I've been sat on the stone table a while now, looking over the water at the bottom of the cave. My eyes were still sore but it didn't stop me from taking in the beauty of the area; the reflection of the torches and lights floating in the water, surrounded me with their orange glows. It looked almost romantic; yet I wondered how long they had been up and how they are even able to be turned on. I didn't even know that there were other temples on the island. My hands placed on my lap, while I kept my legs crossed while dangling down. My shirt was still drying by the fire. I looked down at my body; the burns were hard to see in this light but still there all the same.
I started to wonder what would be happening right now if I wasn't here. If we never came here. We would probably be working right now and then bitching about our day when we got home. I would be able to see my family; Hug my little brother, bake a cake with mum, help Mike with whatever or just drink coffee with my sister.
God, I was stupid. How much shit would I have put them through if they learnt that I killed myself. The guilt hung in my stomach, and the tears ran down my eyes once more. It felt so good to cry, for so long I had to hold it in. Finally doing it felt like I had lifted a large weight off my shoulders. Not to mention how unhealthy it was not to, trying to show everyone I wasn't a scared little girl. I am. I'm terrified. I'm terrified and alone. I'm terrified and alone and I'm never going to see my friends and family again. Surrounded by people I can't completely trust and the only I can; I go ahead and yell at him for crap he doesn't even any control over. Why couldn't things be different?
Vaas' footsteps echoed around the cave. I quickly tried to wipe my face; I wasn't angry with him anymore, I was just sad right now. He had a point, while he is still the leader. He didn't have any control over what has happened. I looked back to the water when he finally got to the top; he placed a blanket on my shoulders and hopped onto the table. He sat next to me, looking over the water. I shifted my eyes to look at him, He was probably watching my reflection. He just looked sad; I haven't seen him this way before. I turned my head to look completely at him, I was actually concerned for him. Before I was normally guessing what was going through his mind, but now I felt like I was seeing him as a human; I was even feeling guilty for yelling at him. I actually felt bad for yelling at my captor, well, captor or not; he is still human.
"Vaas, I'm sorry about I said…" I apologized.
"I do." Vaas stated, slowly turning his head to look me dead in the eye. "I get it. I know what it's like to lose everything. I was born into the Rakyat; my father came here and chased after my mother, the daughter of the chief. I was just a kid when he just up and left. I am too much like that asshole. I fucking hate it. My mother got sick and died not long after that. Our grandfather raised us for a while, until he died in his sleep. I was taught everything by the Rakyat and I gained a tatau for every skill I learnt. I was still the outsider, nobody trusted me. In that tribe, I had to fight for everything until I was the greatest warrior on the island; I could kill anything with just a knife and no protection, every fucking time. No questions asked." Vaas looked down at his feet and sighed, before he continued.
"My sister became this 'warrior goddess' and took over as the Rakyat's leader. The only family I have left. She told me I was perfection over and over again. I would have done anything for her. I did everything for her. She knew that. She started to get way too close. Repeatedly getting me to do every fucking thing she wanted. Hunt. Fight. Kill. Like a dog, begging for her praise. The first time I killed someone was for her. Always for her. But it was never enough for her. Not for her. No. no. no. no. Eventually I picked up Hoyt's attention, he started getting me to do jobs for him. Again, hunt, fight, kill. Only this time, He paid me with guns, drugs, booze. You name it. It felt good. I felt wanted and needed by someone." Vaas' hands clenched into fists as he continued to speak.
"But no, no, no, no. Citra didn't like that. She kept on screaming at me. 'Who is it going to be? Them or me? Me or them?' Then I found out what she truly wanted from me. What she had planned for me. She wanted me to give her … a kid." I felt sick to my stomach when it said that.
"Once it happened, she would kill me. Dead on the spot. My own little sister willing to do that to me. All because some stupid ritual for the perfect fucking warrior. 'The ritual demands blood for the perfect warrior' She fucking tells me. Expecting me just to accept it and go along with her bullshit." My jaw dropped, how fucked up was this island. I closed my mouth and placed a hand on his shoulder, as a sign of how sorry I was. He didn't look up and placed his other hand onto of mine, linking his fingers with mine.
"I refused, she got pissed." Vaas continued. "I say no, she tries it on when I'm not expecting it. I like another girl. She kills her. I tried to leave. She tried to kill me. Calling me a coward. One of her slaves jumped at me with a knife but missed and gave me my scar. This horny freak called Dennis who hangs around her leg. I had to fight him off just so I could get away from them." I looked at the scar on his head.
