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A/N: This is not written in Microsoft Word so there will be more mistakes than usual sad to say.
That Night
Part 24
She heaved suddenly, running to the bathroom but not making it in time. Her mother was up before anyone else was, ready to help if needed then stopped when she saw Misaki staring blankly the floor with her right hand on the wall. She thought of approaching her but stopped when Misaki breathed in and turned to face her, face clean and eyes big.
"Misaki honey?" she started, reaching out for her daughter with concern. "What's the matter?"
Misaki looked down once again, took another breath and tried, for the life of her, to find her voice again, but all that came out was a mumbled; "...broke."
"What?" her mother asked, leaning in a little bit to hear her better. "Broke? What's bro-" she stopped, eyes wide and mouth jammed tight then stared at Misaki who was looking up worriedly. "Suzuna, call Hinata and your father. Tell them to get in the car now. We need to go."
"Why?" Suzuna asked as she approached the two with the phone on her face.
"Misaki's water just broke."
"Her what did what?" a voice, Hinata's voice, yelled from the other end of the phone. "Hold on! I'm going to go get Sakuya-san and we'll be there in a couple of minutes."
"Hurry." Minako cooed a the receiver died.
"Che!" Suzuna frowned, running to get her charger.
"Suzuna get your sister in her shoes, we need to be out o here the moment those two come."
"Hai!"
"Don't worry Misaki. Everything will be okay, just you hold on."
Misaki smiled halfheartedly then waddled over to the couch, huffing and puffing as she sat down to let her sister put her shoes on.
Will everything really be alright. She thought, as she waited, feeling unnaturally comfortable with the situation. What if something happens to the baby while giving birth. What if my baby has a defect...I'll still love him/her. I will always love my child.
She smiled as she sat there rubbing her belly comfortably. I will always love you
At Hospital:
Nine months. Nine months of randomly throwing up food that was never there. Nine months of feeling like shit randomly then feeling like she ruled the world afterwords. Nine months of eating things that physically looked like through up yet mentally looked like heaven on a plat and liking it. Nine months of not being able to fit all of her clothes and having to shop for more. Nine months of random name options for "baby" from Not only Satsuki and Aoi, but the rest of the Maids and her mother and father and friends. Nine months of random people asking if they could touch her belly after they already done so. Nine months of pain and happiness, confusion and understanding, hatred and love, and beauty and ugliness. Nine months of all of the possible things someone could feel in two years really does take its toll on someone, but this, this new pain out of no where was ridiculous.
The moment Hinata and her father came up the pain started to kick in. She felt as if she was going to pass a kidney stone the size of a human head. She couldn't help but scream most of the way there, even as Hinata was comforting her, rubbing her head since it would have been too much for him had he been on the other side of her.
Suzuna couldn't come. The car was too full with Hinata and Misaki laying down in the backseat, but Misaki wanted her to be there. She made sure that Suzuna understood that by how hard she held on to her hand when she was told that she would be left behind. So now, with no sister support with her yet, Misaki felt as if she was in more pain she should be.
She was rushed into a room the moment she got there and nearly cried when everyone but Hinata stopped following her, but she held onto him anyways, feeling a little better with someone there instead of no one.
She looked up, seeing him squint as he tried to run beside the wheelchair the nurse had ushered her in, then smile but didn't loosen her grip no matter how much it hurt him, because, compared to what she was feeling, his pain was nothing. He could break all hi fingers and he still wouldn't understand anything. But still, she couldn't deny that she was overjoyed about his being there. Having someone she loved beside her was what she needed the most at this time.
"Ahh!" she screamed, falling onto herself a little as her other hand, the one that was unconsciously gripping to the nurses hand on the wheelchairs handles, flew to her stomach protectively. "Make it stop!"
"Almost," Hinata cooed, quieting her instantly. "This will be over soon, Misaki. Don't you worry. I'll be here for you."
Misaki watched him, eyes wide and mouth open, then smiled an tried to retain herself some more. Because he was right. This will be over soon.
Another jolt of pain rippled through her body, making her cringe but not scream. Please be over soon.
2 and a half hours later:
"Hinata you little sneak!" Misaki yelled, grabbing for the mas collar to pull him closer to her. "You said it will all be over soon! Why did you lie to me? Baka, get this thing out of me now!"
"Misaki, please" Hinata cooed, looking away from her for a second to hide the tears the were falling from the pain that he was feeling. "I can't control your childbirth. Plus the correct word is baby not 'it'."
Misaki growled, reaching again for Hinata's collar but missing yet again. "Misaki, please!" Hinata begged, jerking his had away when she suddenly gripped his hand tighter. "I didn't even do this to you!"
"I know." another voice cooed, making everyone turn towards the door.
