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Sorry this is a reposting of same chapter as it seems FF has been eating them again and people have not been able to see this.

"Are you sitting comfortably? Good, then I'll begin."

"So, I take it that you really don't remember anything?" I shook my head and Jake continued. "But you remember that you and Bella were… well, that you were together?"

I nodded at him before I said, "Yeah, I have a memory of us being together. Her reaction to seeing me awake told me a lot, too." I smiled at the thought of being loved. Jake's reaction, however, shocked me. He made a scoffing noise, and I looked at him quizzically. I didn't get chance to question him as he began to speak again.

"Yeah, tells me a lot too. Guilty conscience is all I can say to that one. She really is a piece of work, that girl. If it wasn't for her, you wouldn't be here."

He stood suddenly and began pacing the room, his hands opening and closing into fists. I couldn't remember the last time that I seen him that angry.

"What do you mean, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her? She's been here at my bedside waiting for me."

Jake turned to face me. I could see that he was trying to calm himself down before he continued.

"Look, this is what I know about you and Bella. You have been secretly seeing each other for the last few months. You didn't even trust me enough to tell me about the two of you until after the dance. He paused and I nodded at him to continue. "That night, I don't know how, but Jessica found out about you two and made a big fuss. There was a big scene. She got Bella up on stage, and showed photos of you having sex. The whole school saw them, and… lets just say that it was embarrassing. Bella was confronted about it and even when the evidence was too hard to dispute she rejected you. She was given the chance to come clean and say that you were together, but she didn't." His voice caught in his throat and I could hear the emotion. Then I saw it as he looked away from me. His brow knitted together as he said that final part. "In front of practically the whole school she said that it was a joke, that you were a joke. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Edward."

I sighed, feeling numb. Something told me that there was more that he wasn't telling me,

"Jake, what aren't you telling me?"

He looked me uncertainly, and I nodded slowly for him to continue.

"You fled from the dance, I found you hiding under the bleachers and took you to my place where you stayed overnight and we talked. You told me about the two of you. When she called me looking for you, I lied, and told her to back off, give you some space. The next morning you still looked like shit but you went home. I didn't hear from you then until well, until Bella called me after… after… she called you when you were… well… you-"

I interrupted him "What Jake, when I what? Flew to the moon? Grew an extra head?"

He glared at me, before in a very calm voice he asked, "You really want me to just blurt it out, tell you without any thought to how you might feel? With no thought or care for how my best friend will take the news that he tried to kill himself? Is that what you wanted to hear?"

My face fell. "I what? No. I wouldn't. Jake, please don't joke about."

As he looked at me, tears filled his eyes and I knew that this was no joke. I felt tears form in my eyes, too. He wiped his away with his shirt sleeve and spoke to me in a low voice.

"Edward, I would never joke about something like that." He sighed before continuing. "Bella called me, sounding upset. She couldn't get a hold of you. I guessed that you were not wanting to speak to her after the dance, so I tried and when you didn't answer me, your best friend or call me back I started to worry Something just didn't feel right, I knew you wouldn't leave me hanging after everything.. I met her at your house. Your car was missing and there was no one there, which worried me, given what had happened. Not wanting to worry your folks, I let us in using the spare key. We moved around the house, looking for any clues. Bella took your room, I looked around the downstairs. Your dad's office was a mess; looked like someone had broken in, papers strewn across the floor and his filing cabinet doors were all open. You have told me that before that it was always locked so that was definitely strange. The rest of the house was untouched. Plus, how many burglars have a key? I was about to call the Police when I heard Bella scream. I rushed to the kitchen where she was on her knees crying, holding a note in her hand."

He paused for a moment, and I filled the gap, barely speaking.

"You found it. How did you know where I was?"

"I didn't. We drove around looking for you. Bella was frantic. She called you, not expecting you to answer, but you did. She couldn't get any sense out of you and she was screaming in the car. I took her cell from her and tried to get you to talk to me, thinking that you were ignoring her. You didn't speak to me either. I could hear heavy breathing and the sound of the waves through the phone and immediately knew you were at the beach. Bella told me where she thought you would be. It's a big old beach to go searching blind, but she was right. As we arrived, I saw you slumped on the sand, so I called the paramedics. Fuck."

He paused and was back on his feet, pacing the room.

"I thought that you were dead Edward, I really did. Bella was crying her heart out. Once they took you in the ambulance I called your parents to tell them. I never want to have to go through that again. Bella kept saying how this was her fault, over and over again. I have to say that I agreed with her. We argued on the beach for a long time after everyone had gone. I told her that she was pathetic, not worth my time. She had her chance to stand up, to tell people what was really happening and she didn't. She sold out your relationship at the first chance she had. I have a feeling that there are more people involved than just Jessica, though. She isn't smart enough to manage a dot to dot puzzle, let alone pull this off. The rumors and texts were harder to stamp on."