"Yeah, that one." He signed. "In that one moment, I lost everything. I lost my home, my family, every fucking thing I worked for. I go to the one place that wants me, only to go back to square one. Fighting for a goddamn reputation. Nobody cared for me then, nobody cares for me now. I'm on another leash surrounded by people who don't give a fuck about me, unless I give them orders or I have their money. Doing the same shit every fucking day until someone kills me dead. This is my life now, only peace I get is when I'm dead." He remained still; I couldn't look away from him. His hand dropped off mine. I felt bad for what I said, I moved my hand away. I wanted to do something, I wanted him to know that I care.
"That's not true." I muttered, he turned towards me and looked me in the eyes. "That's just not true at all. There…. There are…." I was never very good comforting people; my mind would be trying to find the right words to say. It normally ended up a mess, I need to work on it if I was going to be a good doctor. "There are people out there, Vaas, it …. it may not feel like it right now but… they're out there." I added, but Vaas hadn't changed. He still looks miserable. "Everyone is just busy dealing with…" I stopped when I found it leading towards Jason Brody. He is definitely not helpful in this situation. I looked around awkwardly, trying to think of what to say. He just watched me as I thought. His expression soft and welcoming, taking in everything I said to him. "If no one cared, would I be sat here listening, trying to comfort you and making an arse of myself?" I muttered loudly, more to myself then him.
From the corner of my eye, I could see Vaas smirk. "That's very true." He smirked, nodding slightly. "You know, you're the only person I actually like who gives me crap about doing all of this." I look back to him and tried my best to smile sweetly. I reached towards his hand and held it. "I mean, I already know it. But it's all I have. I can't change any of it."
"I'm sorry about your past." I added; my smile became more comforting. "It'll take time to get back on your feet, but you'll bounce back like you normally would. If it was me in your shoes, I would just want to…." I stopped as I was about to say die. I looked down at my shoes awkwardly before looking back to him. His smile was gone. "I never really thanked you for …. Saving me. Again." I added. "I'm really grateful that you did, truly I am. It's like having my own personal Spiderman... well, you're more like that other red guy with the swords in Wolverine origin film, the one played by Ryan Reynolds. I can't remember his name, it'll come back to me at some point. Anyway, going off topic." Vaas chuckled softly as I went back on what I was trying to say. "It's nice to know that someone has my back, even if I'm a giant bloody idiot. And I have yours, if you need it."
Without thinking, I leaned close to his cheek and closed my eyes to give him a quick peck on the cheek. Before I got to the chance to do so, I felt something familiar touch my lips. I half opened my eyes briefly to see that Vaas had turned to face me and was kissing me back. I melted into the kiss; it felt way too good and almost right this time, not like he's 'claiming' me this time. Or someone was watching us. It was almost like when we kissed back in my room. It felt like he wanted me.
I pulled away from the kiss, opening my eyes and smiled at him. He looked back to me; there was something in the way that he looked at me, it was something I had never seen before. I didn't know what it was but it intrigued me. It was fierce. Intimidating. Endearing. Alluring. I couldn't look away from him. Vaas moved his hands onto my bare waist, pulling me closer to his person. The blanket slipped off my bare back as both my hands gripped tightly onto his shoulders. Our bodies touched as we suddenly returned to the kiss, the coldness of his necklace pressed against one of my breasts uncomfortable; I didn't mind or cared really. His hand moved quickly from my waist to my back carefully, keeping me close to him. My own moved to keep him there, one carefully on the side of his neck while the other pressed down on his back.
The kiss grew rough; we only parted in order to take a quick breath in-between. I started to feel hotter and flustered; it felt like my heart was banging against my lungs. Vaas slowly laid me down on the table, without breaking the kiss. Then slowly trailed kisses from my lips to my neck, I could feel small droplets of his saliva trailed his way down. My lips parted as I started to whimper from the sensation. My hand slipped from his shoulders to under his top, gently dragging my nails along his skin. Vaas pulled away from my now damp neck and kneeled above me, I dropped my hands to either sides of my head, as he moved above me. In one quick motion, he removed his top and threw it to the ground. He looked incredible, like he was sculpted by a God. I shifted myself beneath him. So, I was more comfortable on the table; I was still lying on my back with Vaas kneeling between my legs.
He pounced back onto me and became reacquainted with my lips. He moved a knee between my legs. I could feel his knee between my inner thighs. His abs rubbed against my stomach, a hand brushing across my cheek. Vaas slipped his tongue into my mouth, briefly circling mine. My eyes widened once this happened. Suddenly, I started to get my senses back and my hand went straight to his chest; I tried pushed him off gently. I panicked. My breathing started to speed up. I waited until he removed his tongue so I could break the kiss. I moved my other hand onto his chest so I could have some space between us. Vaas looked down at me, I frowned slightly at him.