Misaki's face lighted up the moment she saw him, sweat dripping from his face just as it was doing from hers, though Hinata was less than pleased to see him.
"Takumi!" Misaki cheered, reaching out for his hand immediately, but stopping when she saw Suzuna standing just behind him, peering in curiously. "Suzuna!" she cheered, cawing at the both of them to the best of her abilities.
"The doctor is on his way now, Misaki." Suzuna cooed once her sister laid her hand on her face. "Everything will be over soon, Nee-san."
Misaki smiled at her sister then frowned instantly when the doctor entered and the nurse had ushered her out. He would have made Usu leave too, had Misaki not gripped his hand the moment he looked at him.
Usui flinched, looking down at her with compassion and warmth strong enough to calm her down a little. He squatted next to her and whispered in her ear, smiling all the while when she visibly relaxed and quieted down. She again shaking her head as her face grew blue. He whispered at her again and she breathed in harshly before calming down and going red again. This time, however, she didn't need him to tell her anything for her to breath again.
"Ayuzawa, Misaki?" the doctor questioned as he placed the clipboard down and smiled, somewhat, from under his mask. "I am Kurosawa Katsu and I will be delivering your baby today. Are you okay with that?"
"Yes, just, please." she sighed, seeming to be calmer than from fore he walked in. "get this...I mean, my baby," she stopped and looked down at Usui who was looking at her, smiling, then smiled herself. "Our baby out."
"Alright then, here we go. No I'm going to need you to..."
He had trailed off. That or she was no longer paying any attention. She was too bus watching Usui, drowning in his green eyes and loving the calm feeling he gave her, but, before she could truly take in all of the essence that was Usui, she felt a pain that was unbearable and couldn't help the face that came next. She looked away and screamed, gripping harder to Usui's thumb than she probably should have, then fell back into the pillow, seeing the world around her turn black.
"Stay awake, Misaki." Usui's sweet voice came, tearing instantly through the darkness. "Come on, wake up."
She did,but wished she hadn't when another sharp pain ripped through her body, making her scream again. Usui grunted next to her and nearly pulled his thumb away, but took a breath and calmed down instead. He then looked at Misaki, smiled once more in hopes to encourage her then looked on, watching with a hint of nausea building as the head came out and screams and cries were mixed together in one go.
"It'll be over soon." he whispered to Misaki again, feeling like he was talking to himself a little. "It'll all be over soon."
"Congratulations, Ayuzawa-san!" the doctor called a couple of minutes later. "You gave birth to beautiful baby boy."
Usui smiled, jumping to his feet out of excitement but fell back once again since Misaki still held a vice grip on his thumb. He looked at her then, rubbing a delicate hand across her sweaty forehead. He looked at her with questions written all over his face but didn't say anything . The sound of the baby still crying somewhere in the room had stolen his voice. The realization that he seriously was a father took most of his energy away, and actually seeing child birth, his child's birth, had taken a huge toll on his mind, but, even still, he could tell that something was wrong with Misaki once her face started turning blue.
"Misaki, breath!" he yelled, cupping her face in his hands. But she hadn't reacted the way she did the first time he told her to breath, this time she just shook her head, eyes closed and tears pulling out. At the sound of Usui's voice, the doctor turned, smile fading completely as he rushed back to Misaki.
"Breath!" Usui yelled again. Gripping her hand in his as tight as he could in hopes to get her to respond.
She did, taking in a big breath only to hold it all in once again. With her eyes closed and teeth clinched shut, Misaki lay in the hospital bed, dying from suffocation, scaring Usui to the point to standing to go get another doctor when...
"There's another head!" the doctor screamed, shocking Usui enough to have him sit down.
There's another baby?!
"Push!" the doctor yelled. "Come on, push."
"Breath Misaki." Usui cooed to her, assuring her enough to keep going on.
"Push! It's almost out!"
That was when Usui looked, eyes wide in confusion as he remembered the desperate cries from the first child when it came out. He looked at the nurse, the only on he could see at the moment, and watched as her face turned into a look of worry and horror mixed together. Her face lone made Usui want to get up and see, really see, what was going on with his second child.
"Quick get that blanket!" the doctor ordered as he lifted something up quickly. Usui stood again and was almost relived that Misaki wasn't pulling him back again, then paused and checked her.
"Misaki?" he questioned, placing his hand on her face. She smiled a little then leaned into it and slowly fell asleep, calming Usui's nerves a little enough to get him to leave her side and approach the panicked doctor.
Sometime around Midnight:
Pain. That was all she felt the moment she woke up. Her muscles were screaming at her in agony in every movement that she made, but she felt, for some reason, peace in the pain. She felt that it was worth it. Worth something she couldn't remember all too well. She sighed, feeling her spit, pasty and useless, stick to the corners of her mouth, then with that feeling, she felt dirty, instantly, but a good kind of dirty. All of theses feelings were confusing her until she turned and froze, a small smile spreading across her face.
