R * E * V * I * S * E * D
A/N: I absolutely LOVE my readers! Seriously, I received so many great reviews for this story that I seriously cannot reply to them all! HAHA! Sooo, I was debating on making separate stories for Joey/Edward, and so on, but I think I'm just going to continue their storylines in this story for the time being. Maybe, in the future, I will make some stand alones here and there, but my main focus is getting this story finished. Thank you all, so very much, for the great reviews and for being such loyal readers. *HUGS*
EPOV
I asked Joey to take a walk with me before we headed over to her house for the bonfire. We strolled through the sun kissed woods, hand in hand, talking about what kind of wedding we both wanted, where we wanted to live, etc.
"I was thinking about opening up a music studio and teaching piano lessons. What do you think?" I asked her, moving her hand to my mouth and kissing it.
"I think you will do really well, I mean, look what you did with teaching me. I think it's wonderful" she said, jumping in front of me on the trail and pulling my lips to hers.
I thrust my tongue into her mouth, moaning at her taste and smell, when suddenly my mouth filled with her blood and she gave a strangled cry. I felt her slumping in my arms, blood pouring from her mouth in fast spurts. I felt frantically around, trying to find where she was injured, and found a sharpened stick rammed into the back of her neck. I laid her on the ground, trying desperately to stop the bleeding, my hands shaking badly. I heard her heart starting to speed up as her body tried to make up for the blood loss, and I began crying, knowing she was dying in my arms. She reached a trembling hand up to my face, touching my lips, then she went limp.
"I love you" she whispered with her last breath, and then she was still.
"Joey! No, please Jo, we have to get you to Carlisle, hang on!" I cried, going to pick her up.
"Aww, how sweet. Edward Masen, crying over the loss of his beloved. You make me sick!" the female voice spat.
I looked up through tear filled eyes and saw Irina walking slowly toward me, her face twisted in a hate filled sneer. She closed her eyes, sniffing the air and moaning.
"I see someone is human again…you smell….delicious" she said, licking her lips.
I didn't care anymore, Irina could kill me because I didn't want to live without Josephine by my side. I knew that I was wasting the precious gift that had been given to me, but I just didn't have the heart to care. I stood up, and waited for her to kill me.
"No, Edward, I'm not going to kill you….that would be too easy. I want you to suffer like I am suffering…after I turn you, that is" she said, lunging for me. When her teeth pierced my skin and I felt the venom beginning to spread, I started screaming as wave after wave of agony filled my entire being. As I lay there, my human body dying, Irina straddled my waist, shaking me as I screamed in agony.
"Edward, wake up! It's a nightmare!"
I jumped up, launching myself out of the bed and cowering in the corner. My whole body was shaking terribly, and I bent over, vomiting all over my carpeting. I heaved and heaved until I had nothing left, and then I heaved even more, my body trying to expel the horror that still gripped me. Soft hands began stroking my hair, and gentle words were being whispered to me, but I couldn't understand them.
"I have you, Edward…shhhh, it was just a nightmare….it's ok" Joey whispered to me, holding me as I slumped to the ground, laying my head in her lap and sobbing my heart out. She continued stroking my hair, trying to calm me as the invisible tendrils of my nightmare slowly released me.
"Oh God, Joey, she killed you….she killed you and then she bit me so I would change into a vampire again" I cried, wrapping my arms around her waist and burying my face into her stomach.
"Shhh, I'm here Edward, she didn't hurt me….Look" she said, gently turning my head so I could look at her. I got on my knees, grabbing her and holding her to me, burying my face in her soft hair and inhaling her scent. When I finally calmed down and was able to talk without crying, she gently helped me to my feet and led me to the bed, sitting down.
"Tell me about it" she murmured, lacing her fingers through mine.
So I told her everything, how Irina shoved a sharpened piece of wood through her neck, how I watched her die, how I gave up because I didn't want to live without her, how the venom burned as it worked its way through my body. By the time I was done, I was crying once again, but this time in relief because it wasn't real.
