn't handle it, so we went our different ways and Today's the first time I've really seen him, but I gotta admit he is a hottie" I said as we both laughed shaking our head's.
"So you talk to anyone from the old day's still?" she asked, I nodded my head.
"Actually yea, I go to jeresey with Gunner every summer and joey n I always have a night out together, um once in a while I see Star, other then that naw not really" I said smiling, as Dave walked over sitting down next to me, Chauntel smirked getting up, I just shook my head.
"Hey" he said quietly, I smiled "Hey yourself" I told him he smiled nodding his head "So how have you been?" he asked, I noticed his eyes glazing over to Paul, who was standing next to my dad, who amazingly both were having a beer, I nodded my head.
"I've been good, just working and taking care of Gunner" I said
"And you and Paul?" he asked I sighed smiling "Why does everyone keeps asking me that, nothing between Paul and I, he wont ever leave her, and Im not going back to that" I told him, The night went on pretty causle and fun, it was nice, all the kid's passed out in the living room, I told dad and becca they could just pick cam and chy up in the morning, as they left, mostly everyone gone Dave and I had sat and talked most of the night, we exchanged numbers, as he asked me if we could be friends again.
I watched the last bit leave and walked into the house. I covered up all the kid's and turned off the TV and light, walking into my room, I jumped seeing Paul on my bed.
"Jesus Paul what are you doing" I said putting my hand over my heart
I shook my head kicking my shoe's off. "Paul your drunk, go sleep it off" I said walking into the bathroom, I sighed washing my face jumping feeling Paul's hands on my hips.
"What the hell are you doing?" I hissed
"Jeresey as much as I try to deny what I feel, it wont go away" He said then leaning down kissing me, I felt my knee's go weak at just his kiss, I moaned feeling him touch me the way he used to, they way I rember, just like in my dreams now.
"God Jersey your so wet for me I want you girl so fucking bad" he whispered in my ear while lifting me up walking me to the bed, he slowly undressed me laying kisses all over my body, I moaned arching my back needing him, I felt him slip his finger into the slit of my wetness while he started licking and teasing my breasts I moaned putting my hand around his penis moving it up and down, chills running down my spine hearing him moan in my ear.
"Hunter" I whimpered needing more and needing it now, I felt him pull me up kissing me he sat down in front of the bed with his eractic man hood in front of me.
"Mm come on baby taste me" he said, I smiled and took all of him into my mouth, bobbing my head up and down, putting my hand at the base of his penis following the motion of my head with my hand, I felt him gripping my hair, moaning and groaning, making me more excited as I took all of him in, he slowly pulled me up.
"Baby you keep this up and its going to be over before it get's started" he said laying me down on my back "Bedside's that not where I want to cum" he said rubbing my clit making me moan, he spreading my legs entering completely in me, I moaned forgetting how big he is, we made love off and on all night before Paul finally collapsed on me, I moaned as he rolled over pulling me to him, wrapping his arms around me, I slowly let my eyes drift shut.