Love Goes On

Chapter 25: Tears

Christina's POV:

We stand there, crying, for a few minutes. Not really knowing what to do.

"I'm, uh, going to go home and get some things for Tris." Evelyn says before leaving. Hana leaves with her.

"I'm going to go home. Tell Zeke to meet me there." Shauna whispers.

"Should I tell them Tris had a miscarriage?"

"It's probably a good idea. Yeah. Tris and Tobias will probably be too shaken up." Then she's gone.

I stand there for another minute before slowly making my way to the cafeteria, still crying.

I can't believe this had to happen to them. They deserve so much better than all of this crap that god keeps putting them through.

I sit in my seat again and everyone's staring at me, and my tears, worried.

"Chris, honey, what's wrong?" Uriah asks.

"Uh, Tris had a miscarriage."

They all look beyond shocked, and saddened.

"But..."

"She was nine weeks pregnant. Only her, Tobias, Evelyn, Hana, Shauna and I knew. They didn't want too many people knowing just in case something like this happened. And it did."

I watch as tears fill all of their eyes and gradually fall.

"Zeke, Shauna wants to meet you at you're apartment."

He nods and leaves, muttering a quiet 'goodbye'.

And we all just sit there, in silence, crying, praying for our friends.

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Shauna's POV:

I'm sitting on the sofa, my knees tucked into my chest, sobbing into them when the door opens and Zeke comes in, crying also. He sits next to me and takes me in his arms, holding me as we cry.

"I can't believe this had to happen to them. They don't deserve it." He whispers.

"How am I going to tell them?" I say my own thoughts. He looks confused. But honestly, how am I supposed to tell my friends, who just lost their baby, that I'm having a baby?

"Tell them what?"

"I'm pregnant."

He looks shocked and I see a slight bit of happiness in his eyes as well. But most of it is covered in sadness. Our friends just lost a baby and here we are, pregnant.

"I'm going to be a dad." He mutters sweetly, gazing at my belly in awe.

"Yeah." I reply. Not knowing what else to say. "But what are we going to tell them? We can't keep it from them, but we can't just go and say that we're having a baby when they just lost theirs."

"We can give them some time to adjust. Time to heal. I know it's going to take a while for them to heal, if we lost this baby we'd be devastated, I don't think I'd ever heal, but we give them some time, and then we can tell them. Who else knows?"

"Christina. I can tell her not to tell anyone until we decide to tell the others."

He nods. "How far along are you?"

"Four weeks. We could wait until I'm twelve weeks along to tell them. That way they have some time. That's what they were going to do, but obviously they can't do that now."

"Okay. I love you, Shauna. I love our baby, too."

"We love you, too, Zeke."

I kiss him and he continues to hold me as we cry, but now the tears are a mixture of sadness and happiness.

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Tris' POV:

It's been an hour and I'm still crying. My belly still hurts, and I'm still bleeding. Evelyn brought me a change of clothes and some pads, so I'm now wearing some grey jogging bottoms and one of Tobias' black jumpers. She also brought the teddy I bought for the baby. The baby I'm no longer carrying.

Evelyn went back home not that long ago, it's just me and Tobias. He's still holding me in his arms as we cry. I'm on my side, my head tucked into his chest. His arms bring me comfort. But I wish my mum was here, to help me through this as well.

"I knew this was going to happen." I whisper.

"No, you didn't. No one did."

"I mean, the baby only had a ten to twenty percent chance of surviving. And I dreamed that I lost the baby just before it actually happened. It was different, but I dreamed it. It's my fault."

"It's not your fault, Tris. Don't blame yourself."

"I have PTSD. I'm the one who gets the nightmares and things that cause me to lose babies. I'm the shitty mum."

"You're not a shitty mum. And it's not your fault you have PTSD. Jeanine started the war, which caused your PTSD. It's her fault."

"I''m a shitty wife."

"No, you're not. You're amazing. I love you."

"But I just lost our baby."

"It's not your fault. It couldn't be helped. But I'm sure we'll have a baby one day."

"Don't say that."

"Why?"

"Because you don't know it's going to happen. I don't want people to keep telling me that. I won't believe it unless it actually happens."

"Okay. Sorry."

"It's okay. I know you're saying it for yourself as well. I just can't hear it right now."

Then we're silent again. Still crying. Not knowing what to say in this situation. But hoping we never have to be in this situation again.

Hey Ravens, sorry for the wait but I've been busy with College work, and I've been in so much pain recently that I just don't feel like writing that much at the moment. I've also had a ton more doctor's appointments, and x-rays, etc.

Also, someone said they weren't going to read this story anymore because I made Tris have a miscarriage and now she's just going to be moping around and being a wimp or whatever. But I can't write that she only has a ten or twenty percent chance of a baby surviving when she's pregnant and not make her have at least one miscarriage. I'm sorry I upset a load of you, but it had to be done, for the story. Also, a miscarriage make a story more realistic because women have miscarriages. And I know she's going to be upset, who wouldn't after a miscarriage? I'm only 17 and I've never been pregnant before but if I was and I lost my baby I would be devastated, for a while after the miscarriage. So, sorry if you don't like it but you don't have to read it if you don't want to. But, I will say that they will have at least one baby at some point in this story. I don't know when yet but it is up to you, if you go on my page there is a poll for this story asking when you want them to have a child. Answer it and you might just get what you want.

Another thing, my original short story is now available as a paperback on Amazon. If you purchased a copy it would make me so happy, especially since I really need some money. It is also still available on Kindle if you have a Kindle device or the free Kindle reading app then feel free to purchase it. My name is Paige Madison Makepeace and it is about a girl named Grace.

Anyways, I will update again when I can.

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