"I'm so sorry, Edward. I know how real the nightmares seem, and I know how hard it is to shake them once they have you, but I'm here and I will help you through them. We can help each other through them" she said, kissing me softly on the lips.
"Ok, you know I love you, right?" she asked, looking a little disturbed. I nodded my head, wondering where she was going with this.
"Well, you reek like barf, so let's go brush your teeth after we clean up this mess, ok?" she asked, her face turning a little pink. I cupped my hand over my mouth, smelling my breath and I almost heaved again.
"Oh yuck, that smells awful! Thank God my family thought to order tooth brushes and paste along with the mountains of food" I said, going and grabbing a bucket of soapy water and some rags. Once we were done cleaning up the vomit, and the room didn't reek of it anymore, we walked into the bathroom. Joey hopped up onto the counter while I grabbed my red toothbrush and squeezed some toothpaste on it.
"Umm, this sounds really pathetic, but will you make sure I'm doing it right? I haven't done this in almost 100 years" I said, feeling my cheeks burning with humiliation.
"I planned on it!" she grinned at me, waiting for me to start. I felt so self conscious now, because I was thrust into being human again and so unsure of myself. Everything was so new now, and I had a lot to re-learn. When I ate for the first time today, I was scared that I would get sick from the food, not sure what I liked. I found that I liked bread, turkey breast, and cheddar cheese, so I had made myself 3 turkey sandwiches while everyone else shoveled food into their mouths.
I envied them, their lack of fear and being able to jump right into eating. I was going to have to take it really slow, because after vomiting a few minutes ago, I never wanted to go through that again. I felt myself feeling ill just thinking about it, so I changed my thoughts to Joey. She was so cute, watching me closely as I brushed, her eyes filled with so much love and understanding, and I felt my heart speeding up.
When the Great Wolf restored my life today, it was really painful at first, feeling my body becoming alive after being dead for so long. It was so strange, needing to breathe, but my body seemed to know what to do and immediately took over for me. When I felt my heart sputter to life, and my blood pumping through my veins, it was almost as painful as my transformation into a vampire. I felt a liquid fire boiling through me, and my heart beating felt like I was being punched repeatedly in the chest. I had finally gotten used to it to where it wasn't uncomfortable anymore, but it was still so surreal to me.
"Ok, you've brushed the minimum of 3 minutes and have gotten every tooth. Now you just need to brush your tongue, then rinse your mouth out" she said, shaking me from my thoughts. When I began brushing my tongue, I accidentally went too far back, and my gag reflex kicked in and I almost vomited again. I started choking, and Joey hurriedly jumped up, patting me on the back.
"Not so far back next time. You did great though! Now rinse" she said, handing me a cup full of warm water.
When I was done rinsing, I wiped my mouth, then set the cup down on the sink. I turned to Joey, grabbing her by the waist and sitting her back on top of the counter, spreading her legs and stepping between them. I pulled her lips to mine, and kissed her with every ounce of passion I could muster.
At first she was so shocked that her lips didn't move, but then she relaxed, sighing and opening her mouth for my questing tongue. I felt my body respond in ways it never had before, and it was the most incredible feeling. When I was a vampire, it was more difficult feeling aroused. Sure, I was able to feel it, loving the way it heated my cold body, but now it was so much more intense. I felt myself harden in my jeans, moaning as my erection strained painfully against the material.
"I want you" I growled against her lips, biting her lower lip and pulling gently. I kissed along her jaw line, and she gave a little whimper in response. When I reached the marks on her neck, I sucked gently on them, then pulled her forward so her heated core pressed against my hardened penis.
"Oh God, I want you too….let's go to your room" she gasped, wrapping her legs around me as I picked her up and carried her to my bed. I laid her down, then got up to close the door so we wouldn't be interrupted. I turned around, looking at her as she reclined against my numerous pillows. I crawled onto the bed and towards her, stalking her like she was my prey.
