Embry felt Bella's trail of kisses lead down his neck and chest. The frustration he formerly felt was now replaced by something else. Yearning, want...desire. His arms wrapped around her waist as he felt her push him to the ground.
"Bella, we can't- "
"We can and we will. You need this babe. I need this. Please. Too much has happened to us."
Embry continued to let trial of warm kisses swarm his mind. She was unbuttoning his pants by now and somehow her shirt and bra had come off. However, embry grabbed her hands and held them.
"Bella! Stop!"
She tried to fight him but embry wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her too him.
"Stop it. Just stop it… Bella, don't do this to try to prove something to me."
Bella however pulled back and stood up, her naked chest glistening with sweat.
"your just like him! just like Edward!"
"What! Don't you ever compare me to that cold corpse!"
"Then why wont you have sex with me! I thought we were having a moment!"
"We were babe! But sex is not always the answer! I mean have you forgotten that a newborn touched you. I don't think jumping up to sex is the answer!"
"So you don't want me because, I'm tainted! Is that it?" Bella said her voice cracking. "you don't want me?"
Embry growled. "you know I want you! You know I love you! And I do want to make love to you! I do! but I don't want to just jump in because we are trying to escape our emotional problems! A cold one touched you Bella, he hurt you! And right now, all I want to do is wipe any trace of scent off of you but are you truly ready for that? I want to make love to you because I love you, not because I'm trying to dominant you. And quit making me pay for Edwards mistakes! It's not fair!"
"Well quit making me pay for your mothers mistakes embry! I'm not her! If I tell you I'm not leaving than I'm not leaving! You have to trust me!" Bella fired back. "and I want to have sex with you because I love you too! And I want you! And every time I think about that night I- I panic. I can feel his cold hands on me! I can smell him! and I don't want that!"
Bella was crying now. embry scooped Bella up and held her against him. "Ssh. Ssh. Its ok baby. One day. One day. I will make love to you. But I wont rush it and its definitely not going to be in some cold cave. When I take you. When I touch you…. I want to be married to you first. I'm not going to make the same mistakes my parents did. I need you please respect that decision. "
Bella turned so her head was leaning on his shoulders. "…I've never thought about marriage. If anything,…I've always been against it. I love you. But I don't know... if I could ever marry you, or anybody. Im sorry."
Embry laughed. "Bella we are eighteen. Things change. people change. and trust me. I will change your mind. So no rush. No rush at all. Just know I planned to spend the rest of my life with you. Ring or no ring. Wolves mate for life."
Bella buried her head into his shoulder. "Thank you." She whispered "and I'm sorry. You're not Edward. I should have never said that."
"I accept your apology. And I'm sorry too. I do trust you. I do. you know. I never told you this but at the beginning of the year, my mom and I got into this big fight and she told me one day she would leave me. And I told her I did not care because as soon as I could I was leaving her and la push. She then told me I had until the day I turned eighteen to get out of her house. That why I was saving up. So, I could find an apartment. I don't know what I'm going to do when she does leave."