Chapter 4

I Don't Wanna Be In Love

I'm tired sick and tired of playing the sensitive over crying Ellie. As soon as Tristan parked my car I ran upstairs and changed. I needed to let out my anger and my dad taught me a good way to release it.

I went to my closet were was it? Where is? Found it. I changed into basketball shorts and a sports bra. I pulled my hair into a ponytail and put on my gloves. As soon as Tristan saw me he didn't need to ask twice. He graved this pair and was about to put them on.

"Wait El, I'll put on some music."

He graved his iPod-thank goodness we have the same taste in music- and he picked out the perfect song.

Ghost Town by the Shiny Toy Guns. It might not have the words that I feel but it sure pumps me up.

I started jumping up and down warming up my body. Tristan didn't say anything he just readied himself for what was coming. That was the good thing about Tristan I had known him so long, that he knew me so well.

Everyone liven in ghost, everyone liven in waste land. We don't want to, we don't have to live like that liven in ghost town.

I stretched out my arms there was no way I was going to get soar. And I started punching.

Hold me back you know we're never gonna back down

I was moving like lightning, left upper cut. Right swing. Left fan kick.

Hold me back you know we're never gonna back down.

I was moving forward now Tristan never breaking eye contact with me and he took small steps back.

You better let go so let go of me, let go let go of me.

I kept punching my knuckles were starting to hurt but I didn't care I needed to let it out. I kicked him with my knee and just kept jabbing. I was sweating like crazy now but it didn't matter. Nothing mattered.

My eyes started to water and I couldn't see Tristan anymore, I still kept punching and he didn't let down his guard. I finally couldn't take it and I screamed. I screamed and fell to my knees.

I cupped my face in my hands, and I just cried. How could muscles say that to me? I thought he loved me. After everything I went through- no Ellie. You can't, you just can't feel this way.

I felt Tristan kneel down to me and hug me, he put his chin on my head and rubbed my back. He didn't need to say anything him just doing this simple thing told me everything.

'You'll get through this El.'

I pushed away from him gently and sat on the floor. Is this what our relationship has come to, me suffering and Jake expecting me to deal with it?

I groaned and I laid down on the floor. Tristan looked at me and laid down next to me, I rest my head on his shoulder. He was the closest thing I had to a brother; I don't know what I would do without him.

He didn't say anything we just listened to his iPod, which was now playing Meet Virginia by Train. I laughed a real laugh Tristan just looked at me and smiled.

He always used to tell me this song described exactly who I was I never got it, but he said I didn't need to.

She doesn't own a dress; her hair is always a mess. Catch her stealing she won't confess, she's beautiful.

I listened to the song and staring singing along to it and soon Tristan joined me.

Wears high heels when she exercise, meet Virginia. Well she wants to be the queen. Then she thinks about her scene. Pulls her hair back as she creams, I don't really wanna be the queen.

Well she wants to live her life, then she thinks about her lies. Pulls her hair back as she screams, I don't really live this life. No, no, no.

See her confidence is tragic, but her intuition magic. And the shape of her body unusal. I can't wait to meet Virginia.

I don't really wanna be the queen, I don't really wanna live this…

The song ended and I think I finally understood what Tristan had said about the song and me.

"El, how goes it?"

"It goes better Trist thanks you always know how to make me feel better."

"I should I've known you since birth."

I laughed. I got up and looked at the clock it read 7. Damn I need to eat and do homework, great.

Tristan said he had dinner covered and that I could do my homework while he cooked, lucky for me no matter how he acts he's really a brain. So he already finished, and I could just ask him for the answers.

He made some cup of noodles which just cracked me up I guess he still can't cook, at least he didn't burn the water this time.

We got ready for bed, and he blew up his air mattress. He put it so it was next to my bed. I rolled over and looked at him. The dork was already asleep. I looked at him sleeping, and remembered that since we were little everyone expected us to become a couple, and get married. FUNNY. It's not that Tristan wasn't good lucking because honestly the guy was hot. But I just never saw him that way he was always more of my dorky brother.

And now look where I am. I'm going out with a shape shifter werewolf guy. Who gets REALLY jealous, and well it's not as fun as I thought it would be.

I closed my eyes and hoped for a better day tomorrow.

