Title: It Began with a Tie, Part 25/30 - Talking Silence
Characters/Pairings: Sam/Spike, Lewis.
Word Count: 500.
Rating: K.
Warnings: None.
Spoilers: None.
Summary: Spike starts to understand his own feelings.
Written for: flashpoint_sru, weekend prompt: fear.
Disclaimer: I don't own Flashpoint.
Beta: The awesome lillyg!

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Talking Silence

Being around Lou was safe; he wouldn't jump people before he went out the diner. Spike grabbed a slice of pizza, not caring that it was a bit cold. "I still can't believe he came and asked me to talk about it like that… I don't like it when relationships are confusing and I certainly don't like his attitude. We're friends," he explained, chewing furiously. "We shouldn't have to deal with this. These things leave scars on people no matter what."

"It looks like you're… kind of obsessed over this thing with Sam."

"You think I'm an obsessive person, Lou?" Right after saying those words, Spike had to recognize that he was overreacting. "Okay… Maybe a little. But Babycakes is my girl, what can I do?"

Looking serious, the other man leaned on the table. "First off, you can give Sam a break."

"From what?"

"From whatever you're doing."

"I don't understand. What am I doing?"

"You're avoiding him, and Babycakes has nothing to do with it. Did you two fight?" Lou was very serious and honest when he stated that, and that started to make Spike feel uncomfortable… even a bit guilty.

"Not exactly…" he muttered, but when Lou's eyes landed on him, he admitted, "Fine, we did fight. But I don't know what really happened between us. One moment it was all new and weird, but it was good, you know? We were at his apartment, I'd made him some good pasta, and a second later, he was taking advantage of me!"

"Advantage like what?" Lou asked, but Spike ignored him for now and kept talking.

"And then he tried to make it look like it hadn't happened," Spike continued, hoping Lou wouldn't notice he wasn't being completely honest. "C'mon, it was just a damn kiss!"

The slice of pizza almost slid from Lou's fingers. "Oh, man… You two kissed?" he asked, but he didn't seem as surprised as Spike would have expected.

"Kissed? No, I didn't say that." It was better to just deny everything… For some reason, Spike didn't even want Lou to know what had happened with Sam. "I'm not gay. Fine, we did kiss, but it didn't mean anything. It was a complicated night."

"A complicated night..."

"Yes… Don't jump to conclusions, Lou! It's not funny!"

From the way Lou was grinning, he was coming up with all kind of incorrect assumptions. "I'll try, but you're not exactly making it easy." He made a pause to enjoy his pizza. "You've sandwiched me, man."

"Okay, no more talking about sandwiches, and no more meat talk! It's gross."

"What? Okay… Listen, if you don't want to make a big deal out of that kiss, then why don't you talk to him instead of running away? You're hiding from the truth."

"What truth?"

Lou didn't say anything, but from the look on his face as he ate his pizza, Spike knew exactly what the answer was.

He was afraid of the unknown consequences of letting himself go.

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