There wasn't MerDer in the last update so I wrote another one..
And the fun begins.. while the angst continues.. All I can say about this update is, oh boy..

Thanks for the comments! I love my readers!

Maddie

Disclaimer: I don't own it!

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Love/Addiction by Johnny Gill

I'm hooked on your affection
Girl you're blowing my mind
When cupid shot his arrow
The target it found was my heart (oh yes it was)

Now I admit it I'm in love
So give it to me cos I can't get enough

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"How about tonight?" Finn asked again.

"Um.." Meredith smiled. "Nope." she giggled.

"Oh come on.. Casey told me to tell you, you should go out with me."

"Oh now that's not fair.. using Casey against me like that." Meredith said, trying to sound serious.

"Hey, if it'll get you to say yes.."

"Which it won't." she retorted.

"Meredith.." he whinned.

"Seriously?" she breathed, looking up at him as she took notes in a patients chart at the nurses station.

"Go out with me." he said again.

"I can't."

"Why not?" he smiled.

"Because."

"Because..?"

"It would be inappropriate." she giggled.

"We could be inappropriate if you want.." he breathed, leaning in closer to her.

"Finn!" she laughed, hitting him slightly. "Casey.. she's having surgery tomorrow.. you should be with her and.."

"Oh I will be." he smiled. "I just want to take you out for an hour or two. We both need to eat and we both know hospital food sucks." he smiled.

"That's true.." she sighed.

"So then it's a yes??" he smiled.

"No I.. I'm not saying anything."

"Come on.. we can go for an hour.. no more.. in fact you don't even have to sit next to me."

"Oh I don't have to sit next to you?" she said, sounding more interested. "Would you pay?" she laughed.

"If I pay, can I sit with you?"

"Hmm.. I don't know." she said, laughing again.

"Dr. Grey." she heard from behind her.

"Dr. Shepherd." she breathed, not prepared to see him because she hadn't seen him coming. "I was just.."

"Are you ready to see our patient now Dr. Grey?" he said in an irritated manner.

"I.."

"I'll go on in there.." Finn said quickly, knowing he should flee the scene instantly sensing Derek's anger.

But Derek didn't even acknowledge him.

"Yeah me too.." Meredith said, beginning to follow Finn.

"I'd actually like a minute with you Dr. Grey."

"I.. okay." Meredith breathed as they walked down the hall until he suddenly stopped her.

"What do you think you're doing?" he said harshly.

"What.. nothing. What do you mean?"

"Come on Meredith.. flirting with a patient?" he spat, shaking his head angerily as he began to pace. "You're a doctor for pete sakes! You know this is innapropriate!"

"Actually he's not a patient!" Meredith spat back. "So if I'm talking to him then that's my choice!"

"Oh please, you call that talking?"

"What are you incinuating Derek?" she said, trying not to yell.

"I just think you throwing yourself at some guy that you've known for a week isn't appropriate." he yelled back.

"We were talking! How dare you accuse me of something."

"Meredith he was all over you!"

"You know what Derek, you need to mind your own business! Why do you even care if I flirt with him? I'm not married.. I'm not dating.. I'm not.. engaged!"

"It's inappropriate!" he said raising his voice. "Flirting in the middle of the hallway.. Don't you know how to be a doctor?"

"Don't you talk down to me Derek Shepherd! I didn't need you on this trial.. in fact I don't need you at all! You can go."

"Well you've made that extremely clear!"

"What's that suppose to mean?" Meredith yelled.

"Come on Mer.. whenever things get hard you give up!"

"Derek you don't know what the hell you're talking about!" she spat, her eyes becoming blury.

"Oh I do." he breathed, knowing she didn't deserve to be yelled at but not being able to contain his anger and jealousy. "We're just like we were when we were kids Mer.. we kill things. We fight, we stop talking, pretend everything's fine and then the next thing you know we're fighting again! We kill things!"

"Well at least I had the courage to say something! At least I didn't flirt shamelessly with every walking male to piss you off on purpose.. at least I finally admitted how I felt.. at least I spoke up!"

"You think it was easy for me Mer? You left! You said you didn't want to keep in touch.. you left!" he said, breathing heavely.

"Don't you dare say anything else Derek. You think you had it hard? You broke my heart!" she screamed.

"As did you." he said softly, finally looking around the room noticing the crowd staring at them.

"Crap." Meredith whispered, still pissed off but now shutting up noticing the people around her watching and listening to them. With one last glance at Derek, she turned around and headed back down the hallway, away from Derek and the crowd to Casey's room.

When she finally saw her door she noticed Finn standing in front of it. The moment he saw her he approached her.

"I heard yelling, is everything okay?" he said, noticing Meredith breathing heavely, eyes shining, with a pissed off expression.

"Dinner." Meredith breathed.

"What?" Finn asked, lifting a hand to her shoulder trying to calm ger down.

"You, me.. dinner tonight?"

"You.. you want to?" he asked, smiling slightly.

"Yeah.." she breathed, trying to not let the tears fall from her eyes.

"Oh okay, I.."

"I get off at 7.. I'll meet you in a lobby." she said, turning away and walking down the hall needing to calm down.

"Okay!" Finn yelled as she disappeared down the hallway, excited she had agreed to dinner but wondering what in the world got her to change her mind.

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And so, the fun begins..