"SORRY!" I squeaked. Vaas looked a little concerned; he must have been really into it. "I… I… Please be careful with me, I haven't..." I muttered. I was breathing through my mouth. "I'm not that… experienced… in…"
"It's OK." Vaas replied sympathetically, holding my cheek in a formal manner. We kissed once more, my hands moved to his back. "If you want to stop. We can stop. It's OK. I don't want to force you." Vaas smiled softly. I shook my head, I didn't want this to end. "I'll go slower then." He started to kiss down my body. the lower he got; I moved my hands away from his back and dropped by my head. I started to crave his every touch once more. I closed my eyes and let him take control, I was just too busy enjoying the ride.
My heart was racing again, but this time I let myself be free to him. Letting him lead the way. Letting him take control of me. Vaas stopped at the top of my jeans; he unzipped them then slowly pulled them. He carefully stepped off the table while still pulling my jeans off. Once they were past my knees, I sat up to face him. He carefully wriggled my jeans over my shoes and threw them over the table; I watched as they landed just on the stone stairs with his red top. I swung myself to back around, fully focused on him. I unhooked my bra and chucked it with my jeans.
"Man, it's been a fucking while." Vaas chuckled as he looked at my breasts. He dashed at me, standing between my open legs. He held one of them in his hand, covering most of it. I mewled once more at his touch. His other hand was on the table; his fingers were the only thing toughing my pale skin. I leaning in closer to him and gently kissing his shoulder, becoming more enticing for him each time my lips pressed against his damp skin. I accidently bite him, Vaas grunted a little. He gave me a wicked smile as he lowered himself closer to my breast. I looked down at my shoes briefly.
"Vaas?" I asked, still gasping slightly.
"Yeah." He replied, moving his lips closer to my untouched nipple.
"Why are my shoes still on?" I asked.
"Sweetheart, everything in here is made of stone. We are more likely going to step on something that is going to fucking hurt."
"Right, thank…." I gasped as Vaas gently pulled on my nipple with his teeth, and then released it. My body started to feel electric at his touch as he kissed his way back to my mouth, I could feel myself begging for more. My toes curled as my legs hung over the edge of the table, my heel dragged up his leg. I felt something harden between my legs; this was also the wonderful moment when I realized that Vaas had already pulled my knickers off. He made his way back up to my level. We were eye to eye as he started to glide his hand between my legs, I couldn't take my eyes off him. Then repeatedly guided two fingers around my entrance, then into me. I could feel myself getting damper with each movement he was making.
"The blush is back." Vaas joked, watching me proudly as I had to bite my bottom lip to stop from screaming in joy as he curled and stretched his fingers against my inner walls. Without a second delay, we returned to the kissing. I placed one of my hands onto his back and dragged my nails against his damp skin, causing Vaas to pleasurably grunt from my touch. "Now you're getting into it." His voice was hoarse. I wasn't coping with this new sensation.
While my other hand moved down his front, gliding over every ab and peck of his bare chest. As our tongues danced around each other, I guided my hand down her body to his trousers and undid his zipper. Vaas broke the kiss once the zipper hit the bottom. He smirked wickedly at me; I returned a cocky smile as I popped open his trouser button. He growled at my touch.
"Trousers. Off." I ordered as softly and seductively as I could. Vaas stepped away; I moved my hands onto the table to hold me up. He made quick work of his trouser, quickly giving himself a couple of strokes before he continued with me. Making sure he actually can. Once he straightened up, I looked down at his fully harden cock. He was thick and most definitely a grower, guessing from the smirk on his face; he was proud of it. I looked him in the eyes and bit my lip gently, looking as seductive as I could. Vaas kicked his trousers under the table and slowly made his way over to me.
Once he was close enough; I wrapped my arms around his neck. Vaas leaned in once more to kiss me, he brushed a finger along my clitoris a few more times. His other hand grabbed onto one of my arse cheeks to keep me in place. I broke the kiss briefly with uncontrollable groaning. The tension building up was becoming too much for me to handle, like the sparks of a firework before it shoots off. I needed more. Vaas pulled his hand away from my vagina and looked straight into my eyes, he was asking if I was ready. I nodded and took a deep breath. I closed my eyes and waited as he spread my legs further apart to make sure there is more than enough room for himself.
Vaas finally pushed inside of me, I felt a brief shot of pain shoot through my body, I hissed in the short moment of discomfort while he revelled in the feeling of being inside of me; letting a deep growl escape his mouth. It took him a moment to noticed the unsatisfied noise I had just made and looked over me confused. He looked down quickly then back to me, with one eyebrow raised in a puzzled manner.
"Why the fuck is there blood?" He asked, annoyed.
"Well done. You ripped the hymen." I replied, just accepting the fact that we were having that conversation like this. Right now.