He looked at me. My face gave nothing away. I was busy trying to process the information that I had just been given. I had tried to kill myself and that just didn't seem right to me. But with everything else that Jake had told me, it seemed to be what had happened. After all, he was my best friend and had no reason to lie to me. No wonder no one wanted to tell me this. Why would you want to tell someone who you love that they tried to commit suicide? I was brought out of my musings by Jake. He was now standing next to me at the side of my bed.

"Edward, Edward! Are you listening to me?"

In all honesty, I wasn't. I was deep in thought about what he had just told me. To be honest, my mind was completely mashed with it, trying to make sense of everything he just told me.

"Sorry, Jake. What were you saying about rumors and texts?"

He looked at me, a grim look on his face.

"Yes, that. Hmmm. That's the bad news. There was no real way to stop them spreading around town. But don't worry. Emmett and the boys managed to scare a few people into not passing them on and removing them from the internet."

"Shit! My parents, Charlie!" I groaned realizing that there is a good chance that they would have heard the rumors and hopefully they would not have seen anything more.

Jake laughed before saying. "Not a problem, your folks were told that someone was basically shit stirring and making up bad stuff. They don't know about you and Bella being, well, together and we went for jealous ex-boyfriend, which they believed. But to be honest, they have had other things on their minds so they haven't really questioned things too much."

This at least gave me some comfort. How did this mess get so out of hand?

"Jake, did you tell Rose about me and Bella? It's just, she was here earlier and Rose went at her?"

He hesitated before answering. "After you were brought here and once your folks arrived, she turned up on my door in the middle of the night demanding answers. You know as well as I do, you don't mess with your sister. I told her what I knew, then watched her storm away; I assumed to confront Bella."

He looked at me, and I sighed.

"Great, so Rose went off on Bella. Shit!"

"Edward, I don't know what happened. She never said, and to be honest things have been a little, erm, hectic around here."

"Hmmm. Knowing Rose she probably will rip her eyes out if she sees her near you again. I really wouldn't want to be Bella. Then again, wait until you are feeling better. I can imagine she will have a few choice words to say to you too. Maybe you should feign a mystery
relapse to get a few extra days of peace."

I was going to reply but we were interrupted by a nurse who looks slightly pissed that there was someone in there after visiting hours. She crossed her arms over her chest and said.
"Now, do I have to call security or are you going to leave? You know that visiting hours are over, and our patient here is under strict orders to rest."

Jake turned to her and said that he would leave; no harm done. He winked at me before he left, promising that he would be back when he was allowed. Once I was alone I stared at the ceiling, slowly making sense of everything that Jake told me. Tiredness washed over me. I was exhausted. I never realized that just talking could be so tiring, and I laid back down and closed my eyes and drifted off.

My sleep was not dreamless. There were various scenes playing out in my dreams. I saw me and Bella kissing, holding hands, and making love. Then suddenly we were at the school dance; a spotlight was on me and I heard their laughter, mocking me. People calling me a freak, screaming at me as I ran out of the gym. Like a flash forward I stood in a parking lot, being confronted by a laughing James and Tanya. I see James' fist come towards me and there was nothing that I could do to avoid it, even if I wanted to. He knocked me to the ground but didn't stop his assault on me, kicking and yelling at me. Tanya stood by his side, still laughing.

I was aware of voices around me, that were talking to me calling me by my name. I also heard screaming and shouting. The voice sounded inconsolable and desperate, begging for it to stop, to let them end their misery. They screamed, asking to be let go. Then I recognized the voice. It was mine. The voices around me were discussing the best way to keep me calm, and they were holding me down as I thrashed about on the bed. My eyes were wild, darting from one person to another, and I fought with all my strength, but it was no use.

Doctor Gerandy came into the room and he tried to reason with me, speaking softly to me. I didn't listen, all I did was fight back more. I couldn't make out what they were saying around me but I knew that decisions were being made and there was nothing that I could do. Then I felt a scratch on my arm followed by a calming sensation washing over me, cradling me and calming me down. My eyes closed and I was taken over by a dreamless sleep.

O o o o o o o o O

I woke, feeling like I had done several rounds with a heavyweight boxer. There were voices whispering around me and I recognized them as my mom and dad. I tried to speak but my voice would not come out. Maybe this was a good thing as I was able to lay there with my eyes closed, taking in what was being said.

"Carlisle, I really cannot believe what they are saying about him becoming aggressive, that just doesn't seem possible."

