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Bella's POV

As he walked out the door I let out a breath of relief. That's the second time I have gone WAY too far with Jake and this time I was about to loose my virginity to him. I shook my head and went upstairs. I was waiting for him to answer truthfully to my questions and he did. Honestly I was a little put out because of it. It wouldn't be considered rape because I let it go so far but the fact that I know he wouldn't have stopped even if I said no right when he entered me, he still would have continued. I guess it is to be expected right since I didn't stop him from making me feel good so why can't he get something in return. *sigh* Jake was still my best friend though even if we have lost our boundary line, I just have to make sure I find it again. I turned on the hot water and got my clothes together. When I finally returned to the bathroom and stepped into the shower it felt spectacular. I got my strawberry shampoo and started washing my hair and then soaped myself up so I could wash off the guilt. After I finished taking my shower and stepped out it felt like an instant replay of a night a week ago. I walked into my room and let out a breath of relief when I saw Alice. She smiled at me as I sat on my bed. "Ali can you please give me some warning that you are here next time, it felt like the time Victoria was here" her eyes bugged out and then she understood immediately. " Oops…I forgot about that incident" she laughed and ran downstairs to get something and then she came back.

I looked at her confused "Alice how did you know Charlie left money to order a pizza?" Alice looked at me like I was dumb and tapped her head. Oh yeah. I ate a slice while Alice watched me in disgust I couldn't help but laugh. "Honestly Bella how do you eat that stuff it smells revolting" I rolled my eyes "Honestly Alice, how can you drain Bambi on a regular basis and not be disturbed" she looked at me and smiled "touché" I laughed " Happy to oblige" as we stopped laughing so I could get another slice Alice got serious. " Bella would you have slept with Jacob?" the slice of pizza almost fell out of my hand. *sigh* "I doubt it, I love Edward and deep down I want him to be my first even though I won't be his" she smiled and got up. " Well I have to go but a word of advice be a little bit more careful around him" she kissed my forehead and left. I took the pizza box back downstairs, picked up Wuthering Heights and walked back upstairs. I sat on my bed and thought about being in the same situation as Cathy….would I have chosen someone who was easier to attain and loved me more then I loved them or would I have followed my heart. I knew my answer and closed my eyes. I would have had to follow my heart no matter what the consequences were. A tear fell down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away and turned my back towards the window.

I woke up the next morning and had a chill. I turned to look at my window and it was open. He couldn't have come last night, could he? I got up and went into the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. Holy Shit! Jacob marked me. I looked in the mirror and turned my face left and right to see my neck in all angles. Well isn't this swell. I guess I had to keep my hair down and around my shoulders today even though I could sense this day was going to be long. I went downstairs and started fixing my breakfast. Something didn't feel right, Charlie would have been down here already no matter how early in the morning he came in. I looked out the kitchen window and saw the cruiser parked in the driveway. Ok…so Charlie was home? I walked up the stairs and knew something wasn't right when his door was cracked. As I opened the door my heart stopped. "Dad?" Charlie was on his bed with his arm and leg going in the wrong direction. His eyes were closed and I saw blood around his mouth and on the back of his head. "Daddy?" I walked over to Charlie shakily and touched his neck to see if he had a pulse. It was faint but I felt it. I rushed downstairs and called 911 as steadily as possible and then I collapsed on the floor once they assured me they would be quick. How did this happen and why didn't I hear anything? I ran upstairs and put on some sweats that I could wear out in public, a t-shirt and my sneakers. I debated whether I should put my hair up but thought against it considering how my neck looked. As I was waiting I called Billy to let him know what was going on and I knew he would get the message to the pack. I checked on Charlie every minute until I heard the ambulance near by. The ambulance finally came, put Charlie in the back and I sat with him the whole ride there. I held onto his hand hoping that he would grab it back and give me a sign that he was alright. "Miss….I think he will be alright his pulse is weak but not too weak that you should be worried" I looked at the EMT and gave both of them a light smile. " Thanks but I won't be reassured until he opens his eyes" They nodded their heads at me and continued to pump air into Charlie's mouth. The drive to the hospital felt like forever, when we got there Carlisle met me personally and helped me out of the Ambulance followed by Charlie's stretcher. Carlisle gave me a reassuring smile and walked into intensive care with the others. I didn't know what to do. I walked into the hospital dazed and confused. I finally made it to the waiting room where I was finally able to release the tears that I held back. I pulled my legs to my chest and wrapped my arms around my knees as my tears continued to fall. Before I knew it I felt Esme beside me and I released the hold I had on my legs so I could hug her back. " Bella are you alright?" I nodded my head and released her so I could go back into the position I left. "Do you know what happened" I looked at Esme and my voice quivered. " I have no clue, if I wasn't so aware of Charlie's habits I would have gone to school and he could have died in his room and I wouldn't have been the wiser until I got home" I shivered at the thought and Esme pushed a piece of hair behind my ear. "Well lets be happy that you are so observant my dear" she smiled at me and I returned her smile. Eleven hours later Carlisle came out of ICU and walked over to me. I stood up " What are the stats doc" Carlisle put his arm around my shoulders and walked me back to Esme. I looked at him

