Sora eventually picked himself up, spitting "Get up you useless little..." He finished his sentence with a sob, pondering the words he should use.
Stupid...
Demented...
Idiotic...
Deranged...
Nobody...
He barely had any energy to even walk to the Highwind, but he did. He kicked himself the whole while, truly feeling he was worth nothing. After all, that's probably what the universe felt, if he was cursed with such torture. There was a happier him out there, somewhere. A Sora that never knew a life without shelter, or one full of hunger. A Sora that never realized just how close he had been to losing everything he held dear. A Sora that had all the happiness and content anyone would be satisfied with. A Sora that everyone could depend on.
And that Sora wasn't him.
He staggered through the streets, berating himself for his mere exsistence. Obviously he did something that the other him didn't to grow up so harsh and hated. And what was the point of him living now? Kairi had been gone for days now, her chances of being alive slim. Riku had sided with Maleficent, hating Sora for not trying hard enough to find Kairi.
Sora lingered on the thought of Riku going to Maleficent. Maybe he was loathed that much, maybe Riku had the last straw. He was alone now. TRULY alone. Not just in another room, still near someone to talk to, near someone who cared for him. On his own, without anyone caring about his existence. He thought about Esmeralda's earlier words: "That's a lonely life to live." He suddenly realized just how true it was.
He stopped just before leaving the city, realizing that no one would care if he just gave up right now, let his life drift away like so many others. He then found an armory, purchased a knife, and resumed his walk back to the Highwind. Yep, no one would care if a sixteen year-old boy took his life today. No one. Anyone who did care wouldn't know him("Oh what a poor boy"), or would probably cheer("Finally! He's gone!").
He sat in the pilot's seat of the Highwind, and examined the blade he purchased.
Sharp? Check.
Sharp enough to get the job done? Check as well.
He pressed it against his neck, almost relishing the light scrape it made. A panicked voice arose in the back of his mind, begging him to stop. Did he really need to do this? Should he give up? He still had his friends-
"What friends?"! He bitterly remarked "They've either left me or are most likely dead."
Without another thought he drew the knife across his neck, indulging in the feeling of blood running down it into his shirt and across his chest. Indulging in the feeling of death. He slumped in the seat, closing his eyes and letting his life slip away from him.
Riku brushed Kairi's hand, hoping for a tingle of life or warmth. Nothing, her eyes remained as dull as ever, her chest moving lightly up and down in a steady, shallow rhythm. She had been like this for ages, not even giving a sign that she cared that her friends were worried sick.
"Riku, why don't you persue something of more use?" Maleficent strode into the room "She is not going to wake any time soon-"
Riku stood from his chair, demanding "Where's Sora?!"
Maleficent had a sour look on her face "Say that again, this time take note of who is your superior."
Riku gave a halfhearted bow of apology, then stood and said firmly "I want to know if Sora came with you or not."
Maleficent turned away, walking to the window and sighing "I am afraid we have lost him-"
"You said he would come." Riku growled.
Maleficent waved her hand at him "The stubborn brat wouldn't comply."
"Then how are we going to wake Kairi?!" Riku's voice rose "You said so yourself that only true love's kiss would undo the spell! We've already tried with me, and apparently I'm not the one! Sora is the only other person I can think of!"
Maleficent sighed and shook her head "Such a temper you have." she rubbed her staff "You have no need to address me like this, and no need to bother yourself over a minor setback." She smirked back at Riku, whose agressive mannerisms had been subdued "We shall just wait for Sora to come to us."
Riku nodded, and bowed, saying in a monotone voice "Yes, I shouldn't be so worried. I am sorry."
He then left the room, and Maleficent turned to Kairi. "Soon, my princess, soon."
Kairi's hand twitched.
Donald and Goofy had arrived at the city of bells, and discovered the Highwind. It was sitting there, looking very lonsome and abandoned.
"Gwarsh Donald, ya think they're here?"
Donald shrugged "They're looking for Kairi, they have every right to search here."
Goofy approached the Highwind, noting a shilouette against the glass "Donald, they might in- DONALD! COME QUICK!"
Donald ran over, disturbed by his companion's yell of terror. He was met with the sight of Goofy tenderly picking up Sora's limp body, which had a generous amount of blood on it coming from his neck.
"CURAGA!" He squawked in a panic, hoping he wasn't too late.
Sora shuddered, then became still again.
Goofy looked around for what could have done the deed, only finding a knife. "Donald, what do ya think happened-"
"I don't know Goofy, but Riku's missing."
"Gwarsh, we're caught in a losing battle here, aren't we?" He sighed, gently rubbing a gloved hand against Sora's head. "Already there's so much Heartless, not to mention how were losing Keyblade weilders left and right..."
Donald scratched the back of his neck, feeling inadequate and awkward.
Goofy then shook his head, and said "You know what, let's meet with The King about this. He'll know what to do even if we don't."
Donald nodded "Yeah. Here, I'll take our Gummi Ship while you make sure Sora stays okay. Meet you back at Disney Castle."
more drama, hooray!
Interestingly, I was derping around on TvTropes and discovered that if this version of Sora existed here in real life, he would probably be diagnosed with a psychological disorder called "Borderline Personality Disorder". No really, look it up on google, it's real. symptoms of BPD include:
1) Feelings of emptiness- he does feel hollow, as stated a few chapters back When he pondered over why he had such an urge to help people.
2) Frequent displays of inappropriate anger- look back at the earlier chapters. Some of that stuff was quite inappropriate.
3) Impulsiveness with money, substance abuse, sexual relationships, binge eating, or shoplifting- not there... Yet. Might just put that in now that I know of this disorder.
4) Repeated crises and acts of self-injury- or maybe a certain penchant of attempting to kill yourself.
5) Fear of being abandoned and/or Intolerance of being alone- not QUITE there, but implied in the above.
Really, wow. I can't believe I have screwed Sora up that Bad. I am so EVIL! oh, an if you're one of those people who reads through all this junk I put as an after note, hooray! You got a mild psychology lesson! Review please!