"Flora…"
Her body numb . Her caramel coloured eyes that used to be so expressive void and lifeless. a river of blood coming out of her mouth. Smoke coming out of where her heart used to be. Where her flesh and bones were burned to ash .where flames penetrated her body.
Yet there she was dead and numb with a bloody smile still on her face. The same smile she used to wear when comforting the brunette each time he was depressed and wanted to see his friends . That same encouraging smile she had each time he tried to speak Italian but failed horribly .that so honest and heart filled smile only Mari could make.
The smile that used to make the brunette feel safe, now tortures him the more he looked at it.
Why?
Why was she here?
What was she looking for?
Why did she seem so angry?
What was it that made her so mad?
Why didn't she hide away silently?
Why did she attack the berserker?
Was she hoping to kill him?
Why?
She should have known the consequence, right?
What was she so desperate to save to the point of dying for it?
Why is she still smiling?
Why did she call for him?
(Why?WHY?).
So many questions he couldn't find an answer for.(he found one , but didn't want to accept it).
"T-THAT'S BECAUSE I AM DOING THIS ALL FOR YOUR SAKE!"(*14)
She was merely trying to justify herself .just trying to find an excuse for killing.
"Don't worry, Flora, I am here with you! I won't let anyone hurt you, ok?"(*7)
She was just trying to gain his trust, in order to manipulate him…..she didn't really mean it …
"NO! Trust me! "(*14)
That manipulating liar. That murderer.
She never meant any of her words .she was always …..pretending.
"Flora…."
His hand were shaking, his teethes were grinding. He was so angry so irritated and full of hearted.
"WHY? Why do you keep on denying everything? Just like before! You always refuse to accept the truth!"(*14)
He hated himself.
"FLORA! Come on already!"
Even thought he knew she came for him .that she was looking for him. That she was trying to save him. That she died for him. That even when she lied it was only for his sake.
No matter how twisted and obsessive that kind of love might seem .she care for him and never wished him any harm.
Yet, why is he ignoring all those facts.
Why-
"FLORA HURRY UP OR-"
Why is he denying the truth?
Mari died for him. She died because of him.
…
But….WAIT! …..that doesn't mean he killed her, right? Because Tsuna isn't a killer. He doesn't want to be one.
….
"This is for the familia's sake."chap15
…..
…no …NO! It wasn't because of him! It was …
"you have to be loyal to me and never question my orders in exchange!"(*15)
…..It was….
"I am sure you understand what I mean, Flora."(*15)
…it was all the mafia's fault.
If it wasn't for their thirst for power!then there wouldn't have been a need for experiments ! then Talbot and knuckles wouldn't have to..…do such things either!…..nothing of this would have happened.
Mari wouldn't have had to sacrifice herself.
She wouldn't have had to die… it was all …
It was all the mafia's fault.
Not his.
"what makes the mafia so corrupted are the mafioso themselves"
Mokuro said something like that before didn't he ?
how could Tsuna be so naïve as to believe that the Vongola was different ! That Giotto was …unique. That he wasn't the same as other mafia bosses.
he should have know! He should have realised it a long time ago, since he entered the mansion .yet he was always thinking about his friends .thinking about their good time together and he thought that it was the same with the first generation . That they were all alike.
He was so stupid to not have realised the true colours of the mafia for so long-
But before he could complete his thought he suddenly felt someone holding him by the shoulders and forcing him to get up. Struggling and demanding from the holder to let him go the brunette was kicking and punching everywhere out of panic.
"LET ME GO!"
Band after he was freed from the grip, he turned slowly to find that it's been Asari all a long. But he didn't feel any safer than before.
(all because of the mafia..)
"I know it's hard for you, but we need to get out of here fast! Or do you want me to leave you!"
Leave him? What's the meaning of this? Is Asari threatening him?
Even thought he just came to the conclusion that the Vongola shouldn't be trusted, he still was surprised by the sudden threatening and he couldn't manage a proper answer.
"All of you ….you are all….w-why ...are you ….so …"
He didn't want to be part of it anymore. He doesn't want to be part of this Vongola .but nothing will ever change if he goes with Asari. nothing will.
So what to do? He had to think of something.
"HURRY UP!"
"I DON'T CARE! DO WHAT EVER YOU WANT! I am not...coming with you!"
It was out of anger that the brunette said that and he mostly didn't mean it. But the rain guardian was fast to respond:
"Then be it!"
And it was how Asari easily left him alone that prouved the brunette's thoughts to be true.
With this Tsuna won't be able to deny the truth, even thought he wished to.
'poof!'
And those were Sawada tsunayoshi's thoughts before he was enveloped suddenly in a strange coloured smoke.
a pretty long chapter if you compare it to the previews ones !
well , you are probably wondering what those(*number) mean ,
it's from wich chapter the parols were taken !
anyway , as the 'complete' sign written above says ,
i am planning to make this the last chap
why?
i actually was planning it to be the last chap from the beggining but as you see it doesn't have the 'last chap' feeling to it
so i thought , why not ask my dear readers for their openion !
so , i am going to make a poll for wether or not i should write more chaps and the options will be as the following :
1)MOOORREEEEE *0*
or
2) there is no need for it . i like this end -_-
simple right?
so don't be shy and vote !
oh and reviews are always welcomed !