"Wait… you're a virgin?" He stated as he pulled back slowly, a small whine escaped my mouth before I could even answer. I was just getting use to the feeling of him inside me.
"Yes, I am and no that's not how it works-OHHH!" Vaas thrust himself back in, again to cut me off mid-sentence, grunting as he did so and authorizing a more pleasurable reaction to escape my mouth. He moved his chest closer to mine as he started to build up to a quickening pace with every thrust. We were gasping and grunting every time he pushed into me. The pain faded quickly, I was in pure bliss with every movement he made. It was clear he was enjoying it too as he was making as much noise as I was.
He grabbed my leg and lifted it over his elbow as he started to pound harder into me, quickening in pace. I lay onto my back as he moved me, the cold stone of the table felt nice against my sweating back. Vaas grabbed a hold of my hip as he speeds up. My muscles in my legs started to tense more the deeper he went; it was like a growing sensation running through my body quicker than I could track it. My cries became louder as it went. I wrapped my other leg around his arse to keep us close together.
Vaas screamed as he threw his head back, going through the same experience as me. I beamed his name as his head shot back to look at me.
Suddenly, my body started to scream in excitement. My back arched up and pulled closer to him. My hands crawled along his back as he started to arch over me. We were both moaning and runting so loudly, the local wildlife was probably running for their lives in fear. The amount of pleasure was starting to build; faster and faster. I cried Vaas name once more as he wailed mine. I gripped onto his mohawk tightly, he grunted and smiled at me.
We kissed momentarily just as I hit the breaking point. It was like an explosion running through me, my eyes rolled back as I closed them. Vaas continued to thrust more and more into me, as the tension kept on building up inside. Until finally. I released. We held each other tightly as it finally came to an end, Vaas had just starting to cum. Letting out long and slowly grunts, thrusting slowly into me rough and repeatedly until there wasn't anything left.
I let my body slowly relax back to its normally state, I laid myself back down on the table. The cold stone felt so good against my back. Vaas put my leg down and leaned over me. Both breathing heavily. I placed my hands on either side of his neck, just looking into his loving gaze. A few tears ran down our faces. We kissed once more as we started to cool down. I released him and dropped my arms next to my head.
I lay there, slowly catching my breath. Vaas pulled himself out of me, a sharp shiver to run up my body. I turned myself around to lie along the table. Vaas climbed on and laid himself down next to me. I moved myself closer to him and he looked back to me, both smiling like idiots at each other. I moved my hand and placed it on his cheek, rubbing the area under his eye with my thumb. He gently rubbed my arm in contempt. I was just taking in this moment in.
Before I was never interested. I never got why it was so important to so many people and why my friends always joked about me not having done the deed yet. Vaas wasn't exactly the kind of person I had in mind but I did need him, as much as he needed me. He kept me alive and treated me with kindness when so few people have. In a place like this, he was doing everything he can to keep me alive. Even closing that line to do so. But Right here, right now. Nothing else mattered. Our minds were cleared from the chaos around us, just for a while. We're in safe space. Safe with each other's embrace. Just us. Secluded from the world.
"So, is it out of your system yet?" I asked, jokingly.
"Nope." He replied with a chuckle. "It's staying for good." Vaas kissed my forehead gently before he sat up and he grabbed the blanket he brought earlier, pulling it over us. He laid back down and gently pulled me closer to him. He rested his head next to mine; our noses were almost touching. He wrapped his arm over the blanket and around me, his hand gently around my back to keep me there. Both of my hands stayed under the blanket and placed onto his bare chest.
"I still can't believe you were a virgin." He chuckled at me. "I actually took someone's virginity. Fucking hell."
"Yeah. Well, you said you had a tattoo. Where is it? I want to see it." I laughed back. Vaas gently rubbed my back.
"I got rid of it. A long time ago. I didn't need it." He replied, I nodded at his answer. He poked his leg out from under the blanket, trying to get comfortable I'm guessing. We were both still smiling like idiots. I couldn't stop looking at him. Vaas was glowing. He could say the same for me as well.
"Thank you." He muttered to me, before he leaned in and kissed me; gently yet filled with passion. I kissed him back but it was so weak, I was just tired after all that. Once the kiss broke, I moved one of my hand onto his neck softly.
"What for?" I asked.
"For changing my mind, Beth." He smirked. "And for having my back. It's good to know that I have you." Vaas pulled me along gently as he rolled onto his back. My head rested on his chest, I could hear how fast his heart beat was. It was calming in a strange way, just listening to the repeated pace. He wrapped his arms around me. We stayed in each other's embrace until we eventually feel asleep. I hadn't felt this safe in a very long time.