A/N thank you so much everyone for the reviews, I can't believe I actually got ten, I really didn't expect that, anyway, here's the early update! Thank you all made my day!
Daryl had tried sleeping for at least an hour, he was mildly annoyed that Beth had found sleep so easy, her breathing had changed into longer heavier breaths about twenty minutes ago. The fire was burning hotter tonight, or maybe it was just him, but the quilt had slipped down her waist a little and he couldn't help running his eyes over her bare arms, which really he had seen often, but tonight they looked particularly good, her forearm was bent over her stomach and her fingers laced with his own, which felt amazing. The difference between their arms mesmerized him, hers so frail and white compared to his; they were heavenly.
She was heavenly. He really should stop looking at her, thinking about her, about her skin, about running his hands over it. His fingers prickled at that thought, which made her shift a little rubbing up against his already hardened member for a fraction of a second, his hips bucked forward of their own accord and he swore he felt her roll back into him. They did it a second time, smoother, and he realized this time, and the next few he had let it happen… wait, what was he doing?
He held his breath for a second hoping it didn't wake her, mentally scolding himself for losing his brain whenever she was around. When she didn't move he breathed out slowly. "Shit Daryl, what the fuck man?" He mumbled to himself before using his free hand to stuff the quilt in between them a little more. He pulled the hand that was around her stomach, to fix the quilt in there as well. He went to put his arm back around hers but got distracted by her delicious skin, he rested his hand on her shoulder before carefully pushing her hair back a little so he could see her neck a little better, which forced him to kiss the soft skin carefully. He'd never wanted to kiss someone like that before, just out of pure need to feel them, to worship them, he wanted to do it again and again and never stop, but he forced himself to pull back. Not helping at all he decided, he was just going to return his arm to the position it was and close his eyes and sleep. Right...he trailed his fingers down her arm to her elbow and then back to her hand, smiling at the goosebumps that lie in the wake of his fingers.
She sighed softly as she often did when he did that, she slept heavy enough, he could get out of bed, go kill a walker, take a piss and get back in without her noticing. He'd actually done that once, he'd also had that stupid dog of hers jumping on the bed and walking around stepping on his bullet wound leaving him cursing in pain and she hadn't woken. How the hell did she plan of surviving a zombie apocalypse with sleeping skills like that? Maybe he'd just have to make sure she never slept without him again, he smirked at that idea.
Nothing woke the kid, but every time his hand reached hers she always sighed softly, that beautiful sound made him harder and he decided this was pointless; he rolled back over onto his back with a grunt. He was aching, he squeezed himself through his pants in an attempt to relieve something, but it didn't, he tried to close his eyes, maybe he should just go to the bathroom and take care of it? What the hell was he? A teenage kid that couldn't control himself? He pushed that thought away, and squeezed his eyes shut. "Your own fault, Dixon...god damn perv." He scolded himself.
Beth lay deadly still. If he was going to start talking to himself she should probably let him know she's awake...although he did just inform her that he was perving and she was pretty okay with what was happening before that, so maybe silence would be better. She fought a smile; he was shifting allot now, she wanted to turn around and have a look at what he was doing, the constant rearranging of the quilt was leaving her a little cold. He grunted slightly, she bit her lip, she so loved it when he made those guttural sounds, which really made up half his vocabulary, but still, her stomach flipped a little at it. She decided to just go for it. "I'm not asleep, Daryl." She whispered.
He froze, panicking, his eyes were wide, did she hear him talking to himself...was she awake when he was running his hand over her like some greedy fuck, or when he was grinding himself up against her like some depraved fuckhead? Oh, god he had kissed her… yeah that he couldn't deny. "How long?" He eventually asked.
Beth rolled her head to the ceiling. "I haven't fallen asleep." She waited for a reaction but there wasn't one. He simply stopped, wasn't moving, wasn't breathing, she wondered if his heart was even beating.
Finally he let out a breath. "Fuck..." Beth considered just jumping on top of him and replying with a hearty Ok, if you want, but even the thought of that made her blush. Instead she found the courage to reach for his hand and pulled it down between them, holding it with both of hers, she smiled as she felt it trembling a little.