"Carlisle he's not…..he's not gone is he?" I choked out. Carlisle smiled at me

" Don't be silly Isabella, Charlie is as strong as an ox, now I see where you get it from" I let out a breath of fresh air. Thank God.

" So what all is wrong with my dad Carlisle" Carlisle sat down on the opposite side of me as Esme put her arm around my shoulders.

"He has a broken arm, leg and collarbone…followed with a cracked skull" I looked at Carlisle astonished. "Carlisle do you know how this was caused?" Carlisle's eyes narrowed as Esme held me tighter. "I have a theory Bella, but in the meantime you can see your dad he is out of intensive care" Esme looked at me and I let her know that I would be fine. I walked into the room that Carlisle directed me to and walked slowly towards Charlie who was bandaged up in every possible way. I felt that this was my fault and there was no going around it. I heard Charlie's heart monitor beep which made it clear to me that he was still with me. I let out another sigh of relief and walked closer. I pulled up a chair beside his bed and grabbed his hand. I felt a slight pressure back and then Charlie opened one of his eyes. I started crying and tried to wipe it away before Charlie saw.

"Are those tears in your eyes kiddo?….no crying on account of me" I chuckled lightly got up and kissed his forehead.

"You have no idea dad, I'm just relieved that you're ok" Charlie chuckled and then groaned. "dad?" he gave me a crooked smile " Bells, I'm alright these are just scratches" I looked at my dad amused. not likely. "dad can I get you anything" he smiled " Yes…. you can get me a beer and my rifle so I can kill whoever did this to me" I laughed and sat back down but became instantly serious " Dad do you have any ideas?" he sighed " Not a one kid…all I remember is hearing a sound in your room and by the time I opened your door I was being attacked" It had to have been a vampire who did this and I would find out who. " Bella go home.. I'll be fine" I looked worried " But dad.." he smiled "no buts kiddo, I know you're worried but there is nothing you can do for me here….be back tomorrow though visiting hours start at 8" I smiled at my dad and he gave me a returning wink. I kissed him on his forehead once more " Take care of yourself daddy…I will be back tomorrow" His eyes opened wide and then he blushed "What?" I asked him " Bells you must be very worried about me because the last time you called me daddy was when you were 3" I smiled and kissed him again "You have no idea the depth of worry I have, now get some sleep Chief" Charlie closed his eyes but continued to have a smile on his face. I shut the door lightly and Esme and Carlisle were waiting for me outside. "You are staying with us Bella and don't even think about objecting" I looked down and sighed. " I guess I don't have a choice in the matter, can I at least get some of my stuff" Esme smiled "Already taken care of dear" I was about to ask by who but then it dawned on me. "Alice" Esme and I said in unison. I smiled and she returned my smile. I sighed and Esme escorted me outside. Carlisle followed not to long after that since he had to give the night shift nurses orders. I got into Carlisle's car and as soon as they heard my seat belt click Carlisle sped towards their home. This is going to be interesting but I had to make sure I called Jake when I got there to have him identify who was in my room and had hurt my dad so bad.