Mom was surprised to see Dillon and Dee Dee but she welcomed them with open arms. Dee Dee and I would move into one of the unused bedrooms in the freshman hall and Dillon would move in with Grant, Jonas and Nick. No one was supposed to know about them being here until breakfast so Dillon would spend the night in our room. I lead Dillon and Dee Dee to our room and left them to unpack. I knocked on Zach's door and as soon as he opened the door he pulled me into a hug.
"Zach I need to talk to you."
"Sure babe. What's up?" He sat down on his bed.
"I can't. I just can't do this." I wouldn't, no couldn't, look at him while I did that.
"You can't what?"
"I can't do us. I realized that I don't really love you. We're too young to know what real love is. We should go out and meet other people. I think we should break up."
"No. No!" He shouted. "I love you Cammie. I love you more than anything."
I just shook my head, "no you don't. You can't love me because you don't even know what love is."
"I would die for you Cam."
"You would also die for your country but that doesn't mean you love everyone in it."
"You said you wouldn't leave me."
"I guess I was just caught up in the moment."
Then I did the hardest thing in my life. I took off my engagement ring and necklace then put it on his desk and walked away whispering "I'm so sorry."
I got to my room and burst into tears. Dee Dee was there to comfort me. I was so glad that she knew my secret. I love Bex, Macey and Liz but they weren't normal. Bex had grown up living and breathing spy. Macey grew being a poster child. Liz grew up being in unacknowledged for all the great things she had done. Dee Dee grew up in a world of lies but knowing it. She had a normal life before this morning. She was the only one who could make me feel, somewhat, better. I feel asleep hugging Dee Dee but I don't think she minded. The next morning I woke up just like last week. I rushed into the bathroom. Dee Dee was already up, so I wasn't disturbing her, and she rushed in behind me. Somehow, last night, my things had got moved into here because Dee Dee was wearing one of my old uniforms. When the morning sickness finally ended I was lead back to my bed.
"Your mom has told the chef about your situation so you'll have a special diet."
"Special diet?"
"You will get more and healthier food so he's going to balance out your diet. You get your breakfast half an hour early in the kitchen, for lunch and dinner we eat at the regular time but in the kitchen."
"How do you know all this? You do realize it's only 6:45, right?"
"Yes I do realize that so you need to be in the kitchen in half an hour."
"I'm not really hungry." I couldn't help but think of how I broke Zach and my heart last night. I knew it was for his own good and maybe, one day, he would thank me but I knew that day wasn't today.
"You don't have a choice Cammie, you're looking after 2 people now. Your mom also said you're moving from CoveOps to R&D."
"What?" I couldn't believe it.
"She was in here about 6 this morning."
"And you were up?"
"Yeah. I grew up in public school which means I have to wake up early to do everything I need to do and leave on time. Dillon," she pointed at, who was still sleeping, "waits until the last minute. I wrote him a note telling him not to leave." She picked up her phone and turned on the screen light, "we have to be downstairs in 20 minutes."
"Fine," I sighed and went into the shower.
I got out, pulled on my uniform and we hurried downstairs.
"Congratulations Babycakes. You have successfully completed your first mission, and you are 3 minutes early." Dad was sitting at the table in the corner of the kitchen. He extended his hand to Dee Dee's, "Joe Solomon, Covert Operations teacher."
"Dee Dee Knight, student."
"Your full name please."
"Deborah Jennifer Knight. My teachers call me Debby, they don't like Dee Dee."
"Well Debby I must say. I'm very surprised with you. It's not an easy task to be somewhere and on time, especially with Cammie."
"Thank you sir."
"Dad, I have a question."
"Yeah Cam."
My voice sounded and sweet but my words harsh, "I was just wondering why the hell you changed me to the R&D track."
"Once you took down the circle you had all passed Covert Operations, Protection and Enforcement, Research and Development and Weaponry. Most of you have a clearance so high you can do level B missions. We didn't want you guys to slack off so we didn't tell you. CoveOps is too dangerous for you to do in you condition-"
When he said condition I snapped, "this isn't a condition. This doesn't lead to death. Sure, something could go wrong and I die but that doesn't usually happen. If you have a condition there is something wrong with you. There is nothing wrong with me."
"I'm sorry."
I burst into tears and collapsed into Dee Dee.
"Mr. Solomon, sir."
"Yes Debby."
"Cammie broke up with Zach last night and I think she's still a little upset."
"Why would she do that?"
"She didn't want to him down."
"He's gonna find out at some point."
"I know," I mumbled into Dee Dee's shoulder.
"Oh sweetie I'm so sorry honey. I know you will love each other now and forever so maybe, some day, you will be together again."
I nodded. Dad sighed and left me hugging Dee Dee. She walked me over to the table and sat me on the bench.
"I told him I didn't love him," I whispered.
"What?"
"I told Zach we should break up because we're too young to know what love is. I said I was sure I didn't love him. I love him so much. I love him more than I love myself. He's my everything, now I have nothing."
"You have me. I swear I'll look after you."
"Thanks Dee Dee," I sniffled.
"Now you have to eat."
There was ginger ale and crackers on one tray and toast, eggs, bacon, strawberries and milk on the other. I downed the ginger ale but pushed away the crackers. I moved onto the next the next tray but as soon as I smelled the bacon I ran to the closest bathroom. Dee Dee followed me, without being noticed, and held my hair back. When I was done we snuck back to our room.
"Hey Dee Dee you look hot in that miniskirt." Dillon wrapped his arms around Dee Dee's waist.
"And there are over 100 more girls wearing the exact same skirt so you better watch yourself," I warned. "Breakfast is in 1 minute and 4 seconds. Let's go."
Everyone was in the dining hall already because the halls were completely empty.
We just arrived at the doors when we heard, "we have 2 new students joining us today." I pushed the doors and everyone gasped. I practically had to drag Dillon and Dee Dee to the stage and introduce themselves.
"My name is Dee Dee, my code name is Babycakes and I'm a senior."
"My name is Dillon, my code name is DMan and I'm also a senior."
"You bastard!" Anna shouted then ran at him from the seniors table.