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Tristan was already up and ready when he hit me in the face with the pillow.

"What the hell?"

I looked up and he was looking me in the eyes. "Payback for yesterday El-bear. Now get ready or you're going to ruin my perfect attendance."

"You've only been in school for a day."

"Yeah and who knows how long that perfect attendance is going to last so come on mover your ass Ellie."

I stuck my tongue out at him and got ready. We got to school with 10 minutes to spare. How do I always get lucky?

When we got to class muscles wasn't there. Oh so he's going to run away from his problems then? I rolled my eyes and sat down.

This was going to be a long day.

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And I was right the day went by so slow I had felt like time had literally stopped. Why was the universe so messed up?

Lunch came and I was POD that I didn't even want to eat with the guys. Embry didn't even acknowledge my existence. So Tristan and I sat at a different table. I could tell he felt bad knowing that they weren't mad at me but him. But I told him I would NEVER blame him.

School ended and Jacob was still nowhere in sight. That son of a-

I shook the anger off and drove home. Tristan tried to take my mind of the subject by saying that he got a date with a girl from our English class. When did that happen? Was I really that distracted?

I was happy for him, when I pulled the car in I saw a motorcycle.

I didn't say anything. I walked towards my house and he was sitting on my porch.

"Hey twinkle toes."

Don't hey twinkle toes me.

"Hi"

"Look I'm sorry I didn't mean to overreact but being a shape shifter I-"

"Don't blame this on being a werewolf Jacob Black. This was one of your own issues."

He just stared at me. I felt like a bitch, but I was mad. Can you blame me? Or maybe I was just overreacting…

"I know Ellie. And I even more sorry that I compared you to Bella. You're nothing like her. Ellie I love you. You know that. I just- it's hard for me to see you with other guys. Or seeing other guys touch you. It kills me inside."

Dang it.

"Jake, I know you love me. But you can't assume that every time I'm with a guy I'm automatically cheating on you. I wouldn't have gone through everything I did, if I really didn't love you."

"I know El." He turned to Tristan. "Look man I'm sorry-"

Tristan cut him off "dude don't even worry about it. I can't help it if Ellie wants to be best friend with a stud muffin like me. And I can't help being so attractive I was just born that way."

"Ok stud muffin why don't you go inside now."

"Sure thing El, but if he gives you any trouble tell me and I'll call your uncle." He flexed his bicep "cause these babies are just for looks you know I can't fight like you."

I laughed and I shoved him inside.

"So he's your best friend?"

"Yeah I don't know what I would do without that guy. I think you guys would get along great you know."

"I'll have to think about that."

He moved closer to me so his face was inched from mine. He rested his forehead on mine.

"Are we ok now Ellie?"

"I think so, but I have to see if it's still there."

"If what's still-"

And I kissed him, I sighed with happiness. Everything was good again. At least for now.

"Yup it's still there."

"What?"

"The fireworks every time I kiss you."

He smiled, and pulled me in for a hug.

"OK NO MORE PDA GUYS COME ON, THAT GROSS!"

I rolled my eyes and ran inside.

"You're getting your butt kicked."

"Oooh I'm sooooo scared."

I moved closer to him.

"Oh wait El no please no!"And I chase him throughout the house. I could see muscles from the corner of my eye. He was watching us and smiling. Now if only this nagging feeling that something bad was still going to happen go away.

(A/N) chapter 4 guys! So I hope you liked it. And my peeps I am no longer at you guys, it's not good to be angry. So you are forgiven( also do you think this song fits Ellie or do have a better when let me know) Anyways thanks to:

Brook-Teretto. Dom's girl- chapter 23: good then I'm glad that she deserved it. And dang we have a fighter in the house! (Now I know not to tick you off for future references)

Lovebug1020- thanks for putting this on alert!

Moos90- chapter 23- it's ok your allowed to miss a chapter now and then aha. And glad you like Tristan, I didn't want to make it seem like Ellie's past life disappeared completely.

Chapter 24- and you def. made up for it! And wow awesome!, I understand if you don't review for a while, as long as you read the story when you get a chance or when you get back! (:

Twilight, has never been owned by me and never will. I also don't own Meet Virginia by Train, or Ghost Town by the Shiny Toy Guns. Thanks for reading and review guys!