"I know, but the facts speak for themselves. Do we really know our son anymore? Honestly Esme, did you ever think that we would get that phone call? Because I never did. Not for either of them. Then there is the question of the missing drugs and alcohol from my office. I can't deny the facts that are in front of me."

My dad sighed heavily and I knew that he would be looking at my chart.

"But this is so strange. Why would my darling son suddenly do something like this? Do you think that he is being bullied at school? Maybe I should talk to Jacob, or maybe Bella knows something. They have been hanging out together with all of that studying. Plus, do you not think that it's strange that she was here almost as much as she was? Also, there is what Jacob told us about them being together; not of course that I will believe it until I hear it from my son. But they would make a nice couple. Bella is adorable and perfect for him."

My dad chuckled at her, "Darling, you just want to see everyone happy. I get that, but Edward, well, he will date when the time is right. Stop pushing it. You know what high school gossip can be like."

I chose that point to alert them to the fact that I was awake by sitting up slowly in bed. My mom rushed to my side.

"Edward! Oh sweetheart. Are you okay? They told me that you were upset last night and they were worried about you."

"Mom, they, they knocked me out with some injection or other. I…I was having a nightmare but it felt so real, I was so scared, there was no-one here. I… I…"

Suddenly, I was aware of tears in my eyes. When I looked at my parents, concern was written all over their faces. My mom had tears in her eyes and my dad, well he couldn't look at me. Mom held me tight, almost as if she was afraid to let me go. Once I knew that I was safe, I broke down. Sobs wracked my chest and I felt like a child again. I could hear my parents talking in low voices. It almost sounded like they were arguing in hushed tones. The only bit of the conversation that I could make out was my mom demanding.

"I want to take him home, now. I don't care what they say, Carlisle."

My dad left the room and my mom continued to hold me, waiting for me to cry myself out, which took some time. She pulled back once the sobs subsided, taking my tear stained cheeks in her hands and looking at me with a weak smile on her face. She used her thumbs to wipe away my last tears as she reassured me.

"It's going to be okay Edward, I promise. I have told your dad I want you out of here. You should be home with your family, not here. He has gone to speak to Dr. Gerandy to arrange things. I won't leave you here any longer than I have to. Is that what you want?"
I managed to force a smile onto my face. Yes. The thought of going home, being somewhere safe felt good. No one would be able to reach me there, my family would protect me. I nodded at her.

"That's decided then. You are coming home. Oh Edward, I love you so much son, and I will do anything to help you get through this. But you have to promise me that you will talk to me, tell me what you are thinking, and please don't shut me out."
I continued to nod at her, and a smile broke out on her face when I said. "I love you Mom and I'm sorry."

She took me into her arms, kissing my hair she muttered almost to herself.

"No, I'm sorry. Sorry that I wasn't there for you when you needed me the most. I will get to the bottom of this and when I do, heads will roll. No one messes with my family"
My dad came back into the room, taking in the scene before him. He motioned to my mom and then I saw Dr .Gerandy standing outside the door. She kissed my head and told me,

"I'll only be outside. Okay, sweetheart?"

I watched, feeling fearful as I could see my parents and Dr. Gerandy outside my room. They were having what looked to be a heated discussion, I didn't really know what they were saying but every now and again I would hear my mom's voice raise and then she would glance at me, smiling before she would continue talking to my dad and Dr. Gerandy. She was doing her best to keep me calm, although inside, I felt anything but. Everything that Jake had told me, combined with the dreams that I had, put me on edge. I wanted to be anywhere but here and so I laid back on the bed and closed my eyes just wanting this to be over.

The door swung open and my eyes flew open, immediately coming to rest upon my mom's smiling face.

"We're taking you home. They agreed that as long as your father keeps a close eye on you then you can come with us now."

Tears pricked at my eyes as I managed to squeak out,

"Really?"

"Yes darling, really. Now let me get your things together. The discharge papers are being prepared now and I will have you home in no time. After all, that that is where you belong."
She kissed the top of my head and I walked as she left the room. I assumed to hurry the discharge along. I rested my head against the pillows, allowing a smile to form, only to have it wiped away when I heard a familiar voice break the silence.

"Hey, how are you doing?"

I sat upright to see Bella standing, nervously looking at me. What was she doing here?

"What do you want?" I hissed.

"Edward, we need to talk."

Authors Note
Thanks as always go out to my beta Cosmom, she is amazing! Please note that following this update there will a change to the posting schedule, I have been posting weekly and that has been down the fact that I have had a stockpile of chapters which has now run out and with all my other commitments I cannot guarantee a weekly update, it is a lot of hard work and puts extra pressure of my poor beta too. So next update will be 2 weeks from now. (Hides behind sofa)

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