OK, Surprise chapter, I felt that this had to be said, Charlie and Connor's regarding his past.

Enjoy

Charlie, Nora, Danny and Connor were trying to figure out a way to escape.

"Well we could just walk out the door?" Danny suggested with a yawn.

"Sorry, I don't think Monroe would be that generous to let us just walk out" replied Connor.

Nora looked at Danny and then at everyone else. "Ok, why do we not get some sleep, and talk more about it after some sleep, and maybe we can get more of an idea of what Monroe is actually up too"

Everyone nodded. Nora got up and pulled Danny up "Ok, come one, you are nearly dead on your feet. Lets get you to your room. Will speak to you all in the morning".

Danny went and hugged his sister and whispered "I have missed you so much, we will get out of here. I love You"

Charlie whispered back "I love you too" hugged him tight she didn't want to let go

"Come on sis, I can't breathe." Charlie laughed and let him go.

"See you tomorrow" Nora and Danny turned at the door giving Charlie a knowing look, "Night Connor, see you in the morning" Connor smiled and replied "Night"

After they had left Connor stood up to leave.

"Hey where you going?" Charlie held her hand out to him.

"I was going to let you get some sleep, thought you would like some time to yourself "

Charlie smiled at his reply and stood beside him and looked into his eyes "Connor, you have been amazing since we met, how anyone could think you are what they have said you are, I don't know. Truthfully, I don't really want to be alone. I am scared to be with my thoughts"

Connor just looked into her deep blue sparkling eyes.

She saw the question in his eyes "I trust you. You know how I feel for Miles, but you also know I do feel something for you, and at this moment I want you to just hold me, tell me that it is all going to be OK."

Connor leaned in and kissed Charlie softly on the lips "I am here for you anyway you want. Since we are being truthful, my feelings for you are growing, but if you chose Miles or even young Neville" He said with a little playful grin and a wink "I would still be here for you. I will go away when you tell me too"

Charlie hugged him and kissed him softly back "Thank you, Jason has not even got a look in now, so you can cross him off."

She stepped away from him, and turned to undo the zip for dress "Can you help please"

Charlie could hear the ragged breathe of Connor when he replied "yes"

He helped undone the zip and leaned in and whispered in her ear "God you are killing me here"

"Sorry Connor, that was not fair, I should of went and asked Nora" She looked at him apologetic

"I am not totally complaining, but if you wouldn't mind putting something over or something else on, as that undergarment is not helping me keep my promise to just hold you" Connor replied with a wink and headed to the window the give her some space to dress.

Charlie said to Connor "Ok, you can turn around now, better?"

Connor turned and laughed when he saw her in an over-sized mans shirt "Well is better, but eh, still doesn't help, when you look beautiful in anything"

He walked towards her, when he felt he stood on something,. It was the pictures Charlie had dropped when they arrived in the room.

Connor picked them up, he saw the pictures of women, one looked like Nora. He then came across the one of Charlie and her family, she was beautfil back then. The last picture caught him by surprise, it was of him and his brothers. He looked quizzically at Charlie.

"Where did you get this?" He took the picture over the Charlie on the bed.

Charlie took the picture from him and motioned for him to come and join her on the bed.

"I found it when I took it from Miles's room. Monroe was showing me around and took me to his room. I have not got a picture left of my dad or mom so I asked if I could take it. Monroe said since Miles had left it, he guessed it had to meaning to him. when I looked closer I noticed there was something stickign out the back, I found it there, I never put it together before we went for dinner, it was when I came back that I realised it was of you, Monroe and Miles." Charlie looked at Connor looking at the picture, he looked distant. "Are you Ok?" She asked.

Connor looked at her "yes, sorry was just trying to remember when this was taken. Think was just before our parents died. not sure"

Charlie moved closer and lay beside him, he put his spare arm around her, puling her closer. she put her head on his chest and an arm over his check. She looked into his eyes, she could see so many different emotions going through his eyes. "Talk to me about what your feeling. About your family. I am here for you too"She lightly kissed his lips and looked into his eyes.

Connor smiled and looked at her. "I have nothing to hide or to be embarrassed about. You really want to here?" He looked into her eyes and could see how she wanted to hear him, she just nodded. He felt her put his head onto his chest, He pulled her slightly closer "Well I might as well start at the beginning.."

Charlie listened to him talk about when they were growing up. Bass would pick on him, and that he and Miles were close. She didn't want to interrupt him. she felt he needed someone to tell this too. She felt him rub his arm up her body a few times. it was relaxing. She felt so comfortable in his arms. She felt him tense and she realised he was starting to talk about the day there parents died.

