My Heart's Pulse
Part Two - Scene Five
These lies are leading me astray
It's too much for me to take
I don't wanna live this destiny
It goes on endlessly.
I see you, so please stay strong
Warning: Strong swearing...
Disclaimer: I own nothing... But I think I should... -pouts in a corner-
Recap:
"Okay, okay!" He laughed a little, but finished with a serious tone, "Sakura. Why are you wearing a ring on your "wedding" finger?"
End Recap.
I actually took a second to look at my left hand, and sure enough there was a silver band embracing my "wedding ring" finger. I squinted to read the writing on the band, but its neat and cursive handwriting was too small. I suddenly looked back up at Naruto, "I truthfully didn't realize I had this. So I can't tell you that..."
"But, how can you not realize that you were wearing a ring?" He raised an eyebrow, as if suspicious.
"I don't know! I just..." I leaned against a wall, feeling vulnerable to the burst of pain that had began to engulf me. I felt helpless and lost, "I can't explain how this happened... How I am... I just can't."
Three and a Half Years Later:
I had become "twenty-one" last week, on March 28. I happened to use my birthday from a while ago. It had worked out pretty nicely, except I had to explain my situation the Hokage. We had come to an agreement, I needed to be her apprentice for her not to say or think anything about me. Which was fair, and I believed it would've been a great chance to become stronger.
I turned off the faucet to the shower before wrapping a towel around my body and stepping out of the bathtub area. I ran a brush through my strawberry blonde hair, making it straight and untangled. There was a light and soft pounding on the bathroom's glass window; it was raining. Well, I guess you couldn't exactly say raining when it was barely drizzling. Each raindrop made a certain noise, and in the end - as the rain became harder and harder - there was a heavy melody playing outside my apartment. Yes, I had finally gotten my own apartment which is down the street from Sasuke's personal sanctuary; the Uchiha Compound. But I never second-glanced it.
I had dried off my hair and slipped on my lacy black nightgown and slowly treaded towards my bed. Once I got to it, I folded back the sheets and got beneath them. Next I replaced the nothingness, that limply hung over my body, with the four layers of two-inch thick blankets. I stared into the darkness with my torpid eyes. Hardly any of the radiant, dusty substance - called moonlight - shone through her blinds. Maybe it was because her apartment was in a weird position. Or maybe it was because the moon was trying to eschew me. I felt deathly isolated lately, but that was probably because I was. Naruto and Hinata had begun to date - which made me smile. Her cousin, Neji - one who had rescued me - was dating a woman named Tenten. Even that scary blonde woman, Ino, was dating someone! I felt so lonely and everytime and everywhere I looked, there was something to remind me of his presence -- which was gone. And everytime, everyday, it reminded me of how he left, why he left, and why he couldn't stay. While I sulked in my office, I would subconciously glance at the silver ring that wrapped around my finger. There weren't any memories of him; my fiancee. Who was he? What happened to him? But the question the constantly reappeared was: why did he love me?
"Sakura! You are needed. Report to the Hokage's immediately!" A scream came from outside my office door.
"Oh, okay! I'm going now!" I rose from my plastic chair and set down my medical clipboard. I put my hands together and mumbled a jutsu. A puff of smoke clouded my vision. I realized I was in Tsunade's office and she was alert as ever. Her eyes were slightly wide and her lips were pressed into a thin, straight line.
What's going on? She never looks like this..., I thought to myself.
I don't know. Maybe she found out she had to go to rehab for her "sake issuses." My inner suggested.
Don't think/say that! It's beyond rude!
Like the way she snooped through out profile?
...That doesn't count. She had the right.
Oh, and I don't?
No! Because you aren't real! I'm just talking to you - myself - because I'm alone and ready to curl up into a ball and just die somewhere! I only talk to myself - you - because I've got no one and everyone I know forgot me. I mentally lectured. My inner didn't return.
"Sakura." Holy fuck. His voice was in my head to?!
"Tsunade-sama," I bowed to the Hokage respectfully.
"Sakura..." She drawled on, nodding a little.
"Why am I here?" I inquired, analyzing her strange motions and facial expressions.
"Sakura." What the hell? Since when did his voice occur so often?!
"Turn around," She rejoined in an monotonic voice. Did I do something to upset her? Or was it because I had been sitting in my office for the past hour doing nothing?
But, because I am oddly obedient, I did as commanded and what I saw could've knocked me on my ass. I quickly spun to face Tsunade, "What the fuck is he doing here? Why?" I retorted, my face scarred with a twisted pain that made the oxygen hard to breathe. How could she do this to me? I wished I had never been so amenable!