Oh yeah. She thought. I'm at the hospital...because I was having my baby.
She smiled again as she laid back down and watched as Usui slept with the baby in a small hospital bassinet, gripping his pointer finger as if that was his only lifeline. Beside Usui, her sister laid against the arm of the chair, holding onto something blue and soft looking, arising Misaki's interest.
She tried to move to get it, but the movement sent a shock pf pain through her that had her squeaking just loud enough to wake Usui.
"Misaki?" he questioned, starting to move when he suddenly remembered the baby. He looked down at him, smiling sadly before he bet over and picked him up softly, but not enough to keep him from waking and whining.
"Shh." Usui comforted as he rocked and bounced lightly with the baby. He looked up, smiling at Misaki softly before he went back to the child. "He's really something, Misaki." He cooed after some much needed silence. "He's perfect."
"Let me hold him." Misaki ordered, holding out her hands in a position that reminded Usui of a child. Her eyes were wide with anticipation and her smile was steady and soft, some expressions that hardly touched her face at once.
Usui smiled at her then leaned in carefully to pass the baby on. He whined, naturally, when he realized that he was moving again, and threatened to cry, loudly, but stopped the moment he heard Misaki's voice cooing to him sweet innocents and settled, instead, for cooing himself.
"You're awake." Another voice whispered, making Usui and Misaki turn, but only briefly, away from the baby.
"So are you." Misaki whispered back as Suzuna got up, stretching with the blanket, Misaki found out, in her hand.
"Just in case it gets colder during the night."
"Thank you, Suzuna." Misaki smiled as she wrapped the blanket carefully around her baby. Then the room grew comfortably tired again, giving way to the constant beeping done by the heart monitor.
"You sure did cause your mommy a lot of pain, mister." Misaki suddenly cooed, catching Usui and Suzuna off guard. They looked at one another, frowning deeply then sighed loud enough to get her attention. She looked up at them then smiled proudly. Her eyes curiously searching the both of theirs for any hint of information that could possibly give way to their sudden dejection from the most beautiful moment of her life. That was when she saw it, or rather them. Their eyes were red and they had bags that told stories that she didn't, or rather refused to understand.
"What's wrong?" She asked, looking up at them with worry. " Why were you two crying? What happened?"
"Misaki." Usui sighed, siting own next to her. He looked at her, smiled sadly then started rubbing her thigh. "There is...there's something I need to tell you."
"What?" Misaki asked, feeling panicked.
Usui looked up, noticing the heart monitors increase in speed and continued to rub her leg some more, calming her don gradually. He then reached, with the other hand, for the baby, touching a strand of pale hair before smiling then almost breaking down in tears. "He..." He began. "He wasn't the only baby, Misaki."
Misaki smiled, feeling her heart flutter at the thought then visibly switched into a panic state. "You mean I had twins?! I was barely prepared for this one, how can I handle two kids?"
"You wont have to, Misaki." Usui huffed, his voice cracking softly, signifying that he was, in fact, crying.
Misaki froze a this, and the monitor beside her flattened for a split second. The sound of a steady "beep" had both Suzuna and Usui looking up.
"What do you mean..." She began, taking deep breaths in hopes to calm herself down. "I wont have to?"
Usui looked at her and smiled softly, sadly, before getting up and walking over to the bassinet and taking out a picture. He walked over to her, looking down at the picture the whole while then stopped, wiped away a single tear, then handed her the picture quietly.
"She died just before she was born" Usui managed to chock out. He heard Misaki take in another breath then decided to take his chances and looked up only to feel his legs grow weak the moment he saw her. She was crying. Tears were pouring out like waterfalls and her breath was taken away from her. Her face was red with anger, depression and pain, all of it. When she took in another deep breath through her mouth, the baby started crying as well and Suzuna instantly went to him, cradling him in her arms in attempts to quiet him. She looked back up afterwords, crying as well, then sighed.
"The doctor said that the umbilical cord was around her neck. It tightened when she was trying to get out..." he stopped, taking in breath of his own, then started back up again, hiding his face from Misaki's closed eyes. "But she didn't make it."
"Misaki..." Suzuna started, feeling uncomfortable in the situation she was in. "Please...Don't cry."
"Don't cry, Misaki." Usui pleaded as he sat down next to her, taking her in his arms. Suzuna sat down on the other side of her and leaned in cooing in her ear the way Usui was doing, leaving only when she needed to tend to the baby.
"Please, don't cry, Misaki." Usu begged as the tears finally stopped, the sadness fading into anger as he breathed in much needed angry breaths, trying to stop the tears from coming again, trying to be strong for the woman and child he loved.
"Please, don't cry."
One more chapter.