When I was poised over her trembling body, I leaned my head down, kissing her lips and pressing her down into the bed. I broke away, quickly removing her top and tossing it over my head, then reclaimed her lips as I worked on getting her bra off.
"I hate these things" I growled as I fought with the clasp. When I finally unhooked her bra, and slipped it off of her, feeling my heart starting to pound as I looked down at her beauty. I was sitting between her legs, on my knees, just gazing over her perfect breasts.
"I want to paint you one day…you're perfect" I said, leaning over and kissing her stomach.
I felt her muscles jump when my tongue flicked against her skin, then I smelled her arousal as she became more heated from my touches. I unbuttoned her shorts, then slowly pulled the zipper down, kissing her just above her pantie line. She whimpered and slightly thrust her hips upward, needing friction. I slowly pulled her shorts and underwear from her, letting them fall off the side of the bed. I got up and quickly removed my jeans and boxers, feeling the relief as my erection was finally free.
I laid back over her, and she wrapped her arms around me, pulling my mouth to hers and whimpering against my lips. I moved my mouth lower, kissing long her jaw, then down the side of her throat, smiling when I felt her tremble with anticipation as I got closer to the marks on her neck. I licked them gently, and she shivered against me and I felt her heart speed up. I began sucking on them and she started to moan softly, bucking her hips upward as the pleasurable feelings flowed through her.
I felt so free now, being able to make love to her without the fear of draining her if I lost control. I still had an urge to bite, but in a non threatening way. I gave into the desire, biting gently on the marks and she cried out as her body was wracked with an orgasm. As she rode out the waves, I gently licked the bite mark, prolonging her pleasure.
I moved my mouth lower, taking one of her rosy nipples into my mouth and sucking on it as I slid my hand between her legs, feeling how wet she was. As I sucked on her breasts, and fingers made little circles around her clit, and she started moaning and crying out as she became more aroused. I slid my fingers along her slick folds, and when I found her entrance, I slowly inserted my middle finger inside of her as I bit down on her nipple.
"Oh shit" she screeched, gripping and tearing at the sheets as I slowly slid my finger in and out of her. I trailed kisses down her stomach, my tongue dipping into her belly button as I slid a second finger inside, feeling her tight channel gripping me. I kissed my way lower, nipping her skin just above where her pubic hair started, and I felt her sheath gripping my fingers even tighter.
I settled myself between her legs, kissing her inner thighs before closing my mouth over her heated core, flicking my tongue over her clit. Her hips thrust upward, and I attacked her intimate center, sucking her clit and moving my fingers faster inside of her. She was moaning and thrashing and I didn't hold back, wanting to push her over the edge into a mind blowing orgasm. I slid a third finger inside of her, and she came hard, her whole body tensing and shuddering as wave after wave of pleasure assaulted her. I slowly licked around her clit, wanting to prolong her pleasure for as long as possible before she came down from ecstasy.
When her body finally collapsed back onto the bed, I kissed my way upward, once again sucking on her nipples before kissing her hotly on the mouth. She wrapped her legs around me, and I moaned when I felt her wet heat brush against my straining erection. I was about to slide inside of her, when I froze. She paused, looking up at me with both concern and desire in her bright green eyes.
"Edward?" she asked, confused as to why I was stopping.
"Joey, we don't have protection…I totally didn't think about it. We should stop" I started, but she cut me off with a passionate kiss.
"I don't want to stop. I don't care about that, Edward. I know we are going to be together for the rest of our lives, and if I get pregnant now, so be it" she said with resolve in her voice.
I felt so conflicted then, most of me ecstatic about the thought of having a baby with her. My rational mind was screaming at me about Jacob's reaction if she got pregnant before we were married, and I wasn't sure I wanted to face his wrath. I looked down at her eyes, seeing that she meant what she said, and I slowly felt myself beginning to smile.
"If it happens, I'll deal with my dad" she whispered, pulling my lips down to hers.
