THE CLEARWATERS

CHAPTER 25

SAVANNAH P.O.V

The first week with Kuba was amazing. Koda was obsessed with him and held him any chance he got. I was exhausted. Kuba woke up every three hours to eat and somehow Seth got night shifts two days a week for the pack and he was exhausted too.

Having two kids was a lot different than having one. One kid was easy, two kids felt like 200 kids. It didn't help that Koda got jealous of Kuba.

"Why does Ku get to sleep in your room?" He asked one night when I was putting him to bed.

"Because he's too little to sleep in his own bed." He wasn't happy with that response and phased just to scratch my arm. I had never been so angry in my entire life. I left him there sobbing. Thankfully it healed quickly but I've never seen so much blood in my entire life.

Koda has now made it very clear that he was jealous of his brother. He loved his brother, but he was jealous. Koda was now awake all hours of the night screaming. He threw his food on the floor during all meals.

He screamed at anyone who came to visit and tried to hold Kuba. I was afraid to leave the house with him. I also was afraid to leave him with anyone so daycare was out. I had never seen a child act like this in my life.

Somehow I had gotten both kids to sleep at the same time. Koda was in our bed and Kuba was in the swing in the living room. I was cleaning bottles and doing some laundry when Seth came through the door looking exhausted.

"Hi, baby." I smiled as he came over to me and held me by my hips kissing me. "How was work?"

"Good. I have good news about that." He smiled. "I got a raise and I got promoted." He smiled proud of himself.

"Congrats! That's so exciting!" I hugged him. "I'm so proud of you." I smiled. I heard little foot steps come out of our room and we both watched Koda walk over to Kuba and glance into the swing.

"I have swing like this?" He questioned. This was the most calm I've seen him in a long time. You know with all the screaming he's been doing.

"You did. I gave it to nana for baby Jett." I smiled at him. "Are you hungry? Would you like something to eat?" I asked.

"Ya." He commented climbing onto the chair next to the swing. I looked at Seth who went over to sit with him. Seth and Koda talked while I cooked them both dinner. When Kuba began to fuss, so did Koda. I knew Kuba was hungry and I knew I was about to have a mad house.

I slowly walked over to pick him up to calm him down. Koda right away started making a big fuss even though Seth was showing him attention.

"Do you want to feed him?" I asked trying to get him to calm down.

"Yes." He answered wiping his tears.

"Okay, sit with daddy and I'll get a bottle." I said helping him onto Seth's lap and placing the baby in his arms which Seth helped. I handed Seth the bottle which Koda snatched from him and stuck in Kuba's mouth. Seth held the end on the bottle. I stood watching for a few minutes before going to finish dinner.

"We have to burp him. I'll sit him on my knee and you pat his back okay?" Seth said and Koda nodded. Koda stood in front of him as Seth sat Kuba on his knee. Koda gently patted his back and thankfully I was able to get a picture of the three of them. Koda and Kuba were both spitting images of Seth. I was a little jealous. I wanted at least one of our kids to look like me.

Once Kuba burped, Koda sat down on the floor to play with his toys while Seth rocked Kuba. I let out a sigh of relief at the fact that Koda was finally playing quietly and not screaming that Seth had the baby.

"Koda, come eat." I said holding my arms out and he ran into them.

"Ku eat?"

"He can't eat food yet. You have teeth and he doesn't." I commented lifting him up and putting him in his chair.

"Ha!" He said as he ate.

"Wanna eat?" I asked Seth who stood up and gently laid Kuba back in the swing. He came over and sat down. We were both nervous to be around Koda. Mom said it was normal for him to be jealous but it was not normal for Koda to want to hurt us. I was scared to death that he was going to hurt the baby.

"Done."

"Two more bites." I said to him which angered him like I've never seen. He started shaking his chair violently. Seth grabbed onto it so he wouldn't flip it and land on the floor.

"Takoda Harry I've had enough of you!" Seth shouted. Seth rarely shouted and he never rose his voice at kids. Ever. Koda stopped and crossed his arms. "My fucking god!" Seth shouted sitting back down.

