Author's Note: Yay! I have managed to update daily for the past few days! I just wanted to keep you guys occupied, because school is starting up again, so I am not sure how much time I will have to update this story. Hopefully it doesn't feel like I have been rushing the plot too quickly, but I feel like I have been dragging it out, and after 5-10 more chapters or less, I think this story will be completed. Enjoy! ;)
I had woken up feeling worse than last night. I had lied to Finn; I hadn't really had a headache. I had been afraid of confiding the truth to him. The truth of what had happened last night at Steven's.
I knew that I wanted to stay home today. I couldn't face Finn without feeling more guilt. Knowing that Finn would be coming to pick me up this morning, I had told my dad, the one who wanted to open the door, exactly what he should tell Finn. I sighed and looked into my bathroom mirror. Could Finn forgive me for what I had done?
Last Night at Steven's House
Being a gentleman, Steven had opened the door to his very nice convertible for me to get in. I had thanked him politely. He wasn't the same as Finn though, his car was nicer than his, he had a nice face, but those weren't all of the things that mattered. Finn was so much hotter though. I smiled at the thought of Finn's muscles and his toned body.
Steven glanced at me sideways and asked, "What are you thinking about?"
I blushed in surprise. When had he decided to start looking at me?
"Just… Thinking about my boyfriend," I responded with complete honesty.
"Oh. Him," Steven scoffed with an obviously sour tone.
I gave him a quizzical look. I let it go though, and we drove to his house in silence.
We arrived and my mouth dropped in shock, "You live here?"
"Yes, Rachel. My family is very wealthy," he proudly announced.
I stared at the house in question. It didn't seem like a house though; it looked like a mansion. I got out of the car and waited as he unlocked the door. I carefully walked across the perfectly polished white floor, afraid of tracking dirt onto it.
"Do your parents know I am here?" I asked nervously. Suddenly this didn't seem like such a great idea.
"No," he answered, "They won't mind though. Both of them are at work, so we are alone." He smirked at me, and I swallowed nervously. Should I reschedule, make up some excuse, or call Finn to come and pick me up? No. I wouldn't back out so easily. I was Rachel Barbra Berry. I could fight my own battles.
"Let's go practice. I promised my dads that I would be back at a decent time," I stated. My voice had come out a lot weaker than I had planned.
"Sure. Let's go upstairs to my room," Steven announced.
I quietly gulped as I followed him up the stairs. He led me down a hallway, and after passing five doors, he finally stopped and opened the sixth one.
"This is it," he said.
I nodded, "Nice room."
He brought a chair for me to sit down on and he brought another and sat in front of me. I subtly scooted my chair back a few centimeters, and took out the folder that I had brought with me.
"So, here are the song ideas that I have come up with. These songs are all classical duets, so I am sure that it won't be hard for either of us to quickly pick up the lyrics. So-," Before I could finish talking, Steven had grabbed my chin and had moved my head in a way that had forced my eyes to stare into his.
I stared into the grayish green orbs and watched his lips curl into a smirk. He pulled my face forward, so that our lips were only two centimeters away. I tried to pull away, but he held my chin in a tight grip. He began to move his lips closer to mine and before I could resist his lips were on his, and I had begun to kiss him back. Disgusted with him and even more so with myself, I pulled away from his dirty mouth and wiped my lips on the back of my hand. Why had I kissed him back? I had never felt anything for Steven, but I couldn't think about this right now. I needed to say something to Steven.
"Kiss me, Rachel, I know you want to. You kissed me back. Think about it. Finn is just a Lima loser. You have bigger dreams than him," Steven said, trying to feed me lies.
"Steven, stop. You know this isn't right. I love Finn. I don't understand why you would try and get into the way of what Finn and I have. I can't believe that this all just happened. I need to leave. I don't care about the duet right now. I am going to call my dads to have them come and pick me up; they are shopping only a few minutes away from here.
I had sat and cried until about 7 o' clock. I finally decided to text Finn and notify him that I was fine. I wasn't fine though. I was an emotional wreck. I couldn't face Finn tomorrow, after what I had done.
Back To the Present Time
Tears stained my face as I relived yesterday. What would Finn think of me? He wouldn't want to have anything to do with me. Steven would tell Finn what I had done. About how I had kissed him back when I had still been in a relationship with Finn. I would do anything to keep Finn by my side, even if it resorted in getting down onto my knees and begging.
Why had I kissed Steven back? Maybe the same lies that Steven had tried feeding me had run through my head as well, except completely different at the same time. I knew I wasn't good enough for Finn. He was the head quarterback, the most popular guy in school, and he could have any girl at McKinley that he wanted. Why me? I wasn't anything special, just an immature girl that had run away from her life in St. Paul because she couldn't deal with her high school drama.
Where would I be in 4 years? Who knew? I didn't know that I would be on Broadway. That was only a dream. Dreams don't always come true. All I knew for sure though was that I wanted to be with Finn. I wanted him be the one to hold me when I didn't get accepted to my dream school, NYADA. I wanted him to be the one to tell me that everything would be alright because we had each other.
Author's Note: Don't worry. I know that Rachel seems very wrong to be kissing Steven back, but she was insecure about how Finn felt towards her. You'll see Finn's reaction in the next chapter. Yikes. Things have definitely taken a turn for the worst. Tell me what you thought, what you think will happen next, your favorite food, or whatever you want! I just like to read anything you guys write! Just write random letters for all I care! Hope you guys had a good winter break! Mine ended today :( Thanks again!