Against all my better judgement and archaic values, I gave in to our needs, slowly sliding myself deep inside of her tight body. I gritted my teeth, because her tightness was making it hard for me to control myself, and I was dangerously close to fully humiliating myself and climaxing before we could crest together. When I was fully seated inside, I stopped, resting my forehead against hers and taking deep lungfuls of air. I had to think about non pleasant things in order to gain my control back, and finally I felt the crisis going away.
"Sorry about that, I had to….get some control back or else I would have completely embarrassed myself" I said, feeling my face grow hot. This whole flushing thing was going to be the death of me, if making love to this beautiful woman wasn't. I would gladly leave this world, as long as she held me in her embrace.
"Take your time, I'm not going anywhere" she chuckled, and I looked down at her again, totally floored that this exquisite woman loved me more than I deserved.
I leaned my head down, ghosting my lips over hers as I began to move in and out of her wet heat, gasping at the intensity of the sensations. She kept trying to catch my lips, but I would pull away at the last second, teasing her. I pushed a little harder into her, and her head fell back, her eyes rolling backward as she let out a long, deep moan. I moved my mouth down her throat, kissing and nipping her soft skin as I sped up my movements, feeling that she was getting close to climaxing. I was getting close too, but willed myself to hold out until she reached her peak.
"You feel so good" she moaned, lifting her hips up to meet my thrusts.
"You're not so bad yourself" I chuckled, making her giggle.
I braced myself over her, watching her face as I thrust in and out of her, loving her little expressions of pleasure. I rotated my hips a bit, and her reaction told me I had found a new spot in side of her that felt good. I felt her tilt her pelvis a bit, and she cried out when my pelvic bone rubbed against her clit each time I thrust into her.
"Oh God, Edward, so close" she gasped, hungrily attacking my lips with hers, nipping slightly.
I sped up even more, no longer afraid of hurting her and wanting so badly to make her feel good. I shifted my angle again, and she cried out, her sheath clenching tightly around my hardness, pulling me over the edge with her. I moaned her name as my whole body shuddered, emptying myself deep inside of her trembling body. I fell on top of her, making sure most of my weight was on my elbows, and rested my head in the crook of her neck, panting hard.
As we lay there, recovering, I secretly hoped we had created a child together just then, Jacob's wrath be damned. Sure, he'd be pissed as hell if she got pregnant, but Jacob and Bella both knew that I was in it forever with Joey, because she was my true soul mate and I loved her with every ounce of my being. I lifted my head, kissing her lips gently and brushing her wild hair from her eyes. We were both covered in a fine sheen of sweat, and I actually found it quite erotic.
"Are you ok?" I asked when she didn't say anything for awhile.
"Yeah, I'm trying to get my brain to work again" she chuckled.
I laughed out loud, then moved myself, groaning when I slipped out of her. I laid next to her, pulling her over me and holding her, my fingertips tracing little patterns up and down her back. For the first time in my life, I felt no guilt or remorse, no self hatred for being who I was, and I finally felt all the angst I had been carrying around inside of me slipping away, and in its place, peace and serenity. I was so happy to be human again, to no longer be a thing and a monster, and to be able to give Joey everything she deserved in life. The only longing I had at that moment, was to marry her and build a great life full of love and happiness.
"We should get married sooner rather than later" I said, closing my eyes and reveling in the feelings that filled me.
"I was thinking the same thing. What kind of wedding do you want?" she asked, resting her chin on my chest and looking up at me. I traced my finger down the bridge of her nose, tapping her affectionately on the tip.
"Small, nothing over the top, but elegant. We could get married in Hawaii, if you would like. I know you have never been there, and I have never really seen it during the day because it was always so sunny. Unless….you want to run away to Vegas and have a gaudy, Elvis impersonator marry us in a neon chapel with a pink Cadillac" I said, keeping my voice serious, even though I was appalled at the idea.
"Are you for real?" she asked, her eyes getting wide as she imagined a big, chubby Elvis proclaiming us man and wife.