She swallowed hard. "It's okay, Daryl... you're a guy, I get it... I don't mind."
His head shot to her with a furrowed brow, what the hell did she mean she didn't mind? What was she doing? She certainly wasn't looking at him, she was looking down nowhere in particular, just avoiding his eyes probably, he looked back to the roof. Neither of them moved for a while, eventually she shifted, running one hand up his arm and wrapped it around his bicep in a tight hug. Did she know what she was doing? Of course she had to fucking know, but then she wasn't doing anything else, so maybe she didn't. His head was going to explode, then her lips were pressing into his arm, it was only a small chaste kiss and she laid her head back down and closed her eyes but it still sent his head reeling. His fingers prickled again around hers and she responded with another kiss on his shoulder.
A thousand thoughts flashed through his head at once, but none of them were even moderately okay to do with Beth. A small moan escaped him involuntarily, which apparently made her kiss his shoulder again a little slower and open mouthed this time and the hand that had previously been wrapped around his arm slid across his chest and down his stomach, scratching lightly across his abdomen. His head was going to explode, he had to end this because he couldn't take it any longer.
"Fuck no!" He snapped his hand back and threw the quilts of storming for the bathroom where he stood glaring at his reflection before sending the contents of the bench scattering to the floor in one fell swoop. He had to deal with this better than he was, actually he had to deal with himself first, because currently his brain was as dead as a walker's.
Beth lay still, she had been so sure, tears threatened at her eyes, she'd just offered herself, or at least she was working up to it and he'd stormed of probably angrier than she's ever seen him before. How the hell was she going to live with him after this? She reached for the pillow and drew it into her, wrapping her entire body around it for a tight hug and squeezed her eyes shut. What the hell was he doing anyway? He'd definitely started it, why was he so mad? Her ears pricked at the noise that came from the bathroom, was he…? Oh god, great… so his hand is a better option than me, fantastic. "Jerk." She whispered pulling the pillow in tighter and sobbed into it.
A few moments later, which could've been seconds or an eternity, she really wasn't sure, the bathroom door flung open. He was still breathing heavily and she could see in the light from the fire that he had a scowl deep set on his face, and he really looked like he might come over and strangle her to death and he did head over, purposely, not taking his eyes off hers for a moment. She sank down a little bit, wondering what he was going to do; that thought flipped her stomach again and she whimpered slightly as he leaned over her.
He ripped the pillow from her arms and crossed back to the fire before throwing it on the floor and glaring at her one last time before laying down, facing away from her.
What the actual fuck? he thought. With his problem dealt with, he could think for a moment, What just happened? He knew what happened, of course, but really, what the hell? This whole thing was so embarrassing. Plus, he went to the bathroom to beat off and he wasn't really quiet about it...what would she think of him now? He grunted, punching his pillow into something that resembled comfortable and laying his head back down. His nose caught a dampened bit, What? was she crying, why was she crying, maybe she felt all violated, probably I would if I were her, and had some old man feeling me up, was she crying? "Why the fuck's my pillow wet?" He snapped, his chest sent that horrible buzz of pain through him again and he actually felt bad about being so harsh, Maybe he should go over and comfort her, he felt himself twitch at that, Oh c'mon, how can everything involving her turn me on? He thought "You've got to be kiddin' me!"
"Shut up, Daryl!" Came the reply from the dark, he hadn't aimed that at her, but clearly that's how she took it and he didn't argue it because in reality, it sounded a little too full of hurt.
He just groaned, feeling unsatisfied and worried because he had no idea if or how this could ever be fixed, and that idea was terrifying.
A/N I know this is awful, like I've said before, this story just writes itself. Was so upset about it too, but don't worry they will sort it out and it's not too long before they're back happy and quite possibly together, and then there will be lots of kissing and touching, and **sneek peek, (spoiler alert-for my story, not cannon) because you earned it, there may be a moment in the near future where Daryl quiet openly kisses Beth in front of a bunch of people...because she owns him. :D** Anyway, please please keep up with the reviews, I really appreciate every one of them. :D and I always try to reply by sending you a review if you have a story. Thank you all so much for reading and enjoying and in boxing me cute little borderline abusive messages about getting them together and posting all my chapters lol, I love it!