"Seth." I whispered.

"Don't Savannah. I've had enough of this. He needs to learn that he cannot throw a tantrum." I knew he was right. He put his head in his hand and I reached across the table to grab his other hand.

"I love you." I whispered.

"I love you more." He looked up at me. I stood up and wiped Koda's face before taking him upstairs and changing his diaper and getting him into bed. I pulled the curtain and kissed him.

"Good night."

"Night, mama." He whispered before laying down. I walked out closing the door behind me and heading back down to Seth who was laying on the couch with Kuba. I laid between his legs looking at him.

"Are you okay?" I asked. I felt terrible that he yelled at Koda.

"I'm fine." He answered.

"I feel bad for Koda."

"Well don't." He commented looking at me. "I'm so sick of him acting like that. Did you act like that when Ryder was born?" He asked and I shrugged. "He needs a reality check."

"Seth he's only 11 months old." I commented. I had a huge birthday party planned for his first birthday which was in a few weeks but from the looks of it, Seth might cancel it. "He doesn't understand. He may look like an almost two year old but he's not." He sighed.

"It's just frustrating." He said.

"You think I don't know that? I'm home alone with him all day." I commented. "He has the right to have these feelings he just doesn't know how to say it." He ran a hand through his hair while I rubbed the part of his stomach that that baby wasn't resting on. I didn't say anything I just watched him.

"Mama!" Came through the baby monitor and it sounded panicked. I got off the couch and started heading up the stairs.

"He's never going to learn."

"He's still my baby." I answered and kept walking. I opened the door to his room and he was standing in the crib looking at the closet. "What's wrong?" I asked flicking on the light and going over to the closet. "Emmett!" I shouted. How did he get in through the window without us noticing.

"Hi." He smiled.

"Are you kidding me? What are you doing?" I asked shoving him. "You scared the crap out of me."

"Was coming to see if Koda wanted to sleepover." He shrugged.

"Why didn't you just ring the doorbell?"

"I could hear you and Seth talking and wasn't patient enough to wait." I sighed.

"Fine you can take him but only because I need a break and Seth is having a mental break down." I answered picking Koda up and handing him over. "Have fun." I kissed Koda before Emmett jumped out the window with him.

"Seriously, Savannah?" Seth asked coming into the room where he clearly heard everything that we had said.

"It gives us a break and he needs the attention. Maybe when he comes back he'll be different." I commented going to clean up from dinner. Seth followed but kept Kuba in his arms. He sat on the counter watching me.

"What are we gonna do?" He asked.

"I don't know. I've never dealt with this in my life." Obviously. "You're older shouldn't you know what to do?" I joked.

"Don't make old man jokes."

"I'm just happy that your dick still works." I smirked and heard dad clear his throat from behind Seth.

"Didn't need to know that." He commented coming over and taking Kuba from Seth. "How's it going?" He asked. "Getting anywhere with Koda?"

"No." Seth answered. "This house is crazy." He added. "What are you doing?" Seth asked him before going to the fridge and finding some cheese sticks.

"Nothing. Bella took the kids to see Charlie so I came to see you guys." He answered. "You both look exhausted."

"We are." We both said and then smiled at each other.

"Emmett took Koda for the night so maybe we'll actually get some sleep. Hoping this little guy sleeps longer." I commented. I was mostly getting up with him during the night because I felt terrible that Seth had to work all day and then come home and help me with the kids.

Dad stayed for an hour before he could tell that Seth and I were about to crash on the floor any minute. We both went to bed and I made sure that Kuba was fed and his diaper was changed before setting him down in the cot to rest.

"Good night." I said to Seth as I cuddled into his side.

"Night." He kissed my head.

For the first night since he was born, Kuba slept through the night. I actually felt refreshed when I woke up the next morning. Seth was getting ready for work and I was sitting on the couch with Kuba resting on my thighs.

"I'm late so I can't pack a lunch. Will you bring me one later?" He asked.

"Of course." I smiled. He kissed me, then Kuba and was out the door. I could finally sit and relax. Thank god.