"Oh, for sure! Cant you see it now? Cruising around the Vegas strip in a pink Cadillac, me wearing a light blue polyester suit from the 70s and you in a silver, sequined gown with giant disco ball earring dangling from your ears? Let's go, right now!" I said, still teasing her and jumping out of the bed.
"Noooo!! Come back, you jerk! Quit teasing me like that or else I will MAKE that sick and twisted fantasy a reality for you!" she growled from the bed. I laughed out loud, then pounced on her, tickling her all over. She was screaming and giggling, trying to get away from me but I was having no part of that. Finally, when she had tears falling from her eyes and looked like she was going to pass out from all the laughter, I stopped, once again, snuggling with her.
"I like the Hawaii idea a lot. I've seen so many pictures and hoped to go there one day. Let's do it!" she said, all excited at the prospect.
"Excellent! We can talk about it more at the bonfire tonight, because if we don't hurry, we are going to be really late. Besides, I think we both need another shower, because the last thing I want is your father smelling the evidence of our love making" I said, backing her towards the door.
We quickly washed each other, careful to stay away from our intimate areas, even though I wanted to make love to her again. We were running so late, and I didn't want Jacob or Bella to be upset with her if she was needed to help out with the preparations. We quickly rinsed off, and I wrapped a huge towel around her body, and a smaller one in her hair before wrapping one around me.
"Hey Alice, can Joey borrow something to wear?" I called down the stairs.
"Actually, I have some clothes that I bought for her in my closet. Hang on" she said, walking from the kitchen and running up the stairs. She gave me a funny look, and I heard what she was thinking, both of us blushing.
"This blushing at everything is going to get old" she grumbled light heartedly as she rummaged through her closet. She pulled out a long, flowing white skirt, a white, gauzy shirt with billowy sleeves, some new underwear that was freshly laundered, and a pair of while sandals.
"Wow, Alice, you think of everything. Thank you" I said, kissing her on the cheek. I pulled away, laughing when I smelled the chocolate she had been shoving into her face earlier.
"You guys better get ready, because we have to get going soon and I know you need to shower because you're all sticky!" I said, laughing she she rolled her eyes at me.
I went back into my room, handing the clothes to Joey and picking something out for myself. Since it was a bonfire, and I didn't own one damn pair of shorts, I opted for some casual khakis and a white, button down shirt. I rolled up the sleeves, and left my top 3 buttons open, making it even more casual looking. I sat down on my bed and waited for her to come out, anxiously wanting to see her in the nice outfit Alice had gotten her.
When she walked back into my room, my eyes grew wide at how beautiful she looked. The skirt came down to her ankles and fell freely around her. The shirt was a perfect match, and the flowing sleeves enhanced her graceful arms perfectly. She dried her hair, pinning some of it up and leaving little wisps around her face. She looked like a goddess, and before I could stop myself, I walked over to her, pulling her lips to mine.
"You look amazing" I said, finally breaking away from the kiss to breathe.
"And you're looking all kinds of sexy yourself" she grinned.
I wrapped my arm around her shoulder as we walked down the stairs. I shook Emmett and Rosalie awake from their sprawled positions on the couch, telling them they had to get ready. I heard the shower running in Carlisle and Esme's room, so I knew they were getting ready, then I went into the kitchen to see what Alice and Jasper were up to. They were cleaning up the last of the mess from the eating frenzy, laughing and having fun.
"We are going to get going. We'll see you guys there later, ok?" I asked, grabbing my sunglasses from the counter.
"Ok! We just want to shower and then we'll be over! I knew you would look fantastic in that outfit, Jo!" Alice said, grinning.
"Thanks Alice, once again, you found something in my taste that looks really nice on me" she replied.
We waved goodbye, then I took her hand and lead her outside in the sunshine. I closed my eyes, feeling it warming my skin and loving that I didn't have to hide anymore. I opened Joey's door for her, closing it after she got in, then ran around to the passenger side and hopping over the door and into my seat. She giggled at my enthusiasm, then we both put on our shades and drove off to her house.