"Language, Sakura!" The blonde woman scolded.
"Fine! What the hell is he doing here?!" I rephrased my sentence.
"Not any better," I heard him chuckle behind me.
"Fuck you," I snarled, barely glancing over my shoulder at him. You could tell - if you had any sense of intelligence - that the tone in my voice was not warning, it was awfully choleric. By the syllable he made, I knew he smirked. I had a feeling he was going to open his mouth again, so I suddenly threw in another few words, "Tsunade-sama. Why did you bring me here?"
"Because I thought you'd like to know that he's back," She declared.
"Oh yeah, that's really helping my heart-break, ne?" I despondently replied.
"My apologizes," Sasuke's voice broke into the conversation, uninvitedly.
"Shut up..." I insisted, my tone becoming more and more dejected. But out of nowhere, I swear I heard him say: 'I came back for you. And kind of the dobe...' But I swore I was having hallucinations and/or hearing problems. I shook my head, as if I could shake everything away.
I sort of wanted to turn and gaze into his heartbreaking, darker then obsidian eyes. I wished that I had gotten to tangle my fingertips in his silky raven locks. But I refused to fall helpless to his unimaginable beauty. If he believed he was trapped within the depths of the unwiry darkness, then his looks said otherwise. His looks could only be described as ones that belonged to the Gods - and I'm positive that 97% of them are the ones that bring light/goodness.
"Am I excused now? I still have patients," I mumbled, expecting and praying to leave as quickly as possible.
"Yes, yes. You may leave, Sakura..." Tsunade complied, before continuing her speech to the probably last Uchiha, "As for you." I instantly formed a jutsu and muttered the same words as before, but I felt something latch onto me before the smoke took everything from my sight.
What the..., I thought as my doctor office appeared. I sighed with relief, I was glad to be out of that office. Away from Sasuke. I leaned on the counter, near the sink, and glowered at the tile floor. I had just noticed that it was checkered. Well, I felt like Konoha's offical dork.
"You sounded so depressed back there..." Shit 'n' monkey balls.
"What are you doing here?"
"Being with you. That's why I came back..."
I sardonically laughed aloud, "You bastard," My voice trembled, although my body didn't. "Don't lie to me. Why did you really come back? To die with a good name?"
He chuckled with amusement, "No, that's definately not it."
"Then what is it? I mean it couldn't of been me..." I stole a glance at the silver piece of metal that was wrapped around my "ring" finger. I felt his midnight black eyes staring at it intently.
"I feel tied to you for some reason," He partcially explained. His voice was hesitant, "Your smell is energizing, your eyes are beautiful, your body is intoxicating, and your kisses... They exhilarate me."
"Nice to know," I rolled my eyes, "So, you just came back to tell me that? Well that's all wonderful, but you can leave now. Just like last time."
He gritted his teeth, I heard the quiet noise. "Sakura..."
"You know what? I don't know what you feel when you're near me, but I need you to keep it to yourself. Okay?"
"Sakura. I know you aren't from here... Or this century for that matter... But --"
"But what? You gonna tell someone? They won't care! I've been living here for four years, without anyone getting on my case about being eighteen forever... I died 124 years ago, Sasuke. I don't know how I'm here or why I am, but I hope there's a day where I can die knowing I lived my full extension of life. So here I am, a woman who's living her life for a second time -- something people can only dream of! I hate pretending to get a year, a day, a minute, a second older when I'm really just cheating everyone else!
"And look," I held up my left hand in the light, so the ring could glint in the light, "I'm supposedly married to some dead guy! And to make everything better, I don't even know who he was. You think your life is screwed up? Well I've got news for you! My life - my second life - is just kicking me while I'm already down..."
I had stopped my lecture to give Sasuke some say in this, "What was your mother's name?" I stared at him strangely, that was so random.
"Sakumo Haruno... Why?"
"I think..." He stopped himself, "When did she get married?"
"Um, I don't know. When she was 30? But she was with my dad for five years, before they got married. Although she had known my dad for ten years..." I explained.
"What was your father's last name?"
"Hirano... But she had told her dying father - my grandfather - that she'd keep her last name. And she did."
"Do you seriously not remember anything about your..." He didn't want to finish, so he merely motioned to the ring.
I tried not to smile at his childishness, "No, I don't. But there's something that ties myself to you." I swore his eyes widened a little, but it was gone before I could study it, "I think I married you."
A/n: I don't know what to say anymore. But thanks for reading and please review! I'll need a song for next time's chapter... So send me a PM or review with the song title and artist. Thanks! : )
XOXO, F.F.E (a.k.a MyHauntedDestiny)