"The day our parents died, Bass was at his worse that day. He had been making up stories, and getting mom and dad to as usual take his side over me. When you are only 5 years old you don't know why someone hates you so much. On that day, he got them to leave me at home, alone. They probably wouldn't of noticed I was not there anyway. I was used to being ignored. Anyway where was I. Oh yeah,, I had been left alone and then he came running in, saying that they had had an accident and that they were dead. He dragged me to the accident, it was only a few blocks away. When we arrived he asked me to help pull the, out the car. I was five he was ten, we couldn't pull them out ourselves." He looked down at Charlie he felt her head move and she was looking at him, he didn't want to see the pity in her eyes. "Well we both tried, then people started to arrive to help. Once the police and fire brigade arrived he started telling everyone that he could get to listen that I had been crying about some toy, and had been screaming at them to stop the car. Dad had turned around to yell at me, and he veered into the pole. It was my fault they had died."

"Oh Connor" She put her hand up to his face and wiped the tear from his face, he never realised he had shed. He looked into her eyes, and saw the look in the eyes, it wasn't pity. It was something else, it was understanding, of the loss of a parent. She felt sorry for me.

He pulled her closer and kissed the top of her head.

"After that Miles believed Bass, and even though he implied that they we would stay together, that never happened. They as you guessed had foster families that cared for them. I was not as lucky. The guy was worse than our father and the woman didn't give a shit. Yes they adopted me, gave me their last name. But that was it. I was left by myself so much, which I preferred than being hit when they were home, but I made a little room for myself under the stairs, even managed to fit a lock when I got older. Then I started stealing food and anything really. Now I realise it was to get attention, finally got caught. Then given the choice prison or army. I chose the army. Wanted to feel part of something for the first time ever in my life."

"Did you enjoy the army?" Charlie asked

"I did, I enjoyed everything. I was a part of something, I had brothers, we watched each others backs. I worked my way through the ranks. I felt for the first time in my life I had a purpose."

"So did you meet Miles and Monroe in the army? or was this after the black out?" Charlie saw his eyes darken as he remembered "You don't need to tell me?"

Connor smiled at her, I want you to know the truth, if I know my brother, he will try and poison you against me, I don't want you thinking I don't trust you, I don't trust him. We did end up in the same squad. With them being older they were higher ranked, just by me, and Bass never let me forget it. He done everything he could to make me look incompetent in Miles's eyes. Well I guess one day he got fed up with me not rising to the bait. I should of been suspicious when I was asked to go with Bass and some guys. He started a fight with a man that Miles had taken under his wing and was training up, I guessed he was jealous of the time he spent with him. Bass stabbed him, I went to see if he was alright, the next I knew I was jumped by at least six men had me pinned to the floor." He heard Charlie Gasp, he kissed the top of her head. "The next thing I knew I was being taken away my the MP's, my clothes covered in blood and the knife was in my hand. I still don't know when he got the knife in my hand"

"What happened? What did Miles do?" Charlie asked

"He done nothing as usual, Bass was right, I was as always the one who was blamed for things, Miles believed everything that Bass said. I was locked up for the murder. Then the blackout came or I would either be still there or dead"

Charlie gasped, he looked and saw the anger in her eyes "Don't. I made my peace with this a long time ago. I joined the Miltia to be near Miles, since i had killed someone I was always the one sent out to kill. I only killed if I needed to, protection. I have never killed anyone who didn't deserve it."

"So how did you get such a bad reputation, someone must of noticed that you didn't do any of those things". Charlie quizzed

Connor laughed "Yeah you would of thought, but when you have Bass telling tales, everyone believed him especially Miles. So one day, he sent me and my troops out to a village to check for some issues that had been reported. Miles arrived half an hour behind me, when he arrived, he saw me over a woman and her child. He saw what Bass had told him he would see, me in the middle of a massacred village. Miles turned and left" Charlie saw him, drifting off as he remembered, the pain in his eyes.

"You know that was the day I gave up, I realised I was alone. I have never forgotten that day. I still have nightmares, do not think that I have slept since then. tTe village with bodies lying everywhere. I had never seen anything like it. All I can think now is that Bass paid some of the rough tribes in the area to carry it out. I went round people to see if anyone was alive. When Miles arrived, he saw me I was pulling a knife out of Angela. She was in so much pain. I was trying to help her. She wanted me to look after her daughter. She was lying beside her, throat cut, Angela couldn't move, so I placed her daughters hand into her hand." He could feel the tears falling again. "She thanked me. She thanked me, for helping her, for caring for her and her daughter, for being the last kind soul she saw."

"Oh Connor", he felt his shirt wet from Charlie's tears, and his own. She reached up and kissed him. "I wish there was something I could do to help you"

"Charlie, just being here, letting me hold you is enough." He pulled her closer to him

"Did you ever tell Miles the truth?" Charlie enquired

Connor chuckled "Yeah I did actually, on our way here. He didn't believe anything I said. He made it quite clear, that I mean nothing to him. After this is over he will never see me again"

"Come on, you need some sleep." Charlie said as she snuggled into him. "I am not going anywhere" she whispered as she lay listening to his heartbeat, his hand rubbing her side.

Connor felt her relax into sleep, he lay there enjoying how it felt having her in his arms. "I love you Charlie"

He felt her stir he pulled her closer and drifted off, for his first dreamless sleep in years.