A/N: Sorry the chapter is so short. I just got everything I needed out for this chapter so quickly, sorry. I'll make it up to you next chapter. Thanks for all the wonderful reviews. Thanks for being such awesome readers.
Sorry for such a delayed update. I had writers block for a bit. I made a Spashley video one night when I was bored and having writers block. If you go to youtube and click channels and type in nodoubtaboutit18... my vid will come up. It's nothing special, but if you're bored and want something to youtube. Go for it.
Enough said, enjoy.
Ashley sat at her house waiting by the phone and she was starting to get impatient. She called Spencer back and there was no answer on her cell phone. She's still in that damn shower? Uhh. Ashley grabbed her house keys and jetted out the door. Ashley decided just to go surprise her. She really wanted to give her a bracelet with a heart dangling on it for her. Spencer needed a pick-me-up and she figured surprising her was the best way. Little did Ashley know, she was going to be the one getting the surprise.
Ashley let herself in the house since there were no other cars in the driveway but Spencer's. "Spencer?" She called out as she walked up the stairs, but she heard the shower running so she kept walking up the stairs.
Ashley walked into Spencer's room and knocked on the bathroom door. "Spencer?" There was no answer.
"Spencer? Ready or not, I'm coming in." Ashley opened the door and was surprised Spencer still hadn't heard her barging in.
"Spencer what's taking so long in there? This is probably the longest shower, EVER. I wanted to give you something." Ashley talked to the shower curtain, because little did she know what was going on behind it.
Ashley saw water dripping onto to the floor from the shower. Then she realized Spencer hadn't said a word yet. "Spencer?" Her voice shook as she spoke. She drew back the curtain and her jaw dropped, "Oh my God. Spencer!"
Ashley jumped into the bathtub and dragged Spencer onto the bathroom tile. Ashley gently hit Spencer's face a couple of times, "Come on, Spencer. Come on. Wake up, wake up, wake up. What the hell happened? Wake up damnit."
Ashley shook Spencer. She leaned in to her chest and listened for her heartbeat. There still was one. Thank God. Ashley leaned in and listened carefully, she could hear her breathing...faintly. She couldn't give her mouth to mouth, she was breathing. Why won't you wake up?
Ashley kept gently slapping Spencer's face. Finally she came to.
Spencer slowly opened her eyes and started coughing. "Ashley?" She said groggily. She coughed some more. "What happened?"
Ashley smiled. "I am always saving your ass."
Spencer let out a laugh and smiled. "I owe you my life."
"Here, let me help you up and get you some clothes." Ashley picked up Spencer from the floor and walked into her room. She went to grab some clothes out of the drawer when she noticed the bottle of pills on her dresser. She stared at them for a long time; she couldn't believe what she saw.
"I'm going to borrow some clothes!" Ashley shouted into the bathroom. Ashley realized she was all wet from jumping into the bathtub. Ashley took the bottle of pills and shoved them into the jacket pocket she was borrowing from Spencer.
"Sorry it took so long, here's some clothes Spence." Ashley held out the clothes and waited for Spencer to grab them. Ashley threw on the borrowed clothes.
"So what happened Spencer? How did you fall or what?" Ashley helped Spencer walk to Spencer's bed.
Spencer sat down on her bed, "Uh, I don't know. One minute I felt Matt's hands all over me. The water hitting my body felt like he was all over me. I started to freak out then I just thought of happy thoughts and it was over. Then it was really steamy in the shower and I turned around too quickly or something 'cause that's all I remember." Spencer paused and looked up at Ashley.
"I see." Ashley didn't feel like talking to her at the moment. She was still trying to sink in that fact she found a pill bottle. She wasn't sure if Spencer was taking them all the time, but it would explain her sudden calmness. She didn't want to accuse her, but the bottle was almost gone.
"What's wrong Ash? You seem kind of short answered and direct." Spencer looked up at Ashley with wide eyes.
Ashley refused to make eye contact at first. She was still debating in her head to say anything. She wanted to see if Spencer noticed the missing pills. That's what I will do.
"Nothing. I'm just worried about you, that's all."
"You shouldn't be, I think I'll be fine." Spencer started to fidget sitting there and she started to tap her foot. "Come sit next to me." Spencer made a motion for Ashley to sit down.
Ashley came walking over and sat her hand on Spencer's lap. Spencer smiled. Ashley rubbed Spencer's thigh and was happy to me sitting next to the girl she loved. "I have something for you."
Spencer felt Ashley's hand, and she started to slowly think about Matt forcing his hand on her thigh. Stop it Spencer, stop. Don't think about it, you know you can do it. You know you don't have to be scared anymore. I need to feel relaxed.
"What do you have for me?" Spencer faked a smile and looked over at her night stand. Where's my pills, I need them. I'm going to freak out on Ashley, if I don't calm my nerves. Ashley's touch is so gentle, it's sweet. It's totally the opposite of what Matt's was, that pervert. Ugh there I go again, everything comes back to him. The only thing that stops him from entering my mind are those pills. Where the hell are they?!
Ashley looked at Spencer. She saw that she was nervously looking at her nightstand. Ashley couldn't believe it. "Well, I got you this bracelet." Ashley stood up and threw it on the bed. "But if you want these more, fucking have them." Ashley tossed the bottle of pills on the bed.
Spencer stared at the pills on the bed, "Ash...it's not what you think. My mom gave them to me, to calm my nerves. I get anxious and she said whenever I think about Matt to take them. She said it will start with the coping process or whatever."
Ashley shook her head and looked at Spencer, "No. Those pills do the exact opposite. Those pills are a cop out. Those pills make you not feel. You shouldn't take them, Spencer." Ashley stood with her hands crossed.
Spencer looked down at put on the bracelet that Ashley got for her. Ashley smiled. She knew Spencer would make the right decision. "Good, so you're not going to take them right?"
Spencer looked up at Ashley and smiled, "I just need one more. Then that's it." Spencer reached over to the bottle.
Ashley shook her head and backed away towards the door, "If you think that's more important to take that, than anything...then I'm walking out that door." Ashley stood by the door, she meant what she said. "If you need those pills, then you obviously need them more than me."
Spencer sat on the bed blankly staring at Ashley. She seriously debated between the two. Ashley made her happy and ecstatic. But always had vivid flashbacks to Matt and his attack on her. She didn't want to loose the person she loved.
"If you have to think about it Spence... and you're clutching those pills." Ashley started to tear up and walk away and out of the door.
Spencer stared at Ashley's back and then looked down at the pills in her hands. Ashley was the most important person to ever enter her life. Was she about to let her walk away?
Ashley started to sob loudly and she was walking as slow as her legs would allow.
Spencer wasn't following.
Spencer threw the pills to the other side of the room and ran over to Ashley and fell to the floor. She clutched onto Ashley's leg holding her firmly against her chest, not allowing Ashley to move. Spencer started sobbing, "I need help, Ash. I can't get him out of my mind. Ever. I don't want him there. I love you Ashley. I need your help."
Ashley started to cry harder. She got out of Spencer's grip and kneeled next to her. "That's all I needed you to ask. I'm here for you Spencer; we are going to get through this together." Ashley lifted up Spencer's chin, "look at me."
Spencer looked up at Ashley as she wiped away some of her tears.
"I'm going to be here with you, no matter what. We're going to get you some help; you and I are going to get through this. No rush." Ashley smiled. The first step to getting through everything was allowing someone to help... and that's exactly what Ashley was trying to do all along. Spencer just wouldn't let her in, until now.
Ashley whispered in Spencer's ear, "It's just you and me now. Nothing else matters."