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Kikyou: I Hate You

How did this happen?

This was never supposed to happen. It was impossible. Unbelievable. Unthinkable. He was so strong, so powerful. Yet here he was, on the very brink of death in your arms.

Tears were continuously flowing down your cheeks, but you didn't take notice of it. You were drowning in the feelings of anxiety and despair that smothered you. That dreadful feeling in the pit of your stomach was overwhelming.

You already knew that no matter what you did, there was nothing you could do to prevent the impending truth. There was nothing you could do about the hopelessness in your actions.

Or the pain in your heart.

You could hear his breaths. They were rugged, as if it hurt to breathe. Tears continued to stream down your face as Kikyou struggled to stay alive, even for a few more minutes. Or seconds.

He had no more strength to move, his body almost completely limp. Any moment now death would consume him, leaving you alone.

The tears stung your eyes. You shut your eyes to keep any more tears from falling - but to no avail. You let out a restrained sob as you held Kikyou closer. In between your cries, you mumbled, "I hate you...I hate you so much." You didn't know if he could hear you or not, but you didn't care. You continued, "I hate you for destroying the peaceful life I loved." Your shoulders were trembling as you desperately tried to restrain yourself. "I hate that you killed everyone. Our families and friends," you cried through bitter tears, remembering your old, peaceful life in your alternate world. True, there were some troubles you had to face, but it was nothing you couldn't handle. "I hate you for killing everyone, every single person…but me," you sobbed. "I hate that you let me live! I hate that you kept me alive instead of killing me. I hate you for taking me away and giving me no choice but to work for Byakuran, too."

You froze when you felt a hand gently brush your face and wipe the water away from the corner of your eye. You looked at Kikyou's face and saw a ghost of a smile on his lips. He shakily managed out, "I'm sorry."

"Kikyou?" You desperately wanted him to live through this.

"Forgive me," he continued in a raspy voice. "I wanted a better life for you… But I suppose in the end, I was being selfish…because I wanted you with me…"

The hope that be would be able to make it through this was shattered entirely when his eyes closed and his body went limp.

It was as if time had frozen. His breath stilled while you held yours. His unmoving form brought you down to reality. It hit you hard.

A stifled cry left your trembling lips as you turned your head away.

"I hate you," you repeated again, choking back a sob. "I hate you, Kikyou, for leaving me all alone."

"I hate that you're not with me anymore."

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I was sad at this time, I think. I don't remember what possessed me to write it this way.

So, is this angst? I thought I'd try it, but...I'm not very proud. xD

For Crimson Cupcake I will redo this if you'd like, or if you want something different, you can always request again. (:

That goes for everyone else too. ^^ I try. Request and I'll do it :D

That reminds me…I don't have a beta-reader yet, so my writing will still remain sucky.

Sorry for taking so long. I'm not going to start with the excuses, and trust me, I have a lot. But this goes to show that I don't manage my time well. I was so happy with the new reviewers for the recent chapters, I'm sorry that I may have disappointed you for the three...four months that I have been away!

Thanks for reviewing everyone! And for suggesting when I asked for help! Thank you very much for everything!